Just to Worship in Spirit and Truth

It always seems to be when I'm at my happiest that I get pulled down. I  may have been a bit sick this morning, or a bit stressed, or a bit annoyed with the thought of all the work I had ahead of me, but I just felt so bad. Anyways, I did a bit of work and got a drive to school.

I wasted a lot of time on youtube/facebook today. I guess I was trying to comfort myself? It wasn't really working. Doing most of the genetics tutorial work due next week calmed me down. Working mindlessly with numbers often does (best part of gr11 accounting). I was kinda banking on the Worship Night.

I really don't like doing things 'religiously', like because it's the thing to do, even though I don't feel like I want to. Like going to a prayer meeting just because it is scheduled and then sit there and not pray. That's what I kinda felt on the way as I walked to Sunnyside Wesleyan church. I feel like I often end up not loving God because I'm too busy holding onto things I desire more than Him like comfort, security, my plans, my idols. I feel like I'm so bipolar about the attitude I give off. I try to keep an image of having everything together, but past a certain point of chaos in my life I just quit (temporarily). lol

Anyways, the worship night was sweet. It was planned as a way of getting the 'Christian groups' on campus to get to know each other a bit and work together, since it is the same God that we worship and live for, God who has given us life abundantly, loved us immeasurably, paid more than can be counted through the cross, and pours out his Spirit without end. There was desert and mingle time with people bingo ice breaker game and a lot of worship. xP. Two worship bands, a rag tag group and the myChurch band. I feel better. lol. My worth is in Christ, not in the things I have done. I need to remember that all I have has come from Him.

Ttyl.

D.Fa




The following is the lyrics to and then the youtube form (no video) of a song we sang tonight with the myChurch band (lol)

Hillsong: Unending Love

"Verse 1:
There's no silver or gold
And no treasure untold
That could draw me away from Your heart
Neither love of myself
Or of anyone else will do

Pre-chorus:
Jesus nothing compares
To this grace that rescued me
Saviour now and forever
Your face is all I seek

Chorus:
Now all I am
I lay at Your feet
I'm humbled by the wonder of Your majesty
One thing I know
I find all I need
In Your unending love
In Your unending love

Verse 2:
Letting go of my pride
I lay down my desires
Just to worship in Spirit and truth
More than all of my dreams
More than fame I will seek You Lord

Pre-Chorus
Chorus x2"