Today was long. First was time in the greenhouse and Nesbitt building at school finding out what I'll be doing. Fun stuff. lol. JXW appeared. lol. "Is that your girlfriend?" "No. Just a classmate." I really don't know how to deal with her..... lol.
Anyways, back home for wasting time with my brother in front of the TV... Work 5-10. And all throughout my mind just going insane.
And so, I'm going to repent.
For the last (at least) 13 years or so I have been feeding a very bad habit. One that has definitely left me handicapped when it comes to my relationship with God and others. I could and will name all the people I have been so set on that everyone else seemed less important: A, K, C, B, P, A. These girls / women have (of none of their own fault) been dividing my attention and time. I have the very bad habit of always having someone on my mind that I treat differently, exclusively. Even while being single, I was not acting single and neither guarding their or my hearts, nor focusing on my relationship with God.
Jeremiah 7:3 ESV Thus says the LORD of hosts, the God of Israel: Amend your ways and your deeds, and I will let you dwell in this place.
I want to stop splitting my focus and run as fast and as hard towards God as possible. At lest for the next little while, I want to forget relationships and live for His glory alone, knowing everything else is fully taken care of.
I don't know what I'm feeling right now though. Haha, but I pray that I'd have a peace I can't understand in all of this.
I want to stop splitting my focus and run as fast and as hard towards God as possible. At lest for the next little while, I want to forget relationships and live for His glory alone, knowing everything else is fully taken care of.
I don't know what I'm feeling right now though. Haha, but I pray that I'd have a peace I can't understand in all of this.
Acts 11:18 ESV
When they heard these things they fell silent. And they glorified God,
saying, "Then to the Gentiles also God has granted repentance that leads
to life."
I've never lived as a child of God without this split focus, I want to learn from Him how it is done and follow wherever He leads. May He protect me in this new journey and may I learn to live in Him and for Him. May this repentance draw me closer to Him and closer to real life abundant and eternal, knowing Him and the One He has sent, Jesus.
Amen.
I've never lived as a child of God without this split focus, I want to learn from Him how it is done and follow wherever He leads. May He protect me in this new journey and may I learn to live in Him and for Him. May this repentance draw me closer to Him and closer to real life abundant and eternal, knowing Him and the One He has sent, Jesus.
Amen.
PS. Kuwait!
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