I Surrender All

Ok. So. Today.

Today started an hour later than it was supposed to, but that didn't stop me from getting up early to procrastinate and end up doing nothing important at all. In fact, when I have a lot of 'free' alone time that is when I am most likely to fall to temptation. Then I was just depressed and felt stupid and ashamed.

I left the house to go meet with KC before church. He ended up getting off at the wrong stop when he heard 'baseline' and so he did not end up at Baseline station. Just somewhere along baseline road...

So, I missed Sunday school again for almost no reason... and I still felt pretty bad AND KC was somewhere in Ottawa trying to bus somewhere else that he barely knew in the cold Movember weather, so I was kinda worried about him...

Anyways, it was the first Sunday of the month so we had a joint communion. (Oh... Pastor DB was back. Did he find his permanent residency card..? Hmmm.... I wonder) For most of it I was worried KC would pop into the sanctuary through a 'bad door' and upset the communion service..... I didn't want him to feel embarassed like I would have been if that happened to me. But the whole communion service really hit me over the head the whole 'Jesus died for your sins' and 'you are forgiven' 1 John 1:9 "But if we confess our sins to him, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and purify you from all unrighteousness". Honestly, I felt way better after the communion. There actually wasn't enough juice prepared for everyone, ie there were more people participating in it than they expected. That is a good thing. xP

KC entered the sanctuary just as the communion service finished. I was expecting to explain communion to him on the bus on the way, but I suppose I can explain it later. He hasn't really read any of the Bible yet, as far as I know, so it would be a new thing to hear, like most things are for him.

So, all the songs I chose this week for worship team are about how Jesus came, bore our sins and died for us. Before the Throne of God Above, The Saving One, In Christ Alone, He Will Come and Save You, and How Deep the Father's Love for Us. They actually fit with the message pretty well. xP (I didn't know what the sermon was about this week.... xP)

Yesterday's practice was a lot of fun, CW had a mic!, it was piano / bass / drums and everyone was singing, and I was the only person on the center of the stage... xP and all the songs go into a range where I back away from the mic. xP (I thought that pretty much all of the A/V was a bit loud today. Like normally I would be close to the mic when singing harmonies, but I was usually about a foot away on average... xP) I also played a bit of electric guitar yesterday. xP (The fret board is too narrow!)

So, ya. The songs really got to me and I sang with my heart because God reminded me during the communion why I was even there; I was there to worship Him for all he has done for me. If it wasn't for Him and all he has blessed me with, I don't know where I would be.

We kinda played with tempos a bit.

I got a lot of compliments, but it isn't about what songs I chose our how well I sang, it is about what songs God lead me to and the gifts God has given me and most importantly about how great God is and how amazing his love for us.

Anyways, I just played guitar for like half an hour in my room on my bed singing worship songs. I don't know any strumming patterns and I only strum downwards, but I'm getting better at changing chords.

So, ya. Psalm 32 1-5,10-11 "How blessed is he whose transgression is forgiven, Whose sin is covered! How blessed is the man to whom the lord does not impute iniquity, And in whose spirit there is no deceit! When I kept silent about my sin, my body wasted away through my groaning all day long. For day and night Thy hand was heavy upon me; My vitality was drained away as the fever heat of summer. I acknowledged my sin to Thee, And my iniquity I did not hide; I said "i will confess my transgrssions to the Lord"; And Thou didst forgive me of my sin. Many are the sorrows of the wicked; But he who trusts in the Lord, lovingkindness will surround him. Be glad in the Lord and rejoice you righteous ones, And shout for joy all you who are upright in heart."

That was today's Call to worship and I probably introduced it the same way, almost. I didn't let anyone sit down for like 3.5 songs....... xP Ooops....

Whatever.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

PS. I really need to do some homework... xP

PPS. TAIWAN!! GERMANY!!