Taking a Break

Heyo,

How's your day going? :P I had a really chill day at a friend's place. The 3 of us watched church, had lunch, watched Attack on Titan, watched a hockey game. It was chillllllll. I really appreciate them for taking care of me like that. :3 At the end my friend drove me home.

And that's where the questions started. ;P I had kinda been wondering when they'd show up.

The other week we had gone for a walk and I ended up telling them that I was gonna take a break for a few months from church ministry and stuff. Because they know me and care about me they asked me a bunch of questions. They know I kinda need to be asked to really provide answers. I don't voluntarily let much out. I hate lying, but I will use a variety of means to avoid answering a question with an answer I don't want to say. Not saying anything isn't saying the truth, but it certainly is different than saying something false. Anyways, they were really concerned for me and want to do basically anything they can to help me. So they had me stay over. They took me to dinner with another couple. They said they'd pick me up for church whenever.

Anyways, knowing that I expected some questions earlier in the day: how I'm doing; how I'm feeling; how people responded when I announced my break; etc. And, again, I love them, and I really appreciate their concern and care for me. But I don't know what I want. He asked what my plans were to like, get better, or like rebuild good spiritual habits, and stuff like that. He asked how can they help. He asked if there was sin in my life that I was feeling convicted about or that I wish I was fighting better. He asked how can they pray for me. 

How do I answer that?

My heart's first response is that I don't want help. I want a break. I want a break from everything.

And like, I know that sounds really concerning. I know that sounds like I'm leaving the faith. And I don't know that that's what I'm saying. I know I don't want to say that. I know in my head a life without Christ isn't worth living. I don't feel convicted of sin right now. I don't feel much of anything. Maybe I'm apathetic. Maybe I've just been switching off my feelings as a way to cope with the world and the daily stresses around me. Maybe I've gone numb to protect myself and those around me. I'm moving sometime this week and I haven't told my parents' that I've even considered moving. Maybe my view of the world has been shrinking and shrinking as my ability to affect things around me has been growing weaker and weaker. Without a passion or goal I've become very short sighted on surviving the present. My head and heart aren't thinking about eternity right now, or 5 years, or next year, or next month. It's hard to think next week. In a world where weeks don't make sense, I just look at when I need to wake up for tomorrow and do what I can in the moment. I'm medicating worry and doubt with escapism, substances, and avoidance. There's a certain field of vision in front of me that I can see, and so long as I can avoid the obstacles within that field, I'm currently not overly concerned about obstacles further on the horizon.

I need a break.

And I still don't really know what that looks like. For now, I pack, move, and leave this stressful place. I declutter my responsibilities. I simplify. I create spaces to reflect (like these regular times to write out my thoughts). I text people when I remember to. But I will need to think about reading, praying, and all the other stuff at some point. 

I think it's like Maslow's hierarchy or something. I don't have brain power to think about loftier needs right now. I need to focus on the basics and get to a place where I'm comfortable enough to grow again.

I don't know if that made sense, but I think that's what I'm thinking right now?

Anyways,

Ttyl.

D.Fa

PS. I very intentionally didn't post yesterday so I don't feel bad if I skip a day here or there. I don't want to feel bad about taking a day off if I need it. This is supposed to be an encouraging time to think and relax mentally, not something to feel guilty about if I miss it. Anyways, I'm here. :) That's all I got right now. ;P

Baptisms!

Hey!

So, this morning I slept in.... Not on purpose... I was supposed to only sleep 7 hours. >.> Anyways... It was rainy... ruin my plans to bike. Anyways... lol. I wasn't going to go to OCBC today. Instead I went to 'myCHURCH'. myCHURCH does not mean the same thing as 'my church'. it is instead the name of a church, or group of people (which is what a church is, a group of believers). They usually have service in a theatre downtown I think, but ya, this morning they were in my Biochem classroom... >.<

Why did I go?

Because DS was getting baptized! !!! =D! So exciting! And her mom got to stay in Canada for it! Ya. This morning 8 individuals proclaimed their faith in Jesus as their savior. Their stories were varying, but they all found life in the death of Jesus and the love poured out for them.

DS said it wasn't a normal service. There wasn't a sermon really, just baptisms. xP. Well, there was what could be called a worship concert and offering before the baptisms. myCHURCH really loves smoke machines and audio-visual stuff apparently. There were 9 people on worship team. The pastor was really 'hip' with his "Tom's" and his plaid shirt and everything. lol...

It was different, but I was told it wasn't a normal service, so I'll let it slide. I hope there is more Bible in it usually then there was this time.

Overall, it was great seeing DS and the others being 'dunked' and like 10 people raised their hand saying that they wanted to accept Jesus into their lives today, so I guess that was good. They proclaimed the gospel throughout the time there.

I guess that was my fourth church that I've been to. Apparently I know a few people that go to it, including IP, a grade 11 student. This blew away my stigma towards myCHURCH as being the church with only university students (there were a number of adults too, just ya, I guess I thought everyone would be older rather than younger..?).

I'm also really excited for MC's baptism next week! (I can't go to it though.... =< )

Ya.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

PS. Belarus!

A late lunch

Hey guys!

Yesterday was pretty jam-packed with stuff. Phys Chem lecture, Discipleship meeting with LT, Discipleing with KC, organic chem lab, weekly meeting, and 'You had me at Bacon 2'. That is what was planned for yesterday and it mostly played out as expected, well I don't know. I didn't really expect some things either. lol

Phys chem. whatever. (lol... it's almost done. =P)

Now for Discipleship with LT I was supposed to have arranged something, sharing with a club leader or one of my friends or something. I was also supposed to have finished thinking about my goals for growing spiritually this year and starting to plan for how that can be done. I kinda lost the sheets and I didn't have time to work on it... So instead we just had a time of quiet reflection on a passage in the Bible. I read some of what I was reading earlier and it was so cool. I will post it in a separate post because it's pretty long. lol. [Click here! lol.] After that we talked about how we can reach out to clubs on campus and meet them where they are at. LT had talked to a leader of a humans rights club and he was really interested. Anyways, I sent facebook messages to the 'leaders' of M22 to see if we could meet up next week and discuss a collaborative event in January (the one about human trafficking) and they are all interested in meeting up, they are even going to talk to others and see if they want to meet up too. So, ya. I need to pray for those meetings and God working in their lives and me and LT sharing the gospel with four groups of possible like 1-6 people.

Next was a meeting with KC. I was a bit late, but it was a great meeting. KC seems really happy every time we meet. We read John 1 first (I had intended that we read 1 John 1, but this is cool too. We ended up reading 1 John later anyways. lol.) Then we went through the old-school version of the Spirit-filled life booklet. There is a lot of reading in that booklet, which is awesome. We read like a part of like half the books in the new testament. Our meeting was really great, but also a bit long. lol I had to run off to my orgo lab. I really want to see God strongly change KC and see him praying aloud with a passion.

The lab was really boring. lol. we dissolved cholesterone in ethanol then cooled it and filtered it.... lol.

I finally had my lunch at like 4:30 and watched Naruto and Shakugan no Shana 3 (which I am not telling NC about. lol.)

Then it was weekly meeting and we went through how to share again, but with more depth. Like, the Knowing God Personally booklets are cool, but they also leave a lot of room for elaboration and interactivity, so that was cool.

Then we went to RM's house for the C4C guys' night 'You had me at Bacon 2'. There was a lot of meat. lol. The chilli was awesome and the nachos were the best. lol. LT shared with us about what it means to be a man and how Jesus was not a feminine man. Authenticity, Servanthood and Initiative.

Then I got a drive home to go to sleep for 6 hours. xP

Ttyl.

D.Fa

Function and Form

So, whenever I don't blog regularly either I'm pretty busy or I'm turtling and hiding from sin issues in my life. This time it was business. Or rather, just not being at home this weekend and then being busy.

Friday. lol. Umm. Ya. Then I got to school and had things booked until Saturday at 3pm. What? Ya, Raven's Log meeting, A scheduled discipleship meeting with KC (he had errands), a lab with associated report I had to hand in and wasn't done because I slept in, Campus for Christ Weekly Meeting and then off to church. The RL meeting was short so me and TJN went to SC/RP's dorm and worked on our labs. lol. Good times. I managed to get the lab report done and get to it on time. The lab was pretty interesting. Liquid-Liquid extraction. =P Ended early, a bit. C4C Weekly Meeting was awesome. DP[not the same DP. a similar DP. lol we both went to EA, but this DP was on a different team] was there! and S(?)!?! He was in my Japanese class back in grade 12. I never really knew him very well though, so, I guess I don't actually know him. xP It's still cool.

Then we hung out in Oasis and when they were all going to McD's to get McFlurrys I was going the opposite way off to church. You see, we are still in a temporary location. Actually this March we will most likely be the very latest we can stay here. Although it's huge and has been a real blessing to have, it really is falling apart, so buying it was probably a bad idea anyways, so thanks God for not having that happen. Ya, there are a number of short term possibilities in schools or universities. There are also the two main long term possibilities now on the radar. 1. Buying a piece of land in Centrepoint and building a new church there. (The government is very very slow) 2. Buying a church building from another church who aren't able to stay in their own building at the moment. We want to ask God for his guidance, opening and closing doors and really getting us where he wants us to be, so all month we are having '30 days of prayer' for this and this weekend we were having a '24 hour prayer chain' meaning 24 hours where someone was always in the church praying for the building search. For the middle of the night shifts we just had a youth and young adult sleepover party at the church.

We played games and worshiped and skyped and watched a movie and prayed and worshiped some more and slept a little and ate muffins for breakfast. The movie was 'highschool musical China'. It was really funny. xP I had the 3:30-4am prayer shift, so when the movie finished I just did more 'late night' worship with FL and R(?). The way worship worked was that someone calls out a song and we use Ultimate Guitar to get the chords / lyrics and project it onto a large screen so that everyone could see including whoever was playing. xP So good. I got to sleep a bit. I wasn't really planning on it, but everyone else (except Z(?)) was asleep, and I was pretty tired after only getting 5 hours the night before. I got two hours from 5:15-7:15 on a cold carpeted floor. Z(?) is really nice. He gave me his hoodie and then his sleeping bag when I was super cold in the morning. >.< He's pretty mature too. and responsible.

Worship practice started at 10. I wasn't on team, lol. At 1 our worship leader study continued from where we left off in April (or maybe March..?), except that we will be going at a faster pace since reading one chapter a month would take us nearly three years... >.> Ya, it was good.

Then I bussed to school for a really bad audition. She seemed enthusiastic that I could sing though. >.>

Then I bussed home (so much harder this year and especially on the weekends), had a rather large meal and watched too much anime then apparently I passed out on my bed at 8 instead of doing my Phys Chem prelab and playing guitar as I had planned to do... I awoke at 3am to find that I had done as such. I continued to sleep until 6.

Worked a bit on my prelab then bussed to church. You have to leave an hour before church to get there with the current bus system, which is kinda annoying. But, ya, not that bad. Sunday school was good. Service was good. AL invited JC and she enjoyed it. Although it was a bit awkward sharing my Bible with her... >.<

I got a drive to work since JS and I neeeeeeeeeeeeded rice and DZ lives near there. I checked my schedule (no work this week! w00t!) and my coworker tried to pursuade me to work more since my 'replacement' isn't the best at working hard and getting things done. I did a bit of grocery shopping and in the end bought the last remaining Rooster brand bag of rice (40lbs) and bussed home with it.

I can't wait to stirfry. Hehe =P

Umm. Lunch. Prelab. One Piece. Bus to church again. Leader Study on the book of Acts. Pretty interesting. When I finally got home we had a house meeting. Very funny. lol.

I have a BIOL assignmnet due tomorrow, so Ttyl!

D.Fa

PS. Portugal!!!

Testimony Time!

So, today was church. Bussing takes forever. I left around 8:35, shortly after meeting MM's family. (so funny) I got to church at 9:24. CW, my roommate had left half an hour after me and got there before me. I'll bike next week. I had bussed for a reason. I had work immediately after church, like ASAP, so I needed a drive from someone the second it finished. If I had biked I'd have to leave my bike there...

Anyways, I was in a really really bad mood this morning.

Sunday school was cancelled because KK forgot the cheese, T(?) was playing piano and JS was in Hongcouver with his girlfriend, so we hung out for a bit and then went to Starbucks. Talking with JW, I got a free Caramel Macchiato cause they made it wrong for a woman who ordered it.

We got back, set up some chairs, then service started. Guest speaker. Prodigal son. Worship. Still in a bad mood.

I knew I needed to just give it up and ask God to give me a better attitude, but I wasn't...

I was kinda forced to humble myself though, I mean I had to give a testimony. I had written a page, but that was two days ago and it was 11pm when I wrote it, and I'm not good at presenting things, especially testimonies, so I needed the Spirit to help me.

I think it went pretty well. It helped having a translator interrupt me and give me time to think. xP

So, I was thinking, 'dang, I want to share this testimony... I'll have to type it up... >.> Oh! I typed it to begin with! (out of D.Fa character.)'.

Herewith:

"Hey everyone! My name is Dylan and I’m in second year biochemistry at Carleton now and I was blessed to be a part of this year’s VBS to Charis EFree in Scarborough this August. I had just returned to Ottawa for the second time this summer and just a week later I was gone again. I was definitely planning that week as a break, as a relaxing time to refresh and refocus again. I wanted to spend time with my family and friends and I wasn’t preparing nearly as much as I could have. You see, since we were doing the same VBS material as last year when OCBC went to Brooklyn, I had assumed it would be easy, but I was given the role of telling the Bible Stories. I do not normally consider myself someone who can tell good stories, teach people things, clearly explain things and it was a lot to memorize too, so I really did need work. The entire week I spent hours each day working on how to tell gospel centered Bible stories. I still did not feel prepared.

Aside from the preparation before VBS, we also sat down and talked about what our goals in this week were. Our main mission was broken down into a three-letter acronym, UPI. Understand, Provide, and Inspire. Help the children come to an understanding of the gospel, of God’s love and the gift of eternal life through Jesus death and resurrection. Provide each child with their own copy of the Bible. And inspire each child to share what they’ve learned with others. We prayed that God would really use us to accomplish this and to be an encouragement to the church.

Throughout the preparation and the week we saw God answer prayer. I saw God answer prayer in placing me outside my comfort zone and growing me in an area of weakness. I saw God bring the 10 children we were praying for to the VBS this year whether they were church going children, or not, or even if it was their first time in the church, God gathered His children and answered our prayers on Sunday. We saw Him delay the storms Wednesday so we could go to the park and be a light in the community. We saw the children and youth come to a greater understanding of the gospel. We saw every child receive a New Testament. And I only found this out this week, but one of the mothers of a child at the VBS was exposed to the gospel for the first time through conversations she had with him. Also, the youth grew so much that the church even got a new youth worker for them.

Even though we weren’t fully prepared, even though we aren’t there to do follow-up or see what is happening right now, even though we aren’t perfect, God chose to use us, God uses his Spirit in our lives to speak his truths to others, God did so much more than we could have asked or imagined and He is still doing so much.

So, ya, I have been really encouraged by what I have seen happen in the lives of the children, in my life and just everything He is doing through the steps we take in faith. I’m really glad I got to experience this this year and if the opportunity comes up again, I would be really excited to go again.

Thank you for supporting us in prayer and sending us out!

D.Fa
"

And that's a rough copy of it, but ya. God is awesome. He really helped shift my attitude and when I went to work I was ready to glorify God. I worked super hard until 6:30 then I went home for supper, went back to work, came home for pie and now I'm at my house with a large pile of leftovers. lol.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

Surprise!

Yesterday's plans were pretty relaxed.

Driving. Homework. Dinner at my parent's. Praise team practice. Textbook reading.

I got to ride my bike a lot. The weather was so nice. It was basically a dream come true. Well, I was watching some butterflies when I got the call. My day was completely changed. I had work from 2-10, except it was 3 when I got this call. I had to switch worship practice, I had to miss my family dinner, I had to go to work.

This was largely my fault for assuming things and not checking my schedule until 10am on Saturday, but there was no problem. My boss doesn't really care if I'm late as long as everything gets done. I'm gonna be late today too actually because of thanksgiving lunch.

Anyways, I'll talk to you later.

D.Fa

Dread and Joy

"I've dread this more than I've dreaded anything else in my entire life."

Well, I haven't dread this that much, but I didn't want it to happen. I'm starting to get behind in my school work... >.> I'm trying to be really keen and get things done, do readings, etc. For two or three days in a row now I have not done any work at home. Actually things I wanted to do and planned for that weren't homework are also being shirked.

I meant to go buy groceries yesterday after getting home from school, but, for the purposes of being home at a reasonable hour so I could call some people, I had to leave to play tennis with my brother before buying groceries. In the end I came home with two big bags of groceries from my parents' house. lol

All my labs this week seem to be introductory labs, not actually doing anything, so I haven't had to really do pre-labs except for my plant biology class and that lab is going to be a piece of cake. The entire semester just cutting up plants, staining them with dyes and then looking at them under the microscope. lol. interesting, easy and awesome. lol

Umm. Ya, last night when I got home around 7:20 I procrastinated until 8, but then I started doing more follow-up calls and getting more meetings set up. I got four more meetings scheduled and I have another guy to call later today that I texted yesterday. So, that is awesome. xP

The meeting I just had an hour ago went really well. MD is really cool. He is originally from India, but grew up in Dubai and now lives with his uncle in Barrhaven. It's a bit of a commute to Carleton from there, but that's cool. He doesn't have a cell phone yet though. xP He was really interested in getting involved. He even asked for another magazine so that he could share it with one of his friends!

So far so good. Got a lab to go to.

Ttyl.

=D.Fa

Getting Back on Track

Hey. Today, or rather this weekend I hope to do all my prelabs for the coming week. I have done none today. First I had a large helping of No Name Quick Oats which I bought 2.25kg of the other day. I also have a kilo of sugar, so I should be okay. After breakfast we went to the Food Court on 2nd floor University Centre on campus for follow-up training and data entry. There are so many people interested in meeting up with us again! It's so exciting! And I get to help! Both scary and very exciting. I can't wait to meet these people and talk with them. I'm kinda worried that my schedule will kill any free time I have though, so I may not end up being able to help very much... We had pizza for lunch. Don't ask about the last four pieces. I don't know what happened to them. >.> I put them down at the bus station then chased after a bus. Anyways, I bussed a really long way around the city to get to worship practice.

[I just realized I wasn't finished posting this. lol]

Worship practice was really good. It was me, AL's brother AL, PE and NE on worship team. We went through the songs quickly and went home early. They drove me home. Then I was going to go play tennis with my brother. JS had asked if he could borrow my racket. It wasn't home yet, so I made Kraft Dinner for supper. I ran off to tennis. I thought the courts were way closer than they are... We played. It was a lot of fun. I went to my parents'. Ate ice cream and got a drive home with leftovers. xP I need to go buy some food...

Ttyl.

D.Fa

PS. Nigeria! w00t!

Projectile Objects

I do not understand grade 9 boys. They speak a different language, are attached to their phones/iPods which may be the same thing, enjoy making fun of other people and have recently doubled in height. >.>

Last night was the YF boys' sleepover at JS and my house. It was fun I guess. lol. We went to McD's for dinner, played some RISK or XBox 360, ate some instant noodles, played more, slept, then they all left and I went home. There were six guys, 5 going into grade 9 and one going into grade 7 I think. He was the most reasonable of them all.

Today I didn't end up doing much. >.> Although getting to chill with AL and RM and BC is pretty sweet. HoverDisc is pretty interesting for a time, but the astonishing flying ring was better. It would win in a fight. Beard and Moustache... Interesting. No thanks. Also, you didn't have any neck hair. >.> Jealous.

Gotta buy a pile of books this week. Gotta go to Orientation for Frosh tomorrow. Gotta study Calculus!!!!!! Fail.

It'll work out.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

Heroes Take Action!

Another long day and it's still only Tuesday.

I wasted time at home, having done none of my homework for the night. I was supposed to write up summary sheets for the five stories. A list of events, how to expand upon them and how to tie the gospel into the story. I didn't work on them last night and I wasted this morning, so after talking with AP a bit and going to VBS training I ended up doing it for the majority of the time that I was at RL and CL's house. (lol. RL and CL describes all of the people in that house). RL was working mainly on memory verse review time games and stuff and CL was mainly working on brainstorming things to pray for while we are in Toronto.

The second Bible story is about the birth of Jesus and the shepards to which the angels appear telling them about Jesus' birth. The shepards acted as heroes by TAKING ACTION! Although they weren't very popular or even respected, they left their flocks to go see Jesus and even went out to the streets and told everyone about it!

Not as much material to work with in this story, but it will be good.

My dad gave us a drive to YA and it was a good evening. We talked about the body of the church and how the many different and unique parts come together to form the body. The main action point we took from the passage (1 Cor 12:12-27) was about giving special honour to the parts of the body that are not as visible, such as administration or parents that open their houses for fellowships or maybe A/V people, or other things like that. We are planning on getting thank you cards and gifts for some such people on a regular basis.

It's almost tomorrow. >.> VBS training at my new house.

Ttyl.

D.Fa


PS. Romainia, w00t!

I have been saved.

So, ya.

Today was a major stress and I would be dead right now if it were not for a few people.

If you would like to skip that giant beast of a paragraph, feel free to, but it has a lot of the details of how I am still alive and more specifics, I think... xP

I woke up this morning at 6am knowing full well that I had barely scratched the surface of a 12 page bio lab. I went to bed at 12 knowing that my computer hates me and would not allow microsoft office to work. So, on the off chance that my housemates had left one of their laptops on the main floor I woke up early (This is in direct contradiction to one of my 'resolutions' I posed back in January to not borrow without asking that I still have not been doing... I have borrowed tweezers, tooth paste, laptops, guitars, ice cream, a bedroom, CD player, printer, laundry basket, frozen vegetables, margarine, towel, a matress, a blanket, herbs, a laptop charging cable thing, an xbox, a device for shaving, ummm I don't know what else... but I digress. This is in paratheses.) in an attempt to borrow one of their laptops. Since this did not happen, I quickly tried to do some of the Intro for my lab on a draft for a blog post (which I don't think will be posted..? o.0) because it could be transferred between computers. In any case I run off to school on the bus. I get to the computer lab in Steacie building and holed myself up there until everything was done. At 10:30 my support coach for East Asia PRoject was going to call me and talk for like half an hour. He was too busy, Thank God. I had been budgeting my time, kinda, and I knew that at 1 I'd be kicked out for a class that uses the lab. It was like 1:20 and still I was there. Thank God. lol. I was not done yet and relocating wouldn't have sped up the process. So, I thought I'd need like 5 minutes maybe to get to class (starting at 1:30) and so when 1:30 passed I was like dang, I'm gonna need to finish ASAP. Going as fast as possible I managed to finish to a satisfactory level and went to print it. Guess what? PRINTER JAM! WHAT!??! I spent 4$ on a printer jam! with only 1$ left on my campus card, ie not enough to actually pay for the new copy I'd have to buy at another printer somewhere.......... On top of which it was now 1:40 and I think that 'if you are more than 15 minutes late to a lab you cannot enter' and must do a make-up or fail or something. So with all this stress (because I had no idea how to unjam the printer which is locked in a plexiglas cage with a padlock) I suddenly thought of the Integrated Science Centre room or whatever it is that DK had shown me only once before. You just (as an integrated science student which I am not) bring paper to the room and you can print (double sided is an option) for FREE! So I ran off there (and just so happened to leave my laptop charging cable there, as I have just found out at 9pm.) and freaked out because I was so late.... I then had to ask to borrow paper from people I don't know. This girl gave me some. I rushed to print everything. I got to about the 5th last page and no one in the room had any more paper. I had to ask again and they told me to ask one of the profs or whatever they are that have rooms in that hall. The woman the next door over gave me a huge pile of paper. So, I managed to print it all. Thank God. I then sprint to the bio lab. I got there just as the lab coordinator was finishing describing how to do the lab that I had not prepared for at all. My lab partner has been, no offense, utterly useless in helping me with the labs. I mean she just doesn't get things very quickly. I'm sure if I got to know her better we would be in a better situation. In anycase, this week we were in groups of four, thank God, and they seemed to know what they were doing. Not really, but it gave me time to figure out what we were doing. lol. This lab had no actual experimentation, so it was a really quick lab. Thank God. I had earlier planned to work on my resume with CW in Rooster's after my lab, so I ran off to there. I needed this resume ASAP for a summer job that I was already a week behind in applying for and now that I had sent an email and He had responded I really had to send a resume. CW is like the best older brother ever. Thank God that he is in my life. lol.. He has been really useful for a lot of things. Not only because he is in English and that is my worst subject, but also in encouraging me in my walk with God and just everything. So, we (he) worked on that for like an hour and a half. I then ate breakfast (5:30pm a few granola bars). CW left to go home and study. Then I realized I had like 15 minutes until my bio lab was due (electronic submission in addition to the hard copy, I know really..?) so I ran off to the computer lab again and did that. Thank God CW left... lol we could have been there another hour. Anyways, I had been planning on helping SC with his Japanese film that night. I was gonna skip Discipleship group and just help him. He ended up being too sick. That is too bad, but in a way, I got to go to DG and hear the end of the prodigal son parable and I learned some neat things. more about prodigal son later maybe, summary, younger brother takes inheiritance from his father who isn't dead yet and wastes it all. He comes back ready to beg to be a slave because they live well enough. His dad comes running to him when he comes home and prepares the fatted calf for a celebration. The older brother who had been working hard for years is kinda confused, jealous, angry among other things that he never had a young goat to celebrate with his friends. Their dad comforts him by saying that everything he has is his son's and that it is good to celebrate because the younger brother was dead but is now alive again, he was lost but now is found. Thank God that I got to go to DG and just hang out with MW, DJ, CV, RM and DL. I havn't actually been to DG/C4C in like a couple weeks and can't go on Friday either, so I thought it might be kinda like I'm dropping out or something. In any case they really encouraged me. God too. I mean I had never thought about it that way. I'm just no good at individual Bible study, I mostly just read. So, ya. I went off to my parents for dinner. Free leftovers, thank God. Then JW finally called and I talked for a while and used the computer my brother had been using for his Anthro project until I high-jacked it. There is a lot of stuff I need to do ASAP for project. I mean if I don't do anything, then I definately can't go right..? Anyways, I am now at home borrowing JK's charging cable for my laptop. It's a good thing they are interchangeable, thank God. Also, after thought: Thank God I didn't have work this morning. >.>

So, summary: I made a lot of plans for today. Things I thought would be good. Prioritizing because it was on my schedule of things to do, and guess what. Most if not all of those plans fell through, but for the best. God's plan for my life is far better than mine. Thank God that he is on our side. If we were His enemies it would be like trying to swim up a waterfall. It's not gonna happen. But because He loves us and is patient with us He overlooks our selfishness and helps us to do what He wants us to do. He gently calls us back. He will never force you to do something against your will. If anything had been different today I would be in a Much worse position than I am. I know that there is a lot to do this week, but with God's help I will be able to pull through and get to where I am supposed to be, where God wants me to be.

God has saved me from my sins and has helped me continue moving forward.

(I already have 50 names on this piece of paper. Just because the average age is around 18 is kinda sketchy though.... lol.)

D.Fa

Reading Week?

You see, this last week I set out to do a lot of work that I was behind on. I had formed a large list of things I should do in my head before it started, but didn't really do all of it...

Did I read?

I guess I read a bit. A couple chapters of Bio, a few chapters of math, not much else. lol

Did I finish my labs that were due this week?

No.

Did I do the prelabs for this week?

Mostly.

Did I look over my Japanese textbook?

No.

Did I hang out with all my old High School firends?

Maybe some of them, not all of them though... (I didn't give VB a spinning hug though... >.>)

Did I write my resume..?

No.

Did I write my support letter for East Asia Project?

Not really.

Did I waste a lot of time?

Yes. So much time... I even cleaned RL's room instead of doing my own work. lol And now for the over exagerated before and after shots.

Before:



After:



Also, just for fun, I color coded his closet! xP



That was the main part of my week, living in RL's room (except for sleeping of course). His room was cleaner than mine... >.> BUT JK's was way worse than mine, so I was ok with my room. lol

Ttyl.

D.Fa

My Day Off.

Hey. What's up?

So, today I had planned to sleep in, work my butt off doing my Bio lab (due Mon) then be able to relax for the rest of the weekend. Instead, I ended up going over to JS's house and jamming with DJ (guitar), CW(drums) and MW(harmonicas, what!?!?). It was pretty cool. I'm pretty bad at improvising, so I just watched the chord progression off of what DJ was playing (now that I play some guitar and kinda know where notes on a guitar are) and just play the tonics. lol But my doing that allowed him to just play around which made it way cooler. lol

In any case, I defintely have to start working on my bio lab because I am busy tommorow helping out with a v-day dinner for married couples and soon to be newly weds which may just include AL and MH unless PE and NL decide to be around..?

So, ya. I got a haircut and this is a fun fact, 83% of the mail I've recieved in the last month or so has been from world vision or power to change or samaritan's purse or other places like that. It's kinda funny.

Ummm. There's this weird sensation of being asleep / numbness in my left arm that comes and goes from my l(checks hands before finishing word)eft hand/arm. It's really weird.

I have yet to recieve any confirmation about whether I'm going to East Asia or not. This is kinda annoying because I can't really start raising support until I know, right? Also, I had never thought of this until today, what if I'm not accepted? Then I actually could do the research job in the summer working with my profs... I should actually apply for it just in case, but I still have a couple days until I'm supposed to for sure hear back from the project people about East Asia...

Ya. Bio lab. I'm gone.

Ttyl.

D.Fa





PS. I'm trying something out right now. I am replacing all 'xP' and derivatives of 'xP' such as 'xPPP' with 'lol' and it's derivatives such as 'lolll' if that makes sense. lol I think this will hopefully stunt my use of 'xP' because it has turned into punctuation, and actually, almost a mandatory punctuation and sometimes more of my message is 'xP' than anything else. lol.

PPS. I sometimes use facebook to stalk people's names. xP