Praise, Dreams and Community

Yo.

So. I slept in a lot this morning. Normally Friday mornings is time with JS, but he didn't reply until like 7:30 this morning and so I slept in until like 8:30. I knew I had things to do, but I also knew that I would love to keep sleeping in CW's bed. lol. This is revenge for him buying a new car and driving it home (leaving his bed wide open). (It's way sodter. lol.)

Ya. Class was class except that I had a bass guitar with me. lol. I walked to school with a bass and sleeping bag because of the Festival of Planning!

You see. It's that time of year again. The end of one year and the preparations for the next. I was put in charge of worship for (yesterday) night. Carleton and uOttawa got together at Carleton and reviewed what God has been doing this year. It's so exciting to see new brothers and sisters in Christ being built up and coming to know God's love for them. That they are being freed from the things that enslave them and coming to forgiveness and new life. Anyways, that was good. At 9ish we went to Sunnyside Wesleyan Church, which is just down the road (convenient), and we played games and did introductions and random stuff. lol. Really just two uOttawa students here though. lol.

Anyways, during the presentation, one section was about dreams, what can we see God doing here in Ottawa? Can we dream bigger? In 5 years can the movement grow so that all the first year students are engaging in the gospel? Will P2C become the biggest club on campus? Will the student government start trying to stop us? lol. Will there be a DG on every floor in res??!!? Are we really gonna accept only reaching 80% of our goals for next year? (No!)

Ya. Later this morning once everyone wakes up again we will start planning about next year. Obviously we can't do it without God and that is why we prayed and will continue to pray about it.

Anyways, I think I'm gonna do some work. I don't know what work right now though. lol. I've got presentations and letters and a bunch of stuff to do. lol.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

Poke-Doodle

And this is one of the things I do in class. If you ever draw anything on my page I will turn it into a pokemon or end up drawing many pocket monsters. The other day I drew a Whooper in JXW's organic notebook because of a drawing of a mudpuppy or 'salamander eel' as I believe I called it. Anyways, she just drew a disproportionate Whooper on my genetic notes and so I had to draw a Whooper (proportionately) as well as a Quagsire and I have named her drawing a Quagger. Thus the following drawings:

My Whooper's face is kinda scary. I apologize, but I'm pretty happy with my Quagsire.

Anyways, ttyl.

=D.Fa

Identity

Hey!

So, if you didn't know, I am really bad at taking breaks, at resting when there are things to do, and there are always things to do, so I basically don't take time off. However, it's because of the constant amount of work that I am always supposed to be working on something that I end up getting really burnt out all the time and so I crave escape, I desire to get away from it and so procrastination takes over. This helps in no way because it's not restful and it's just making the time that I have to work on things less.

However, I also want to spend time with certain people in my life. Often this ends up being another thing I need to do work for, to prepare (to a degree) and I lose sleep because it's often in the morning and I don't wanna let them down, so I try getting there early. Then I can spend time in the Bible, reading God's word, which with a heavy schedule and no 'free time' is often forgotten, which sucks. lol. But, ya, even the time I spend with the people I want to spend time with often ends up being work. I want to change this, a little anyways.

RL is one person that I am trying to spend more time with. It's inconsistent, and the time isn't really being spend the best it could be, but it's good. We go to the gym together (although he also goes another 3 times each week, so he beats me at everything we do. >.<) sometimes, but we never really get to talk or anything. I'm praying for him every week, both for him and his family. Yesterday we also went to a coffeehouse at Ottawa Chinese Alliance Church near China town.

It was really good. I didn't actually spend time with RL though... lol. I spent time with JJ a bit and got to see MY and JW and FL and met a few people. It was really good. MC, KC, C(X?), and LG did a performance of Le Crae's Identity. (The following is just a video with the song and lyrics, not an MV)



I think their version was better. lol. =D

There was a bit of a talk from Pastor D(?) and there were a bunch of songs and a really cool dance / skit thingee. lol. There were also a couple testimonies. One in specific was really powerful. It kinda confused RL at first. lol. It was by this guy who was a mixed child who also was born in a different country and so to begin with he was unsure of who he was, which part to associate with. Additionally he was a bit different. But he knew how the 'world' would react to his difference. In fact he heard his dad joke about it one day when watching a tv drama. By the age of twelve he knew he was gay. But he had also grown up Christian. In the end it was really cool seeing how he can place his identity in God, trusting that He is all sufficient, that He provides all we need. If he is being called to be celibate that's cool, he will live for God in everything trusting that His plan is best, but if he is called to a relationship God will provide the right woman. 'Marriage is between man and woman like the relationship between Christ and the Church, not man and man as Christ and Christ, not woman and woman like Church and Church.' In any case, it was really powerful.

Ya. Last Friday the topic at Weekly Meeting was also about finding our identity in Christ.

Also, you'll find out soon that there is something else I'm working on that is related. xP

In him we are children of God, part of the true vine of Jesus' life, chosen and appointed to bear fruit, reconciled to God by Jesus, God's workmanship, righteous and holy, dearly loved, a son of light, justified and forgiven of all sin, free forever from condemnation, have the Spirit living in us, have the mind of Christ, alive in Christ, blessed with every spirtual blessing, adopted as children of God, made complete, being sanctified into His image; we are a new creation, the old has gone, the new has come. All of our brokenness and wrongs have been paid for and forgiven and we have new life.

Annyways, Ttyl.

=D.Fa

The Last 'Weekly Meeting'

Hey guys!

Today was pretty crazy. I woke up early so that I could help a friend wake up by calling him at 7am. I did that (on and off) for like an hour and a half while getting ready for school. I fell asleep in Genetics again. >.< Inorgo was boring again. Then I wrote letters for hours. lol. Like 12:30-3:45. My hand was hurting a lot from holding a pen in one position and writing quickly for hours. xP

Then we had practice for worship team for weekly meeting. We haven't had worship in weekly meeting for a few weeks, but today, for the last 'weekly meeting' of the school year and perhaps for a much longer time (name change = strong possibility) we had four people on a worship team. Mash ups are sweet. lol. Grace greater than our sins. The main topic was about finding our identity in Christ, in the unchanging, in something greater than ourselves. After we played capture the flag and I lost twice. It was really reeeeally dark though. lol. I felt like I wasn't wearing glasses even though I had my contacts on. lol.

Now I'm home. I had dinner and watched anime. lol. I just sent the first email. lol. Lower priority than the letters. Still very important though.

Right now I'm talking with my friend IG. He was one of our main actors in the Short Film my team made back in Guelph (still editing..?). It was kinda his first time ever in a short film, so I kinda feel bad that we haven't even been able to show him it yet. >.<

Anyways. lol.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

The End / IAW / Housemates

Well, I'm really busy (obviously), but school is nearly done. Just four more things to do before exams.

I got to meet up with FCU today and talk to her about this summer. It's really awesome seeing how God has been working all things together for this to happen. It's really encouraging seeing her step out and place her trust in God. Apparently one day she just woke up and felt she needed to start writing her support letter (she hadn't applied at that time. lol). Anyways, we talked and prayed then we went to the atrium.

We ended up talking with this girl about Jesus and Heaven. I wanted to know what the Quran said about Jesus' teachings and what it means to be in Heaven, but she didn't really know how to answer my questions, so we were passed off to this guy that me and AL talked to last year. He seems to have read the Bible and Quran quite a bit, but he kept misquoting them and viewing the Bible with a skewed view. We talked for a while. It kinda started feeling like a debate, but it was good. I hope we can meet up again and talk in a calm relaxed environment. I don't know what to say though. lol...... Thank God for the Holy Spirit. xP

Finally, back at my house I tend to not be interested in listening to my housemates. I now this is bad. But when I am at home I need to do my homework. lol... But JS came downstairs and made dinner and we talked a bit. lol. Soularium is pretty sweet. It's a set of pictures that spur on conversations. I don't think I appreciate or take advantage of having JS as my housemate as much as I should. lol. And time is sooo close to being up...

Ttyl.

D.Fa

Praise, Sushi and Bubbletea

So, today was cool.

I'm no good at planning though, or at least not if I don't write it down. I didn't write down that I was driving this morning and so I accidentally slept in then had to leave asap. I managed to not forget anything.

Praise Team practice was awesome. I could sing of His love forever, yo! His love never changes. It never fails. Love casts out all fear. It is because of His great love for us that He sent His only begotten Son to die paying for our sins and to rise to give us new life. Anyways, it was sweet even with just the three of us. xP

That was cool and then going home I had lunch and watched another episode of the anime I had watched a few episodes of last night. (It's soooo good!) . . . lol. Kinda time wasting. Then I worked on myStory (you'll see it shortly).

Then I biked to school to celebrate my friend's birthday. We went downtown for sushi and then bubbletea. St. Patricks day is a waste of time, money, and life. So many people, so drunk...

Anyways, ttyl.

D.Fa

By His Strength Alone

Yo. The last couple days have been a bit stressful. Lol. Two midterms, two lab reports and two prelabs. Plus DG. But I've made it. I'm still alive, not too deprived.

I only got like 5 hours of sleep before Monday and then walked to school for a midterm I was not prepared for. Thank God for equation sheets. XP. Then I worked so hard on the lab that was due at 2:30. The experiment was pretty fun. Well, I kinda like repetitive things sometimes. xP  XP Thank God for my awesome TA letting me hand in the lab report after. I finished it at 5:15. Hehe. Dinner. DG. Yu Choy. Sleep.

Woke up and worked for the next round of labs. Biked to class. So nice. Today was really awesome.I really don't deserve all that God has blessed me with. I really felt at peace today even though I had a lab report due at 2:30 that I literally hadn't started until like 10am and a midterm at 6 which I hadn't studied for at all. I ended up printing the lab at like 2:28. I got to the lab like 2:40. I walked in and did the quiz that everyone had already started. The experiment was simple and actually really cool! (Well, part of it. lol) When you mix aniline and benzenesulfonyl chloride in 2% NaOH it makes this really cool like bubbly exploding molten Earth kind of effect under the water that produces a cloudy precipitate that reacted more when heated. xP. In the end our TA just told us to put our thumb over the test tube opening and shake it. lol. (Very Bad Technique!) It was a short lab.

Anyways, It was two hours from the midterm. I was so tempted to just jump on my bike and go around campus. It became really sunny during the day. And it was so warm and awesome. xP. It was a tough decision, but I decided to study. I got a window seat and got to it.

The midterm was pretty good. The last one was too hard, so she made this one easier I think. It was a lot of straightforward questions. Maybe the material was easier too..? In any case I was very happy that there were so many questions that I knew the answer 100%, not like cross out two then guess based on what I think should be the answer. Multiple Choice is pretty great. This was like the first time we had a class go until nearly 9 though (we have class after the midterms, what?)

We went out to China town for Pho. We = KL, JXW and EL. It was sweet. xP I want to be better friends with KL. It's kinda tough though. xP So much sarcasm and hipster-ness to cut through to get to the real KL. lol.

Anyways, I think I've gotta sleep soon. xP

LT showed us Da Jesus Book, a Hawai'i Pidgin version of the Bible.. It's pretty cool, but I don't know some Hawai'in words (only what I picked up from Lilo and Stitch (no lie)).

Ttyl

D.Fa

Family of Families

Yo, I don't think I sit down and read the Bible enough. Hehe.

Some people are content with the 'inspirational verse of the day', but that's not for me.

Today in the Pauline Epistles class (I guess you could call it a 'Bible study') we read like all of Ephesians. It was really good. When you realize that the whole letter was written with a purpose, when you realize that it all works together, when you just get it. So good. I think it was really good for SM too. xP Ephesians is his favorite book apparently ad he really needed some time in the word. I did too, eh? lol.

Anyways, today was sweet. Soooo little time being productive, but it was good. My friend MY is really funny and it's awesome to see the difference in our friendship since the beginning of the year. I've learned a lot about who he is and the ways God has already been speaking into his life and I've just been able to have really open conversations about everything that God is showing me. I need to get to the gospel though, eh? xP. It's been a lot of talk about Christians, not that much about the gospel, but even just this week the difference in the conversations we've been having is sweet. Pray for him. xP

Also, my mom wants to come to church. She asked when the next 'big event' would be. Keep praying for her.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

PS. Saudi Arabia!

Just to Worship in Spirit and Truth

It always seems to be when I'm at my happiest that I get pulled down. I  may have been a bit sick this morning, or a bit stressed, or a bit annoyed with the thought of all the work I had ahead of me, but I just felt so bad. Anyways, I did a bit of work and got a drive to school.

I wasted a lot of time on youtube/facebook today. I guess I was trying to comfort myself? It wasn't really working. Doing most of the genetics tutorial work due next week calmed me down. Working mindlessly with numbers often does (best part of gr11 accounting). I was kinda banking on the Worship Night.

I really don't like doing things 'religiously', like because it's the thing to do, even though I don't feel like I want to. Like going to a prayer meeting just because it is scheduled and then sit there and not pray. That's what I kinda felt on the way as I walked to Sunnyside Wesleyan church. I feel like I often end up not loving God because I'm too busy holding onto things I desire more than Him like comfort, security, my plans, my idols. I feel like I'm so bipolar about the attitude I give off. I try to keep an image of having everything together, but past a certain point of chaos in my life I just quit (temporarily). lol

Anyways, the worship night was sweet. It was planned as a way of getting the 'Christian groups' on campus to get to know each other a bit and work together, since it is the same God that we worship and live for, God who has given us life abundantly, loved us immeasurably, paid more than can be counted through the cross, and pours out his Spirit without end. There was desert and mingle time with people bingo ice breaker game and a lot of worship. xP. Two worship bands, a rag tag group and the myChurch band. I feel better. lol. My worth is in Christ, not in the things I have done. I need to remember that all I have has come from Him.

Ttyl.

D.Fa




The following is the lyrics to and then the youtube form (no video) of a song we sang tonight with the myChurch band (lol)

Hillsong: Unending Love

"Verse 1:
There's no silver or gold
And no treasure untold
That could draw me away from Your heart
Neither love of myself
Or of anyone else will do

Pre-chorus:
Jesus nothing compares
To this grace that rescued me
Saviour now and forever
Your face is all I seek

Chorus:
Now all I am
I lay at Your feet
I'm humbled by the wonder of Your majesty
One thing I know
I find all I need
In Your unending love
In Your unending love

Verse 2:
Letting go of my pride
I lay down my desires
Just to worship in Spirit and truth
More than all of my dreams
More than fame I will seek You Lord

Pre-Chorus
Chorus x2"

Papaya Pirates?

Yo.

Things are really happening. Hehe. My DRP trip is coming and I am so pumped for it. I will not be mentioning anything about it on this blog, but trust me, I may leave cryptic notes. lol.

I went to the pharmacy on Monday and I was kinda scared that having cancelled my health plan I'd have to pay a lot, but apparently it was all payed for last year and I just need one, so that's sweet news.

Umm. Since coming back from the retreat I've been semi-obsessed with a band called Ginger Ninja. Is that not a sick name? xP. I originally thought of a ninja with bright red hair. I was disappointed to see that none of the members of the band have red hair. >.> Then my roommate pointed out it could be the root. I suppose. They are pretty cool (their music). They remind me of 'two door cinema club' a bit.

On another note I'm writing a bunch of my friends a letter and to determine whether I need a million copies or not I asked who would like a hard copy (in a much more interesting and entertaining way. lol) and I've had like 17 people reply already. Hehe. Now I just need to actually write it.

In DG we are working on our testimonies. We've gotta be real. No masks. How real..? lol.

Yesterday was my first Roll Up the Rim. I was ready to forgive Tim Hortons. You see, I kinda don't support big businesses like Timmies and McD's. And I especially don't get involved in these silly games like Monopoly. But when LT offered to buy me something, I just had to have a chance. This was the deciding moment. One chance. Win or Lose. We had a good conversation. He was late a bit again. lol... Anyways, challenging stuff. Then at the end of the conversation I rolled it up. I lost. I'm done. No more games. lol. I quit. xP

Today didn't go the way I thought it would. I think I'm starting to get tired of people being late. >.> But I still love you. Praying for you.

The weather today was awesome. It was really great that time today. We should do things like that more often. >.<

Ttyl.

D.Fa

PS. Moldova! 

Another Break

Hey!

So, I haven't been blogging recently I guess. lol.

There are good reasons for this. I had to work on updating my supporters about the Short Film Project, I had to get ready for a presentation Friday night, I ended up sharing a large amount of my testimony with RW over facebook and most recently I was in a place that had absolutely no reception. So weird. I nearly always have reception. Only on project or when I don't have my cell phone or in Northern Quebec where there were no cell phone towers, but Lanark, Ontario? lol.

It was really great. Like, I had no idea what we would be doing there, so, I wasn't really excited. I was going because I am part of that small group, Young Adults. I really enjoyed being able to spend some time away from the pressure to just be with my brothers and sisters in Christ, to have fun times together, to get to know them better, to learn more about God's word together, to eat good food together, to encourage one another. We played board games, sang songs together, taboganed and slid for far too long on a snowy hill, played with the dog, prayed together, etc. GP was with us, which is very encouraging. It's really awesome seeing how God is speaking to her and softening her heart. May He continue to show her His love and desire for her to know Him more and more.

If only there were more time. (Can't wait for heaven. hehe.)

On that note, I wanted to let you know about something. If your eye causes you to sin, gouge it out for it is better to enter into life crippled than to go to eternal punishment (paraphrased). So this week I've prayed three times actually that if I ever end up in a crazy accident and lose the ability to see in one of my eyes that I would praise God. I would not be upset about it because it would help stop (to a degree) the temptations of the eyes. My eyes wander far too often. Of course it would suck having only one eye (or none, that could happen too), but this is just the flesh. What does it really matter if in the end we are given a new body and there will be no sin, but all the goodness of God and His creation.

There won't be sickness either and I'll be able to sing songs of praise forever without having a cold or sore throat. Hehe. (I've wanted to just stop and play guitar for hours, but I'm still a bit sick and I don't 'have time')

Anyways, Ttyl.

D.Fa





PS. Sri Lanka!! and Turkey (again?)!!