It's Complicated

Hey,

it hasn't been long since I have brought my struggles with homosexuality to public, if you haven't read yet check here.

So, as I say, I really don't have all the answers and now that this is public information, although I will not be changing how I act and live in general, there are some situations where I do think a change is required or that standard procedures need to be figured out.

The first one that I think is an important change is just making people aware in certain situations. Specifically if I am ever staying over at another guy's house, if guys are staying over at my house, or if me and other guys are staying in the same room, under these situations I feel like I should make sure they know this. By having a quick talk about it we can avoid a lot of issues.

But ya, I still don't know what to do in such situations. Like last semester I was alone in another guy's room and I was definitely acting really awkward. >.> I don't like being alone in a room with only another guy. >.>

I'm sure I'll be explaining more about situations that are difficult for me, but one is like the difficult balance between wanting to mentor or disciple younger guys which does usually require a large degree of openness and sharing, and not getting too close to any guy simply because of temptation and everything that comes up when I get too close to guys.

>.> It's complicated, but I'm sure God'll get me through this and help me figure it out.

Ttyl.

D.Fa