Yo.
It's been a while. Quite a while. :P But I'm finally free. I handed in my Masters' thesis for examination three days ago and my defense is scheduled for next week. The weeks and months of agonizing work reading journal articles and writing 300 pages and editing down to 200 pages, it's all essentially over. These last few days have been so great. Being able to think and not have this giant looming threat of failure hanging over me. The funniest thing though is how God really humbled me through this.
See, I reaaaaaally didn't want to sit down and write it. I'd do almost anything else to avoid doing it and it got to the point where I was actually running out of time. (For some reason I had been scheduling to finish ahead of the actual due date, so there was flexibility, but yaaaa.) So here I am like 3 days before it's due, knowing exactly how much I need to do and just being like "naaaaah, let's sleep in a bit more. ... 7:21. fineeeeee. I guess I have to wake up and start." And so I went to get up and get ready for the day and as I was standing in the bathroom I started feeling faint. So I sat down on the bathtub.
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*opens eyes* "what's this white thing? where am I?" *sits up* I had fainted and was lying on the ground with my head facing the toilet. =O So, I go to lie in my bed. 7:23. This had only happened once before (exactly the same way) way back in 3rd or 4th year, so I know it's nothing serious. Lying down I realize my knee hurts. I can't extend my left leg and walking on it is painful. Sooooooo I hop over to my laptop to start working. I figure, "well, if it stops hurting we're all good. It had better not be broken. I have a defense in a couple weeks and work in a few days." A couple hours later and it still hurts. So I'm like "fine. I guess I'll go to the hospital just to be sure. Like, if I don't get this moving, my knee will like solidify over and I'll never get to use it again. Either I go now or after I hand in this thesis. And by then it could be too late." My roommate isn't here. My friend who lives the closest is out of town for another day. It's not an emergency.
So I check the bus schedule. The bus a couple blocks down actually goes right to the hospital. I just need to leave enough time to hop down the hall to the elevator, and slowly hop without slipping and dying to the bus stop, take the bus, then hop to the hospital. Got all my stuff. Let's go.
Hopping that entire hallway was exhausting. So when I get downstairs I call a cab. :P He was super nice. The doctors were super nice. Was there for like 2? 3 hours? Read a book. They said it was probably just a muscle thing and I'd be fine in a day or too, Cool. So I got a pair of crutches and walked to the bus. :P It only really hurt when it was extended or had weight on it.
Back at home time to work. :P
Oh, did I mention my glasses had fallen apart that week too? So, here I am with like a meter of clear vision and the inability to walk, essentially forced to tackle my thesis, praying that my leg heals quickly so I can work this coming week. New Years comes and I'm just at home working on my thesis all night. So I take a break before midnight. It'd been the first time in 7 years that I hadn't been at a Christian conference singing and praying in the year. I do my annual reflection and prayer and crying session, reminding myself of His faithfulness and goodness and the hope I have in Him, before getting back to work.
So, working as normal, drinking lots of water, I take leg stretching breaks every time after I go the washroom. I'm regaining some extension, but it still hurts and I can't really walk properly, So I just take a break and pray kneeling on my bed to help stretch it further. And afterward, with really no sudden thing, it feels back to normal. Praise God. :P And better than that, I think my relationship with God was much better too. It's funny, but it all worked out (aside from my parents being overly concerned about me, and me not bathing for a couple days. ;P) and I'm thankful that God does things like this in my life. I'm praying the defense goes well and that this year is all for His glory and my joy in Him.
D.Fa
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5.1.18
25.11.11
Non-Wasted Time
I guess you could say this week was pretty cool. I haven't really had time to post due to two lab reports due this morning and everything, but ya. The week is over.
I got to go sharing with SM on Thursday. It was pretty sweet. I mean, we were going to go Wednesday, but he had some work, so Thursday 11:45. He had some work pop up again, so we rescheduled to 1.
SM. I can't wait to see how God uses SM in the future. His prayers are always so genuine and passionate. Ya. He had only gone sharing a couple times before and he didn't really count them. I asked him questions and briefed him on the how and what to expect. And so we went. I may have put a bit of pressure on him because when I go with someone else, I kinda make them choose who we are talking to. It's one of my biggest sharing weaknesses (as you can tell from my past posts) so I mentally trade the responsibility to my partner and prepare to start a conversation, which I'm also not the best at. Just not worrying for hours about who to approach makes the initial approach sooooo much easier.
Ya, we ended up speaking with two Catholic guys from Ottawa, but our conversation was cut short by class. From what we talked about it seemed like church was a family thing. We spoke about a bunch of things. We didn't quite get to the KGP, but we gave them a couple to look over. We definitely spoke about the gospel in conversation. It was good.
Then we approached another couple guys, but they had a lot of work to do. He said that he had been approached before, but that he was very interested, so if we see him again, he wants us to approach. lol.
Next was a guy with a class in a couple minutes.
And finally we talked to this Muslim asian guy. I didn't expect that. lol We were talking and apparently both SM and him were from the same town! Pretty cool. I asked what he knew about Jesus, but he said he didn't know much, so I asked SM and he basically shared the gospel. Not usually the approach, but when I asked if he would like to look at the KGP booklet with us he said he wasn't interested right now, but that he'd share it with his friends. So, basically, by the Spirit's leading SM shared the gospel because God knew the KGP was the wrong approach. PTL. lol
An hour spent for the Lord is not wasted.
I hope SM has learned a bit about sharing, that it doesn't matter who you approach or their initial response, and that SM has grown a bit. I seem to have spent a lot of time socializing this week. This isn't nearly as much of a waste of time as facebook/youtube in isolation though.
I got to know SP and K(?) way better as well as now that the first step in talking to JXW about spiritual things is out of the way, the other half of my life, the part that has Jesus in every bit of it can be talked about much more easily. xP
Ya. This morning I ran to school. Well, partly. Me and CW left at the same time and for a portion of the journey I was ahead of him even though he was on bike. xP
Ya. I still have three more things on my list of things to blog about.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
I got to go sharing with SM on Thursday. It was pretty sweet. I mean, we were going to go Wednesday, but he had some work, so Thursday 11:45. He had some work pop up again, so we rescheduled to 1.
SM. I can't wait to see how God uses SM in the future. His prayers are always so genuine and passionate. Ya. He had only gone sharing a couple times before and he didn't really count them. I asked him questions and briefed him on the how and what to expect. And so we went. I may have put a bit of pressure on him because when I go with someone else, I kinda make them choose who we are talking to. It's one of my biggest sharing weaknesses (as you can tell from my past posts) so I mentally trade the responsibility to my partner and prepare to start a conversation, which I'm also not the best at. Just not worrying for hours about who to approach makes the initial approach sooooo much easier.
Ya, we ended up speaking with two Catholic guys from Ottawa, but our conversation was cut short by class. From what we talked about it seemed like church was a family thing. We spoke about a bunch of things. We didn't quite get to the KGP, but we gave them a couple to look over. We definitely spoke about the gospel in conversation. It was good.
Then we approached another couple guys, but they had a lot of work to do. He said that he had been approached before, but that he was very interested, so if we see him again, he wants us to approach. lol.
Next was a guy with a class in a couple minutes.
And finally we talked to this Muslim asian guy. I didn't expect that. lol We were talking and apparently both SM and him were from the same town! Pretty cool. I asked what he knew about Jesus, but he said he didn't know much, so I asked SM and he basically shared the gospel. Not usually the approach, but when I asked if he would like to look at the KGP booklet with us he said he wasn't interested right now, but that he'd share it with his friends. So, basically, by the Spirit's leading SM shared the gospel because God knew the KGP was the wrong approach. PTL. lol
An hour spent for the Lord is not wasted.
I hope SM has learned a bit about sharing, that it doesn't matter who you approach or their initial response, and that SM has grown a bit. I seem to have spent a lot of time socializing this week. This isn't nearly as much of a waste of time as facebook/youtube in isolation though.
I got to know SP and K(?) way better as well as now that the first step in talking to JXW about spiritual things is out of the way, the other half of my life, the part that has Jesus in every bit of it can be talked about much more easily. xP
Ya. This morning I ran to school. Well, partly. Me and CW left at the same time and for a portion of the journey I was ahead of him even though he was on bike. xP
Ya. I still have three more things on my list of things to blog about.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
19.9.11
Where am I now?
So, I'm not gonna write a post about how much work I have to do right now or how many things are piled up. Read this instead: Running on Empty. It describes basically exactly where I was at. But even while in this state, relying on myself and slowly losing perspective, God is still doing so much for us.
A couple minutes ago I thought I should use the extra time I had between classes to read some of His word and it was awesome. It reminded me of His love for us and all He has done for us. I was reading Ezekiel 33-36. So good. lol I will now quote many things I read:
'Son of man, say to the house of Israel, "This is what you are saying: 'Our offenses and sins weigh us down, and we are wasting away because of them. How then can we live?'" Say to them, "As surely as I live, declares the Sovereign Lord, I take no pleasure in the death of the wicked, but rather that they turn from their ways and live. Turn! Turn from your evil ways! Why will you die, O house of Israel?"
'Therefore, son of man, say to your countrymen, "The righteousness of the righteous man will not save him when he disobeys, and the wickedness of the wicked man will not cause him to fall when he turns from it. The righteous man, if he sins, will not be allowed to live because of his former righteousness."'
...
My sheep wandered over all the mountains and on every high hill. They were scattered over the whole earth, and no one searched or looked for them.
...
I myself will search for my sheep and look after them. As a shepherd looks after his scattered flock when he is with them, so will I look after my sheep. I will rescue them from all the places where they were scattered on a day of cloud and darkness. I will bring them out from the nations and gather them from the countries
...
I myself will tend my sheep ... I will search for the lost and bring back the strays. I will bind up the injured and strengthen the weak ... I will shepherd the flock with justice.
...
I will make a covenant of peace with them
...
They will know that I am the Lord, when I break the bars of their yoke and rescue them from the hands of those who enslaved them ... and no one will make them afraid.
...
You my sheep, the sheep of my pasture, are people, and I am your God, declares the Sovereign Lord.
...
For I will take you out of the nations; I will gather you from all the countries and bring you back ... I will sprinkle clean water on you, and you will be clean; I will cleanse you from all your impurities and from all your idols. I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove the heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh. And I will put my Spirit in you and move you to follow my decrees and be careful to keep my laws. ... I will save you from all your uncleanness
...
I will do it."
Ezk 33:10-12, 34:6, 11-13, 15-16, 25, 27, 28, 31, 36:24-27, 29, 36. (emphasis added by me)
I see a lot in these verses. Remember though, that when it was written down, God was speaking about the future. When God says He will do something, He does it. It may not happen as soon as we might wish or expect, but it always happens in the perfect timing.
As seen in those passages, all have sinned and been separated from God, the consequence being death, spiritual death, eternal separation from God. Also seen is God's love for us. He himself is going to do all the work, the only thing He asks of us is to turn back to him and accept all that He is doing / has already done / will do for us. Through Jesus, God the Son, who came down to Earth, God dealt with all of it. By God's own doing, He died on the cross willingly so that we may be forgiven of our sins, that we may have our past payed for and so that we can start over justly. Of course by our own strength we fail, but with the new heart and Spirit placed inside of us, God gives us the power and helps us. We aren't in it alone, God is with us 'always, to the very end of the age.'
D.Fa
A couple minutes ago I thought I should use the extra time I had between classes to read some of His word and it was awesome. It reminded me of His love for us and all He has done for us. I was reading Ezekiel 33-36. So good. lol I will now quote many things I read:
'Son of man, say to the house of Israel, "This is what you are saying: 'Our offenses and sins weigh us down, and we are wasting away because of them. How then can we live?'" Say to them, "As surely as I live, declares the Sovereign Lord, I take no pleasure in the death of the wicked, but rather that they turn from their ways and live. Turn! Turn from your evil ways! Why will you die, O house of Israel?"
'Therefore, son of man, say to your countrymen, "The righteousness of the righteous man will not save him when he disobeys, and the wickedness of the wicked man will not cause him to fall when he turns from it. The righteous man, if he sins, will not be allowed to live because of his former righteousness."'
...
My sheep wandered over all the mountains and on every high hill. They were scattered over the whole earth, and no one searched or looked for them.
...
I myself will search for my sheep and look after them. As a shepherd looks after his scattered flock when he is with them, so will I look after my sheep. I will rescue them from all the places where they were scattered on a day of cloud and darkness. I will bring them out from the nations and gather them from the countries
...
I myself will tend my sheep ... I will search for the lost and bring back the strays. I will bind up the injured and strengthen the weak ... I will shepherd the flock with justice.
...
I will make a covenant of peace with them
...
They will know that I am the Lord, when I break the bars of their yoke and rescue them from the hands of those who enslaved them ... and no one will make them afraid.
...
You my sheep, the sheep of my pasture, are people, and I am your God, declares the Sovereign Lord.
...
For I will take you out of the nations; I will gather you from all the countries and bring you back ... I will sprinkle clean water on you, and you will be clean; I will cleanse you from all your impurities and from all your idols. I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove the heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh. And I will put my Spirit in you and move you to follow my decrees and be careful to keep my laws. ... I will save you from all your uncleanness
...
I will do it."
Ezk 33:10-12, 34:6, 11-13, 15-16, 25, 27, 28, 31, 36:24-27, 29, 36. (emphasis added by me)
I see a lot in these verses. Remember though, that when it was written down, God was speaking about the future. When God says He will do something, He does it. It may not happen as soon as we might wish or expect, but it always happens in the perfect timing.
As seen in those passages, all have sinned and been separated from God, the consequence being death, spiritual death, eternal separation from God. Also seen is God's love for us. He himself is going to do all the work, the only thing He asks of us is to turn back to him and accept all that He is doing / has already done / will do for us. Through Jesus, God the Son, who came down to Earth, God dealt with all of it. By God's own doing, He died on the cross willingly so that we may be forgiven of our sins, that we may have our past payed for and so that we can start over justly. Of course by our own strength we fail, but with the new heart and Spirit placed inside of us, God gives us the power and helps us. We aren't in it alone, God is with us 'always, to the very end of the age.'
D.Fa
27.8.11
VBS!
Yo, I got back in Ottawa a little bit ago.
VBS was kinda really intense. 5 days from 7:30am to 8 or 8:30 in the church. Only 4 teachers. A godsent 5 youth volunteers and a bunch of aunties and uncles. It was a sprint from one thing to the next, but the youth really helped give us some breaks. Whenever we felt really tired, they were there taking our places.
Truly God has been answering prayers all week. We got the 10 kids we needed. I got stretched into doing things I wouldn't have. We had our great weather for the park trip. The church was really encouraged by this VBS. The youth, which are now five kids instead of three are really solid and are all great friends now, so much so that the church is looking for a youth worker so that they can grow.
Last day was good. Finding the day's mission involved popping massive amounts of balloons, so we blew a lot up and a bunch of people (after RL did it first) drew faces and stuff on them. He made them emotionally connect with balloons we were gonna pop. >.< One girl was like 'No. Don't pop the blue one!' and the girl who was currently popping hit that one really hard. >.<
The kids weren't really paying attention during the story.
They answered all the questions during the review game though. Poor FY... He answered all the right answers, but gave away all his points. >.> For a ten year old, he really knows a lot about the Bible. And I love his accent. lol. He did win the game even if it was a close one and everyone got prizes anyways, because the point of the game is not who knows the most or has the most points, but that they all know God loves them and sent Jesus to die for their sins, raising him from the grave and giving us the choice to become children of God.
I'm apparently too good at playing 'graveyard'.
We watched the end of the Incredibles. Then we started filling water balloons. lol. Mine were all full. The girls however didn't really make them big enough. We went to the park for water games. RL was getting pretty angry at anyone who soaked him. lol.
We got back and it was almost time for the open house. They made some fruit kabobs. I gave them their prizes (candy) and then it was time for a summarized presentation to some parents and friends of the kids. Super Cooper had his final showing. Maintenance Mac had a summary of all the missions and Bible stories. The kids all sang and danced for everyone (so cute!). AL did a gospel spotlight / rope trick which went very well. Then we had dinner with everyone although we became slightly segregated. There were four tables and it was mainly parents, kids, youth then Ottawa...
Such great changes this week though. M(?) voluntarily popcorn prayed Friday morning! A(?) prayed for the lunch. The volunteers all really bonded. The kids grew too and we grew.
I think I love Charis EFree Church now. I didn't really want to leave. I wanted to be able to help more with outreach and discipling (not that I know much). But I can't really just drop everything and live in Scarborough. >.>
Modern Family with RL and MC. So good.
Today was sleeping in until 8. Packing. Breakfast. Debreif. Prayer. Lunch. Egg Tart! Playing with Tina who bit me a lot. >.< Then off to the bus station. The bus was significantly late.
Slept most of the bus ride. Read the rest of it.
Grandma made us a lot of Baozi. <3
I'm gonna miss Scarborough.
D.Fa
PS. Pray for my mom. She has basically been a slave to prescription medication and over the counter drugs for a while and since she has been in the hospital to look at her stomach, the doctors, seeing all the medication she was taking looked into it and she had been overdosing. A lot. So she's off all of them right now. A drug holiday, and she is suffering from withdrawl right now. She's a little bit out of it. I know that God got her to go to the hospital for a reason. Pray for her.
VBS was kinda really intense. 5 days from 7:30am to 8 or 8:30 in the church. Only 4 teachers. A godsent 5 youth volunteers and a bunch of aunties and uncles. It was a sprint from one thing to the next, but the youth really helped give us some breaks. Whenever we felt really tired, they were there taking our places.
Truly God has been answering prayers all week. We got the 10 kids we needed. I got stretched into doing things I wouldn't have. We had our great weather for the park trip. The church was really encouraged by this VBS. The youth, which are now five kids instead of three are really solid and are all great friends now, so much so that the church is looking for a youth worker so that they can grow.
Last day was good. Finding the day's mission involved popping massive amounts of balloons, so we blew a lot up and a bunch of people (after RL did it first) drew faces and stuff on them. He made them emotionally connect with balloons we were gonna pop. >.< One girl was like 'No. Don't pop the blue one!' and the girl who was currently popping hit that one really hard. >.<
The kids weren't really paying attention during the story.
They answered all the questions during the review game though. Poor FY... He answered all the right answers, but gave away all his points. >.> For a ten year old, he really knows a lot about the Bible. And I love his accent. lol. He did win the game even if it was a close one and everyone got prizes anyways, because the point of the game is not who knows the most or has the most points, but that they all know God loves them and sent Jesus to die for their sins, raising him from the grave and giving us the choice to become children of God.
I'm apparently too good at playing 'graveyard'.
We watched the end of the Incredibles. Then we started filling water balloons. lol. Mine were all full. The girls however didn't really make them big enough. We went to the park for water games. RL was getting pretty angry at anyone who soaked him. lol.
We got back and it was almost time for the open house. They made some fruit kabobs. I gave them their prizes (candy) and then it was time for a summarized presentation to some parents and friends of the kids. Super Cooper had his final showing. Maintenance Mac had a summary of all the missions and Bible stories. The kids all sang and danced for everyone (so cute!). AL did a gospel spotlight / rope trick which went very well. Then we had dinner with everyone although we became slightly segregated. There were four tables and it was mainly parents, kids, youth then Ottawa...
Such great changes this week though. M(?) voluntarily popcorn prayed Friday morning! A(?) prayed for the lunch. The volunteers all really bonded. The kids grew too and we grew.
I think I love Charis EFree Church now. I didn't really want to leave. I wanted to be able to help more with outreach and discipling (not that I know much). But I can't really just drop everything and live in Scarborough. >.>
Modern Family with RL and MC. So good.
Today was sleeping in until 8. Packing. Breakfast. Debreif. Prayer. Lunch. Egg Tart! Playing with Tina who bit me a lot. >.< Then off to the bus station. The bus was significantly late.
Slept most of the bus ride. Read the rest of it.
Grandma made us a lot of Baozi. <3
I'm gonna miss Scarborough.
D.Fa
PS. Pray for my mom. She has basically been a slave to prescription medication and over the counter drugs for a while and since she has been in the hospital to look at her stomach, the doctors, seeing all the medication she was taking looked into it and she had been overdosing. A lot. So she's off all of them right now. A drug holiday, and she is suffering from withdrawl right now. She's a little bit out of it. I know that God got her to go to the hospital for a reason. Pray for her.
7.3.11
I have been saved.
So, ya.
Today was a major stress and I would be dead right now if it were not for a few people.
If you would like to skip that giant beast of a paragraph, feel free to, but it has a lot of the details of how I am still alive and more specifics, I think... xP
I woke up this morning at 6am knowing full well that I had barely scratched the surface of a 12 page bio lab. I went to bed at 12 knowing that my computer hates me and would not allow microsoft office to work. So, on the off chance that my housemates had left one of their laptops on the main floor I woke up early (This is in direct contradiction to one of my 'resolutions' I posed back in January to not borrow without asking that I still have not been doing... I have borrowed tweezers, tooth paste, laptops, guitars, ice cream, a bedroom, CD player, printer, laundry basket, frozen vegetables, margarine, towel, a matress, a blanket, herbs, a laptop charging cable thing, an xbox, a device for shaving, ummm I don't know what else... but I digress. This is in paratheses.) in an attempt to borrow one of their laptops. Since this did not happen, I quickly tried to do some of the Intro for my lab on a draft for a blog post (which I don't think will be posted..? o.0) because it could be transferred between computers. In any case I run off to school on the bus. I get to the computer lab in Steacie building and holed myself up there until everything was done. At 10:30 my support coach for East Asia PRoject was going to call me and talk for like half an hour. He was too busy, Thank God. I had been budgeting my time, kinda, and I knew that at 1 I'd be kicked out for a class that uses the lab. It was like 1:20 and still I was there. Thank God. lol. I was not done yet and relocating wouldn't have sped up the process. So, I thought I'd need like 5 minutes maybe to get to class (starting at 1:30) and so when 1:30 passed I was like dang, I'm gonna need to finish ASAP. Going as fast as possible I managed to finish to a satisfactory level and went to print it. Guess what? PRINTER JAM! WHAT!??! I spent 4$ on a printer jam! with only 1$ left on my campus card, ie not enough to actually pay for the new copy I'd have to buy at another printer somewhere.......... On top of which it was now 1:40 and I think that 'if you are more than 15 minutes late to a lab you cannot enter' and must do a make-up or fail or something. So with all this stress (because I had no idea how to unjam the printer which is locked in a plexiglas cage with a padlock) I suddenly thought of the Integrated Science Centre room or whatever it is that DK had shown me only once before. You just (as an integrated science student which I am not) bring paper to the room and you can print (double sided is an option) for FREE! So I ran off there (and just so happened to leave my laptop charging cable there, as I have just found out at 9pm.) and freaked out because I was so late.... I then had to ask to borrow paper from people I don't know. This girl gave me some. I rushed to print everything. I got to about the 5th last page and no one in the room had any more paper. I had to ask again and they told me to ask one of the profs or whatever they are that have rooms in that hall. The woman the next door over gave me a huge pile of paper. So, I managed to print it all. Thank God. I then sprint to the bio lab. I got there just as the lab coordinator was finishing describing how to do the lab that I had not prepared for at all. My lab partner has been, no offense, utterly useless in helping me with the labs. I mean she just doesn't get things very quickly. I'm sure if I got to know her better we would be in a better situation. In anycase, this week we were in groups of four, thank God, and they seemed to know what they were doing. Not really, but it gave me time to figure out what we were doing. lol. This lab had no actual experimentation, so it was a really quick lab. Thank God. I had earlier planned to work on my resume with CW in Rooster's after my lab, so I ran off to there. I needed this resume ASAP for a summer job that I was already a week behind in applying for and now that I had sent an email and He had responded I really had to send a resume. CW is like the best older brother ever. Thank God that he is in my life. lol.. He has been really useful for a lot of things. Not only because he is in English and that is my worst subject, but also in encouraging me in my walk with God and just everything. So, we (he) worked on that for like an hour and a half. I then ate breakfast (5:30pm a few granola bars). CW left to go home and study. Then I realized I had like 15 minutes until my bio lab was due (electronic submission in addition to the hard copy, I know really..?) so I ran off to the computer lab again and did that. Thank God CW left... lol we could have been there another hour. Anyways, I had been planning on helping SC with his Japanese film that night. I was gonna skip Discipleship group and just help him. He ended up being too sick. That is too bad, but in a way, I got to go to DG and hear the end of the prodigal son parable and I learned some neat things. more about prodigal son later maybe, summary, younger brother takes inheiritance from his father who isn't dead yet and wastes it all. He comes back ready to beg to be a slave because they live well enough. His dad comes running to him when he comes home and prepares the fatted calf for a celebration. The older brother who had been working hard for years is kinda confused, jealous, angry among other things that he never had a young goat to celebrate with his friends. Their dad comforts him by saying that everything he has is his son's and that it is good to celebrate because the younger brother was dead but is now alive again, he was lost but now is found. Thank God that I got to go to DG and just hang out with MW, DJ, CV, RM and DL. I havn't actually been to DG/C4C in like a couple weeks and can't go on Friday either, so I thought it might be kinda like I'm dropping out or something. In any case they really encouraged me. God too. I mean I had never thought about it that way. I'm just no good at individual Bible study, I mostly just read. So, ya. I went off to my parents for dinner. Free leftovers, thank God. Then JW finally called and I talked for a while and used the computer my brother had been using for his Anthro project until I high-jacked it. There is a lot of stuff I need to do ASAP for project. I mean if I don't do anything, then I definately can't go right..? Anyways, I am now at home borrowing JK's charging cable for my laptop. It's a good thing they are interchangeable, thank God. Also, after thought: Thank God I didn't have work this morning. >.>
So, summary: I made a lot of plans for today. Things I thought would be good. Prioritizing because it was on my schedule of things to do, and guess what. Most if not all of those plans fell through, but for the best. God's plan for my life is far better than mine. Thank God that he is on our side. If we were His enemies it would be like trying to swim up a waterfall. It's not gonna happen. But because He loves us and is patient with us He overlooks our selfishness and helps us to do what He wants us to do. He gently calls us back. He will never force you to do something against your will. If anything had been different today I would be in a Much worse position than I am. I know that there is a lot to do this week, but with God's help I will be able to pull through and get to where I am supposed to be, where God wants me to be.
God has saved me from my sins and has helped me continue moving forward.
(I already have 50 names on this piece of paper. Just because the average age is around 18 is kinda sketchy though.... lol.)
D.Fa
Today was a major stress and I would be dead right now if it were not for a few people.
If you would like to skip that giant beast of a paragraph, feel free to, but it has a lot of the details of how I am still alive and more specifics, I think... xP
I woke up this morning at 6am knowing full well that I had barely scratched the surface of a 12 page bio lab. I went to bed at 12 knowing that my computer hates me and would not allow microsoft office to work. So, on the off chance that my housemates had left one of their laptops on the main floor I woke up early (This is in direct contradiction to one of my 'resolutions' I posed back in January to not borrow without asking that I still have not been doing... I have borrowed tweezers, tooth paste, laptops, guitars, ice cream, a bedroom, CD player, printer, laundry basket, frozen vegetables, margarine, towel, a matress, a blanket, herbs, a laptop charging cable thing, an xbox, a device for shaving, ummm I don't know what else... but I digress. This is in paratheses.) in an attempt to borrow one of their laptops. Since this did not happen, I quickly tried to do some of the Intro for my lab on a draft for a blog post (which I don't think will be posted..? o.0) because it could be transferred between computers. In any case I run off to school on the bus. I get to the computer lab in Steacie building and holed myself up there until everything was done. At 10:30 my support coach for East Asia PRoject was going to call me and talk for like half an hour. He was too busy, Thank God. I had been budgeting my time, kinda, and I knew that at 1 I'd be kicked out for a class that uses the lab. It was like 1:20 and still I was there. Thank God. lol. I was not done yet and relocating wouldn't have sped up the process. So, I thought I'd need like 5 minutes maybe to get to class (starting at 1:30) and so when 1:30 passed I was like dang, I'm gonna need to finish ASAP. Going as fast as possible I managed to finish to a satisfactory level and went to print it. Guess what? PRINTER JAM! WHAT!??! I spent 4$ on a printer jam! with only 1$ left on my campus card, ie not enough to actually pay for the new copy I'd have to buy at another printer somewhere.......... On top of which it was now 1:40 and I think that 'if you are more than 15 minutes late to a lab you cannot enter' and must do a make-up or fail or something. So with all this stress (because I had no idea how to unjam the printer which is locked in a plexiglas cage with a padlock) I suddenly thought of the Integrated Science Centre room or whatever it is that DK had shown me only once before. You just (as an integrated science student which I am not) bring paper to the room and you can print (double sided is an option) for FREE! So I ran off there (and just so happened to leave my laptop charging cable there, as I have just found out at 9pm.) and freaked out because I was so late.... I then had to ask to borrow paper from people I don't know. This girl gave me some. I rushed to print everything. I got to about the 5th last page and no one in the room had any more paper. I had to ask again and they told me to ask one of the profs or whatever they are that have rooms in that hall. The woman the next door over gave me a huge pile of paper. So, I managed to print it all. Thank God. I then sprint to the bio lab. I got there just as the lab coordinator was finishing describing how to do the lab that I had not prepared for at all. My lab partner has been, no offense, utterly useless in helping me with the labs. I mean she just doesn't get things very quickly. I'm sure if I got to know her better we would be in a better situation. In anycase, this week we were in groups of four, thank God, and they seemed to know what they were doing. Not really, but it gave me time to figure out what we were doing. lol. This lab had no actual experimentation, so it was a really quick lab. Thank God. I had earlier planned to work on my resume with CW in Rooster's after my lab, so I ran off to there. I needed this resume ASAP for a summer job that I was already a week behind in applying for and now that I had sent an email and He had responded I really had to send a resume. CW is like the best older brother ever. Thank God that he is in my life. lol.. He has been really useful for a lot of things. Not only because he is in English and that is my worst subject, but also in encouraging me in my walk with God and just everything. So, we (he) worked on that for like an hour and a half. I then ate breakfast (5:30pm a few granola bars). CW left to go home and study. Then I realized I had like 15 minutes until my bio lab was due (electronic submission in addition to the hard copy, I know really..?) so I ran off to the computer lab again and did that. Thank God CW left... lol we could have been there another hour. Anyways, I had been planning on helping SC with his Japanese film that night. I was gonna skip Discipleship group and just help him. He ended up being too sick. That is too bad, but in a way, I got to go to DG and hear the end of the prodigal son parable and I learned some neat things. more about prodigal son later maybe, summary, younger brother takes inheiritance from his father who isn't dead yet and wastes it all. He comes back ready to beg to be a slave because they live well enough. His dad comes running to him when he comes home and prepares the fatted calf for a celebration. The older brother who had been working hard for years is kinda confused, jealous, angry among other things that he never had a young goat to celebrate with his friends. Their dad comforts him by saying that everything he has is his son's and that it is good to celebrate because the younger brother was dead but is now alive again, he was lost but now is found. Thank God that I got to go to DG and just hang out with MW, DJ, CV, RM and DL. I havn't actually been to DG/C4C in like a couple weeks and can't go on Friday either, so I thought it might be kinda like I'm dropping out or something. In any case they really encouraged me. God too. I mean I had never thought about it that way. I'm just no good at individual Bible study, I mostly just read. So, ya. I went off to my parents for dinner. Free leftovers, thank God. Then JW finally called and I talked for a while and used the computer my brother had been using for his Anthro project until I high-jacked it. There is a lot of stuff I need to do ASAP for project. I mean if I don't do anything, then I definately can't go right..? Anyways, I am now at home borrowing JK's charging cable for my laptop. It's a good thing they are interchangeable, thank God. Also, after thought: Thank God I didn't have work this morning. >.>
So, summary: I made a lot of plans for today. Things I thought would be good. Prioritizing because it was on my schedule of things to do, and guess what. Most if not all of those plans fell through, but for the best. God's plan for my life is far better than mine. Thank God that he is on our side. If we were His enemies it would be like trying to swim up a waterfall. It's not gonna happen. But because He loves us and is patient with us He overlooks our selfishness and helps us to do what He wants us to do. He gently calls us back. He will never force you to do something against your will. If anything had been different today I would be in a Much worse position than I am. I know that there is a lot to do this week, but with God's help I will be able to pull through and get to where I am supposed to be, where God wants me to be.
God has saved me from my sins and has helped me continue moving forward.
(I already have 50 names on this piece of paper. Just because the average age is around 18 is kinda sketchy though.... lol.)
D.Fa
14.1.11
Opened My Eyes. Just In Time.
Hey.
Have I mentioned that I am in Toronto today and tommorow..? Well. I am.
Me, AL, AN, and DB woke up early and drove all the way.
One thing that has been an encouragement to me so far happened this morning. You see, I don't really know too much about what this weekend is about or what we will be doing, I didn't even know when or how we were getting here until last night. So, I was kinda wondering if I really should be here. When I woke up I looked at my clock. It said 7:02. I had 23 minutes to get ready. Including packing, shower, breakfast etc. I managed to get ready.
I was fully ready on time. Did I mention that there was no alarm..? God woke me up with enough time. He woke me up with the maximal amount of sleep so I could go fully prepared.
So, ya that was encouraging. I could have slept another hour by accident and missed the whole thing. I could have, but I randomly woke up just in time.
Ya.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
Have I mentioned that I am in Toronto today and tommorow..? Well. I am.
Me, AL, AN, and DB woke up early and drove all the way.
One thing that has been an encouragement to me so far happened this morning. You see, I don't really know too much about what this weekend is about or what we will be doing, I didn't even know when or how we were getting here until last night. So, I was kinda wondering if I really should be here. When I woke up I looked at my clock. It said 7:02. I had 23 minutes to get ready. Including packing, shower, breakfast etc. I managed to get ready.
I was fully ready on time. Did I mention that there was no alarm..? God woke me up with enough time. He woke me up with the maximal amount of sleep so I could go fully prepared.
So, ya that was encouraging. I could have slept another hour by accident and missed the whole thing. I could have, but I randomly woke up just in time.
Ya.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
12.1.11
It Is Irksome.
I'm kinda upset right now.
I got my essay back today.
You know there's a problem when the course that 3rd years are taking to raise their average is significantly bringing down my average. This is like last year when Steel was bringing down my mark. Like what the heck.
But in any case. If I actually think about it, I'm pretty sure (because of the whole letter grade thing) that my average is not really affected and that my entrance scholarship is by no means in question of being renewed, so in actuality I have nothing to complain about and I will have no problem if I actually fail FILM, but it is irksome.
...
This morning I awoke at 5:30. This was to go to the prayer meeting thing in Russell at 7. It was pretty cool. One guy challenged us though. He challenged us to fast once a week and just humble ourselves before the Lord by voluntarily weakening ourselves. He also chalenged us to wake up half an hour earlier and just spend 30 minutes with God in quiet time just getting filled up and pumped so that we have something to bring to the meeting.
...
Then I had Bio.
...
After that I went to Oasis, had some lunch and went sharing with AG. We talked to two people. One guy had the idea that creligion is a beautiful thing, but the people had hurt him which is why he was turned off from going to church. He was a really cool guy and he's in AH's program and year, so they'll get to talk some more. The other guy was hindu-raised and grew up in Malaysia where there is freedom of religion. He has many different friends and has been exposed to some extent with various religions. A lot of what he believed is in line with what I believe, but some of it is just so... empty..? I mean not knowing if you have a relationship with God until you die..? only to find out that you weren't and so you get reincarnated to try again..?
I then found out that VW was too sick to meet up and get her planner today. We had a brief text conversation and now I am praying for her situation. It's kinda difficult, but God must have a plan for her.
I want a heart for doing what is good, a heart for doing what I should, a heart that loves people for who they are and not appearances, a heart for the lost, a heart that is never hypocritical, that just loves the Lord with all of it.
Here's a song:
Ttyl.
D.Fa
I got my essay back today.
You know there's a problem when the course that 3rd years are taking to raise their average is significantly bringing down my average. This is like last year when Steel was bringing down my mark. Like what the heck.
But in any case. If I actually think about it, I'm pretty sure (because of the whole letter grade thing) that my average is not really affected and that my entrance scholarship is by no means in question of being renewed, so in actuality I have nothing to complain about and I will have no problem if I actually fail FILM, but it is irksome.
...
This morning I awoke at 5:30. This was to go to the prayer meeting thing in Russell at 7. It was pretty cool. One guy challenged us though. He challenged us to fast once a week and just humble ourselves before the Lord by voluntarily weakening ourselves. He also chalenged us to wake up half an hour earlier and just spend 30 minutes with God in quiet time just getting filled up and pumped so that we have something to bring to the meeting.
...
Then I had Bio.
...
After that I went to Oasis, had some lunch and went sharing with AG. We talked to two people. One guy had the idea that creligion is a beautiful thing, but the people had hurt him which is why he was turned off from going to church. He was a really cool guy and he's in AH's program and year, so they'll get to talk some more. The other guy was hindu-raised and grew up in Malaysia where there is freedom of religion. He has many different friends and has been exposed to some extent with various religions. A lot of what he believed is in line with what I believe, but some of it is just so... empty..? I mean not knowing if you have a relationship with God until you die..? only to find out that you weren't and so you get reincarnated to try again..?
I then found out that VW was too sick to meet up and get her planner today. We had a brief text conversation and now I am praying for her situation. It's kinda difficult, but God must have a plan for her.
I want a heart for doing what is good, a heart for doing what I should, a heart that loves people for who they are and not appearances, a heart for the lost, a heart that is never hypocritical, that just loves the Lord with all of it.
Here's a song:
Ttyl.
D.Fa
11.1.11
Devotional Planner
Hey! Whatsup?
You know, I think that there is a feeling for when you are learning and today I learned a few things. I shall have to recap most of my day however to make my point.
So, at the beginning of my day I slept in a bit... I did not have enough time to get to school and go sharing (as far as I thought anyways) so I decided I should just go off to Loeb and work on my CHEM prelab which was due at 4:30. I also watched the demo video for the lab and finally knew what the lab manual meant.
Ya, so I went to Loeb and was going to go downstairs when I saw this 2010 devotional Day Planner. I sat down and went to see who it belonged to. I emailed her. She may not even need it, but it looks cool to me. It probably had some sentimental value..? In any case I took it so that it wouldn't be lost or anything.
First was a MATH tutorial. Since we have only had one lecture at this point, all we did was go over row echelon form and reduced row echelon forms... It's pretty easy. I did however learn that you don't need to have discrete numbers in a matrix, you can also have fractions.
After this we went to MATH class and did pretty much the same thing. She kinda yelled at us because we were on our laptops not paying attention and she told us how important it really is. It's like not learning the alphabet. How can you expect to read and write without the alphabet..?
After that was another fun filled PHYS lecture with Dr. Donkers. (That's his name.) He is quite boring and will often stop talking mid sentence to look at us blankly for a few seconds...... I learned F=qE.
After that was my CHEM lab. Today we were making Salicylic acid, a precursor of aspirin (acetyl salicylic acid). It was a boring lab... First we got our new lab partners. Mine looks okay. Then we found out that there weren't enough round-bottom flasks, so we had to split into groups of 3. In general, the lab was like boiling, filtering and disolving a solution like 3 times.... Ya. It ended early anyways, so that was cool.
I hadn't gone sharing yet (as I had planned to that morning, this morning... xP so long ago...), so me and DK who has the CHEM lab at the same time went. We talked to one girl starting at like 5:45. She seemed to have a relativistic view of things, but agreed in heaven and God. It was a good conversation and it only took maybe 10 minutes. By the way, she had earbuds in when we went over to her. xP All three of us had class at 6, so it was cool. I gave her a Knowing God Personally booklet which summarizes what we were talking about and I wrote my email on the back in case she had any questions. I don't think DK has really gone sharing on campus too much, but he was doing well for just talking off the top of his head.
That was not evangelerving. That was a real spiritual conversation.
So, ya. I learned that it doesn't take an hour to have a good conversation.
Ya. I then had FILM class and I got to talk to JW for a few minutes before class. I havn't seen her in a couple months. This was partially because I've been sitting with P(?) since the C4C res pizza outreach night and because she has been watching the movies before class so she can leave earlier. Today we watched "Wild Strawberries" I thought it was really good. Our prof was saying that there are some cases in which the only medium that a film could take place in with the same effect is Film and in the movie there were times where a book could not have done it, a buch of pictures could not have done it, theatre could not have done it, but a video was perfect.
It ended early, I got home at 9:15ish after seeing MB at the bus stop, I cooked the ground beef so that it won't rot when I'm gone Friday and Saturday, and then my phone started ringing. I was in the middle of making a salad when it started ringing. I picked it up. It was VW, the owner of the devotional planner. She seemed very relieved to know that I had it. She seemed mildly surprised that I was also Christian. She thought it was random. So, tommorow around 1 I will be going back to where I found it and returning it.
You know... I always try to plan things out. The more I plan the worse things end up. God's plan is better than our plans. If I hadn't slept in I wouldn't have gone sharing with DK, I wouldn't have found the planner, I wouldn't have known what to do in the lab...
Ya. xP
Ttyl.
D.Fa
PS. The jokes on the Steacie Building chalkboards are the best. xP LOL. Sn-apple! xPPP Heisenburg's wife can't find her keys. Explaination..? "You probably know too much about their momentum." LOL. Ferrous Wheel! xP They are just so good. xP
You know, I think that there is a feeling for when you are learning and today I learned a few things. I shall have to recap most of my day however to make my point.
So, at the beginning of my day I slept in a bit... I did not have enough time to get to school and go sharing (as far as I thought anyways) so I decided I should just go off to Loeb and work on my CHEM prelab which was due at 4:30. I also watched the demo video for the lab and finally knew what the lab manual meant.
Ya, so I went to Loeb and was going to go downstairs when I saw this 2010 devotional Day Planner. I sat down and went to see who it belonged to. I emailed her. She may not even need it, but it looks cool to me. It probably had some sentimental value..? In any case I took it so that it wouldn't be lost or anything.
First was a MATH tutorial. Since we have only had one lecture at this point, all we did was go over row echelon form and reduced row echelon forms... It's pretty easy. I did however learn that you don't need to have discrete numbers in a matrix, you can also have fractions.
After this we went to MATH class and did pretty much the same thing. She kinda yelled at us because we were on our laptops not paying attention and she told us how important it really is. It's like not learning the alphabet. How can you expect to read and write without the alphabet..?
After that was another fun filled PHYS lecture with Dr. Donkers. (That's his name.) He is quite boring and will often stop talking mid sentence to look at us blankly for a few seconds...... I learned F=qE.
After that was my CHEM lab. Today we were making Salicylic acid, a precursor of aspirin (acetyl salicylic acid). It was a boring lab... First we got our new lab partners. Mine looks okay. Then we found out that there weren't enough round-bottom flasks, so we had to split into groups of 3. In general, the lab was like boiling, filtering and disolving a solution like 3 times.... Ya. It ended early anyways, so that was cool.
I hadn't gone sharing yet (as I had planned to that morning, this morning... xP so long ago...), so me and DK who has the CHEM lab at the same time went. We talked to one girl starting at like 5:45. She seemed to have a relativistic view of things, but agreed in heaven and God. It was a good conversation and it only took maybe 10 minutes. By the way, she had earbuds in when we went over to her. xP All three of us had class at 6, so it was cool. I gave her a Knowing God Personally booklet which summarizes what we were talking about and I wrote my email on the back in case she had any questions. I don't think DK has really gone sharing on campus too much, but he was doing well for just talking off the top of his head.
That was not evangelerving. That was a real spiritual conversation.
So, ya. I learned that it doesn't take an hour to have a good conversation.
Ya. I then had FILM class and I got to talk to JW for a few minutes before class. I havn't seen her in a couple months. This was partially because I've been sitting with P(?) since the C4C res pizza outreach night and because she has been watching the movies before class so she can leave earlier. Today we watched "Wild Strawberries" I thought it was really good. Our prof was saying that there are some cases in which the only medium that a film could take place in with the same effect is Film and in the movie there were times where a book could not have done it, a buch of pictures could not have done it, theatre could not have done it, but a video was perfect.
It ended early, I got home at 9:15ish after seeing MB at the bus stop, I cooked the ground beef so that it won't rot when I'm gone Friday and Saturday, and then my phone started ringing. I was in the middle of making a salad when it started ringing. I picked it up. It was VW, the owner of the devotional planner. She seemed very relieved to know that I had it. She seemed mildly surprised that I was also Christian. She thought it was random. So, tommorow around 1 I will be going back to where I found it and returning it.
You know... I always try to plan things out. The more I plan the worse things end up. God's plan is better than our plans. If I hadn't slept in I wouldn't have gone sharing with DK, I wouldn't have found the planner, I wouldn't have known what to do in the lab...
Ya. xP
Ttyl.
D.Fa
PS. The jokes on the Steacie Building chalkboards are the best. xP LOL. Sn-apple! xPPP Heisenburg's wife can't find her keys. Explaination..? "You probably know too much about their momentum." LOL. Ferrous Wheel! xP They are just so good. xP
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