Echoing Silences

So, ya. Today in my "5-minute break" during my FILM class I started writing a blog post and finished later on the 111. So, here it is:

Today I have been confronted by the idea of quiet time. Time spent listening for God to reply directly.

I do admit to not spending time in silence listening for God. I cannot say that I even try too hard in this aspect. There have been a few times where in church or something we were told to take time pray and then listen for God.

In these times I always find it really hard to silence my own thoughts. I don't remember where, but I think it was an english class at some point I read something like words are a virus, that either you are reading, writing, talking or thinking something and it just leads to more words or something and I thought it was really true. Even in dead silence, someone is thinking something. This may be one reason for why I have kind of given up on quiet time.

Also, I feel God can speak through other things like in specific events or through reading the Bible if something pops out to you as being relevant to something you have prayed about and you just know as your first thought that it was from God.

Ever since Saturday when I saw "unashamed" written on my face in the mirror I have been telling myself that I am unashamed whenever I am feeling down. Feelings come and go, but this is fact: Jesus paid for my sins on the cross so that I can stand unashamed in a relationship with Him.

Today after my conversation with JS I thought about how we do need to take time to listen for God, not because we have to so that He will speak to us, but that if we aren't trying we probably won't. The amazing thing behind this idea is that God is trying to speak to us, we just aren't listening and get lost in day to day worries. To go to such an extent as making a word appear on my face as a method of speaking to me shows how much I am not paying attention. Like if all the other less obvious methods havn't been working, so he had to resort to this.

So, ya... I really should set aside time to listen for God's answers and I suppose that at the same time I should pray less shallow prayers that mean so little.

Ya.

Oh Heavenly Father, Lord I thank you for reaching out to us and today for speaking through JS and getting me to realize we have a relationship meaning we are both contributing to it and that I need to listen more. Lord I'm sorry for not listening intently, but at the same time I thank you for going to the extent you do to show us your love and desire to be in a relationship with us. Lord, help me realize what I should be doing in this life and give me a reason to be doing them, not just because it is in my schedule. My schedule is not in control of my life. You are. Lord, help me to be a better witness to BJ and Lord, work in her heart. ... In your name I pray. Amen.

Ya. Ttyl. D.Fa

PS. I'm thinking about starting another blog. xP It would be a blog where as I study the Bible chapter by chapter (or maybe just a few verses at a time..?) I would record my thoughts and summarize the verses..? Something like that. There is only one thing that I think I should have before I start that. xP