...
I immediately thought "I can't give that much... I'm pretty sure I don't have that much in my wallet... Well, I could borrow some money........... "
When I checked my wallet I found the amount from my dream and a 20. I have more than enough for today and getting home.
I was then reading some psalms to make sure.... XP Psalm 126:1-3 "When the Lord brought back the captive ones of Zion, we were like those who dream. Then our mouth was filled with laughter, and our tongue with joyful shouting; then they said among the nations, "The Lord has done great things for them." The Lord has done great things for us; We are glad."
and Psalm 127:1-2 "Unless the Lord builds the house, they labor in vain who build it; Unless the Lord guards the city, the watchmen keeps awake in vain. It is vain for you to rise up early, to retire late. To eat the bread of painful labors; for he gives to His beloved even in his sleep."
So, ya. I am going to trust in Him with my money and getting me back home.
31.12.10
A Step of Faith
Hey, so
last night the usual thing happened after I went to bed (at 12:30) and I had some dreams. The last part of the last one (all I can remember right now) I was in some kind of store and was going to buy something. My brother was also there. I think we were buying something for my mom. Anyways, my brother bought something and I was about to pay for something more expensive and couldn't find that much money in my wallet... I was getting worried that I would have to go home and get the money, but then I found the exact amount in my hand. We then went home to find that my mom had dyed her hair and had partially shaved her head... It was shocking... I then woke up.... XP...
Ya. This morning is the freewill offering and last night I thought "oh. 40$ should be fine". SS prayed for us about deciding how much we give and stuff. After last night I want to take large steps of faith.
I was thinking in the bathroom about my dream and thought "maybe that is how much I should give"
...すずく
last night the usual thing happened after I went to bed (at 12:30) and I had some dreams. The last part of the last one (all I can remember right now) I was in some kind of store and was going to buy something. My brother was also there. I think we were buying something for my mom. Anyways, my brother bought something and I was about to pay for something more expensive and couldn't find that much money in my wallet... I was getting worried that I would have to go home and get the money, but then I found the exact amount in my hand. We then went home to find that my mom had dyed her hair and had partially shaved her head... It was shocking... I then woke up.... XP...
Ya. This morning is the freewill offering and last night I thought "oh. 40$ should be fine". SS prayed for us about deciding how much we give and stuff. After last night I want to take large steps of faith.
I was thinking in the bathroom about my dream and thought "maybe that is how much I should give"
...すずく
30.12.10
Swingin' Into the Night
So, ya.
Since I last posted we have had dinner, walked back, had main session, prayed, then swing danced.
The main session's focus tonight was on Quebec and how only 0.8% or so of the 10.2 million people are evangelical Christians. A very small percentage of people. Through varying things said by the speaker or other people there was this urge placed on having a heart for Quebec, moving to Quebec, praying for Quebec, etc. The main message had a lot to do with just making the little time we have left make a difference. There were many stats about how we could reach the whole world within the next 10 years and other things like that.
I just kinda started getting really sad thinking about how my faith was so small. This was most clear when she started speaking of how our job isn't going to be easy, but you know, the lord will give us everything we need. I know these things are true and I have said / prayed a number of times a number of things, but had I really meant them..? Was I really ready to step out and do hard work. I felt like such a coward and a hypocrite and a very faithless person thinking that I would rather just curl up in my safe little bubble instead of taking everything we have learned and making a difference.
I think that I prayed as sincerely as I ever have that God would stengthen my trust in Him in the coming semester and summer as I make larger steps of faith and break more faith barriers. Sure, it would be easy to just stay where we are in our safety, but that's such a waste. It's boring, not making progress, not doing as God has commanded us. I pray that I would be able to surrender in all situations and just rely on His hope and love and goodness to provide for me. Fear and insecurity should not exist if I am truly relying on the Lord.
So, ya. I prayed with HO, RM, R(?) and J(?).
Then I went swing dancing. xP So fun dancing. I havn't danced since the Musical. NJ was my partner then, but today I had like 20 partners (they made us switch everytime we learned something new, which was slightly annoying, but we got to meet so many new people...) It was a lot of fun. xP
On an unrelated note, have you ever been reminded of someone based more on the shape of the person than their actual personality..? xP I have been seeing people all week that look the same (mostly) as some people I know. These people include RM(high school friend), JB, JC(parcour/tiger suit), Dr. JS and HK(male). xP
Ya.
I've been coming up with new years resolutions. So far I have:
-I will tell people when I borrow things from them
-I will answer people when they ask me questions
-I will read the old testament
There are other things that I have now forgotten, but will remember at some point.
This week has been so great. There have been so many cool things I have learned. One of which is that 'distractions' such as facebook and cellphones can be used as a tool in spreading the gospel to our friends. Until the day of outreach I hadn't really attempted to start spiritual conversations with my friends. I may have been witnessing with my life and actions, maybe, but I hadn't really said much. I deffinately told like 15 people I was at this conference on Wednesday.
My room smells like bananas.... Ewwwwwwwww..... And they are ripe......
Ttyl.
=D.Fa
PS. One day left..!?!?!?!
Since I last posted we have had dinner, walked back, had main session, prayed, then swing danced.
The main session's focus tonight was on Quebec and how only 0.8% or so of the 10.2 million people are evangelical Christians. A very small percentage of people. Through varying things said by the speaker or other people there was this urge placed on having a heart for Quebec, moving to Quebec, praying for Quebec, etc. The main message had a lot to do with just making the little time we have left make a difference. There were many stats about how we could reach the whole world within the next 10 years and other things like that.
I just kinda started getting really sad thinking about how my faith was so small. This was most clear when she started speaking of how our job isn't going to be easy, but you know, the lord will give us everything we need. I know these things are true and I have said / prayed a number of times a number of things, but had I really meant them..? Was I really ready to step out and do hard work. I felt like such a coward and a hypocrite and a very faithless person thinking that I would rather just curl up in my safe little bubble instead of taking everything we have learned and making a difference.
I think that I prayed as sincerely as I ever have that God would stengthen my trust in Him in the coming semester and summer as I make larger steps of faith and break more faith barriers. Sure, it would be easy to just stay where we are in our safety, but that's such a waste. It's boring, not making progress, not doing as God has commanded us. I pray that I would be able to surrender in all situations and just rely on His hope and love and goodness to provide for me. Fear and insecurity should not exist if I am truly relying on the Lord.
So, ya. I prayed with HO, RM, R(?) and J(?).
Then I went swing dancing. xP So fun dancing. I havn't danced since the Musical. NJ was my partner then, but today I had like 20 partners (they made us switch everytime we learned something new, which was slightly annoying, but we got to meet so many new people...) It was a lot of fun. xP
On an unrelated note, have you ever been reminded of someone based more on the shape of the person than their actual personality..? xP I have been seeing people all week that look the same (mostly) as some people I know. These people include RM(high school friend), JB, JC(parcour/tiger suit), Dr. JS and HK(male). xP
Ya.
I've been coming up with new years resolutions. So far I have:
-I will tell people when I borrow things from them
-I will answer people when they ask me questions
-I will read the old testament
There are other things that I have now forgotten, but will remember at some point.
This week has been so great. There have been so many cool things I have learned. One of which is that 'distractions' such as facebook and cellphones can be used as a tool in spreading the gospel to our friends. Until the day of outreach I hadn't really attempted to start spiritual conversations with my friends. I may have been witnessing with my life and actions, maybe, but I hadn't really said much. I deffinately told like 15 people I was at this conference on Wednesday.
My room smells like bananas.... Ewwwwwwwww..... And they are ripe......
Ttyl.
=D.Fa
PS. One day left..!?!?!?!
Because I Am White, Technically...
So,
we just had / are having 'campus time'. This is a time scheduled for everyone to spend time with people from their own campuses. Unfourtunately for me I do not go to U of T. This is unfourtunate only because I am practically being forced to consume non-asian food at Boston Pizza.
To this point the only food I have both bought and consumed since arriving in Toronto has been 'asian'. The ethnicity of the food may be debatable because almost all the establishments are run by Chinese people, but I digress.
I have bought 4 meals so far and all have been consumed and asian. Me, AL, HO and RM are about to eat 'The Meateor' as the pizza is so named. It had a severe lack of vegetables in the list of ingredients. AL agreed. So we ordered tomatoes and green pepper to go on top.
If it were up to me I would probably order asian or vegetarian, but I havn't had a meal today and xP it doesn't actually matter that much... So ya....
Ttyl.
D.Fa
we just had / are having 'campus time'. This is a time scheduled for everyone to spend time with people from their own campuses. Unfourtunately for me I do not go to U of T. This is unfourtunate only because I am practically being forced to consume non-asian food at Boston Pizza.
To this point the only food I have both bought and consumed since arriving in Toronto has been 'asian'. The ethnicity of the food may be debatable because almost all the establishments are run by Chinese people, but I digress.
I have bought 4 meals so far and all have been consumed and asian. Me, AL, HO and RM are about to eat 'The Meateor' as the pizza is so named. It had a severe lack of vegetables in the list of ingredients. AL agreed. So we ordered tomatoes and green pepper to go on top.
If it were up to me I would probably order asian or vegetarian, but I havn't had a meal today and xP it doesn't actually matter that much... So ya....
Ttyl.
D.Fa
Real Life Kit
Heyo.
I havn't told you guys this yet and I thought it was pretty funny, so ya.
When we got to our hotel room for the first time HO looked in all the drawers and dressers and everywhere and could not find a Bible anywhere. There's always a Bible in hotel rooms right..? Sooooo I put a real life kit in the drawer. XP
For those of you who do not know what a real life kit is, it is a new testament, the prequel to 'Soul Cravings' and a Knowing God Personally booklet.
So, ya. I'm in the middle of Psalm 119. I really like Psalm 119, but its soooooooooo long. XPP
Ttyl.
D.Fa
PS. I signed up for twitter today, but I don't think I'll be using it. XP
I havn't told you guys this yet and I thought it was pretty funny, so ya.
When we got to our hotel room for the first time HO looked in all the drawers and dressers and everywhere and could not find a Bible anywhere. There's always a Bible in hotel rooms right..? Sooooo I put a real life kit in the drawer. XP
For those of you who do not know what a real life kit is, it is a new testament, the prequel to 'Soul Cravings' and a Knowing God Personally booklet.
So, ya. I'm in the middle of Psalm 119. I really like Psalm 119, but its soooooooooo long. XPP
Ttyl.
D.Fa
PS. I signed up for twitter today, but I don't think I'll be using it. XP
Cold Dreams
So,
For the last few weeks I've been waking up in the middle of the night because I've been too cold. Whether at my parents house or here. When this happens I just put more blankets on me or curl up more. xP But the whole waking up repeatedly ends up making me have more dreams, I think.
I think I had a few dreams last night, but the most recent of these dreams, as far as I could remember started by entering the top of a stairwell and going down it. The stairs were a spiral, but at some points it would switch which direction the spiral was turning, which never happens in real life...
But anyways on each floor there was some sort of elaborate puzzle set up. The last one we (AL was also there for the whole dream) went to was this weird plain wide room with various picture frames on the ground and various little laser emiting circular devices in the ground that when you step on them they lit up. Some had more laser emiting parts. So, we started to attempt to figure out a way to solve the puzzle. Because we could move around the lasers we were trying that, we were looking for clues in the pictures / under the pictures, etc.
The dream ended and I felt like it was really late, so I jumped out of bed, ran to my cell phone, turned it on and checked the time. It was 7:52 I think. So I stayed awake. You see, the first night we had the alarm clock plugged in and it rang at 6:30 and we were all semi-awake until we woke up fully and got ready. I feel like without the alarm, which TB unplugged because it was too hard to turn off fully, we won't all wake up on time... We all managed to.... so ... no problem I guess. xP
Ttyl
D.Fa
For the last few weeks I've been waking up in the middle of the night because I've been too cold. Whether at my parents house or here. When this happens I just put more blankets on me or curl up more. xP But the whole waking up repeatedly ends up making me have more dreams, I think.
I think I had a few dreams last night, but the most recent of these dreams, as far as I could remember started by entering the top of a stairwell and going down it. The stairs were a spiral, but at some points it would switch which direction the spiral was turning, which never happens in real life...
But anyways on each floor there was some sort of elaborate puzzle set up. The last one we (AL was also there for the whole dream) went to was this weird plain wide room with various picture frames on the ground and various little laser emiting circular devices in the ground that when you step on them they lit up. Some had more laser emiting parts. So, we started to attempt to figure out a way to solve the puzzle. Because we could move around the lasers we were trying that, we were looking for clues in the pictures / under the pictures, etc.
The dream ended and I felt like it was really late, so I jumped out of bed, ran to my cell phone, turned it on and checked the time. It was 7:52 I think. So I stayed awake. You see, the first night we had the alarm clock plugged in and it rang at 6:30 and we were all semi-awake until we woke up fully and got ready. I feel like without the alarm, which TB unplugged because it was too hard to turn off fully, we won't all wake up on time... We all managed to.... so ... no problem I guess. xP
Ttyl
D.Fa
#300. ... Skitty..?
Okay this is lamer than I was hoping it to be... The number 300 pokemon is Skitty. I dislike Skitty. I also kinda dislike speaking to people I don't know very well. In other words transition into the day of outreach, which I think I have already talked about, so instead I will talk about how we went to Times Square and I had vietnamese noodle soup a durian milkshake (so good. more real than the last one I had. It actually smelled this time. xP) and mint bubble tea. So good.
Anyways, tonight we had some songs we had already sang but with a few french lyrics (because there are some french speaking people at the conference) both God you are my God and Your Name.
It annoys me that I cannot find the first song.... But here are the French words for the Chorus. xP
Dieu tu es mon Dieu
Glorieux Glorieux
Dieu tu es mon Dieu
Victorieux Victorieux
The worship leader was saying how in heaven there will only be one language and we will all be able to speak it, but the fact that we can praise the same God in every language is amazing. xP
Dutch Blitz..? So Good.
Lightning Reaction. Very amusing for a while.
Ya. Ttyl.
D.Fa
29.12.10
Online/Text Outreach!
So, I have just had a very interesting day texting and msning people for the last few hours with the intention of starting spiritual conversations. I am not very good at transitioning from one thing to another.
Also I feel like it's even harder to get your opinion across clearly in a text message than in person. Although I think it is much easier to start conversations with people in a text than in person, you don't feel the person you're talking to and stuff....
So, ya.
If anything I will have got across the fact that I am in C4C to a number of my friends and I did share the gospel (if only to a few people). I also found out that some of my friends don't know very much about the Bible or anything like that, so ya.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
Also I feel like it's even harder to get your opinion across clearly in a text message than in person. Although I think it is much easier to start conversations with people in a text than in person, you don't feel the person you're talking to and stuff....
So, ya.
If anything I will have got across the fact that I am in C4C to a number of my friends and I did share the gospel (if only to a few people). I also found out that some of my friends don't know very much about the Bible or anything like that, so ya.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
"WC is Awesome"
Hey,
so. Today so far I have slept in until 8:35, gone to the main session with Paul Henderson as the main speaker this morning (I didn't know who he was until he explained and everyone was like "omg! Paul Henderson!" He apparently was the goal of the century for Canada. Meh.), and now it is 'quiet time' which my room mates don't really take seriously.
I can't find the song I want to post... It was called 'Surrender' which is a kinda common title.
Anyways. WC is awesome.
I'm kinda sick though. xP Which makes singing in a higher range harder.......... but I just go down a few harmonies as the song progresses, BUT I still sing as loudly as I can. xP so good. I want to buy the CD for the band that has been playing for us. Only 10$. xP
Ttyl.
D.Fa
so. Today so far I have slept in until 8:35, gone to the main session with Paul Henderson as the main speaker this morning (I didn't know who he was until he explained and everyone was like "omg! Paul Henderson!" He apparently was the goal of the century for Canada. Meh.), and now it is 'quiet time' which my room mates don't really take seriously.
I can't find the song I want to post... It was called 'Surrender' which is a kinda common title.
Anyways. WC is awesome.
I'm kinda sick though. xP Which makes singing in a higher range harder.......... but I just go down a few harmonies as the song progresses, BUT I still sing as loudly as I can. xP so good. I want to buy the CD for the band that has been playing for us. Only 10$. xP
Ttyl.
D.Fa
28.12.10
No Subject
Main session and the project party just ended. So good. God that is. God is good. Volleyball! w00t!
So, Hey...
So I I would so we hey I so the hey the so I so I hey we hey as hey you so ya so I so hey hey I'm if I so hey I've never hey I so ya hey it's heya I've so I ok honestly so ya yayayayayayay I have you have you have you so ya so ya so ya so hey hey I so ya ok this hey whatsup hello everybody my coat so hey hey I so this I have I have so hey so I so ya so ya so ya. That is the first two words of the last 50 posts.
24 so
17 hey
16 I
10 ya
5 have
4 you
and a bunch of other stuff.
In almost half of the last 50 posts the word "so" has been in the first two words. 'I' was almost never used as the first word. ya. xP I believe that these statistics were chosen from a poor group of posts. So ya hey would normally be far more prevalent. xPPPP
Anyways. xP I have a faux hawk at the moment.
Volleyball was sweet. I havn't played since Brooklyn back in August. So much fun yo. ONE LOVE! (God. xP) Thank God for volleyball, teamwork, friendship, sport, excercise, randomness, a break from schedules, the oppourtunity to be here in Toronto, etc.
Ya. Praise God. xP WC has been amazing so far and there's more than half left.
Hosanna - Paul Baloche
Always - Kristian Stanfill
24 so
17 hey
16 I
10 ya
5 have
4 you
and a bunch of other stuff.
In almost half of the last 50 posts the word "so" has been in the first two words. 'I' was almost never used as the first word. ya. xP I believe that these statistics were chosen from a poor group of posts. So ya hey would normally be far more prevalent. xPPPP
Anyways. xP I have a faux hawk at the moment.
Volleyball was sweet. I havn't played since Brooklyn back in August. So much fun yo. ONE LOVE! (God. xP) Thank God for volleyball, teamwork, friendship, sport, excercise, randomness, a break from schedules, the oppourtunity to be here in Toronto, etc.
Ya. Praise God. xP WC has been amazing so far and there's more than half left.
Hosanna - Paul Baloche
Always - Kristian Stanfill
Thai Fusion
So, I have just had dinner. Main session is at 7 and later tonight there's gonna be Volleyball! Ya!
I've now had Chinese and Thai food although I'm pretty sure it was Chinese food... XP
RM arrived and we will soon be sleeping together (in the same bed. You know what I mean) AL laughed because she doesn't know which one of us will be more snuggly. XP
Ttyl. XP
D.Fa
PS. I am currently being read my blog in a dramatic fashion while blogging. XP
I've now had Chinese and Thai food although I'm pretty sure it was Chinese food... XP
RM arrived and we will soon be sleeping together (in the same bed. You know what I mean) AL laughed because she doesn't know which one of us will be more snuggly. XP
Ttyl. XP
D.Fa
PS. I am currently being read my blog in a dramatic fashion while blogging. XP
Thought
I would really like to have asian house mates. XPP.
This thought is coming from my current white roommates deciding to have Macdonalds for supper even though its kinda far and there's korean bbq across the road..........
Also, TB doesn't buy asian food because he can (if he wanted to) have some of his asian house mate's food. XPP....
My asian house mate does not buy food. XP
So, ya.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
This thought is coming from my current white roommates deciding to have Macdonalds for supper even though its kinda far and there's korean bbq across the road..........
Also, TB doesn't buy asian food because he can (if he wanted to) have some of his asian house mate's food. XPP....
My asian house mate does not buy food. XP
So, ya.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
Free Time
So, we just had our first set of seminars. I went to "listening Your Way into Spiritual Conversations" "Real World Evangelism" and "How to read the bible and understand it" they were interesting and each speaker had a different style.
Now we have an hour of free time and then 2 hours for supper. Soooooo we have 3 hours for free time / supper. XP...
ya.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
Now we have an hour of free time and then 2 hours for supper. Soooooo we have 3 hours for free time / supper. XP...
ya.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
WC East AM!
Hey!
I meant to post something earlier this morning, but I kinda slept in, kinda. XP
So, ya. This morning I woke up (or at least my alarm went off) at 6:30. I did not get out of bed until 6:55 however. XP.... I then had a quick shower. I have recently gotten rather good at fast showers because the shower at my parents house has still not been fixed, but they have adapted to really hot water, while I do not like hot water, so I've been getting in and out as fast as possible.
Anyways, in the showers theres like a liquid dispenser for soap and shampoo. XP....... But it is unlabelled.... XP
By the way, the conference is in a Sheraton hotel, but we are actually staying in the attached Bed and Western which is slightly confusing. XPPP.....
I read Psalm 107 this morning (meaning the ban on anime is almost lifted!) and I read verses 23 and 24 and thought of the New Years Eve Party which has the theme of "The Ocean Deep".
"insert verses once HO is off my laptop[Those who go down to the sea in ships, who do business on great waters; They have seen the works of the Lord, and his wonders in the deep.]"
It's quiet time.
Ttyl.
PS. I learned how to use an iron today. It's main purpose is to cook chicken quesadillas. No lies. And it was the best food on WC East's AM show! So good! I wish I had a cooking show. >.>
Starfield - Reign in Us
I meant to post something earlier this morning, but I kinda slept in, kinda. XP
So, ya. This morning I woke up (or at least my alarm went off) at 6:30. I did not get out of bed until 6:55 however. XP.... I then had a quick shower. I have recently gotten rather good at fast showers because the shower at my parents house has still not been fixed, but they have adapted to really hot water, while I do not like hot water, so I've been getting in and out as fast as possible.
Anyways, in the showers theres like a liquid dispenser for soap and shampoo. XP....... But it is unlabelled.... XP
By the way, the conference is in a Sheraton hotel, but we are actually staying in the attached Bed and Western which is slightly confusing. XPPP.....
I read Psalm 107 this morning (meaning the ban on anime is almost lifted!) and I read verses 23 and 24 and thought of the New Years Eve Party which has the theme of "The Ocean Deep".
"insert verses once HO is off my laptop[Those who go down to the sea in ships, who do business on great waters; They have seen the works of the Lord, and his wonders in the deep.]"
It's quiet time.
Ttyl.
PS. I learned how to use an iron today. It's main purpose is to cook chicken quesadillas. No lies. And it was the best food on WC East's AM show! So good! I wish I had a cooking show. >.>
Starfield - Reign in Us
27.12.10
Winter Conference: Commence!
So,
The first main session ended a few minutes ago or so and now after some breif exploring we are going to play monopoly deal... XP
I accidentally texted my parents an "XP" and they did not know what it meant.... And I did not feel like explaining so I told them to ask my brother.
It's a bit odd now that my parents have a cell phone that I can instantly inform them of what I am doing, except that would be weird, so I'm not. XP
Worship in a mass crowd is the best. XP
Ttyl.
D.Fa
The first main session ended a few minutes ago or so and now after some breif exploring we are going to play monopoly deal... XP
I accidentally texted my parents an "XP" and they did not know what it meant.... And I did not feel like explaining so I told them to ask my brother.
It's a bit odd now that my parents have a cell phone that I can instantly inform them of what I am doing, except that would be weird, so I'm not. XP
Worship in a mass crowd is the best. XP
Ttyl.
D.Fa
Richmond Hill
Hey,
I got to the hotel at like 3:30 and I saw MB! Yay! Someone I recognized! Then I registered (I didn't have a name tag yet... >.>) and got my room key.
So far HO and TB are in my room.
Good times.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
I got to the hotel at like 3:30 and I saw MB! Yay! Someone I recognized! Then I registered (I didn't have a name tag yet... >.>) and got my room key.
So far HO and TB are in my room.
Good times.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
Kankoku no kata desu ka..? / 韓国の方ですか？
So, I got off the subway at Finch and stumbled around and finally managed to make it to the bus station.......
I feel like I'm in little korea or something though.... XP A lot of korean stores and restaurants and people around here..... XP
D.Fa
I feel like I'm in little korea or something though.... XP A lot of korean stores and restaurants and people around here..... XP
D.Fa
Subways are Fast and Crowded.
So, I managed to find my way to the subway and pay the fare. Any minute now the sub will be here and I'll be significantly closer to the hotel.
XP...... There are a lot of asians here. XP
D.Fa
Also, the subway is kinda ghetto looking and very very fast and way less bumpy than the o-train. The o-train is lame!! XP
XP...... There are a lot of asians here. XP
D.Fa
Also, the subway is kinda ghetto looking and very very fast and way less bumpy than the o-train. The o-train is lame!! XP
15 Minute Break
Hey.
We have now been on the road for a couple hours and we have just made a stop for a break.
There's this girl sitting beside me who, I think, is around my age, maybe a little bit older. I have yet to talk to her. She's mostly been asleep so far.
I've been reading the Meaning part of 'Soul Cravings', but I just couldn't keep my eyes open, so I took a nap, kinda.
I don't know where we are, I don't know who I'm travelling with, I don't know what will happen once we get there, but I'm not so nervous anymore.
When we first all got onto the bus the bus driver, clearly a comedian, broke the ice. It was kinda funny. XP
Ya.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
We have now been on the road for a couple hours and we have just made a stop for a break.
There's this girl sitting beside me who, I think, is around my age, maybe a little bit older. I have yet to talk to her. She's mostly been asleep so far.
I've been reading the Meaning part of 'Soul Cravings', but I just couldn't keep my eyes open, so I took a nap, kinda.
I don't know where we are, I don't know who I'm travelling with, I don't know what will happen once we get there, but I'm not so nervous anymore.
When we first all got onto the bus the bus driver, clearly a comedian, broke the ice. It was kinda funny. XP
Ya.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
Toronto Bound
Hey.
As I usually do on trips I will be updating you regularly via texting. XP
So, I am currently at the Ottawa bus station waiting like an hour to board a bus going to Toronto where Winter Conference is being held. Actually, WC is in Richmond Hill, but that's practically Toronto right..?
I'm gonna end up downtown Toronto and Richmond Hill is quite a bit North of there. I will have to take a subway and the VIVA bus an hour to get there.....
I'm pretty nervous/anxious, but I'll get there somehow if it's God's will that I get there. XP
Ya......... I brought a few books, one DS game, my bag that has my C4C stuff in it, my laptop, my cell phone, a box of granola bars, a suitcase full of clothes, my jacket/gloves/hats/scarf, my wallet, money, a pocket full of pens, ummmmmm. Not much else.
I did a bible study on Ecclesiastes yesterday. XP It took a while and I don't think I really absorbed too much of it... Some things in it were a little odd and it was hard to understand sometimes.
As I usually do on trips I will be updating you regularly via texting. XP
So, I am currently at the Ottawa bus station waiting like an hour to board a bus going to Toronto where Winter Conference is being held. Actually, WC is in Richmond Hill, but that's practically Toronto right..?
I'm gonna end up downtown Toronto and Richmond Hill is quite a bit North of there. I will have to take a subway and the VIVA bus an hour to get there.....
I'm pretty nervous/anxious, but I'll get there somehow if it's God's will that I get there. XP
Ya......... I brought a few books, one DS game, my bag that has my C4C stuff in it, my laptop, my cell phone, a box of granola bars, a suitcase full of clothes, my jacket/gloves/hats/scarf, my wallet, money, a pocket full of pens, ummmmmm. Not much else.
I did a bible study on Ecclesiastes yesterday. XP It took a while and I don't think I really absorbed too much of it... Some things in it were a little odd and it was hard to understand sometimes.
26.12.10
Vanity of Vanities.
Hey.
You know, life is short and nothing under the sun satisfies our cravings.
Video games either last a week, so you get the next one or they continue for a very long time so you keep leveling and playing. They don't satisfy your craving for entertainment fully. You play and are entertained until you stop playing or the game is over.
Sin does not satisfy. It may satisfy for a few breif moments, but then you're left in a worse position spiritually and emotionally. After the euphoria of sin you are left with the guilt and shame and self-loathing feelings.
Material possesions do not satisfy. You always want something bigger or better and once you finally have it there is something even more desirable to obtain.
You build these things up in your mind as the best thing ever; you need them. But once you have them its not enough.
Soloman back in his days tried everything under the sun to feed his cravings; women, money, possesions, power. But nothing under the sun could fill these cravings, nothing could satisfy this desire for more.
If we have these cravings, cravings forn control, power, love, escape, justice. Shouldn't there be something that will fill these cravings..?
You know, life is short and nothing under the sun satisfies our cravings.
Video games either last a week, so you get the next one or they continue for a very long time so you keep leveling and playing. They don't satisfy your craving for entertainment fully. You play and are entertained until you stop playing or the game is over.
Sin does not satisfy. It may satisfy for a few breif moments, but then you're left in a worse position spiritually and emotionally. After the euphoria of sin you are left with the guilt and shame and self-loathing feelings.
Material possesions do not satisfy. You always want something bigger or better and once you finally have it there is something even more desirable to obtain.
You build these things up in your mind as the best thing ever; you need them. But once you have them its not enough.
Soloman back in his days tried everything under the sun to feed his cravings; women, money, possesions, power. But nothing under the sun could fill these cravings, nothing could satisfy this desire for more.
If we have these cravings, cravings forn control, power, love, escape, justice. Shouldn't there be something that will fill these cravings..?
22.12.10
"No More Let Sins and Sorrows Grow"
So, ya.
Today was really ... idk... I woke up 3 hours later than I wanted to after having on and off really fun dreams that I now do not remember, watching Bleach and Pokemon with fried rice and ice cream, I sinned, then I worked from 12-6 in produce and now I am here.
I was super really depressed all day and BJ kept telling me I was acting weird. I was thinking a lot about a lot of stuff, like how I am using my busy schedule as an excuse to not spend time with God and how I should then take advantage of this schedule to schedule in time for God (although I realize this is clearly not supposed to compartmentalise God into an hour here or there). Then I realized that that is one purpose of YA. YA is a couple hours where the number 1 top priority is to study God's word and fellowship with other brothers/sisters and all that good stuff. So, ya. YA has a new meaning to me, but at the same time, there is no YA right now (cuz everybody diffused across the country... >.> I mean BC, Yukon, Nova Scotia, Toronto, Calgary, etc.)
At 5 or so I started doing production in the backroom, so I turned on the radio to CHRI and ya. I quickly stopped being so depressed. "That's What Faith Can Do" "Our God" and other songs made me think other stuff and I was singing out loud (except when people walked by... xP). xP Then there was this song that was really really cool. So I wrote the name of the song on my hand. It was "What Love Really Means" by JJ Heller.
That is the MV, which is also pretty cool while being very simple.
Anyways, BJ left and will not be working until after Christmas because she is going home for Christmas and I won't be back until January 1st and I may not be working very much after that..... so it was basically like the last time I will see her until next year and I was being such a loser all day.... So on the way home I text apologized. xP but in 1000 characters... >.> Also her name has been changed to my standardized blog initials:
"Hey BJ. I'm sorry for how I was acting today. I was just really depressed/angry at myself for being a sinner and I really shouldn't have been acting that way. Especially now at Christmas time I should know better. I just havn't been really acting the way I should, I havn't really been reading or praying or spending time with God or anything and its really my fault. For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotton son that whoever believes in him shall not perish, but have eternal life. For God did not send his son into the world to condemn it, but to save it. And God's love is unconditional. It doesn't matter what you've done or who you will become. God sent his son to pay for our sins and bridge the gap between us and God so that we could have a personal relationship with Him because there's nothing we could ever do to earn our way to heaven by ourselves or our own effort. It's by faith alone that we can stand unashamed.
So, ya. I'm sorry. XP. Merry Chistmas. XP"
I was laughing about the sudden ending because of the 1000 characters. That's waht the xP's at the end are for. xP I meant to say sorry for being such a loser in the last few hours she'll see me, but it wouldn't fit. xP
Ya. Christmas is when Jesus was born in a manger in Bethlehem. 33 years or so later he died for our sins becuase he had none of his own and because he was God and because he loved us. All of our sins were in the future at the time, but God is above time.
I'm just rambling now. xP.... I will not watch anymore anime until I read 50 psalms because that is how many I should have read before having watched all the anime I've watched this week. Anime has taken a high priority in my life again and clearly the reprecusions are pretty bad. It's idolatry basically. So, ya..... I was thinking that I should swap God for anime, but then I was trying to apply that in my head and was like "Oh, I'm bored. I should watch anime." "Oh! There's a new episode of One Piece! I need to watch it as soon as possible!" But trying to swap thos situations and I realize that there's never a new chapter in the Bible so I can't really swap that, but then I realized I havn't finished reading all of it soooo.... there are still some new chapters... xP Buuuut I will be reading them all in the next year, so ya. *rolls eyes*
Ttyl. xP
=D.Fa
PS. I was thinking of 2 Timothy 3:16 "All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness". Training in righteousness is what I need right now. Clearly that is because I havn't been reading my Bible very much / not remembering memory verses. Also Psalm 199:11 "I have hidden your word in my heart that I might not sin against you" that applies to my lack of memory verses..?
Point: I know I need to spend time with God, with his word, praying to him, singing his praises, etc. He has provided us his word, he has provided us redemption, he listens to our prayers, he gives this all as a free gift to us through his son who paid the price once and for all that all have the option to have a relationship with Him.
I'm really bad at getting a point across. xP
Today was really ... idk... I woke up 3 hours later than I wanted to after having on and off really fun dreams that I now do not remember, watching Bleach and Pokemon with fried rice and ice cream, I sinned, then I worked from 12-6 in produce and now I am here.
I was super really depressed all day and BJ kept telling me I was acting weird. I was thinking a lot about a lot of stuff, like how I am using my busy schedule as an excuse to not spend time with God and how I should then take advantage of this schedule to schedule in time for God (although I realize this is clearly not supposed to compartmentalise God into an hour here or there). Then I realized that that is one purpose of YA. YA is a couple hours where the number 1 top priority is to study God's word and fellowship with other brothers/sisters and all that good stuff. So, ya. YA has a new meaning to me, but at the same time, there is no YA right now (cuz everybody diffused across the country... >.> I mean BC, Yukon, Nova Scotia, Toronto, Calgary, etc.)
At 5 or so I started doing production in the backroom, so I turned on the radio to CHRI and ya. I quickly stopped being so depressed. "That's What Faith Can Do" "Our God" and other songs made me think other stuff and I was singing out loud (except when people walked by... xP). xP Then there was this song that was really really cool. So I wrote the name of the song on my hand. It was "What Love Really Means" by JJ Heller.
That is the MV, which is also pretty cool while being very simple.
Anyways, BJ left and will not be working until after Christmas because she is going home for Christmas and I won't be back until January 1st and I may not be working very much after that..... so it was basically like the last time I will see her until next year and I was being such a loser all day.... So on the way home I text apologized. xP but in 1000 characters... >.> Also her name has been changed to my standardized blog initials:
"Hey BJ. I'm sorry for how I was acting today. I was just really depressed/angry at myself for being a sinner and I really shouldn't have been acting that way. Especially now at Christmas time I should know better. I just havn't been really acting the way I should, I havn't really been reading or praying or spending time with God or anything and its really my fault. For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotton son that whoever believes in him shall not perish, but have eternal life. For God did not send his son into the world to condemn it, but to save it. And God's love is unconditional. It doesn't matter what you've done or who you will become. God sent his son to pay for our sins and bridge the gap between us and God so that we could have a personal relationship with Him because there's nothing we could ever do to earn our way to heaven by ourselves or our own effort. It's by faith alone that we can stand unashamed.
So, ya. I'm sorry. XP. Merry Chistmas. XP"
I was laughing about the sudden ending because of the 1000 characters. That's waht the xP's at the end are for. xP I meant to say sorry for being such a loser in the last few hours she'll see me, but it wouldn't fit. xP
Ya. Christmas is when Jesus was born in a manger in Bethlehem. 33 years or so later he died for our sins becuase he had none of his own and because he was God and because he loved us. All of our sins were in the future at the time, but God is above time.
I'm just rambling now. xP.... I will not watch anymore anime until I read 50 psalms because that is how many I should have read before having watched all the anime I've watched this week. Anime has taken a high priority in my life again and clearly the reprecusions are pretty bad. It's idolatry basically. So, ya..... I was thinking that I should swap God for anime, but then I was trying to apply that in my head and was like "Oh, I'm bored. I should watch anime." "Oh! There's a new episode of One Piece! I need to watch it as soon as possible!" But trying to swap thos situations and I realize that there's never a new chapter in the Bible so I can't really swap that, but then I realized I havn't finished reading all of it soooo.... there are still some new chapters... xP Buuuut I will be reading them all in the next year, so ya. *rolls eyes*
Ttyl. xP
=D.Fa
PS. I was thinking of 2 Timothy 3:16 "All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness". Training in righteousness is what I need right now. Clearly that is because I havn't been reading my Bible very much / not remembering memory verses. Also Psalm 199:11 "I have hidden your word in my heart that I might not sin against you" that applies to my lack of memory verses..?
Point: I know I need to spend time with God, with his word, praying to him, singing his praises, etc. He has provided us his word, he has provided us redemption, he listens to our prayers, he gives this all as a free gift to us through his son who paid the price once and for all that all have the option to have a relationship with Him.
I'm really bad at getting a point across. xP
21.12.10
Random.
So, I was putting out the recycling when I heard this eerie noise. It was the singing bus again, but I couldn't see it. I listened harder and heard it going by in the distance.
It's so creepy... xP
Also, did I already blog today..? xP
I need to clean my room xP. I haven't cleaned it since September and it's kind of dusty.
I feel like if I write things on my blog I end up with nothing to talk about in person with some of you.
Did I tell you I'm working tommorow..? That means I am working everyday this week (except today and Christmas) and then I am gone for a week.
So, ya. I don't know what to get people for Christmas... I feel like now that I am in University I am supposed to be creative with gift givng and things like this. I feel this because people like TM, JB, AH and the like are always so creative in the things they do...
A bunch of people are coming back to Ottawa, but I don't know when or what we will do together / I will be leaving soon... >.>
Guh.
....
Ttyl.
D.Fa
PS. I miss the YA.
It's so creepy... xP
Also, did I already blog today..? xP
I need to clean my room xP. I haven't cleaned it since September and it's kind of dusty.
I feel like if I write things on my blog I end up with nothing to talk about in person with some of you.
Did I tell you I'm working tommorow..? That means I am working everyday this week (except today and Christmas) and then I am gone for a week.
So, ya. I don't know what to get people for Christmas... I feel like now that I am in University I am supposed to be creative with gift givng and things like this. I feel this because people like TM, JB, AH and the like are always so creative in the things they do...
A bunch of people are coming back to Ottawa, but I don't know when or what we will do together / I will be leaving soon... >.>
Guh.
....
Ttyl.
D.Fa
PS. I miss the YA.
I'm Free!
So, hey!
I have completed semester 1A, I mean, first semester of first year. I completed my Calculus exam in an hour and a half with some inspiration here and there, but it was pretty easy. I only really studied breifly on Friday derivatives and crammed yesterday for a few hours on Integration. Do you ever cram all the hard stuff and then only the easy stuff is on the exam..? It annoys me sometimes, but then I realize that I will be getting a better mark because it was easy.
I hadn't checked any of my marks until today and I only checked because my CHEM prof sent me an email. This is what it said:
"Hi – You got an A+ in CHEM 1001. Pretty awesome.
Bob."
That is all it said except for all his contect info at the bottom. Bob is my favourite prof. xP He's so sarcastic sometimes. xP
Anyways. I am now done my exams. yuss. I also just beat LoZ Spirit Tracks. The final battle is very similar to a number of other LoZ battles my brother tells me. A possesed Zelda, a puppet master, an over-sized, blue, horned, red-haired, gem-on-the-forehead monster on four legs, a light arrow, a magical instrument, sages, a magic sword, stabbing the bad guy in the head, all have been done before. xP It was still very fun.
Ya. Only a few days until Christmas! and a couple more until WC!!! I still don't know how I'm getting there. xP
Ttyl.
D.Fa
PS. I'm free because Jesus set me free from my slavery to sin.
I have completed semester 1A, I mean, first semester of first year. I completed my Calculus exam in an hour and a half with some inspiration here and there, but it was pretty easy. I only really studied breifly on Friday derivatives and crammed yesterday for a few hours on Integration. Do you ever cram all the hard stuff and then only the easy stuff is on the exam..? It annoys me sometimes, but then I realize that I will be getting a better mark because it was easy.
I hadn't checked any of my marks until today and I only checked because my CHEM prof sent me an email. This is what it said:
"Hi – You got an A+ in CHEM 1001. Pretty awesome.
Bob."
That is all it said except for all his contect info at the bottom. Bob is my favourite prof. xP He's so sarcastic sometimes. xP
Anyways. I am now done my exams. yuss. I also just beat LoZ Spirit Tracks. The final battle is very similar to a number of other LoZ battles my brother tells me. A possesed Zelda, a puppet master, an over-sized, blue, horned, red-haired, gem-on-the-forehead monster on four legs, a light arrow, a magical instrument, sages, a magic sword, stabbing the bad guy in the head, all have been done before. xP It was still very fun.
Ya. Only a few days until Christmas! and a couple more until WC!!! I still don't know how I'm getting there. xP
Ttyl.
D.Fa
PS. I'm free because Jesus set me free from my slavery to sin.
20.12.10
I Thought So... / The Singing Bus / Christmas Soundtrack
Hey, I'm tired... xP
But I feel like if I don't tell you now, I probably won't or if I do it won't be the same... xP
So, tommorow morning is my last exam. I am very unprepared, but expect to do satisfactoraly at least. Calculus... It's not that bad, I just havn't fully figured out some of the "you have to do it THIS WAY" integration problems. xP
Earlier today I got to the boss fight (final boss fight) in LoZ Spirit Tracks. I'm like,"Ok, Zelda... get your body, take my bow and shoot some light arrows. Go on. Do it." She does it... xP I was slightly disappointed at the predictable tendency of the final boss fight.
I am also kind of really dissapointed at what I have read of C4C's WC's day of evangelism which will take place mostly online..?!?!?!?!?!!? what?!?!?!? "bring your laptops" What!??!?!??!?!?!??!?!??!?!?!? I am severly disappointed at this. How does talking online help me at overcoming a fear of sharing in person with strangers..? You could share online (poorly) with a script. >.> I hope there is an option for actual in person sharing.
There was also something that has happened a couple times to me now. I have named it "The singing Bus" because that is what it does. It sings, but only a few notes, but really loudly. It sings in my low whistle range and can be heard from beyond tiverton to beyond Merivale from Chesterton (so it can be heard like 10 blocks away or something!) and it's really creepy, but so cool. xP. The other day it was a 156 and today it was a 117.
Nat King Cole's Christmas CD "The Christmas Song" is basically a soundtrack to our Christmases at my house says my brother. And I fully agree with him. We had a good laugh earlier today singing all the little articulations that Nat King Cole does as well as the little instrumental flourishes in The Christmas Song. xP The CD is played at least 10 times each year at my house during the Christmas break and it has been for a number of years.
Also, I'm wondering, has your Christmas tree ever fallen over? The ones in our house have so many times that we have been tieing our trees to the ceiling for a couple years now.......... I really think that it is lame to tie your tree to the ceiling. Our tree this year looked very stable, couldn't possibly fall over. And yet I had to tie it to the ceiling....
Also, how much fake snow goes on your trees..? Do you even know what I'm talking about..?
Are your trees real..?
Why are there trees at Christmas..?
I have to sleep now, but in about 13 hours I will be free from exams (for a few months)!
So, ya.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
But I feel like if I don't tell you now, I probably won't or if I do it won't be the same... xP
So, tommorow morning is my last exam. I am very unprepared, but expect to do satisfactoraly at least. Calculus... It's not that bad, I just havn't fully figured out some of the "you have to do it THIS WAY" integration problems. xP
Earlier today I got to the boss fight (final boss fight) in LoZ Spirit Tracks. I'm like,"Ok, Zelda... get your body, take my bow and shoot some light arrows. Go on. Do it." She does it... xP I was slightly disappointed at the predictable tendency of the final boss fight.
I am also kind of really dissapointed at what I have read of C4C's WC's day of evangelism which will take place mostly online..?!?!?!?!?!!? what?!?!?!? "bring your laptops" What!??!?!??!?!?!??!?!??!?!?!? I am severly disappointed at this. How does talking online help me at overcoming a fear of sharing in person with strangers..? You could share online (poorly) with a script. >.> I hope there is an option for actual in person sharing.
There was also something that has happened a couple times to me now. I have named it "The singing Bus" because that is what it does. It sings, but only a few notes, but really loudly. It sings in my low whistle range and can be heard from beyond tiverton to beyond Merivale from Chesterton (so it can be heard like 10 blocks away or something!) and it's really creepy, but so cool. xP. The other day it was a 156 and today it was a 117.
Nat King Cole's Christmas CD "The Christmas Song" is basically a soundtrack to our Christmases at my house says my brother. And I fully agree with him. We had a good laugh earlier today singing all the little articulations that Nat King Cole does as well as the little instrumental flourishes in The Christmas Song. xP The CD is played at least 10 times each year at my house during the Christmas break and it has been for a number of years.
Also, I'm wondering, has your Christmas tree ever fallen over? The ones in our house have so many times that we have been tieing our trees to the ceiling for a couple years now.......... I really think that it is lame to tie your tree to the ceiling. Our tree this year looked very stable, couldn't possibly fall over. And yet I had to tie it to the ceiling....
Also, how much fake snow goes on your trees..? Do you even know what I'm talking about..?
Are your trees real..?
Why are there trees at Christmas..?
I have to sleep now, but in about 13 hours I will be free from exams (for a few months)!
So, ya.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
19.12.10
"Are You Studying..?"
If I hate sin. Why do I want to so badly. Why are these thoughts in my head and in my dreams..? Ya... It's messed... Why are even my dreams perverse..?
Anyways... xP
Yesterday I realized that there are a number of instances where I will have sung a song for a long time and not actually known what the song was about. For example, I'm sure you all know Halleluia. Only on Friday did I realize that the David in the song was King David and that one of the verses was refering to Bathsheba.
Also, a lot of common songs get sung without really fully understanding them. And the more often they are sung, the less meaning they hold sometimes. Christmas songs for example have just become songs in my mind, but we were caroling yesterday and the second or third varses that I didn't really know very well had a lot more meaning than the ones I had known by heart. Those verses I knew were just lyrics to a song, but reading the words I didn't know..... I don't know where I am going with this.... xP
Ya.... xP Pay attention to the words the next time you sing something.
O... I got the "So, you're religious" comment today... xP.... It is weird to hear... I hope to be a good witness to him. xP ML works in Salad Bar / Produce. Today I helped out in Salad Bar for a few hours making veggie platters because Salad Bar was a bit behind because someone was 2.5 hours late to work this morning... but now that I am trained in Salad bar, I don't have to go ask if they need help, they will come to me. xP I'm glad I can be of help. I'm thinking of inviting him to the christmas eve service, but i don't know...
I was going to buy my mom "Despicable Me" for christmas, but then I found out that she had bought it for us. xP We were going to go see it for her birthday in July, but my brother had school and then I saw it with some YA........ I guess I will have to fall back to my original present idea. Shaving my moustache / beard.... I'm growing attached to it though... T.T
I just thought "man I use ellipsises a lot." xP
Ok, so. The other day BJ was trying to guess my middle name. I told her it started with a J. She couldn't get it. I told her it ended with an S and is 5 letters long. Her first 3 guesses after that clue were Judas, Jesus and James. I thought this was funny.
Umm... I don't know what else I can say right now, so I'll talk to you later.
D.Fa
Anyways... xP
Yesterday I realized that there are a number of instances where I will have sung a song for a long time and not actually known what the song was about. For example, I'm sure you all know Halleluia. Only on Friday did I realize that the David in the song was King David and that one of the verses was refering to Bathsheba.
Also, a lot of common songs get sung without really fully understanding them. And the more often they are sung, the less meaning they hold sometimes. Christmas songs for example have just become songs in my mind, but we were caroling yesterday and the second or third varses that I didn't really know very well had a lot more meaning than the ones I had known by heart. Those verses I knew were just lyrics to a song, but reading the words I didn't know..... I don't know where I am going with this.... xP
Ya.... xP Pay attention to the words the next time you sing something.
O... I got the "So, you're religious" comment today... xP.... It is weird to hear... I hope to be a good witness to him. xP ML works in Salad Bar / Produce. Today I helped out in Salad Bar for a few hours making veggie platters because Salad Bar was a bit behind because someone was 2.5 hours late to work this morning... but now that I am trained in Salad bar, I don't have to go ask if they need help, they will come to me. xP I'm glad I can be of help. I'm thinking of inviting him to the christmas eve service, but i don't know...
I was going to buy my mom "Despicable Me" for christmas, but then I found out that she had bought it for us. xP We were going to go see it for her birthday in July, but my brother had school and then I saw it with some YA........ I guess I will have to fall back to my original present idea. Shaving my moustache / beard.... I'm growing attached to it though... T.T
I just thought "man I use ellipsises a lot." xP
Ok, so. The other day BJ was trying to guess my middle name. I told her it started with a J. She couldn't get it. I told her it ended with an S and is 5 letters long. Her first 3 guesses after that clue were Judas, Jesus and James. I thought this was funny.
Umm... I don't know what else I can say right now, so I'll talk to you later.
D.Fa
18.12.10
Sick at Christmas
So, hey.
What's up..? I'm really busy with work and studying and stuff. That is what I should say, but honestly, it's only been like a few hours of work a day and I have not studied yet and I have wasted massive amounts of time watching Pokemon Best Wishes and playing Legend of Zelda Spirit Tracks. I also havn't really been reading the Bible or praying too much... and I've fallen to quite a spiritual low... If it wasn't for my friends and a certain blog I would be even lower possibly.
So, ya. I started working in Salad Bar on Tuesday and I have worked like 25 hours since then. Christmas is the time when people buy platters because they are having parties and stuff so they needed to make a bunch. Salad bar is pretty fun. There's always something to do and you often have someone to talk to. Broccoli Salad looks really gross though..... xP Like someone already chewed it. Spinach Salad looks sooooo tasty....
Also, the main reason I have been wasting my life on LoZ is because I am going to give it to my brother for Christmas, but I would like to play it first. I mean, I bought it in September and didn't play it until Wednesday. I'm nearly done, just one more temple and then the final boss fight. Ya... xP
YA was so much fun on Thursday. We had a going away potluck for R(?) and HK. Then, while JC was finishing her project worth 40% that was due at midnight we went tobagoning on a GT Snowracer. LOL. Just Lol. We had a short lived competition to see wich team could go the farthest, we ran down the hill. xP We then went and tobagoned down the bridges... xP It's more fun then it sounds. Then we went back to CW's house. "Look out for the hill!" LOL.
Ya.....
I was thinking how can we ever live up to God's expectations? Like its so easy to sin, how can he expect us not to...? Do we just have to try our hardest..? No..... I've thought this before. We can't try our hardest and expect that to please God. Our hardest is still a giant failure. Humans are weak and sinful. We can't rely on ourselves to please God or try to earn favour. 1. Our best is still far from good and 2. It just doesn't work. This is why Jesus came down on Christmas a couple thousand years ago. He came to us because we could never reach Him with our own efforts. He came to reconcile us to God, to take away our sins, to give us power over sin, to give us his Spirit. But if we don't rely on his strength we just fall back to the situation we were in before.
Why do we sin? Why? Why can't it just be easy? How can I want to live as Jesus wants me to, while at the same time be hiding sin.
On a lighter note, I found these amazing toys at Zellers the other day. Sooo fun. xP
xP. Taken on my phone, so ya.. xP The toys sing each sing a different song, but you get to decide the tempo, by making them sing the next note in the song each time you squeeze them. They also hold the note as long as you squeeze them. They make chords and stuff if you play with more than one at a time, but while taking the video I only had one free hand and there was a message over the intercom (it wasn't the toy talking xP)... So, ya. You should just go and see them in person. xP
Ttyl.
D.Fa
PS. Slovenia and Ukraine! w00t!
What's up..? I'm really busy with work and studying and stuff. That is what I should say, but honestly, it's only been like a few hours of work a day and I have not studied yet and I have wasted massive amounts of time watching Pokemon Best Wishes and playing Legend of Zelda Spirit Tracks. I also havn't really been reading the Bible or praying too much... and I've fallen to quite a spiritual low... If it wasn't for my friends and a certain blog I would be even lower possibly.
So, ya. I started working in Salad Bar on Tuesday and I have worked like 25 hours since then. Christmas is the time when people buy platters because they are having parties and stuff so they needed to make a bunch. Salad bar is pretty fun. There's always something to do and you often have someone to talk to. Broccoli Salad looks really gross though..... xP Like someone already chewed it. Spinach Salad looks sooooo tasty....
Also, the main reason I have been wasting my life on LoZ is because I am going to give it to my brother for Christmas, but I would like to play it first. I mean, I bought it in September and didn't play it until Wednesday. I'm nearly done, just one more temple and then the final boss fight. Ya... xP
YA was so much fun on Thursday. We had a going away potluck for R(?) and HK. Then, while JC was finishing her project worth 40% that was due at midnight we went tobagoning on a GT Snowracer. LOL. Just Lol. We had a short lived competition to see wich team could go the farthest, we ran down the hill. xP We then went and tobagoned down the bridges... xP It's more fun then it sounds. Then we went back to CW's house. "Look out for the hill!" LOL.
Ya.....
I was thinking how can we ever live up to God's expectations? Like its so easy to sin, how can he expect us not to...? Do we just have to try our hardest..? No..... I've thought this before. We can't try our hardest and expect that to please God. Our hardest is still a giant failure. Humans are weak and sinful. We can't rely on ourselves to please God or try to earn favour. 1. Our best is still far from good and 2. It just doesn't work. This is why Jesus came down on Christmas a couple thousand years ago. He came to us because we could never reach Him with our own efforts. He came to reconcile us to God, to take away our sins, to give us power over sin, to give us his Spirit. But if we don't rely on his strength we just fall back to the situation we were in before.
Why do we sin? Why? Why can't it just be easy? How can I want to live as Jesus wants me to, while at the same time be hiding sin.
On a lighter note, I found these amazing toys at Zellers the other day. Sooo fun. xP
xP. Taken on my phone, so ya.. xP The toys sing each sing a different song, but you get to decide the tempo, by making them sing the next note in the song each time you squeeze them. They also hold the note as long as you squeeze them. They make chords and stuff if you play with more than one at a time, but while taking the video I only had one free hand and there was a message over the intercom (it wasn't the toy talking xP)... So, ya. You should just go and see them in person. xP
Ttyl.
D.Fa
PS. Slovenia and Ukraine! w00t!
14.12.10
Blizzzzzzzzzzzards..?
I've never realized how badly the weather affects traffic.
I suppose that since I've always lived close to school, close to work, close to pretty much everything that I really havn't until now experienced real commuting.
All week I've been hearing about how much longer it has taken to get places or how doors have been frozen shut or how the weather greatly influences sales (I'm so happy I went to work instead of studying. XP).
Right now I am stuck on the 117 during rush hour traffic while there is at least a foot of snow and more is falling........
time lapse.
.... Okay.... I just missed my bus stop. XP.... The trip that would normally take like 15 minutes from school home took an hour.... XP and I didn't have any books, so I kinda dozed off. XP
Ttyl.
D.Fa
I suppose that since I've always lived close to school, close to work, close to pretty much everything that I really havn't until now experienced real commuting.
All week I've been hearing about how much longer it has taken to get places or how doors have been frozen shut or how the weather greatly influences sales (I'm so happy I went to work instead of studying. XP).
Right now I am stuck on the 117 during rush hour traffic while there is at least a foot of snow and more is falling........
time lapse.
.... Okay.... I just missed my bus stop. XP.... The trip that would normally take like 15 minutes from school home took an hour.... XP and I didn't have any books, so I kinda dozed off. XP
Ttyl.
D.Fa
Training..?!
Hey,
I am about to go to work!
You see, so that I can work Thursday, I need training in Salad Bar, so I am going to be working 6:30-12 today. Then I'll beat my Physics exam, then I'll be free to do whatever I want until my exam next Tuesday.
Apparently almost everyone in Salad Bar is going away for Christmas, so I may be getting a number of hours in Salad Bar. xP I really havn't made enough money these last few months, so, this may be a very good oppourtunity. xP plus its gonna be fun. XP
I hope my boss doesn't get too mad at me. I mean, I really want a different job, and I'm gonna have to get a different job in January anyways... >.>
Ttyl.
D.Fa
PS. BJ likes my moustache!
I am about to go to work!
You see, so that I can work Thursday, I need training in Salad Bar, so I am going to be working 6:30-12 today. Then I'll beat my Physics exam, then I'll be free to do whatever I want until my exam next Tuesday.
Apparently almost everyone in Salad Bar is going away for Christmas, so I may be getting a number of hours in Salad Bar. xP I really havn't made enough money these last few months, so, this may be a very good oppourtunity. xP plus its gonna be fun. XP
I hope my boss doesn't get too mad at me. I mean, I really want a different job, and I'm gonna have to get a different job in January anyways... >.>
Ttyl.
D.Fa
PS. BJ likes my moustache!
12.12.10
Produce vs Salad Bar!
So, ya.
Today, I woke up at 8:30, had a shower, ate an omlette, got a drive to church, played bass, got a ride home, ate ice cream for lunch, and went to work.
So, ya.... The store was renovated in the summer. The new Salad Bar has been its own department ever since. When it split off from Produce my boss only gave them a couple of the old Salad Bar employees and the others stayed in produce. He apparently doesn't want to share his employees.
Anyways, recently he took one of the new salad bar employees to work in produce. The new salad bar manager doesn't think this is fair at all. I kind of agree... but I digress. The real reason I am talking about all this is because that one employee that has been split between the two departments has two shifts on Thursday: 7-4 in Salad Bar and 4-11 in Produce. It turns out that I was the only one free to work Thursday night so SL (Salad Bar manager) asked me if I could work then and there was nothing on my calander for Thursday night, so I said I would probably be able to work then. The thing is I thought that I had promised someone that I would do something then..?
I then remembered that YA is Thursday, but this week is no regular YA! It's HK's last YA! It's the last time I'll see him and R(?) for a while... possibly a very long while... So I told SL that I was busy... No one else could take that shift though, unless I switch to someone else's morning shift... I proposed the idea that I could do the Salad Bar shift. =D
This is when she told me the whole situation. About how my boss wouldn't share me, or AS, or MR. xP But I want to work in Salad Bar..... T.T I was kinda begging her, but not quite and she kept telling me that if she asked my boss, he wouldn't allow it.
Soooooo, tommorow I am going to ask him. I mean, it's just once (as far as he knows... xP). I really want to...... xP
I'm so done with Produce... Since maybe 5 days after I got hired two and a half years ago, I've wanted to work in Bakery or Salad Bar. I always do my work as fast as possible so that I can go work in either of those departments now.
SL was saying that if I asked to work in Salad Bar my boss might tell me to just leave produce. SL said that if I was allowed to work in Salad Bar she would use me for more than just emergencies. I seem to have a reputation of doing things really quickly. She said that in January the Salad Bar hours would be reduced and that I wouldn't be able to get too many hours.
In January, I'll have to find a new job OR I will have to work every Sunday and one other day of the week instead of DG or YA or something else......
I just want to do something different already.... xP
I have been threatening to leave produce since the beggining of Summer, but never got around to writing a resume... Then I said I would be looking for a new job, but when I was writing a resume my computer turned off and so I had to start over... XP.... So, I don't have a resume..... and its exam time.....
My Bio exam wasn't that bad... It was a lot more wordy then I expected. It didn't want as many obscure terms as I thought it would. Short answer questions are lame. I can never explain things the way I want to...
I don't know why exactly, but I told BJ about my blog and she told JR.
I'm so tired... xP.
Night.
D.Fa
Today, I woke up at 8:30, had a shower, ate an omlette, got a drive to church, played bass, got a ride home, ate ice cream for lunch, and went to work.
So, ya.... The store was renovated in the summer. The new Salad Bar has been its own department ever since. When it split off from Produce my boss only gave them a couple of the old Salad Bar employees and the others stayed in produce. He apparently doesn't want to share his employees.
Anyways, recently he took one of the new salad bar employees to work in produce. The new salad bar manager doesn't think this is fair at all. I kind of agree... but I digress. The real reason I am talking about all this is because that one employee that has been split between the two departments has two shifts on Thursday: 7-4 in Salad Bar and 4-11 in Produce. It turns out that I was the only one free to work Thursday night so SL (Salad Bar manager) asked me if I could work then and there was nothing on my calander for Thursday night, so I said I would probably be able to work then. The thing is I thought that I had promised someone that I would do something then..?
I then remembered that YA is Thursday, but this week is no regular YA! It's HK's last YA! It's the last time I'll see him and R(?) for a while... possibly a very long while... So I told SL that I was busy... No one else could take that shift though, unless I switch to someone else's morning shift... I proposed the idea that I could do the Salad Bar shift. =D
This is when she told me the whole situation. About how my boss wouldn't share me, or AS, or MR. xP But I want to work in Salad Bar..... T.T I was kinda begging her, but not quite and she kept telling me that if she asked my boss, he wouldn't allow it.
Soooooo, tommorow I am going to ask him. I mean, it's just once (as far as he knows... xP). I really want to...... xP
I'm so done with Produce... Since maybe 5 days after I got hired two and a half years ago, I've wanted to work in Bakery or Salad Bar. I always do my work as fast as possible so that I can go work in either of those departments now.
SL was saying that if I asked to work in Salad Bar my boss might tell me to just leave produce. SL said that if I was allowed to work in Salad Bar she would use me for more than just emergencies. I seem to have a reputation of doing things really quickly. She said that in January the Salad Bar hours would be reduced and that I wouldn't be able to get too many hours.
In January, I'll have to find a new job OR I will have to work every Sunday and one other day of the week instead of DG or YA or something else......
I just want to do something different already.... xP
I have been threatening to leave produce since the beggining of Summer, but never got around to writing a resume... Then I said I would be looking for a new job, but when I was writing a resume my computer turned off and so I had to start over... XP.... So, I don't have a resume..... and its exam time.....
My Bio exam wasn't that bad... It was a lot more wordy then I expected. It didn't want as many obscure terms as I thought it would. Short answer questions are lame. I can never explain things the way I want to...
I don't know why exactly, but I told BJ about my blog and she told JR.
I'm so tired... xP.
Night.
D.Fa
11.12.10
MLIA...
Hey...
It is currently a Saturday. I have an exam today. I left the house at 1. My exam is at 2. 117s don't run on weekends...........
I swore once after I had put that stream of statements together..... I then ran to the bus stop in front of ToysRUs where it said the 111 came at 1:01 and would not come again until 1:31...........
I walked to the next stop...
The 111 came there at 1:17...
I guess that the traffic was pretty bad... XP...
I should get there in time.
I will read my pocket Bible until then and pray some more and ya..... Try to calm down.........
XP...
D.Fa
It is currently a Saturday. I have an exam today. I left the house at 1. My exam is at 2. 117s don't run on weekends...........
I swore once after I had put that stream of statements together..... I then ran to the bus stop in front of ToysRUs where it said the 111 came at 1:01 and would not come again until 1:31...........
I walked to the next stop...
The 111 came there at 1:17...
I guess that the traffic was pretty bad... XP...
I should get there in time.
I will read my pocket Bible until then and pray some more and ya..... Try to calm down.........
XP...
D.Fa
10.12.10
Aclectic Thoughts [Eclectic*]
Heya,
I've got an exam tommorow at 2 pm. Right after this post I'm going to sleep util 7ish then go over the slides for Bio, eat a piece of chocolate, go to school, destroy the exam, go to worship practice, then I think I'm going home. Lol.
I told my brother that I still had my moustache. He said "gross". I said its worse. xP He said how..? I said you'll see.
He will see. xP emphasis on see. Mwahahahahaha.
Anyways, I just got back from watching Bethel Pentecostal's Singing Christmas Tree show. This is the first time that I had gone to it, although I had heard of it before. It was pretty cool. There were all different styles of singing, all different styles of songs, drama, comedy. xP So good. I went with AL and HK.
On Wednesday I did a photoscavanger hunt with the Wednesday YA group in Billings Plaza. I can't believe they would hide the last copy of Bill Clinton's Biography from us... >.> Our team probably lost, but to just avoid arguments and etc we just called it a tie and all had hot chocolate. xP There were a number of really cool pictures especially the guys' mirror shot. Soo good.
I've been thinking lately that next year I should live with some other people. Me, RL, J(?), and J(?). We'd all be second years at Carleton in different programs. xP Plus living in res is not something that people want to pay for, so J(?) will be moving next year for sure, probably. I also want to live with JS and CW. xP There's nothing wrong with my current house mates, I still don't really know them though and everything that one of them does annoys me... >.> Which is not a good attitude to have....... but it's true...
JK and KP are, like, my favourite OCBC couple now... xP
Pizza Hut buffet with JK, KP, CW, DH and JS. Studying all morning. Cleaning the kitchen.
I'm done eating all of the perishable items in my house. Food items that is. xP
Yesterday I planted an onion in the pot where the dead plant was growing.
Okay.
This is a video of a seven year old who raps.
He's so cool yo. xP
And this is a video I found from searching for a user who did a cover of the song I posted yesterday. It is about "bromance" It is really funny and then it starts getting awkward... xP
Ya, I'll ttyl.
D.Fa
I've got an exam tommorow at 2 pm. Right after this post I'm going to sleep util 7ish then go over the slides for Bio, eat a piece of chocolate, go to school, destroy the exam, go to worship practice, then I think I'm going home. Lol.
I told my brother that I still had my moustache. He said "gross". I said its worse. xP He said how..? I said you'll see.
He will see. xP emphasis on see. Mwahahahahaha.
Anyways, I just got back from watching Bethel Pentecostal's Singing Christmas Tree show. This is the first time that I had gone to it, although I had heard of it before. It was pretty cool. There were all different styles of singing, all different styles of songs, drama, comedy. xP So good. I went with AL and HK.
On Wednesday I did a photoscavanger hunt with the Wednesday YA group in Billings Plaza. I can't believe they would hide the last copy of Bill Clinton's Biography from us... >.> Our team probably lost, but to just avoid arguments and etc we just called it a tie and all had hot chocolate. xP There were a number of really cool pictures especially the guys' mirror shot. Soo good.
I've been thinking lately that next year I should live with some other people. Me, RL, J(?), and J(?). We'd all be second years at Carleton in different programs. xP Plus living in res is not something that people want to pay for, so J(?) will be moving next year for sure, probably. I also want to live with JS and CW. xP There's nothing wrong with my current house mates, I still don't really know them though and everything that one of them does annoys me... >.> Which is not a good attitude to have....... but it's true...
JK and KP are, like, my favourite OCBC couple now... xP
Pizza Hut buffet with JK, KP, CW, DH and JS. Studying all morning. Cleaning the kitchen.
I'm done eating all of the perishable items in my house. Food items that is. xP
Yesterday I planted an onion in the pot where the dead plant was growing.
Okay.
This is a video of a seven year old who raps.
He's so cool yo. xP
And this is a video I found from searching for a user who did a cover of the song I posted yesterday. It is about "bromance" It is really funny and then it starts getting awkward... xP
Ya, I'll ttyl.
D.Fa
Kate Plus 8
So, I just had a really weird dream. xP
It was about the show "Kate Plus 8". Okay. Laugh at me. xP... I used to watch Jon and Kate Plus 8 with my Mom and brother. Half asian babies are really cute.
Anyways, if you didn't know, they got a divorce and all that jazz. As far as I know the new show "Kate plus 8" is still airing..?
It wasn't a really long dream. The dream had two main focus points. 1) That there are giant menacing spiders all over their home, just because that's normal where their house is. I mean like giant scary spiders that pounce on you, stab you, inject you with poison and then drink all your blood. The second point was that all of the kids can play a different instrument. They all filed out of the front door, sat on the porch and played a song. There was a tuba, a baritone, a violin, a clarinet, an oboe, and I think there was a trumpet. They played a short song and it was pretty good.
I then woke up just in time to tel RL good luck and realize that the kids probably aren't old enough to play Tuba... xP
Weird... xP
Ttyl.
D.Fa
It was about the show "Kate Plus 8". Okay. Laugh at me. xP... I used to watch Jon and Kate Plus 8 with my Mom and brother. Half asian babies are really cute.
Anyways, if you didn't know, they got a divorce and all that jazz. As far as I know the new show "Kate plus 8" is still airing..?
It wasn't a really long dream. The dream had two main focus points. 1) That there are giant menacing spiders all over their home, just because that's normal where their house is. I mean like giant scary spiders that pounce on you, stab you, inject you with poison and then drink all your blood. The second point was that all of the kids can play a different instrument. They all filed out of the front door, sat on the porch and played a song. There was a tuba, a baritone, a violin, a clarinet, an oboe, and I think there was a trumpet. They played a short song and it was pretty good.
I then woke up just in time to tel RL good luck and realize that the kids probably aren't old enough to play Tuba... xP
Weird... xP
Ttyl.
D.Fa
CHEM 1001
Hey.
I have now completed a University exam. It's practically the same thing as a highschool exam, just on a larger scale. They are apparently scarier when it comes to cell phones and other potential cheating, the exam room is WAY bigger, but the exam itself is only 11 pages... xP
Okay... I failed again today..... After I went and finished my studying. I turned on the radio (CHRI) and there were a few talks. Mostly they were about prioritizing and wasted time etc. It was talking about how Jesus only had 3 years to do the biggest thing any man has ever done, save the world, yet he took the time every morning to pray and spend time with God and he was never rushing to get anywhere, one of his biggest sermons was to one woman at a well.
How can I really rely on God if I'm not even talking to him very much. Okay.... I've been failing because I've been relying on myself again. I am going to try to spend 15 minutes of every four hours in prayer/reading a passage and reflecting on it.
Earlier I was thinking "Seek first His kingdom and His righteosness and all these things will be given to you." I was using this as an excuse to not study last second. Instead I would go sharing around 5:30 and be doing His work. Then the test would be guarenteed. I mean it is just something else, just another thing. What is going to last..? Only what is done for love's reward will stand the test of time, or so the song goes... xP
In the end, I forgot my calculator and had to walk home after waiting at a bus stop for 10 minutes... It was so cold... xP But, really, my planning had failed. Emphasis on MY.
Ya, I really need to sleep so that I can wake up and study for Bio... xP I'm gonna waste a lot of time on Pizza buffet and Singing Christmas Tree tommorow, so I really need to get to work...
Also, you guys should pray for RL. I will be. This morning at 10 he said he was going to sleep and that I should wake him up at 12. I then hear video game sounds from the other side of his closed door for 2 hours as I study. I then hear him "go back to bed" then "wake up" then start a new game. I then go to 'wake him up' and he says good morning. I tell him that he's been playing video games for two hours, he says, no I just started. See, look at the counter (it says how long he's been playing...)... He then played for another two hours. Now, at midnight he plans to 'study' for two hours, go to sleep and wake up 5 hours later then bus to school for a 9am exam........ He is watching Glee.
JW says that 'parenting won't help him' and that 'if he makes mistakes he'll learn from them.' I don't want him to fail. I don't want him to starve. I don't want him to be sleep deprived. I don't want him to waste his life on video games (It is seriously taking over his life.).
Ya.......
Ttyl.
D.Fa
Far East Movement is also a good band. xP
I have now completed a University exam. It's practically the same thing as a highschool exam, just on a larger scale. They are apparently scarier when it comes to cell phones and other potential cheating, the exam room is WAY bigger, but the exam itself is only 11 pages... xP
Okay... I failed again today..... After I went and finished my studying. I turned on the radio (CHRI) and there were a few talks. Mostly they were about prioritizing and wasted time etc. It was talking about how Jesus only had 3 years to do the biggest thing any man has ever done, save the world, yet he took the time every morning to pray and spend time with God and he was never rushing to get anywhere, one of his biggest sermons was to one woman at a well.
How can I really rely on God if I'm not even talking to him very much. Okay.... I've been failing because I've been relying on myself again. I am going to try to spend 15 minutes of every four hours in prayer/reading a passage and reflecting on it.
Earlier I was thinking "Seek first His kingdom and His righteosness and all these things will be given to you." I was using this as an excuse to not study last second. Instead I would go sharing around 5:30 and be doing His work. Then the test would be guarenteed. I mean it is just something else, just another thing. What is going to last..? Only what is done for love's reward will stand the test of time, or so the song goes... xP
In the end, I forgot my calculator and had to walk home after waiting at a bus stop for 10 minutes... It was so cold... xP But, really, my planning had failed. Emphasis on MY.
Ya, I really need to sleep so that I can wake up and study for Bio... xP I'm gonna waste a lot of time on Pizza buffet and Singing Christmas Tree tommorow, so I really need to get to work...
Also, you guys should pray for RL. I will be. This morning at 10 he said he was going to sleep and that I should wake him up at 12. I then hear video game sounds from the other side of his closed door for 2 hours as I study. I then hear him "go back to bed" then "wake up" then start a new game. I then go to 'wake him up' and he says good morning. I tell him that he's been playing video games for two hours, he says, no I just started. See, look at the counter (it says how long he's been playing...)... He then played for another two hours. Now, at midnight he plans to 'study' for two hours, go to sleep and wake up 5 hours later then bus to school for a 9am exam........ He is watching Glee.
JW says that 'parenting won't help him' and that 'if he makes mistakes he'll learn from them.' I don't want him to fail. I don't want him to starve. I don't want him to be sleep deprived. I don't want him to waste his life on video games (It is seriously taking over his life.).
Ya.......
Ttyl.
D.Fa
Far East Movement is also a good band. xP
8.12.10
His Name is Jesus
Ok. Honestly, right now, if I liked beer at all, I would probably have a hangover.
You see, last night was poker night at CW's house. It started at 7:30 and Everyone left around midnight. There were only 3 games in that time. The first game with 6 people took like 2 hours. Another game with like 4 people started about halfway into the first game on a second table and ended before the first game did. The third game was 10 people and ended around 11:50ish.
I don't really care about poker. I don't play very often and I don't ever expect to win, but I will play almost every hand. Like, even a bad hand could win if everyone else's hands are terrible. Since it was a game with no money involved, whenever I had a pile of chips I'd usually just throw more chips in everytime I could. Make the game go a bit faster, make it a bit more interesting. By doing this on a hand of two queens, I thought I had lost a thousand or so, but someone pointed out I actually had a flush, so I won a large pile of chips.
The blinds kept going up and I slowly lost because I don't fold very much.
The reason that I would have gotten drunk is a combination of the presence of beer / wine combined with my current attitude. I was kinda depressed because I had sinned earlier. Like, if you can shift the blame off of you, you don't feel as bad, but it was all my fault, I barley fought it and I failed Him again.
When I sin, sure I'll pray right away afterwards, but ideally I will pray before I give in completely and instead walk past the temptation. I know I can't hide my sins or inequities from Him, but yet I still act that way. I say I'm sorry, but then I kinda ignore him while feeling guilty...
On top of this guilt I was also kinda getting really angry at how slow the game was going. AL [a different one.] thought I was really serious. No, I was just not yelling. Instead I was trying to hide how angry I was. People were drinking, not paying attention to the game, eating, getting the pizza out of the oven, talking to their parents on the phone, playing music loudly and changing the songs. Everyone left the table many multiple times for various reasons and AL thinks too much about every move.
It's just a game. It should be fun. I think beer tastes really bad, so I didn't drink more than a couple sips.
I got home at like 1:00 and went to sleep.
I had a dream of some sort, but the only part I still remember is being in a computer lab and singing "His name is Jesus, precious Jesus" quietly out loud. The lyrics are from King of Glory by Third Day.
So, ya. I will attempt to play that song on guitar later after I study for Chem.
D.Fa
You see, last night was poker night at CW's house. It started at 7:30 and Everyone left around midnight. There were only 3 games in that time. The first game with 6 people took like 2 hours. Another game with like 4 people started about halfway into the first game on a second table and ended before the first game did. The third game was 10 people and ended around 11:50ish.
I don't really care about poker. I don't play very often and I don't ever expect to win, but I will play almost every hand. Like, even a bad hand could win if everyone else's hands are terrible. Since it was a game with no money involved, whenever I had a pile of chips I'd usually just throw more chips in everytime I could. Make the game go a bit faster, make it a bit more interesting. By doing this on a hand of two queens, I thought I had lost a thousand or so, but someone pointed out I actually had a flush, so I won a large pile of chips.
The blinds kept going up and I slowly lost because I don't fold very much.
The reason that I would have gotten drunk is a combination of the presence of beer / wine combined with my current attitude. I was kinda depressed because I had sinned earlier. Like, if you can shift the blame off of you, you don't feel as bad, but it was all my fault, I barley fought it and I failed Him again.
When I sin, sure I'll pray right away afterwards, but ideally I will pray before I give in completely and instead walk past the temptation. I know I can't hide my sins or inequities from Him, but yet I still act that way. I say I'm sorry, but then I kinda ignore him while feeling guilty...
On top of this guilt I was also kinda getting really angry at how slow the game was going. AL [a different one.] thought I was really serious. No, I was just not yelling. Instead I was trying to hide how angry I was. People were drinking, not paying attention to the game, eating, getting the pizza out of the oven, talking to their parents on the phone, playing music loudly and changing the songs. Everyone left the table many multiple times for various reasons and AL thinks too much about every move.
It's just a game. It should be fun. I think beer tastes really bad, so I didn't drink more than a couple sips.
I got home at like 1:00 and went to sleep.
I had a dream of some sort, but the only part I still remember is being in a computer lab and singing "His name is Jesus, precious Jesus" quietly out loud. The lyrics are from King of Glory by Third Day.
So, ya. I will attempt to play that song on guitar later after I study for Chem.
D.Fa
5.12.10
BLOCKUS ga Hoshii!!!
So, ya.
Today after church was the YA christmas party thing. We ate some food. Then the main event happened: the 5$ gift exchange. It got so intense.
There were like 20 people involved in this exchange. but there were only so many covetted gifts. These included : Blockus (so fun. its a board game), a free starbucks drink (any size, any drink), two pillows. That is all. xP. And Everyone wanted Blockus so badly. so badly! also everyone had something else that they wanted individually (I wanted the chopsticks!!!!) On top of this fact there is also the fact that a board game is played with more than one person and that a number of people lived in the same house. So on every round (one person would choose to either open a new gift or steal a previously opened gift) once blockus was stolen the intense trading game began (you could only steal the item once per round and no steal backs). There were alliances back and forth. But you could only have so many people helping you because only people who had chosen a gift so far could steal once stolen from. So we had to wait until our other roomate had started. We would swipe it, they would trade then swipe it, we would trade then swipe it like 20 steals in a turn.... Then because we couldn't lose to them we got like another few guys on our alliance although one was never really helping us, one was only interested in helping his girlfriend and another guy just wanted the pillows. In the end the game went to KP who is the girlfriend of my housemate and also lives with the girls, so its like everyone won. xPPPP All that time and stealing for nothing... xP I got my chopsticks, he got his pillows, she got the starbucks. Everyone (pretty much) got what they wanted. I can't believe we forgot to ask AL to steal for us. xP (LOL.... I just remembered what I told her about why we couldn't trust her, which is not why we didn't. xP) CW was last so he couldn't help.
I understand if you havn't been following that complex explaination... xP
I then made mashed potatoes.
We ate a lot of food.
We saw the Ottawa Christian Chorale's "Unending Song". They were pretty good.
I now have a box spring under my 3 mattresses... xP So high. I HAVE TO jump to get into bed.. xP
My thumb is still bugging me, but not as much...
My moustache is amazing. xPPPP
Ttyl.
D.Fa
Today after church was the YA christmas party thing. We ate some food. Then the main event happened: the 5$ gift exchange. It got so intense.
There were like 20 people involved in this exchange. but there were only so many covetted gifts. These included : Blockus (so fun. its a board game), a free starbucks drink (any size, any drink), two pillows. That is all. xP. And Everyone wanted Blockus so badly. so badly! also everyone had something else that they wanted individually (I wanted the chopsticks!!!!) On top of this fact there is also the fact that a board game is played with more than one person and that a number of people lived in the same house. So on every round (one person would choose to either open a new gift or steal a previously opened gift) once blockus was stolen the intense trading game began (you could only steal the item once per round and no steal backs). There were alliances back and forth. But you could only have so many people helping you because only people who had chosen a gift so far could steal once stolen from. So we had to wait until our other roomate had started. We would swipe it, they would trade then swipe it, we would trade then swipe it like 20 steals in a turn.... Then because we couldn't lose to them we got like another few guys on our alliance although one was never really helping us, one was only interested in helping his girlfriend and another guy just wanted the pillows. In the end the game went to KP who is the girlfriend of my housemate and also lives with the girls, so its like everyone won. xPPPP All that time and stealing for nothing... xP I got my chopsticks, he got his pillows, she got the starbucks. Everyone (pretty much) got what they wanted. I can't believe we forgot to ask AL to steal for us. xP (LOL.... I just remembered what I told her about why we couldn't trust her, which is not why we didn't. xP) CW was last so he couldn't help.
I understand if you havn't been following that complex explaination... xP
I then made mashed potatoes.
We ate a lot of food.
We saw the Ottawa Christian Chorale's "Unending Song". They were pretty good.
I now have a box spring under my 3 mattresses... xP So high. I HAVE TO jump to get into bed.. xP
My thumb is still bugging me, but not as much...
My moustache is amazing. xPPPP
Ttyl.
D.Fa
Ohashi!
YAYAYAYAYAYAY!
I just got a pack of chopsticks!!! Wah! Ya! So happy!
My first pair of chopsticks! Yeaah!
(Also, my moustache is brown now. LOL. Mwahahahahahaahahahahahhaahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahah!)
but I digress. CHOPSTICKS!! Yeeeeaaah!
ttyl.
=D.Fa
I just got a pack of chopsticks!!! Wah! Ya! So happy!
My first pair of chopsticks! Yeaah!
(Also, my moustache is brown now. LOL. Mwahahahahahaahahahahahhaahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahah!)
but I digress. CHOPSTICKS!! Yeeeeaaah!
ttyl.
=D.Fa
4.12.10
Have You Ever VIII..?
Have you ever been in such an intense fight that your knuckles start bleeding..?
Ya, me either. Until tonight. xP.... Except really, it had nothing to do with how intense the fight was, I just have really dry and cracking knuckles, but then I saw the blood and was like "where did that come from..? because it was on my palm and my palm was deffinately not bleeding. I deffinately didn't make someone else bleed. I was just punching him in the gut. Then I saw my knuckle bleeding... xP I am not good with blood. Also my joints were annoyed at my fighting, so I stopped. I may have sprained my thumb... xP
w00t! I can sleep in!!!!
G'night.
D.Fa
[Also, tonight was the semi-formal / tropical C4C christmas banquet at Thai Coconut and there was a regift exchange and I did not take home the necklace/bracelet/perfume package nor did I take home a skirt/blouse/sparkly shoelace package, but in the end I got two new books and a gym bag. Ya, the first gift said "for girls only" on the INSIDE... >.> Whatever. Ciao.]
PS. CROATIA! w00t!
Ya, me either. Until tonight. xP.... Except really, it had nothing to do with how intense the fight was, I just have really dry and cracking knuckles, but then I saw the blood and was like "where did that come from..? because it was on my palm and my palm was deffinately not bleeding. I deffinately didn't make someone else bleed. I was just punching him in the gut. Then I saw my knuckle bleeding... xP I am not good with blood. Also my joints were annoyed at my fighting, so I stopped. I may have sprained my thumb... xP
w00t! I can sleep in!!!!
G'night.
D.Fa
[Also, tonight was the semi-formal / tropical C4C christmas banquet at Thai Coconut and there was a regift exchange and I did not take home the necklace/bracelet/perfume package nor did I take home a skirt/blouse/sparkly shoelace package, but in the end I got two new books and a gym bag. Ya, the first gift said "for girls only" on the INSIDE... >.> Whatever. Ciao.]
PS. CROATIA! w00t!
3.12.10
I Just Met Porygon! / Have You Ever VII..?
Have you ever been assigned something a month and a half in advance and don't end up starting until the day before, don't end up finishing until either 10 minutes or 70 minutes before it is due and don't end up handing it in until either -40 or 20 minutes until it is due..?
Well, I just did... xP A six-page essay in FILM class.... I didn't really start until yesterday at 1ish. I didn't get "a thesis" until 11sih. I didn't start writing it until 8ish. I didn't finish the rough (very rough) draft until 2ish. I didn't finish revising the peer editing until 3:50ish. I didn't print it until 4:20ish. I didn't hand it in until 4:40ish. And I think it was due at 5, but there's a very minimul chance it was due at 4 (There were two girls right behind me not stressed at all, so I am now almost certain that it was due at 5).
So, ya. (My phone just reminded me "FILM paper due in 10 minutes") (It is now 4:50.) (*sigh of relief*)
Ya. I asked HK and CW if they could look over my paper today. I asked them last night at 11:58. I realize I hadn't started and I realize that it was kinda last second which you are not supposed to do with people (you should give people a week) but they are amazing and awesome upper years in journalism and english, so I am very happy that they helped out.
Also, the break in time when HK was looking over it (and I didn't realize she had emailed me back) I was watching pokemon episode 38. Guess what? I have never seen it before!!!!!!! What!?!??!?!!? Well, apparently it was banned from television in 1997 because it made 685 kids take an ambulance to a hospital because they thought they had seizures (two kids were in the hospital for over two weeks!) and now I understand the actual reason for the Simpsons and South Park allusion to seizure inducing anime.
But also, I now know who porygon is. Like in the games you don't really question it, you just catch them all, but almost every single one is shown in the anime, right..? But I never saw porygon and so I never really got what it was or why I would want it. Now I do!
Apparently a few episodes have been banned from various countries.
You know the episode where tentacruel attacks the city..? The one where horsea squirts oil..? (lol. the image just came to my head. which is why I said it. it's not actually a memorable part of that episode, but I just remembered it from that episode. Oh wait... is it a main plot point..? I don't remember.... xP Anyways...) Well, the US banned it and the episode with the ghost tower because of 9/11. What?!?!? seriously..?!?!? I remember that episode from like 10 years ago. It's still in the opening to every episode..! You can't just ban it.... >.>
Whatever... The new pokemon are just weird... I saw them today.... SOOOOOO Weird..... so weird. The first stages are all super cute. The middle stages are all awkward. and the final forms are all huge, complicated and scary.....
>.> I don't know if I will buy this one.... The fire starter pokemon is a fire/fighting pig.... the other starters aren't much better, but satoshi (ash ketchum) apparently gets all 3 like in every other season. XP
So, ya.... Ttyl.
D.Fa
Well, I just did... xP A six-page essay in FILM class.... I didn't really start until yesterday at 1ish. I didn't get "a thesis" until 11sih. I didn't start writing it until 8ish. I didn't finish the rough (very rough) draft until 2ish. I didn't finish revising the peer editing until 3:50ish. I didn't print it until 4:20ish. I didn't hand it in until 4:40ish. And I think it was due at 5, but there's a very minimul chance it was due at 4 (There were two girls right behind me not stressed at all, so I am now almost certain that it was due at 5).
So, ya. (My phone just reminded me "FILM paper due in 10 minutes") (It is now 4:50.) (*sigh of relief*)
Ya. I asked HK and CW if they could look over my paper today. I asked them last night at 11:58. I realize I hadn't started and I realize that it was kinda last second which you are not supposed to do with people (you should give people a week) but they are amazing and awesome upper years in journalism and english, so I am very happy that they helped out.
Also, the break in time when HK was looking over it (and I didn't realize she had emailed me back) I was watching pokemon episode 38. Guess what? I have never seen it before!!!!!!! What!?!??!?!!? Well, apparently it was banned from television in 1997 because it made 685 kids take an ambulance to a hospital because they thought they had seizures (two kids were in the hospital for over two weeks!) and now I understand the actual reason for the Simpsons and South Park allusion to seizure inducing anime.
But also, I now know who porygon is. Like in the games you don't really question it, you just catch them all, but almost every single one is shown in the anime, right..? But I never saw porygon and so I never really got what it was or why I would want it. Now I do!
Apparently a few episodes have been banned from various countries.
You know the episode where tentacruel attacks the city..? The one where horsea squirts oil..? (lol. the image just came to my head. which is why I said it. it's not actually a memorable part of that episode, but I just remembered it from that episode. Oh wait... is it a main plot point..? I don't remember.... xP Anyways...) Well, the US banned it and the episode with the ghost tower because of 9/11. What?!?!? seriously..?!?!? I remember that episode from like 10 years ago. It's still in the opening to every episode..! You can't just ban it.... >.>
Whatever... The new pokemon are just weird... I saw them today.... SOOOOOO Weird..... so weird. The first stages are all super cute. The middle stages are all awkward. and the final forms are all huge, complicated and scary.....
>.> I don't know if I will buy this one.... The fire starter pokemon is a fire/fighting pig.... the other starters aren't much better, but satoshi (ash ketchum) apparently gets all 3 like in every other season. XP
So, ya.... Ttyl.
D.Fa
2.12.10
Forever Young / Have You Ever VI..?
Have you ever wished you could go back in time..? Go back and just do something again..?
Well, today I wish I was still in High School, MHS that is. Today I went to the Evening of the Arts event which is a fundraiser for Suzart, a local theatre company. Most of the performances are by Suzart actors, but a large number are just talented students such as MHC, JF, CN, OC and others. JC was emcee... xP....... He made a terribly funny joke about Argon. xPPP I got to hang out with a limited number of people because its not as much a student event, its more an event to show off and students don't really care too much about some theatre company they havnn't heard of, so its mostly adults, but theres always a Musical teaser with people in roles they wont actually be in because the casting was last week, but ya.
Afterwards we were cleaning up, putting benches back, moving chairs and tables. So much more fun now that I don't actually have to do it. xPP I really have to write an essay right now that is due tommorow afternoon, but this was a way better waste of my time. I wish I were still in the carefree years of highschool, but I would probably miss these days too... xP
I don't know... xP
I was flinging benches across the caf to help move them. I got really hyper. I walked home without a coat. xPPP
xPPP I can't wait until Christmas break. xP. sleep.
ttyl.
D.Fa
Well, today I wish I was still in High School, MHS that is. Today I went to the Evening of the Arts event which is a fundraiser for Suzart, a local theatre company. Most of the performances are by Suzart actors, but a large number are just talented students such as MHC, JF, CN, OC and others. JC was emcee... xP....... He made a terribly funny joke about Argon. xPPP I got to hang out with a limited number of people because its not as much a student event, its more an event to show off and students don't really care too much about some theatre company they havnn't heard of, so its mostly adults, but theres always a Musical teaser with people in roles they wont actually be in because the casting was last week, but ya.
Afterwards we were cleaning up, putting benches back, moving chairs and tables. So much more fun now that I don't actually have to do it. xPP I really have to write an essay right now that is due tommorow afternoon, but this was a way better waste of my time. I wish I were still in the carefree years of highschool, but I would probably miss these days too... xP
I don't know... xP
I was flinging benches across the caf to help move them. I got really hyper. I walked home without a coat. xPPP
xPPP I can't wait until Christmas break. xP. sleep.
ttyl.
D.Fa
1.12.10
Accountability Check
So, ya. As I have said before I try to be honest when I post and that is what I shall be again.
So, for a while I have been talking with CW about my viewing questionable images. This has been a pretty one sided conversation, as most physical conversations with me end up being. You see, there is this software that you can install in your computer that will take note of any 'questionable' websites that you view and on a biweekly basis email an accountability partner of your choice the list of 'questionable' sites. The goal of this program is for friends to help each other with this very common struggle.
There are a number of things I was thinking about this.
This is in no way a solution to the problem in and of itself. Just because this takes away your 'privacy' / ability to hide your actions on your computer, there are many other ways to do such questionable things. However, it does take the easiest and most accesable method out of the picture, kinda.
One thing I was thinking was that if I had this installed I'd have to be more transparent towards CW. I mean not only would I be unable to deny this questionable activity, but would I have to be even more transparent..? I mean, that wouldn't be a bad thing, technically, sharing more openly, but there are things that I don't really want to share / I don't think I really have to share. I mean admitting that I had / have a problem with pornography is one thing, but will I have to describe anything more specific than that..? I don't think so / don't really want to. That's not who I want to be so why should it be important..?
Ya, there's kinda an element of ego and pride in wanting to not admit any of this stuff, but really, I am no better than anyone else and this just makes it so I can't pretend to be so with CW. Of course, now I'm gonna be trying harder to protect my 'image' unless I end up forgetting about it because it is invisible.
Another thing is that the program's definition of 'questionable' doesn't always work. I mean, you can easily make things that are 'acceptable' in our society into something very questionable by just using your imagination. And I don't know if it knows whether videos are questionable or not. Or what the limit for questionable vs unquestionable is..?
I don't know... xP This is really awkward.... but it doesn't really matter. God has paid the price for my sins, all of which at the time were in the future, so that I can stand unashamed, so really this should not matter and its all just about me protecting this image I put on for other people (which I really shouldn't have to do....).
So, ya. There goes that and I hope to be able to be more open with CW and other people. I deffinately can't hide anything from you guys anyways because I don't want to...
Whatever.... >.> In YF when the main topic was BGR (Boy Girl Relationships) Pastor DB was talking about "how much is too much..? / How far is too far..?" and the main point was that if you have to ask wether or not you have gone too far, you have gone too far. (I got distracted and no longer know where I was going with this. xP)
Anyways...
Ttyl.
D.Fa
PS. I don't remember if Thailand has already seen my blog or not, so I will be excited again. THAILAND! w00t!
[I can't believe that I posted this without praying. >.> After talking about all that....
Oh Heavenly Father, Lord I know that I have sinned in the past and I can't say that I am perfect, so I will probably sin in the future, but Lord I thank you so much for your love of those you created even though we turned away. Lord, you were willing to die on the cross for those who rejected you to follow their own path seeking their own satisfaction to no end. Lord, I'm sorry. I want to follow you and your way everlasting and not the way of sin. Lord remind us that without you we would be stuck in the hole we dug for ourselves. But you didn't leave us there, you carried us out, it wasn't us who climbed out. Lord, you are in control of everything and you have a purpose for everyone of us. Lord show me my purpose and give my life a meaning. I also pray for R(?) that he would be in contact with us. Lord I thank you that you have been working in his life already. Lord I pray all this in your name. Amen.]
So, for a while I have been talking with CW about my viewing questionable images. This has been a pretty one sided conversation, as most physical conversations with me end up being. You see, there is this software that you can install in your computer that will take note of any 'questionable' websites that you view and on a biweekly basis email an accountability partner of your choice the list of 'questionable' sites. The goal of this program is for friends to help each other with this very common struggle.
There are a number of things I was thinking about this.
This is in no way a solution to the problem in and of itself. Just because this takes away your 'privacy' / ability to hide your actions on your computer, there are many other ways to do such questionable things. However, it does take the easiest and most accesable method out of the picture, kinda.
One thing I was thinking was that if I had this installed I'd have to be more transparent towards CW. I mean not only would I be unable to deny this questionable activity, but would I have to be even more transparent..? I mean, that wouldn't be a bad thing, technically, sharing more openly, but there are things that I don't really want to share / I don't think I really have to share. I mean admitting that I had / have a problem with pornography is one thing, but will I have to describe anything more specific than that..? I don't think so / don't really want to. That's not who I want to be so why should it be important..?
Ya, there's kinda an element of ego and pride in wanting to not admit any of this stuff, but really, I am no better than anyone else and this just makes it so I can't pretend to be so with CW. Of course, now I'm gonna be trying harder to protect my 'image' unless I end up forgetting about it because it is invisible.
Another thing is that the program's definition of 'questionable' doesn't always work. I mean, you can easily make things that are 'acceptable' in our society into something very questionable by just using your imagination. And I don't know if it knows whether videos are questionable or not. Or what the limit for questionable vs unquestionable is..?
I don't know... xP This is really awkward.... but it doesn't really matter. God has paid the price for my sins, all of which at the time were in the future, so that I can stand unashamed, so really this should not matter and its all just about me protecting this image I put on for other people (which I really shouldn't have to do....).
So, ya. There goes that and I hope to be able to be more open with CW and other people. I deffinately can't hide anything from you guys anyways because I don't want to...
Whatever.... >.> In YF when the main topic was BGR (Boy Girl Relationships) Pastor DB was talking about "how much is too much..? / How far is too far..?" and the main point was that if you have to ask wether or not you have gone too far, you have gone too far. (I got distracted and no longer know where I was going with this. xP)
Anyways...
Ttyl.
D.Fa
PS. I don't remember if Thailand has already seen my blog or not, so I will be excited again. THAILAND! w00t!
[I can't believe that I posted this without praying. >.> After talking about all that....
Oh Heavenly Father, Lord I know that I have sinned in the past and I can't say that I am perfect, so I will probably sin in the future, but Lord I thank you so much for your love of those you created even though we turned away. Lord, you were willing to die on the cross for those who rejected you to follow their own path seeking their own satisfaction to no end. Lord, I'm sorry. I want to follow you and your way everlasting and not the way of sin. Lord remind us that without you we would be stuck in the hole we dug for ourselves. But you didn't leave us there, you carried us out, it wasn't us who climbed out. Lord, you are in control of everything and you have a purpose for everyone of us. Lord show me my purpose and give my life a meaning. I also pray for R(?) that he would be in contact with us. Lord I thank you that you have been working in his life already. Lord I pray all this in your name. Amen.]
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