僕の家族

So, today I had driving lessons, started writing some blog posts, went to worship leader study and went to my parents' for my Dad's birthday dinner.

Cool day. I got to drive way more and on a bunch of different roads and with traffic too! I nearly ran a red light and a couple stop signs because I was too busy thinking how far above the speed limit was acceptable. lol...

I had a bagel and a carrot then bussed to church.

There may be an awesome Christmas concert at OCBC this December, which sounds sweet.

Ya, I really like being able to spend some time with my parents. I'm actually feeling a bit homesick this year. I can't wait until the Christmas break. I keep wanting to go back to that atmosphere of Christmas at my house. Like, my house during the year is one thing, but like, during Christmas it's cleaner and has this warm atmosphere all the time. I don't know. It's different and I miss it. xP......

I never really care about the presents I mean, my parents ask me to make a Christmas list and everything and submit it to them. In previous years it was like, last second go online and look at a list of video games that I'd never play because I just don't have time. This year I did something different. I kept a list on my phone the entire year and whenever I thought I wanted something or would really like something I wrote it down and it's a very untypical list compared to the other years.

There's actually two books on it. Legit yo.

So, ya. As much as I want the things on this list, I don't need them. I don't want them as much as I want to spend time with my family over the Christmas break. Seriously. There's nothing I want more than to see my family in eternity with us.

Ya. So I keep on praying and trusting in God for his timing and plans to come to fulfillment.

Ya. Ttyl.

D.Fa

PS. Philippines!

"No More Let Sins and Sorrows Grow"

So, ya.

Today was really ... idk... I woke up 3 hours later than I wanted to after having on and off really fun dreams that I now do not remember, watching Bleach and Pokemon with fried rice and ice cream, I sinned, then I worked from 12-6 in produce and now I am here.

I was super really depressed all day and BJ kept telling me I was acting weird. I was thinking a lot about a lot of stuff, like how I am using my busy schedule as an excuse to not spend time with God and how I should then take advantage of this schedule to schedule in time for God (although I realize this is clearly not supposed to compartmentalise God into an hour here or there). Then I realized that that is one purpose of YA. YA is a couple hours where the number 1 top priority is to study God's word and fellowship with other brothers/sisters and all that good stuff. So, ya. YA has a new meaning to me, but at the same time, there is no YA right now (cuz everybody diffused across the country... >.> I mean BC, Yukon, Nova Scotia, Toronto, Calgary, etc.)

At 5 or so I started doing production in the backroom, so I turned on the radio to CHRI and ya. I quickly stopped being so depressed. "That's What Faith Can Do" "Our God" and other songs made me think other stuff and I was singing out loud (except when people walked by... xP). xP Then there was this song that was really really cool. So I wrote the name of the song on my hand. It was "What Love Really Means" by JJ Heller.



That is the MV, which is also pretty cool while being very simple.

Anyways, BJ left and will not be working until after Christmas because she is going home for Christmas and I won't be back until January 1st and I may not be working very much after that..... so it was basically like the last time I will see her until next year and I was being such a loser all day.... So on the way home I text apologized. xP but in 1000 characters... >.> Also her name has been changed to my standardized blog initials:

"Hey BJ. I'm sorry for how I was acting today. I was just really depressed/angry at myself for being a sinner and I really shouldn't have been acting that way. Especially now at Christmas time I should know better. I just havn't been really acting the way I should, I havn't really been reading or praying or spending time with God or anything and its really my fault. For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotton son that whoever believes in him shall not perish, but have eternal life. For God did not send his son into the world to condemn it, but to save it. And God's love is unconditional. It doesn't matter what you've done or who you will become. God sent his son to pay for our sins and bridge the gap between us and God so that we could have a personal relationship with Him because there's nothing we could ever do to earn our way to heaven by ourselves or our own effort. It's by faith alone that we can stand unashamed.

So, ya. I'm sorry. XP. Merry Chistmas. XP"

I was laughing about the sudden ending because of the 1000 characters. That's waht the xP's at the end are for. xP I meant to say sorry for being such a loser in the last few hours she'll see me, but it wouldn't fit. xP

Ya. Christmas is when Jesus was born in a manger in Bethlehem. 33 years or so later he died for our sins becuase he had none of his own and because he was God and because he loved us. All of our sins were in the future at the time, but God is above time.

I'm just rambling now. xP.... I will not watch anymore anime until I read 50 psalms because that is how many I should have read before having watched all the anime I've watched this week. Anime has taken a high priority in my life again and clearly the reprecusions are pretty bad. It's idolatry basically. So, ya..... I was thinking that I should swap God for anime, but then I was trying to apply that in my head and was like "Oh, I'm bored. I should watch anime." "Oh! There's a new episode of One Piece! I need to watch it as soon as possible!" But trying to swap thos situations and I realize that there's never a new chapter in the Bible so I can't really swap that, but then I realized I havn't finished reading all of it soooo.... there are still some new chapters... xP Buuuut I will be reading them all in the next year, so ya. *rolls eyes*

Ttyl. xP

=D.Fa

PS. I was thinking of 2 Timothy 3:16 "All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness". Training in righteousness is what I need right now. Clearly that is because I havn't been reading my Bible very much / not remembering memory verses. Also Psalm 199:11 "I have hidden your word in my heart that I might not sin against you" that applies to my lack of memory verses..?

Point: I know I need to spend time with God, with his word, praying to him, singing his praises, etc. He has provided us his word, he has provided us redemption, he listens to our prayers, he gives this all as a free gift to us through his son who paid the price once and for all that all have the option to have a relationship with Him.

I'm really bad at getting a point across. xP

Random.

So, I was putting out the recycling when I heard this eerie noise. It was the singing bus again, but I couldn't see it. I listened harder and heard it going by in the distance.

It's so creepy... xP

Also, did I already blog today..? xP

I need to clean my room xP. I haven't cleaned it since September and it's kind of dusty.

I feel like if I write things on my blog I end up with nothing to talk about in person with some of you.

Did I tell you I'm working tommorow..? That means I am working everyday this week (except today and Christmas) and then I am gone for a week.

So, ya. I don't know what to get people for Christmas... I feel like now that I am in University I am supposed to be creative with gift givng and things like this. I feel this because people like TM, JB, AH and the like are always so creative in the things they do...

A bunch of people are coming back to Ottawa, but I don't know when or what we will do together / I will be leaving soon... >.>

Guh.

....

Ttyl.

D.Fa

PS. I miss the YA.

I'm Free!

So, hey!

I have completed semester 1A, I mean, first semester of first year. I completed my Calculus exam in an hour and a half with some inspiration here and there, but it was pretty easy. I only really studied breifly on Friday derivatives and crammed yesterday for a few hours on Integration. Do you ever cram all the hard stuff and then only the easy stuff is on the exam..? It annoys me sometimes, but then I realize that I will be getting a better mark because it was easy.

I hadn't checked any of my marks until today and I only checked because my CHEM prof sent me an email. This is what it said:

"Hi – You got an A+ in CHEM 1001. Pretty awesome.

Bob."

That is all it said except for all his contect info at the bottom. Bob is my favourite prof. xP He's so sarcastic sometimes. xP

Anyways. I am now done my exams. yuss. I also just beat LoZ Spirit Tracks. The final battle is very similar to a number of other LoZ battles my brother tells me. A possesed Zelda, a puppet master, an over-sized, blue, horned, red-haired, gem-on-the-forehead monster on four legs, a light arrow, a magical instrument, sages, a magic sword, stabbing the bad guy in the head, all have been done before. xP It was still very fun.

Ya. Only a few days until Christmas! and a couple more until WC!!! I still don't know how I'm getting there. xP

Ttyl.

D.Fa

PS. I'm free because Jesus set me free from my slavery to sin.

"Are You Studying..?"

If I hate sin. Why do I want to so badly. Why are these thoughts in my head and in my dreams..? Ya... It's messed... Why are even my dreams perverse..?

Anyways... xP

Yesterday I realized that there are a number of instances where I will have sung a song for a long time and not actually known what the song was about. For example, I'm sure you all know Halleluia. Only on Friday did I realize that the David in the song was King David and that one of the verses was refering to Bathsheba.

Also, a lot of common songs get sung without really fully understanding them. And the more often they are sung, the less meaning they hold sometimes. Christmas songs for example have just become songs in my mind, but we were caroling yesterday and the second or third varses that I didn't really know very well had a lot more meaning than the ones I had known by heart. Those verses I knew were just lyrics to a song, but reading the words I didn't know..... I don't know where I am going with this.... xP

Ya.... xP Pay attention to the words the next time you sing something.

O... I got the "So, you're religious" comment today... xP.... It is weird to hear... I hope to be a good witness to him. xP ML works in Salad Bar / Produce. Today I helped out in Salad Bar for a few hours making veggie platters because Salad Bar was a bit behind because someone was 2.5 hours late to work this morning... but now that I am trained in Salad bar, I don't have to go ask if they need help, they will come to me. xP I'm glad I can be of help. I'm thinking of inviting him to the christmas eve service, but i don't know...

I was going to buy my mom "Despicable Me" for christmas, but then I found out that she had bought it for us. xP We were going to go see it for her birthday in July, but my brother had school and then I saw it with some YA........ I guess I will have to fall back to my original present idea. Shaving my moustache / beard.... I'm growing attached to it though... T.T

I just thought "man I use ellipsises a lot." xP

Ok, so. The other day BJ was trying to guess my middle name. I told her it started with a J. She couldn't get it. I told her it ended with an S and is 5 letters long. Her first 3 guesses after that clue were Judas, Jesus and James. I thought this was funny.

Umm... I don't know what else I can say right now, so I'll talk to you later.

D.Fa

Sick at Christmas

So, hey.

What's up..? I'm really busy with work and studying and stuff. That is what I should say, but honestly, it's only been like a few hours of work a day and I have not studied yet and I have wasted massive amounts of time watching Pokemon Best Wishes and playing Legend of Zelda Spirit Tracks. I also havn't really been reading the Bible or praying too much... and I've fallen to quite a spiritual low... If it wasn't for my friends and a certain blog I would be even lower possibly.

So, ya. I started working in Salad Bar on Tuesday and I have worked like 25 hours since then. Christmas is the time when people buy platters because they are having parties and stuff so they needed to make a bunch. Salad bar is pretty fun. There's always something to do and you often have someone to talk to. Broccoli Salad looks really gross though..... xP Like someone already chewed it. Spinach Salad looks sooooo tasty....

Also, the main reason I have been wasting my life on LoZ is because I am going to give it to my brother for Christmas, but I would like to play it first. I mean, I bought it in September and didn't play it until Wednesday. I'm nearly done, just one more temple and then the final boss fight. Ya... xP

YA was so much fun on Thursday. We had a going away potluck for R(?) and HK. Then, while JC was finishing her project worth 40% that was due at midnight we went tobagoning on a GT Snowracer. LOL. Just Lol. We had a short lived competition to see wich team could go the farthest, we ran down the hill. xP We then went and tobagoned down the bridges... xP It's more fun then it sounds. Then we went back to CW's house. "Look out for the hill!" LOL.

Ya.....

I was thinking how can we ever live up to God's expectations? Like its so easy to sin, how can he expect us not to...? Do we just have to try our hardest..? No..... I've thought this before. We can't try our hardest and expect that to please God. Our hardest is still a giant failure. Humans are weak and sinful. We can't rely on ourselves to please God or try to earn favour. 1. Our best is still far from good and 2. It just doesn't work. This is why Jesus came down on Christmas a couple thousand years ago. He came to us because we could never reach Him with our own efforts. He came to reconcile us to God, to take away our sins, to give us power over sin, to give us his Spirit. But if we don't rely on his strength we just fall back to the situation we were in before.

Why do we sin? Why? Why can't it just be easy? How can I want to live as Jesus wants me to, while at the same time be hiding sin.

On a lighter note, I found these amazing toys at Zellers the other day. Sooo fun. xP



xP. Taken on my phone, so ya.. xP The toys sing each sing a different song, but you get to decide the tempo, by making them sing the next note in the song each time you squeeze them. They also hold the note as long as you squeeze them. They make chords and stuff if you play with more than one at a time, but while taking the video I only had one free hand and there was a message over the intercom (it wasn't the toy talking xP)... So, ya. You should just go and see them in person. xP

Ttyl.

D.Fa

PS. Slovenia and Ukraine! w00t!

Training..?!

Hey,

I am about to go to work!

You see, so that I can work Thursday, I need training in Salad Bar, so I am going to be working 6:30-12 today. Then I'll beat my Physics exam, then I'll be free to do whatever I want until my exam next Tuesday.

Apparently almost everyone in Salad Bar is going away for Christmas, so I may be getting a number of hours in Salad Bar. xP I really havn't made enough money these last few months, so, this may be a very good oppourtunity. xP plus its gonna be fun. XP

I hope my boss doesn't get too mad at me. I mean, I really want a different job, and I'm gonna have to get a different job in January anyways... >.>

Ttyl.

D.Fa

PS. BJ likes my moustache!

The Name of Evil is "Beady Long Legs"!

Ok. This is mostly random. This post is coming from experience and from a certain picture I took on Canada Day. That picture. The sculpture reminds me of this monster in a video game.

The video game is called "Pikmin" and it is one of my favourite games ever. I even searched all over Ottawa to buy it a year or two ago. xP

Pikmin has strategic game play with discovery, excitement, "battling", collecting things, a time limit, and much much more.

Then there was Beady Long Legs. He flattened so many of my Pikmin.... TT.TT I rushed in with a whole pile of pikmin and he squished them! I grew an irrational fear for my Pikmin's lives whenever encountering a boss monster.

This is a video of Beady Long legs. Half of his pikmin are killed! T.T



Ttyl. xP.....

D.Fa

Christmas in Movember..?

Hello.

Watch this. Actually. Just listen to it. It was the only youtube video I could find with this exact clip of music I wanted. The video is kinda funny, but the music is the best part. xP.



(Of course that was kinda out of the context of the song it belongs to and is WAY funnier in context, but I don't want to make you listen to this song for 22 minutes, so do so at your own pleasing. The song was designed so that although it is, generally, musical it has many elements that people "don't like" such as talking about books, cowboys, opera, rap, children choirs, tubas, banjos, bagpipes etc. Info is here if you want it: http://www.wired.com/listening_post/2008/04/a-scientific-at/ Honestly I laughed at quite a bit of it. Especially the randomly placed commercials and tuba)

Anyways. The point of me bringing that up was that I am completely annoyed at how commercial our society is. It is Mov 6 and Independent is completely covered in all it's christmas decorations. Can you not wait until at least Dec 10th..? nearly two months in advance..? That is outrageous. EE and DS and I were talking about this at C4C Weekly Meeting. As soon as it snows it becomes christmas and so you can sing Christmas songs all the time and take a break for Rememberance Day, then sing again until maybe January.

Anyways. I really want to watch a game of Quidditch. You heard me. Quidditch. or rather, Muggle Quidditch, but it is still amazing, yet I have not seen any of it. Except for this promotional video for the Quidditch World Cup:



I really want to learn more about how to play. EE is actually on the team. xP

Anyways, I should do some homework. xP

Ttyl.

D.Fa

Great. It's Raining Again.

So, hey!

Today when I checked the stats (xP... they make me happy...) I discovered that Poland had now seen my blog! and actually, they had more views than Canada when I checked!

I don't really have much to say right now... It's raining again... I had a physics lab... I'm super hungry now (3:30pm...)... Summit is this weekend!!! I have work 3 times next week... I can't go to YA or C4C next week because of work... but I get Saturday / Sunday off. yuss. but I'm actually really busy those days with Worship team and thanksgiving meals. >.> umm...... idk... I'm gonna have lunch and watch anime now.

Epik High Paris!



D.Fa

Canada Day

So. I've been here for a number of hours (here being downtown in general) with a bunch of YA / CFC people and I don't really understand what this day is about... but its been fun just hanging / burning / doing nothing with these guys. I don't really care about the fireworks. It'd be way cooler to launch our own. =P

[The fireworks were pretty cool. It's really awesome when you can actually feel it after the firework explodes.]