What can separate me from You.

You know. There is only really one thing that can eternally separate us from God and his love of us as his precious children. That one thing in the end is our choice. You see, the actual thing separating us was sin, but God defeated it by sending Jesus, God the Son, to Earth to die in our place. To sinlessly pay the price for sin. To begin the irony and unfairness that is grace.

By his death on the cross and ressurection our sins have been payed for and God has been able to offer this to us. To offer a relationship which was impossible for us when we had sin. It's our choice now as to whether or not we recieve forgiveness. It's our choice as to whether we live in sin or in his love.

'The temptation is too strong' is no excuse. We have his Holy Spirit in us. 1 John 4:4 "You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world." Also 1 Cor 10:13 "No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it." He gives us the ways out, but it's our choice.

Why do we want to sin? If only we didn't have the freewill to choose sin and death. Why do I keep choosing the moments of sin knowing the guilt that comes with it. Honestly, the separation and emptiness that follows are the worst feeling ever, but I keep going back.

I'm glad that I haven't made any really stupid decisions though. I even had a dream a couple days ago and in it I said no. I never say no to sin in dreams. I mean you can live out whatever you might desire, but be unable to ever do in real life, but I still said no. I felt proud the following morning. lol.

Micah 7:8 "Do not gloat over me, my enemy! Though I have fallen, I will rise. Though I sit in darkness, the LORD will be my light."

Although I have fallen to temptation again, this is not the end. I will choose to remain in his love and fight sin. God help me in this. I can't do it on my own.