Pretty much wasted the whole day I think.
It kinda really annoys me that KA will not do anything 'social' outside of work hours. Like, how am I supposed to get to know you when we only get to talk for like 20 minutes at lunch 3 or 4 times a week? And even then he hardly talks. >.<
And sitting here all day is so useless.
>.<
D.Fa
30.6.13
The Goal is Holiness in Christ
Sometimes I wish I could just be honest with you. like 100%. Cause there's so much I wish I could just get off my chest right now, but here in this forum like this isn't the way it should happen. Some things are better left unsaid until better figured out and, no offense, but my blog is nearly never going to be the first to hear anything from me.
Anyways, yesterday was kinda boring. lol. It was like official cleaning day at work, so we had a meeting at 9 am to organize ourselves and then got to it at 10. Our lab was by far the messiest. Like stuff from 40 years ago? Stuff from people who have never worked with anyone still in the lab. >.> Additionally, it is a pretty big space.
I actually had to dip the last half of the meeting because I had an interview to do on the phone. On two days notice I had to email everyone in the co-op office to get the interview onto a media I could do (phone or skype instead of in Ottawa in person). It was figured out, but then the interview was pushed back an hour.
At lunch FB came with me to have lunch with YF. LOL. I think it was a good time. Now FB can't make fun of my 'asian friends' as much and it actually wasn't as bad as I thought it might be. lol.
Alpha as always was sweet. Talked about healing, a topic I am quite skeptical of. But like, it's called a miracle because it goes beyond what is normally possible. A miracle is hard to believe because it is, hard to believe based on normal conditions. It is like being able to see a tiny bit of what God is actually capable of. The non-Christians in our group were very skeptical of it and asked if any of us had actually seen someone healed, which a few girls had. But they also wanted to emphasize that physical healing isn't the most important thing. If you are healed physically, you are still gonna die. If you are healed spiritually, there is so much more left for you whenever you do pass from this life to eternity.
Today: sin. Mewtwo Strikes Back (with the 10 minutes that were removed about the girl who died and mewtwo's childhood which should never have been removed. >.<). Dish washing / laundry. Missed a bus. Finally read the Bible. Bussed downtown. Messaged a brother about my sin (good talk. Really blessed to have met him recently). Watched a couple hours of JazzFest with some friends (so many songs from Dixie band. The second band, like literally every song was from our song package, and in the same arrangement. >.>). FREE PC brand food. xP. Bussed home with an interesting talk with a guy whose name I never got. Now I'm here, still grieving.
*sigh*
But I know God is greater and even this somehow is in His plans for the greater good. Lessons to learn. Humility to remember. Gotta get the Spirit to help me stay on track, cause this sucks.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
PS. Greece. Sweet.
Anyways, yesterday was kinda boring. lol. It was like official cleaning day at work, so we had a meeting at 9 am to organize ourselves and then got to it at 10. Our lab was by far the messiest. Like stuff from 40 years ago? Stuff from people who have never worked with anyone still in the lab. >.> Additionally, it is a pretty big space.
I actually had to dip the last half of the meeting because I had an interview to do on the phone. On two days notice I had to email everyone in the co-op office to get the interview onto a media I could do (phone or skype instead of in Ottawa in person). It was figured out, but then the interview was pushed back an hour.
At lunch FB came with me to have lunch with YF. LOL. I think it was a good time. Now FB can't make fun of my 'asian friends' as much and it actually wasn't as bad as I thought it might be. lol.
Alpha as always was sweet. Talked about healing, a topic I am quite skeptical of. But like, it's called a miracle because it goes beyond what is normally possible. A miracle is hard to believe because it is, hard to believe based on normal conditions. It is like being able to see a tiny bit of what God is actually capable of. The non-Christians in our group were very skeptical of it and asked if any of us had actually seen someone healed, which a few girls had. But they also wanted to emphasize that physical healing isn't the most important thing. If you are healed physically, you are still gonna die. If you are healed spiritually, there is so much more left for you whenever you do pass from this life to eternity.
Today: sin. Mewtwo Strikes Back (with the 10 minutes that were removed about the girl who died and mewtwo's childhood which should never have been removed. >.<). Dish washing / laundry. Missed a bus. Finally read the Bible. Bussed downtown. Messaged a brother about my sin (good talk. Really blessed to have met him recently). Watched a couple hours of JazzFest with some friends (so many songs from Dixie band. The second band, like literally every song was from our song package, and in the same arrangement. >.>). FREE PC brand food. xP. Bussed home with an interesting talk with a guy whose name I never got. Now I'm here, still grieving.
*sigh*
But I know God is greater and even this somehow is in His plans for the greater good. Lessons to learn. Humility to remember. Gotta get the Spirit to help me stay on track, cause this sucks.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
PS. Greece. Sweet.
28.6.13
Don't Drown
I have an interview tomorrow so this will be written in less than 5 minutes.
So, for the last few days I have been very serious about taking my breaks at work. Not just because looking through a bright microscope for hours hurts my eyes, but also because I have kinda been missing breakfast a bit and breakfast is when I read the Bible, so I really need to prioritize that. So at 10 and 3 I got upstairs to the old lunch break room place and read and pray. It has been a really sweet week and I think I have really heard God speak to me, whether or not I like what He said. Today FB found out that I was taking breaks up there. He's kinda against Bible reading and Bible studies and everything, so when he got up there we just had to play pool instead of letting me keep reading. lol. Pool is cool I guess. I really pray FB would be open t going through a Bible study himself in a week or two.
Talk to you later.
D.Fa
So, for the last few days I have been very serious about taking my breaks at work. Not just because looking through a bright microscope for hours hurts my eyes, but also because I have kinda been missing breakfast a bit and breakfast is when I read the Bible, so I really need to prioritize that. So at 10 and 3 I got upstairs to the old lunch break room place and read and pray. It has been a really sweet week and I think I have really heard God speak to me, whether or not I like what He said. Today FB found out that I was taking breaks up there. He's kinda against Bible reading and Bible studies and everything, so when he got up there we just had to play pool instead of letting me keep reading. lol. Pool is cool I guess. I really pray FB would be open t going through a Bible study himself in a week or two.
Talk to you later.
D.Fa
26.6.13
Excited
Yo.
So I guess I said I would tell you some things. lol
As I tweet, I am really excited. xP
A friend I met a year or so ago met one of my friends. I only got to spend a little bit of time with him, so we didn't get to talk all that much about Jesus or anything, but he had a bunch of good conversations with him about the Bible and Christ. xP. He even was thinking about sin and came up with an analogy of a dot on a piece of paper. I had never actually heard that before so that's sweet. xP
Additionally, my friend YF really enjoyed the Alpha retreat and had a lot of fun and it was great getting to spend more time with him outside of the food court or church. lol. He also started reading the book I got him about Science and faith in God. xP. Says he's really relating to the concerns raised by Lee Strobel. The book is called "Case for a Creator" and I really enjoyed it. Strobel, as a journalist, goes to the experts to ask questions about science's portrayed incompatibility with faith, and along the way everything that had caused them to become atheistic originally now were actually in support of intelligent design and God.
Anyways, ttyl.
D.Fa
So I guess I said I would tell you some things. lol
As I tweet, I am really excited. xP
A friend I met a year or so ago met one of my friends. I only got to spend a little bit of time with him, so we didn't get to talk all that much about Jesus or anything, but he had a bunch of good conversations with him about the Bible and Christ. xP. He even was thinking about sin and came up with an analogy of a dot on a piece of paper. I had never actually heard that before so that's sweet. xP
Additionally, my friend YF really enjoyed the Alpha retreat and had a lot of fun and it was great getting to spend more time with him outside of the food court or church. lol. He also started reading the book I got him about Science and faith in God. xP. Says he's really relating to the concerns raised by Lee Strobel. The book is called "Case for a Creator" and I really enjoyed it. Strobel, as a journalist, goes to the experts to ask questions about science's portrayed incompatibility with faith, and along the way everything that had caused them to become atheistic originally now were actually in support of intelligent design and God.
Anyways, ttyl.
D.Fa
24.6.13
我们一起吃
Yo.
It's been a couple days, eh? Ya. It has been. lol.
It was a couple days where I didn't get back home until like 12.
Friday there was no Alpha course at night so I told FB we should do something. He had been sick all week, so it was a long time. We went to Costco and then back to his house. He made spaghetti and we watched Bleach. lol. Filler episodes. >.> Then we ended up watching Superbad. The trailers made it look way better than it actually was. The last five minutes were okay though. lol. I don't think too many people cared, but the moral of the story seemed to be that you shouldn't do all this stupid stuff to impress the girl. Just be yourself. But that kinda gets lost among all the highschool drunkenness and cops who should never have received badges. >.> Not recommended.
So I got home late. lol. Sleep. Immediately.
Next morning. Saturday. Wake up at 7. Picked up at 8 and away we go. Alpha camp weekend. xP Drove like 20 minutes away, a small town called Aberdeen. Apparently, a couple who had been going to SCAC had moved out there and opened a restaurant which also has a large room suitable for us. We watched three sessions with two group discussion times. It was really good. YF asked a bunch of good questions and we really discussed the work of the Holy Spirit. It's a little funny how cultural norms are just different. Like I would feel awkward having a conversation about each of our thoughts on premarrital sex, but not our group. lol... But ya. Good talks about the Holy Spirit.
At lunch I got to meet this group of guys that I thought were all in highschool. Nope. All in University. We went bowling after. This 19 year old killed it. He got like 158. lol. it was fun.
Later that night we were going to go for KTV with some of the others that hadn't come with us. So we chilled around downtown for a bit. Art gallery. Chase a rainbow. Dinner at a vietnamese restaurant.
KTV was good. I learned so much Chinese. lolll
Today was pretty standard. Well, for me anyways. lol. I read a lot of awesome things, but I'll save it for tomorrow.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
It's been a couple days, eh? Ya. It has been. lol.
It was a couple days where I didn't get back home until like 12.
Friday there was no Alpha course at night so I told FB we should do something. He had been sick all week, so it was a long time. We went to Costco and then back to his house. He made spaghetti and we watched Bleach. lol. Filler episodes. >.> Then we ended up watching Superbad. The trailers made it look way better than it actually was. The last five minutes were okay though. lol. I don't think too many people cared, but the moral of the story seemed to be that you shouldn't do all this stupid stuff to impress the girl. Just be yourself. But that kinda gets lost among all the highschool drunkenness and cops who should never have received badges. >.> Not recommended.
So I got home late. lol. Sleep. Immediately.
Next morning. Saturday. Wake up at 7. Picked up at 8 and away we go. Alpha camp weekend. xP Drove like 20 minutes away, a small town called Aberdeen. Apparently, a couple who had been going to SCAC had moved out there and opened a restaurant which also has a large room suitable for us. We watched three sessions with two group discussion times. It was really good. YF asked a bunch of good questions and we really discussed the work of the Holy Spirit. It's a little funny how cultural norms are just different. Like I would feel awkward having a conversation about each of our thoughts on premarrital sex, but not our group. lol... But ya. Good talks about the Holy Spirit.
At lunch I got to meet this group of guys that I thought were all in highschool. Nope. All in University. We went bowling after. This 19 year old killed it. He got like 158. lol. it was fun.
Later that night we were going to go for KTV with some of the others that hadn't come with us. So we chilled around downtown for a bit. Art gallery. Chase a rainbow. Dinner at a vietnamese restaurant.
KTV was good. I learned so much Chinese. lolll
Today was pretty standard. Well, for me anyways. lol. I read a lot of awesome things, but I'll save it for tomorrow.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
21.6.13
Who's There?
*knock knock knock*
*knock knock knock* "205??"
*knock knock* "205..?"
"Is everything ok? Your door was ajar."
So, kinda odd way to wake up.
Ya, I often forget to lock, and sometimes even close my door when I get home and once I'm here I usually don't leave. So, that happened. Awkward.
Today I had a lab meeting and gave a summary of what I've been doing to our lab supervisor guy who is always in another province. Interesting.
It started raining as I biked home. >.>
Applied for a job. Pray for that. Thanks.
D.Fa
20.6.13
Forgot the Word for Water
Yo.
I got a application for a job to finish by tomorrow at midnight.
Today was cool. I got to talk to KC, like a new KC who went to Brock about his heart for and call from God about student ministry. Pretty cool.
I was on the microscope all day. not cool. lol.
Everyone in the lab now knows that I speak some Chinese. lolll.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
I got a application for a job to finish by tomorrow at midnight.
Today was cool. I got to talk to KC, like a new KC who went to Brock about his heart for and call from God about student ministry. Pretty cool.
I was on the microscope all day. not cool. lol.
Everyone in the lab now knows that I speak some Chinese. lolll.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
19.6.13
He Will Be My Light!
Yo.
I want to get out of this valley already.
I've been just digging deeper, and each time I tried to climb out I slip back further.
But this is it. I'm done.
I've stopped long enough to realize there was a rope ladder on the other side attached to a helicopter ready and waiting to pull me out and upwards.
Multiple times this week God has just been so clearly planning everything. Like on Friday I was texting a bro and talking about a verse in Psalm 119. I was feeling really down about what I had done that morning, so on my break I ended up reading the whole psalm. Later that night was Alpha and it was about the Bible, God's word. And they mentioned Psalm 119 a few times since it is a psalm all about God's word.
Saturday, I don't know what I was doing, but I googled 'Christian pickup lines'. They are all hilarious, trust me. lol. Sunday night's sermon started with a verse I had read in the comments on one of those pages. Psalm 56:1a "be merciful to me, O God, for men hotly pursue me" (read out of context it is a verse many women have joked about including the speaker that night). But her talk was really great. David called out in danger, but also praised God for the fact that He fulfills His promises and although still in the situation, God will work and get him through it. And the last verse of the psalm is really great too.
Psalm 56:13 "For you have delivered me from death and my feet from stumbling, that I may walk before God in the light of life."
God has freed us from slavery to sin, from fear of death, from all of the punishment we deserve so we could walk in light and life. That's amazing. He did it. Not us.
A sister sent me this verse and encouragement about sin: " “Do not be afraid,” Samuel replied. “You have done all this evil; yet do not turn away from the Lord, but serve the Lord with all your heart. Do not turn away after useless idols. They can do you no good, nor can they rescue you, because they are useless. For the sake of his great namethe Lord will not reject his people, because the Lord was pleased to makeyou his own. (1 Samuel 12:20-22)
So my prayer right now for all of this situation is out of Psalm 119:
Psalm 119:132-133 "Turn to me and have mercy on me, as you always do to those who love your name. Direct my footsteps according to your word; let no sin rule over me."
As well as praise for Him, knowing that He is greater than sin and can set us free.
So, ya. Walk in the light. Seek His guidance and power to fight temptation. Trust in His goodness and plans.
D.Fa
PS. This song is great too.
I want to get out of this valley already.
I've been just digging deeper, and each time I tried to climb out I slip back further.
But this is it. I'm done.
I've stopped long enough to realize there was a rope ladder on the other side attached to a helicopter ready and waiting to pull me out and upwards.
Multiple times this week God has just been so clearly planning everything. Like on Friday I was texting a bro and talking about a verse in Psalm 119. I was feeling really down about what I had done that morning, so on my break I ended up reading the whole psalm. Later that night was Alpha and it was about the Bible, God's word. And they mentioned Psalm 119 a few times since it is a psalm all about God's word.
Saturday, I don't know what I was doing, but I googled 'Christian pickup lines'. They are all hilarious, trust me. lol. Sunday night's sermon started with a verse I had read in the comments on one of those pages. Psalm 56:1a "be merciful to me, O God, for men hotly pursue me" (read out of context it is a verse many women have joked about including the speaker that night). But her talk was really great. David called out in danger, but also praised God for the fact that He fulfills His promises and although still in the situation, God will work and get him through it. And the last verse of the psalm is really great too.
Psalm 56:13 "For you have delivered me from death and my feet from stumbling, that I may walk before God in the light of life."
God has freed us from slavery to sin, from fear of death, from all of the punishment we deserve so we could walk in light and life. That's amazing. He did it. Not us.
A sister sent me this verse and encouragement about sin: " “Do not be afraid,” Samuel replied. “You have done all this evil; yet do not turn away from the Lord, but serve the Lord with all your heart. Do not turn away after useless idols. They can do you no good, nor can they rescue you, because they are useless. For the sake of his great namethe Lord will not reject his people, because the Lord was pleased to makeyou his own. (1 Samuel 12:20-22)
This
has always encouraged me when sin seems so big. Even though we have
done evil, we don't have to be afraid to come to God. And out of fear
for the Lord, we RUN to him to walk in the light and He is the Light!
God is bigger! God wants us still! "
So my prayer right now for all of this situation is out of Psalm 119:
Psalm 119:132-133 "Turn to me and have mercy on me, as you always do to those who love your name. Direct my footsteps according to your word; let no sin rule over me."
As well as praise for Him, knowing that He is greater than sin and can set us free.
So, ya. Walk in the light. Seek His guidance and power to fight temptation. Trust in His goodness and plans.
D.Fa
PS. This song is great too.
17.6.13
May They Be Brought to Complete Unity (John 17:23)
Hey.
Do you know what communion is? It is this thing in church when we eat part of a loaf of bread, or a cracker, and drink a thimble of juice or wine. That is what it literally is, but it has so much more meaning than that. This we do in remembrance of Jesus' sacrifice on the cross, where his body (represented by bread or crackers) was broken and his blood (represented by juice or wine) was poured out for the forgiveness of our sins and for us to be made new in Him. So when we do that we remember Him and what He did. It is also done together with other Christians as a reminder that we were all adopted into God's family through this act on the cross.
So, ya, ever since I first saw communion back in like grade 10 I wanted to do it together with everyone. I couldn't wait to be baptized (I didn't understand what it all meant at the time). When I was finally baptized I did know what it meant. It meant dying to self and being made alive in Christ again. From that point on I never turned down communion. It means so much to me that God would send Jesus to die on the cross for me despite my many imperfections, selfishness and sin, as well as the body known as the church and how supportive and encouraging they have been being able to take it together with them, unified in Christ and by the Spirit.
So, why did I turn down communion the last two weeks?
I was so pissed at that church for their lack of welcoming newcomers that I pretty much disowned them as a legit church, which is absolutely not my place to make that judgment. Absolutely not.
I was just being bitter, selfish and prideful.
Each week I felt this conviction that what I was doing was wrong. They are a part of the body of Christ too. Not perfect, in the same way that I am not perfect. But rejecting them was like rejecting God.
So when I finally gave in and asked God to help me forgive them, asd then took communion with them I think this was a pretty big thing. >.>
Anyways, ttyl.
D.Fa
Do you know what communion is? It is this thing in church when we eat part of a loaf of bread, or a cracker, and drink a thimble of juice or wine. That is what it literally is, but it has so much more meaning than that. This we do in remembrance of Jesus' sacrifice on the cross, where his body (represented by bread or crackers) was broken and his blood (represented by juice or wine) was poured out for the forgiveness of our sins and for us to be made new in Him. So when we do that we remember Him and what He did. It is also done together with other Christians as a reminder that we were all adopted into God's family through this act on the cross.
So, ya, ever since I first saw communion back in like grade 10 I wanted to do it together with everyone. I couldn't wait to be baptized (I didn't understand what it all meant at the time). When I was finally baptized I did know what it meant. It meant dying to self and being made alive in Christ again. From that point on I never turned down communion. It means so much to me that God would send Jesus to die on the cross for me despite my many imperfections, selfishness and sin, as well as the body known as the church and how supportive and encouraging they have been being able to take it together with them, unified in Christ and by the Spirit.
So, why did I turn down communion the last two weeks?
I was so pissed at that church for their lack of welcoming newcomers that I pretty much disowned them as a legit church, which is absolutely not my place to make that judgment. Absolutely not.
I was just being bitter, selfish and prideful.
Each week I felt this conviction that what I was doing was wrong. They are a part of the body of Christ too. Not perfect, in the same way that I am not perfect. But rejecting them was like rejecting God.
So when I finally gave in and asked God to help me forgive them, asd then took communion with them I think this was a pretty big thing. >.>
Anyways, ttyl.
D.Fa
16.6.13
Dim Sum and Dads
Definitely the first time.
Today is Father's day. For sure the first time I have ever called my Dad to say 'happy father's day'. Kinda slept in, got a drive to church. Today was a guest pastor speaking about marriage. Seemed phrased a bit like a list of things tp.do and things not to do, but it was ok. Lol. "Tell your wife she is a beautiful doe."
After we went for Dim Sum! XD So good. Mmmmmm. With 15 people it is also cheaper. Lolll. Was only 12$ for so much tasty food. S(?) is crazy. He seemed to know all the waiters. His French is not good though. Lol.
Fun times.
Got home and called my dad. My mom is doing a lot better, otherwise things stay the same. KFA is still not doing anything productive, Max is still being a crazy puppy.
I didn't tell them I will be in Ottawa for the fall yet.
Oh! I was watching a video the other day. Andrew Huang grew up in Ottawa?!??!?!! He has to do a show there eventually. Yes. Now we wait.
Anyways. Ttyl.
D.Fa
PS. I think I will know so much Chinese by the end of the summer. XP
Saturdays are Slow
Yo. Saturdays are so lazy. lol.....
I feel like I never get anything done on weekends.
I guess I slept in, read some news (very rare), did laundry, dishes, cooked the last three brown bananas, uploaded pictures, am nearly done writing an update, but otherwise not much.
Started a prayer group for EA'14. There's three of us confirmed that want to go really badly, so it's like, let's dream a bit bigger, what can we ask God to do, how many people do we want to see come with us? =D So today we are gonna pray about what God would have us pray for. It'd be easy to just ask for us to be able / called to go. 3/3 But it'd be crazy to say, ask for 10 people to go with us, which was the sum of everyone who went on a project this year. o.O But anything is possible with God, right?
So ya. Not much happens on Saturdays, especially when FB is sick so we don't crash his house and watch movies. >.<
Anyways, ttyl.
D.Fa
I feel like I never get anything done on weekends.
I guess I slept in, read some news (very rare), did laundry, dishes, cooked the last three brown bananas, uploaded pictures, am nearly done writing an update, but otherwise not much.
Started a prayer group for EA'14. There's three of us confirmed that want to go really badly, so it's like, let's dream a bit bigger, what can we ask God to do, how many people do we want to see come with us? =D So today we are gonna pray about what God would have us pray for. It'd be easy to just ask for us to be able / called to go. 3/3 But it'd be crazy to say, ask for 10 people to go with us, which was the sum of everyone who went on a project this year. o.O But anything is possible with God, right?
So ya. Not much happens on Saturdays, especially when FB is sick so we don't crash his house and watch movies. >.<
Anyways, ttyl.
D.Fa
15.6.13
Where are the Men?
Today was by far the most boring day of work. On a computer all day looking at colourful dots. >.<
But Alpha course was really good. Today was about how to read the Bible. Always good discussions.
So, I'm trying to find some guy who is older than me to be like, good influence, and disciple me. Today I focused on getting to know one guy who said he was 27. I thought he was in highschool last week until he drove away. lol. So, he is actually 27. >.< lol..... But he's still very young in his faith. Only heard about Christ 8 years ago, and has only been going to church regularly for 1 year now. He's a really cool guy and hilarious, but I feel like I need to be encouraging him to grow in a relationship with Christ. >.>
Ah. I don't want to be at the top of the food chain, so to speak.
So I guess I need to talk more with the other guy who is older than me who hasn't said out loud that he isn't Christian. I don't really want to talk to the pastor... lol... Reminds me too much of AN. >.> lol.
And there's always AB to meet up with.
Ah.
Why is discipleship so hard?
D.Fa
But Alpha course was really good. Today was about how to read the Bible. Always good discussions.
So, I'm trying to find some guy who is older than me to be like, good influence, and disciple me. Today I focused on getting to know one guy who said he was 27. I thought he was in highschool last week until he drove away. lol. So, he is actually 27. >.< lol..... But he's still very young in his faith. Only heard about Christ 8 years ago, and has only been going to church regularly for 1 year now. He's a really cool guy and hilarious, but I feel like I need to be encouraging him to grow in a relationship with Christ. >.>
Ah. I don't want to be at the top of the food chain, so to speak.
So I guess I need to talk more with the other guy who is older than me who hasn't said out loud that he isn't Christian. I don't really want to talk to the pastor... lol... Reminds me too much of AN. >.> lol.
And there's always AB to meet up with.
Ah.
Why is discipleship so hard?
D.Fa
14.6.13
Faith without Action is Dead
Yo. So when stuff happens I just gotta blog. Tell someone. Share my joy. XP.
So today I got to meet up with YF for lunch again. And not too long in he asked me to help explain the first couple chapters of John. He had read them twice. XP. We really didn't get too into it with only like 40 minutes, but it was a good talk about prophets and sin and prayer.
One thing he mentioned that he thinks is stupid about relying on God is that you then don't do anything. The analogy we came to was about finding a job. People relying on God will sit at home and pray for a job. Very unlikely (not impossible though). You gotta get out there and put hard work in so you can get that job. I totally agree. If I want a job I need to apply, but at the same time I can ask God to help me: give me the right opportunities, words to say in interviews, help making decisions, peace while uncertain about the future, etc. The saying goes 'do your best, and let God do the rest' not 'expect God to do it all 'cause you're lazy'...
There was a story of someone drowning, waiting for God to help in a miraculous way. He drowned because he didn't accept the help God sent in seemingly ordinary ways.
Gotta keep our eyes open for what God is doing.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
13.6.13
Why I Don't Normally Buy Butter, Eggs, or Flour
Transplanting barley on what appeared to be a lab field trip was hilarious.
That was my day. lol.
Then I had an interview. Ate the rest of my 'banana cream pie'. Then I washed the dishes. Made cookie dough.
That was my night.
Gotta sleep. Bye.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
That was my day. lol.
Then I had an interview. Ate the rest of my 'banana cream pie'. Then I washed the dishes. Made cookie dough.
That was my night.
Gotta sleep. Bye.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
12.6.13
Josiah was 8 Years Old
Yo. I actually woke up on time today! =D
>.< Was exhausted by 3:30... lol.
Oh well. I gotta make sure I sleep earlier today. >.>
After work was the semi-weekly P2C book study and today I was leading. All new people again! =D >.< So, no one read the chapter..? Instead we just read the Bible. xP. The chapter was all about Josiah's revival and the things he did as a young man and how we can learn from him. So we read 2 Chr 34 and talked about what he did. Then we got into the book and looked at the five things Josiah was and I basically asked "how is that important to revival?" and let the discussion go until awkward silence. lol Bible studies aren't that hard. I wish I had three extra Old Testaments though. Cell phones are not allowed at my Bible studies.
Anyways,
ttyl.
D.Fa
>.< Was exhausted by 3:30... lol.
Oh well. I gotta make sure I sleep earlier today. >.>
After work was the semi-weekly P2C book study and today I was leading. All new people again! =D >.< So, no one read the chapter..? Instead we just read the Bible. xP. The chapter was all about Josiah's revival and the things he did as a young man and how we can learn from him. So we read 2 Chr 34 and talked about what he did. Then we got into the book and looked at the five things Josiah was and I basically asked "how is that important to revival?" and let the discussion go until awkward silence. lol Bible studies aren't that hard. I wish I had three extra Old Testaments though. Cell phones are not allowed at my Bible studies.
Anyways,
ttyl.
D.Fa
10.6.13
Broken
[June 8]
Hey, so today was interesting.
It was pouring all morning... Woke up frantically at 7 for nothing. So I went to sleep. Woke up at 9 semi-frantically and waited hours for nothing. I was supposed to have an interview at 9 am Saskatchewan time. I haven't heard back yet about what happened. ... Next Saturday. >.> Ok. Lol.......
Anyways, the rest of the day was different. Dim sum, Menchie's, work, dubbed Bleach anime, pizza at FB's, and Kill Bill Vol.1.
Yeah.
Rom 1:30 speaks of those who have turned from the knowledge of God to their passions. They 'invent new ways of sinning' says the NLT translation.
Honestly, I have seen this in my life. So many things can become a means to sin. So many. And then you never see it the same way. It is then always a foothold the devil brings back to haunt us.
I cannot overcome sin on my own. I cannot.
My flesh doesn't want me to.
I couldn't change if I tried, I couldn't change even if my flesh wanted to.
But what is impossible for man is possible with God.
Seeking His Kingdom and righteousness; being filled and lead by the Spirit of power; walking in the forgiveness of Christ which leads to repentance; experiencing the firm, but loving embrace of God each day as He disciplines and teaches.
He can change us, even if we can't.
I'm praying He gives me faith, to trust what he says, to see His goodness and the greatness of His love.
I know I am broken, but if I give You this life, You can do something with it.
Hey, so today was interesting.
It was pouring all morning... Woke up frantically at 7 for nothing. So I went to sleep. Woke up at 9 semi-frantically and waited hours for nothing. I was supposed to have an interview at 9 am Saskatchewan time. I haven't heard back yet about what happened. ... Next Saturday. >.> Ok. Lol.......
Anyways, the rest of the day was different. Dim sum, Menchie's, work, dubbed Bleach anime, pizza at FB's, and Kill Bill Vol.1.
Yeah.
Rom 1:30 speaks of those who have turned from the knowledge of God to their passions. They 'invent new ways of sinning' says the NLT translation.
Honestly, I have seen this in my life. So many things can become a means to sin. So many. And then you never see it the same way. It is then always a foothold the devil brings back to haunt us.
I cannot overcome sin on my own. I cannot.
My flesh doesn't want me to.
I couldn't change if I tried, I couldn't change even if my flesh wanted to.
But what is impossible for man is possible with God.
Seeking His Kingdom and righteousness; being filled and lead by the Spirit of power; walking in the forgiveness of Christ which leads to repentance; experiencing the firm, but loving embrace of God each day as He disciplines and teaches.
He can change us, even if we can't.
I'm praying He gives me faith, to trust what he says, to see His goodness and the greatness of His love.
I know I am broken, but if I give You this life, You can do something with it.
Free Time
Yo. Today was the first day that I have had a drive to church from someone who wasn't my housemate in a long time. J(?) picked me up and we went to school to pick up YF.
Service was interesting. Today was Mandarin / Cantonese with English in the headphones. We left pretty quickly after service so I didn't get to talk to the pastor about getting an English / Chinese Bible for YF, but in the meantime I let him borrow one of mine.
I waste way too much time when there's nothing due.
I went to church again tonight, but AB is apparently on business trip for another week. >.> So I don't know what to do. I think I need to pray more about this church because I'm really stuck on this whole not forgiving them for not welcoming me. >.<
Ttyl.
D.Fa
Service was interesting. Today was Mandarin / Cantonese with English in the headphones. We left pretty quickly after service so I didn't get to talk to the pastor about getting an English / Chinese Bible for YF, but in the meantime I let him borrow one of mine.
I waste way too much time when there's nothing due.
I went to church again tonight, but AB is apparently on business trip for another week. >.> So I don't know what to do. I think I need to pray more about this church because I'm really stuck on this whole not forgiving them for not welcoming me. >.<
Ttyl.
D.Fa
8.6.13
Sovereign means His Plans are Higher
Yo. Have I ever told you that God has it all figured out?
Well, ya, He does.
Today I got to have lunch with my friend again. As usual we talked about seemingly random things. I kinda feel bad after these lunches for not being able to share the good news, the hope I have, Christ, more during the conversations, but I just prayed for a chance to after work before going to church.
And that is exactly what happened. xP
I was just reading my Bible when he got to the place we were meeting. And he asked what book is that? He then flipped to the table of contents and asked what the difference between old and new testament is, and if I had read it all, which just led to more good conversation about the Bible. He's actually amazed by how many people's lives have been changed by this book. He asked where he could buy one, and (this may or may not be a valid assumption) thought he could buy one at the book store. o.O Is that possible??? The closest 'Christian store' is like really far away. >.> So hopefully. =P
Yeah, so our friend picked us up and we went to church. Friday night is Alpha course. It's week 4, so I hope I can go through week 1-3 material with my friend during our lunches or something. Alpha course starts with a home cooked meal. So good time to meet people and laugh at people. lol. Next was trilingual worship. Sweeeeeeet. Then a video. Today's topic was prayer. Really good. Small group time to discuss. I'm in the old group again. lol. Found out our friend and his wife were trying to have a baby for a long time and their parents were getting really pushy. His wife prayed like Hannah that if God would make her pregnant the baby would be named Samuel. A couple weeks later it was confirmed. He was doubtful, what if it's a girl? Nope. Samuel is 4 months away now. =D Yet, he still has trouble trusting in God? My friend asked a bunch of good questions and seems to have really been listening and trying to learn. I hope to give him a Bible soon and discuss whatever he wants to about what he reads.
Seriously, Alpha was awesome. I love God's family. SCAC is definitely my home for the summer.
Thank God for my friend, thank God for SCAC, thank God for even bringing me here.
His plans are higher than ours, but they all work for the good of those who love Him.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
Well, ya, He does.
Today I got to have lunch with my friend again. As usual we talked about seemingly random things. I kinda feel bad after these lunches for not being able to share the good news, the hope I have, Christ, more during the conversations, but I just prayed for a chance to after work before going to church.
And that is exactly what happened. xP
I was just reading my Bible when he got to the place we were meeting. And he asked what book is that? He then flipped to the table of contents and asked what the difference between old and new testament is, and if I had read it all, which just led to more good conversation about the Bible. He's actually amazed by how many people's lives have been changed by this book. He asked where he could buy one, and (this may or may not be a valid assumption) thought he could buy one at the book store. o.O Is that possible??? The closest 'Christian store' is like really far away. >.> So hopefully. =P
Yeah, so our friend picked us up and we went to church. Friday night is Alpha course. It's week 4, so I hope I can go through week 1-3 material with my friend during our lunches or something. Alpha course starts with a home cooked meal. So good time to meet people and laugh at people. lol. Next was trilingual worship. Sweeeeeeet. Then a video. Today's topic was prayer. Really good. Small group time to discuss. I'm in the old group again. lol. Found out our friend and his wife were trying to have a baby for a long time and their parents were getting really pushy. His wife prayed like Hannah that if God would make her pregnant the baby would be named Samuel. A couple weeks later it was confirmed. He was doubtful, what if it's a girl? Nope. Samuel is 4 months away now. =D Yet, he still has trouble trusting in God? My friend asked a bunch of good questions and seems to have really been listening and trying to learn. I hope to give him a Bible soon and discuss whatever he wants to about what he reads.
Seriously, Alpha was awesome. I love God's family. SCAC is definitely my home for the summer.
Thank God for my friend, thank God for SCAC, thank God for even bringing me here.
His plans are higher than ours, but they all work for the good of those who love Him.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
4.6.13
If I was a Stranger to the Church
So, I haven't told you about the church I've been going to on Sunday night. Last week was my first time and this week was my second. I'm sure that it is a good church, but the evening service has one small problem and it kinda pissed me off.
I have been getting angry easily lately, and I don't know why, but this one is for real.
So, church hopping. Trying to find a good church by going to a number and really trying to figure out where God wants you for the next while. I thought this was a good idea. I'd get to see a bunch of different churches. I've really only been to OCBC. It was my first time at a Lutheran church a couple weeks ago. It was my first night service a couple weeks ago. But there are things that I am looking for in a church.
I am looking for a community of passionate believers that seeks to understand God's word better and put it into practice each day. A community that I can call a family because of the warmth and love found there. I want discipleship to encourage and rebuke those who are younger and point them back to Christ.
One thing I really wanted to see was a dedication to welcoming newcomers, as a sign of prioritizing outreach to those who are both new or who are still seeking to know more about God.
So it was really annoying that no one approached me, the guy sitting alone whom you've never seen before, in either last week or this week's service. That includes the 15 minutes before and after.
So, this week's service I was just praying against this attitude of condemnation against the church, I was praying for them and those who might walk in. As I mentioned the other day my friend had walked in looking for help and God really provided by my cell phone, CAA membership and everything, she had a church background and was fine asking me for help, but if someone who knew nothing about God walked in and was too shy to approach someone they might walk away without getting the chance to feel what the church body as a family can be when they invite others in to share in the joy they have in Christ, when they go out of their way to offer friendship, assistance, and ultimately hope to those in need.
So I was so angry, not for me, but for those who could walk in and walk out.
I was just about to walk out and not come back.
Then AB approached me while carrying his son. lol. With like 30-40 young adults I would have expected one of them to do something, but this is good too. He said we could meet up for lunch or coffee some time. So I am looking forward to that.
Grace.
We did not approach Jesus, the stranger in our world. How would God have felt? And then they crucified Him.
Gotta forgive as He forgave us in Christ.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
I have been getting angry easily lately, and I don't know why, but this one is for real.
So, church hopping. Trying to find a good church by going to a number and really trying to figure out where God wants you for the next while. I thought this was a good idea. I'd get to see a bunch of different churches. I've really only been to OCBC. It was my first time at a Lutheran church a couple weeks ago. It was my first night service a couple weeks ago. But there are things that I am looking for in a church.
I am looking for a community of passionate believers that seeks to understand God's word better and put it into practice each day. A community that I can call a family because of the warmth and love found there. I want discipleship to encourage and rebuke those who are younger and point them back to Christ.
One thing I really wanted to see was a dedication to welcoming newcomers, as a sign of prioritizing outreach to those who are both new or who are still seeking to know more about God.
So it was really annoying that no one approached me, the guy sitting alone whom you've never seen before, in either last week or this week's service. That includes the 15 minutes before and after.
So, this week's service I was just praying against this attitude of condemnation against the church, I was praying for them and those who might walk in. As I mentioned the other day my friend had walked in looking for help and God really provided by my cell phone, CAA membership and everything, she had a church background and was fine asking me for help, but if someone who knew nothing about God walked in and was too shy to approach someone they might walk away without getting the chance to feel what the church body as a family can be when they invite others in to share in the joy they have in Christ, when they go out of their way to offer friendship, assistance, and ultimately hope to those in need.
So I was so angry, not for me, but for those who could walk in and walk out.
I was just about to walk out and not come back.
Then AB approached me while carrying his son. lol. With like 30-40 young adults I would have expected one of them to do something, but this is good too. He said we could meet up for lunch or coffee some time. So I am looking forward to that.
Grace.
We did not approach Jesus, the stranger in our world. How would God have felt? And then they crucified Him.
Gotta forgive as He forgave us in Christ.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
A Bowl of Beef and Noodles.
I was just about to write a post about church last night then realized I didn't post about what happened in the morning. Lol.
So, my friend. ...
Ok. I guess I need to start even earlier than yesterday... Lol...
It was the camping trip. Remember how I met a bunch of Chinese international students going to UofS? One of them wa studying Biochem for his masters. I ended up meeting up with him to give back the fishing rods we borrowed, which was kinda awkward because we had lost a part. >_< But he didn't care. Lol. Instead he asked if I had eaten lunch yet, and we went to the food court and talked over lunch.
It was a really good conversation. XP. Afterwards, I was texting him and keeping in touch. I was really hoping to become good friends and then eventually share the gospel. XP
He added me on facebook. Ok.
I think it was Thursday night. I was talking to a buddy back in Ottawa and then my friend commented on a facebook post I had written about a week earlier.
The post read as follows:
"'Man does not live on noodles and beef alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.' Matt 4:4
If that was how the Bible was written I don't think we'd go for Pho after church anymore. Chinatown Ottawa would lose a lot of business. lol"
He then text me "You go to church?" I told him how I was church hopping right now to which he responded "Cool man. I have been trying to find someone who can lead me. You know to get me access to this stuff. I just have no idea how I can get myself involved in this kind of."
=D
What? ... What?!?!?! ... That's CRAZY!
In less than a week of knowing him, and really only like an hour and a half of talk / text he is asking about church?!
This was one of those "as if this is happening God! This must be why I am here this summer" moments.
And so I asked if we could meet up on Friday to talk more. He had said he had been before, but it sounds like it was a gingerbread house decorating outreach event..? So ths would be his first time at a service. Although I hadn't really planned to, I found out where / when the Saskatoon Chinese Alliance Church had it's English service.
It was a 40 minute bus ride away. Not bad. And guess what? One of the post-docs working with my friend goes to this church!!! =O How is this happening?!?
It was pretty similar to OCBC. Not fully. It was kinda like a good version of the English / Chinese congregation compromised joint services. I was a little not looking forward to a joint service, but with my friend there it makes more sense for it to be a joint service, make sure we both understand. xP
And they have billingual Alpha course on Friday nights? Nice!
I didn't realize how stupid church hopping is until recently. Having brothers and sisters in Christ is an amazing thing. Church hopping means you meet a lot of people, but don't actually get to know them or ever see them again. >.> So, I'm really glad my friend likes this church / he already has two friends here, so why would we leave?
I did want to check out a less conventional church which has people sit facing each other with the cross at the center, so it's focused on Jesus, not on a preacher, but ya, SCAC is sweet. And I'm getting a drive to church now? =D
Ttyl.
D.Fa
So, my friend. ...
Ok. I guess I need to start even earlier than yesterday... Lol...
It was the camping trip. Remember how I met a bunch of Chinese international students going to UofS? One of them wa studying Biochem for his masters. I ended up meeting up with him to give back the fishing rods we borrowed, which was kinda awkward because we had lost a part. >_< But he didn't care. Lol. Instead he asked if I had eaten lunch yet, and we went to the food court and talked over lunch.
It was a really good conversation. XP. Afterwards, I was texting him and keeping in touch. I was really hoping to become good friends and then eventually share the gospel. XP
He added me on facebook. Ok.
I think it was Thursday night. I was talking to a buddy back in Ottawa and then my friend commented on a facebook post I had written about a week earlier.
The post read as follows:
"'Man does not live on noodles and beef alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.' Matt 4:4
If that was how the Bible was written I don't think we'd go for Pho after church anymore. Chinatown Ottawa would lose a lot of business. lol"
He then text me "You go to church?" I told him how I was church hopping right now to which he responded "Cool man. I have been trying to find someone who can lead me. You know to get me access to this stuff. I just have no idea how I can get myself involved in this kind of."
=D
What? ... What?!?!?! ... That's CRAZY!
In less than a week of knowing him, and really only like an hour and a half of talk / text he is asking about church?!
This was one of those "as if this is happening God! This must be why I am here this summer" moments.
And so I asked if we could meet up on Friday to talk more. He had said he had been before, but it sounds like it was a gingerbread house decorating outreach event..? So ths would be his first time at a service. Although I hadn't really planned to, I found out where / when the Saskatoon Chinese Alliance Church had it's English service.
It was a 40 minute bus ride away. Not bad. And guess what? One of the post-docs working with my friend goes to this church!!! =O How is this happening?!?
It was pretty similar to OCBC. Not fully. It was kinda like a good version of the English / Chinese congregation compromised joint services. I was a little not looking forward to a joint service, but with my friend there it makes more sense for it to be a joint service, make sure we both understand. xP
And they have billingual Alpha course on Friday nights? Nice!
I didn't realize how stupid church hopping is until recently. Having brothers and sisters in Christ is an amazing thing. Church hopping means you meet a lot of people, but don't actually get to know them or ever see them again. >.> So, I'm really glad my friend likes this church / he already has two friends here, so why would we leave?
I did want to check out a less conventional church which has people sit facing each other with the cross at the center, so it's focused on Jesus, not on a preacher, but ya, SCAC is sweet. And I'm getting a drive to church now? =D
Ttyl.
D.Fa
1.6.13
Two Strangers in a Strange Church
Yo. Another kinda lazy Saturday. Probably not as productive as I could be.
Ended up playing a bit of Plants vs Zombies, going to Costco with FB and JB, and now we just had pizza and will be going to the movies in about an hour.
Anyways, as I promised, I will now tell a story that I was too tired to tell the last time. XP
So last Sunday after church I planned to go to a Chinese church and then chill around for a little while and go to another church in the evening.
I walked like 40 minutes, not bad, but then the girl at the door told me that the service was only in Mandarin... >.< Oh well.
So I had a lot more time to do nothing. Haha. So I was like writing up my thoughts on a Bible passage.
But where I was sitting had a bunch of mosquitos, so I ended up walking over to the church around 3:30, like 3 hours early.
But then a girl came by to like babysit for one of the worship team members who were practicing at like 4. So we talked breifly, but I ended up reading all the stuff on the walls.
At some point a girl walked in and was kinda freaking out a bit. She ended up asking if she could borrow my phone. She had left her keys in her car and her spare key and phone and everything.
She asked very politely but with an air of desperateness if she could borrow my phone to text someone. See, these days, with cell phones, no one remembers other people's numbers; the phone alone knows. So the only person she knew she texted.
He was far away.
He suggested calling CAA. So she went off and used the church's phone (1-800 number). She came back disappointed. 'The card holder needs to be here in person'. While she had been away I recalled my dad giving me a CAA card, but I probably left it at home, I mean, the car is in Ottawa, what do I need a CAA card for?
I had one.
So she called back using my phone and a long phone call later we were outside on the curb waiting.
She had overheard me say I was from Ottawa to the CAA lady and told me she had gone to school there for a few years, now working as a dental technician, which is sweet. XP Then the guy arrived.
Paperwork.
Then he drove us over (we had to both sit in the front seat. "nice to meet you" was my line after getting out of the truck.) and with little time had opened the door and retreived her keys.
She was very thankful for all th help I had provided. I was just glad I could help. I had no idea what I was gonna do for a few hours before church, but this was sweet. She wanted to repay me. I really didn't need it or want it, but she insisted, so I ended up getting a large frozen lemonade from Timmies.
I wish I needed to go to the dentist while I was here. XP.
Maybe I'll run into her sometime.
I remember praying for her while she was flustered and texting. Wish I had shared more about how it was God's love and faithfulness that had propelled me to act like that.
She was kinda French too. XP. Remimded me of a classmate.
There was a cross on her rearview mirror.
Anyways, I pray God would become more real in Julie's life and I thank God for using me to help her that day. May she walk into more churches in need, and find more help and salvation in Christ.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
[PS. Fast and Furious 6 was really good. But how could they kill them?!?! D=<]
This May or Maynot Become a Thing
So, I have been seeing recently that some people with a blog, or a
vlog, or a bunch of people following them will sometimes have certain
things they do on certain days of the week. I think this would be good
for when I don't have things to say, like now (as long as you don't
remember that I have things to tell you about from a couple posts ago.
>.>)
So I think one category would be just sheer honesty. Something that could slightly embarrassing / humorous that I probably wouldn't just tell everyone. lol.
So, I probably spend way too much time looking in mirrors, and all that vanity, but one thing I've always wanted to do is try those like nose strip things that you put on wet, let dry, and then peel off leaving your nose really clean. The girls in those commercials always looked really happy. lol.
I don't think my nose is that dirty. >..< but it would be an experience. lol. I just don't want to pay for it, or even bring it to a cash register at a store. lol. Maybe someday I will just happen upon some? =D
Anyways, today was super busy at work, but I get to play with a camera for work!! =DD
Ttyl.
D.Fa
[oops, posted this in the wrong place yesterday. lol]
So I think one category would be just sheer honesty. Something that could slightly embarrassing / humorous that I probably wouldn't just tell everyone. lol.
So, I probably spend way too much time looking in mirrors, and all that vanity, but one thing I've always wanted to do is try those like nose strip things that you put on wet, let dry, and then peel off leaving your nose really clean. The girls in those commercials always looked really happy. lol.
I don't think my nose is that dirty. >..< but it would be an experience. lol. I just don't want to pay for it, or even bring it to a cash register at a store. lol. Maybe someday I will just happen upon some? =D
Anyways, today was super busy at work, but I get to play with a camera for work!! =DD
Ttyl.
D.Fa
[oops, posted this in the wrong place yesterday. lol]
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)