Well, I think this is far from now. Or at least I think it is, but seeing everyone getting married, like 4th year or just after graduating, I guess anything could happen.
I guess I was asked what I would want in a wife, what I am looking for. I wrote the following, but truthfully, I would normally not answer the question. lol.
I want there to be real love. I want to see her seeking the Lord and
being led and filled with the Spirit. I want to see her passionate. I
want us to be able to work together to build each other up and support
each other and love the Lord together. I want to reflect the trinity in
our union. I want her to be happy. I want to be able to be open and talk
with her for hours. I don't want a relationship based on lies.
I suppose I don't ever really know what I want, what I should want, what I desire, what I hope for.
I don't feel ready. I don't feel confident. I don't feel like I'm good enough.
I don't know. I think my definition, my 'list' has changed over the past few years.
It's so much more about her heart and who she is in the Lord, where her passions lie and how we can work together. I don't think I've ever really been too focused on the externality of a person, however, it probably does have an effect on how I interact with a person.
Ah... It's so complicated. >.<
I don't know my own heart.
Another thing is that the man is supposed to take the lead, which I am far from doing regularly. >.> I need to grow in this area. [Obviously, following God's leading.] Honestly, I'll never be perfect. She will have to accept me for my faults and I will have to accept her for hers, but together we will grow to reflect more and more of God's glory.
I honestly can't wait to have kids. >.>
Ok. That's probably enough personal information. xP
Ttyl.
D.Fa
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Showing posts with label Spirit. Show all posts
1.12.11
21.10.11
The Warmth of Love
Okay, so I have just had two meetings and they were awesome. lol
First was a meeting with LT and B(?) concerning discipleship groups and one-on-one discipling, which is awesome. xP I really wanted to have a discipler, and LT is really cool (and a ninja, just saying) so that will be great. Part of discipling apparently is helping the disciple accomplish goals and help them fuel their personal passion and vision. So, LT will be helping me with what I see God calling me to, how I think God can use me to reach this campus and the world. Of course, this is all by God's grace and Holy Spirit in our lives empowering us. It's not me learning to be LT, it's both of us working together to take God at His word and encourage each other, etc. So that was cool. I also got to share about East Asia and how the students we met when they received Christ were so excited and found a hope and strength.
Anyways, next I had a meeting with KC. As I have said before, I haven't been able to really talk with him about God or spiritual stuff in a while and how he has developed a social anxiety. We got to meet up in a quieter location and have a good conversation. From this meeting I have seen how we are in fact friends (which is something I've been having trouble with), the fact that God never leaves us, and I got to hear what he thinks is the major difference in his life. So, we talked a bit about school and this week and stuff, then pretty bluntly "I wanted to ask you, since praying to receive Jesus last year, how has your life changed?" lol. (JW. lol.) He answered about how his life feels 'warmer' now and how he has been brought from isolation into community. That's awesome. We were not meant to live in isolation, but live in community. We were made for relationship. I also found out about how he has been talking with his aunt whenever he has problems and how she helps him by giving Biblical advice and praying for him. Also, very awesome.
We also did the first lesson of follow-up material that we used in EA. It was about how God never leaves us, how we are His children, how nothing can separate us from Him and how we have been given eternal life. These lessons are highly packed with Scripture, which is great because it's God's word and God speaks to us through it. KC read all of the verses (and there were a lot. lol) There will be a lesson later on the Bible, but I told him about how it is God's word and true, which is why we can look to it and find truths. The lesson is pretty straight forward, only really two or three open ended questions and the rest can be answered verbatim from the verses.
It was good. Excellent. I'm so glad that we finally got to do this and that he wants to continue doing so.
Also, he prays for his friends. So good.
Anyways, God is awesome. Even when I thought KC might have drifted a bit from God and lost the peace that God gives us, the hope He gives us, the love we experience; He hasn't. God is always with us even to the very end.
PTL
=D.Fa
First was a meeting with LT and B(?) concerning discipleship groups and one-on-one discipling, which is awesome. xP I really wanted to have a discipler, and LT is really cool (and a ninja, just saying) so that will be great. Part of discipling apparently is helping the disciple accomplish goals and help them fuel their personal passion and vision. So, LT will be helping me with what I see God calling me to, how I think God can use me to reach this campus and the world. Of course, this is all by God's grace and Holy Spirit in our lives empowering us. It's not me learning to be LT, it's both of us working together to take God at His word and encourage each other, etc. So that was cool. I also got to share about East Asia and how the students we met when they received Christ were so excited and found a hope and strength.
Anyways, next I had a meeting with KC. As I have said before, I haven't been able to really talk with him about God or spiritual stuff in a while and how he has developed a social anxiety. We got to meet up in a quieter location and have a good conversation. From this meeting I have seen how we are in fact friends (which is something I've been having trouble with), the fact that God never leaves us, and I got to hear what he thinks is the major difference in his life. So, we talked a bit about school and this week and stuff, then pretty bluntly "I wanted to ask you, since praying to receive Jesus last year, how has your life changed?" lol. (JW. lol.) He answered about how his life feels 'warmer' now and how he has been brought from isolation into community. That's awesome. We were not meant to live in isolation, but live in community. We were made for relationship. I also found out about how he has been talking with his aunt whenever he has problems and how she helps him by giving Biblical advice and praying for him. Also, very awesome.
We also did the first lesson of follow-up material that we used in EA. It was about how God never leaves us, how we are His children, how nothing can separate us from Him and how we have been given eternal life. These lessons are highly packed with Scripture, which is great because it's God's word and God speaks to us through it. KC read all of the verses (and there were a lot. lol) There will be a lesson later on the Bible, but I told him about how it is God's word and true, which is why we can look to it and find truths. The lesson is pretty straight forward, only really two or three open ended questions and the rest can be answered verbatim from the verses.
It was good. Excellent. I'm so glad that we finally got to do this and that he wants to continue doing so.
Also, he prays for his friends. So good.
Anyways, God is awesome. Even when I thought KC might have drifted a bit from God and lost the peace that God gives us, the hope He gives us, the love we experience; He hasn't. God is always with us even to the very end.
PTL
=D.Fa
7.10.11
Wow.
Hey,
I was just looking through some of my EA papers and I found like 4 more instant messaging addresses I thought I didn't have, which is awesome!!!!!
Also, I just found a paper of 're-entry questions to ask yourself'. I was reading a couple thinking I should answer these sometime. #3 said 'What changes, real or imagined, will people close to me observe or sense? How can I get them to accept me as I am now?' I was thinking, what would I have written. I hope I didn't write that I am more asian or 'FOBy'... It looked like I hadn't answered the questions. Then I checked the back. On the back there were some answers.
Answer to number 3: I hope that God has really stirred me up for his Great Commission and just to be a life long labourer, that people would see this, be encouraged and excited.
And I realized that's what happened when I went to Quebec, I had been stirred up, I was there with this desire to share the gospel and change lives there. I was not content to sit back and watch things happen.
Ya. I think that God has changed me. It's all through his Holy Spirit.
D.Fa
I was just looking through some of my EA papers and I found like 4 more instant messaging addresses I thought I didn't have, which is awesome!!!!!
Also, I just found a paper of 're-entry questions to ask yourself'. I was reading a couple thinking I should answer these sometime. #3 said 'What changes, real or imagined, will people close to me observe or sense? How can I get them to accept me as I am now?' I was thinking, what would I have written. I hope I didn't write that I am more asian or 'FOBy'... It looked like I hadn't answered the questions. Then I checked the back. On the back there were some answers.
Answer to number 3: I hope that God has really stirred me up for his Great Commission and just to be a life long labourer, that people would see this, be encouraged and excited.
And I realized that's what happened when I went to Quebec, I had been stirred up, I was there with this desire to share the gospel and change lives there. I was not content to sit back and watch things happen.
Ya. I think that God has changed me. It's all through his Holy Spirit.
D.Fa
31.8.11
What can separate me from You.
You know. There is only really one thing that can eternally separate us from God and his love of us as his precious children. That one thing in the end is our choice. You see, the actual thing separating us was sin, but God defeated it by sending Jesus, God the Son, to Earth to die in our place. To sinlessly pay the price for sin. To begin the irony and unfairness that is grace.
By his death on the cross and ressurection our sins have been payed for and God has been able to offer this to us. To offer a relationship which was impossible for us when we had sin. It's our choice now as to whether or not we recieve forgiveness. It's our choice as to whether we live in sin or in his love.
'The temptation is too strong' is no excuse. We have his Holy Spirit in us. 1 John 4:4 "You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world." Also 1 Cor 10:13 "No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it." He gives us the ways out, but it's our choice.
Why do we want to sin? If only we didn't have the freewill to choose sin and death. Why do I keep choosing the moments of sin knowing the guilt that comes with it. Honestly, the separation and emptiness that follows are the worst feeling ever, but I keep going back.
I'm glad that I haven't made any really stupid decisions though. I even had a dream a couple days ago and in it I said no. I never say no to sin in dreams. I mean you can live out whatever you might desire, but be unable to ever do in real life, but I still said no. I felt proud the following morning. lol.
Micah 7:8 "Do not gloat over me, my enemy! Though I have fallen, I will rise. Though I sit in darkness, the LORD will be my light."
Although I have fallen to temptation again, this is not the end. I will choose to remain in his love and fight sin. God help me in this. I can't do it on my own.
By his death on the cross and ressurection our sins have been payed for and God has been able to offer this to us. To offer a relationship which was impossible for us when we had sin. It's our choice now as to whether or not we recieve forgiveness. It's our choice as to whether we live in sin or in his love.
'The temptation is too strong' is no excuse. We have his Holy Spirit in us. 1 John 4:4 "You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world." Also 1 Cor 10:13 "No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it." He gives us the ways out, but it's our choice.
Why do we want to sin? If only we didn't have the freewill to choose sin and death. Why do I keep choosing the moments of sin knowing the guilt that comes with it. Honestly, the separation and emptiness that follows are the worst feeling ever, but I keep going back.
I'm glad that I haven't made any really stupid decisions though. I even had a dream a couple days ago and in it I said no. I never say no to sin in dreams. I mean you can live out whatever you might desire, but be unable to ever do in real life, but I still said no. I felt proud the following morning. lol.
Micah 7:8 "Do not gloat over me, my enemy! Though I have fallen, I will rise. Though I sit in darkness, the LORD will be my light."
Although I have fallen to temptation again, this is not the end. I will choose to remain in his love and fight sin. God help me in this. I can't do it on my own.
18.8.11
Heroes Save the Day!
Hey!
Sushi with AP was fun, and then it got kinda awkward. lol. Anyways, it was really great seeing her this week and it was really great being able to still be friends after all this time. Having all that time together during spares and summer school was awesome. I hope we can continue being friends for a very long time. xP
I also got to see YA for the first time in a while which was good. lol. AP and YA are pretty good friends.
I've been researching Coptic Christianity a bit. It seems like it's similar to Catholicism, but maybe with even a bit more traditions and the idea of salvation through works... >.> I hope I'm wrong, but maybe...... I need to do a bit more research.
Thursday's Bible story is about Jesus and a little boy. You see, Jesus crossed the sea of Galilee and climbed a mountain. A large crowd approached. He asked Phillip where they could get enough food to feed everyone. Not even 8 months wages could feed the more than 5000 people. Andrew finds a little boy who is willing to share his 5 loaves and 2 fish, as if that will help much. Jesus tells everyone to sit down. He blesses the meal and gives the food to his disciples to pass out. After feeding everyone there was an extra 12 baskets full of bread. God provided food for everyone's hunger and God provided Jesus' atoning sacrifice for the sins of everyone, the entire world. Jesus died and rose again defeating death.
This story doesn't come with a game like the other stories do, but I feel that it's got good gospel links.
AL leaves tomorrow. Me and EC will meet briefly tomorrow to go over skits and maybe games..?
I'm doing my G1 driver's test tomorrow. I just crammed a bit. Gotta finish cramming, then maybe a mock-test..? Then back to story-telling to anyone and anything. Apparently, I have the potential to tell good stories, but I am inconsistent. I'll just let the Holy Spirit tell it for me. xP He is consistent.
Ttyl guys.
D.Fa
PS. Fa is not my last name.
PPS. JAMIL is a good band. The Rock City Boy!
Sushi with AP was fun, and then it got kinda awkward. lol. Anyways, it was really great seeing her this week and it was really great being able to still be friends after all this time. Having all that time together during spares and summer school was awesome. I hope we can continue being friends for a very long time. xP
I also got to see YA for the first time in a while which was good. lol. AP and YA are pretty good friends.
I've been researching Coptic Christianity a bit. It seems like it's similar to Catholicism, but maybe with even a bit more traditions and the idea of salvation through works... >.> I hope I'm wrong, but maybe...... I need to do a bit more research.
Thursday's Bible story is about Jesus and a little boy. You see, Jesus crossed the sea of Galilee and climbed a mountain. A large crowd approached. He asked Phillip where they could get enough food to feed everyone. Not even 8 months wages could feed the more than 5000 people. Andrew finds a little boy who is willing to share his 5 loaves and 2 fish, as if that will help much. Jesus tells everyone to sit down. He blesses the meal and gives the food to his disciples to pass out. After feeding everyone there was an extra 12 baskets full of bread. God provided food for everyone's hunger and God provided Jesus' atoning sacrifice for the sins of everyone, the entire world. Jesus died and rose again defeating death.
This story doesn't come with a game like the other stories do, but I feel that it's got good gospel links.
AL leaves tomorrow. Me and EC will meet briefly tomorrow to go over skits and maybe games..?
I'm doing my G1 driver's test tomorrow. I just crammed a bit. Gotta finish cramming, then maybe a mock-test..? Then back to story-telling to anyone and anything. Apparently, I have the potential to tell good stories, but I am inconsistent. I'll just let the Holy Spirit tell it for me. xP He is consistent.
Ttyl guys.
D.Fa
PS. Fa is not my last name.
PPS. JAMIL is a good band. The Rock City Boy!
15.2.11
Why am I blogging again..?
So,
I have decided I should eat lunch more regularly. I mean i havn't had lunch on a weekday since last last Friday..? it may have been longer ago... In any case this decision is coming because I kinda almost fainted today and I have been just not feelin too well by the end of the day... Also I have noticed that my breakfasts and dinners have been getting larger to compensate. I mean I practically had half a loaf of bread and a quarter jar of jam this morning......
RL is giving me free lunch tommorow in the caf, so that will be the start of my lunch eating...
Anyways. Not eating lunch is bad for you. Moral: your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit and you have to take care of it.
Ya.
Also, JW my dear housemate buddy told me to search for this song and it is pretty cool.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
I have decided I should eat lunch more regularly. I mean i havn't had lunch on a weekday since last last Friday..? it may have been longer ago... In any case this decision is coming because I kinda almost fainted today and I have been just not feelin too well by the end of the day... Also I have noticed that my breakfasts and dinners have been getting larger to compensate. I mean I practically had half a loaf of bread and a quarter jar of jam this morning......
RL is giving me free lunch tommorow in the caf, so that will be the start of my lunch eating...
Anyways. Not eating lunch is bad for you. Moral: your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit and you have to take care of it.
Ya.
Also, JW my dear housemate buddy told me to search for this song and it is pretty cool.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
5.2.11
明けましておめでとう
Today was pretty sweet.
I mean after the morning anyways. Sin is still in my life and I'm still not relying enough on the power of the Holy Spirit.
Aside from that I got to church a bit early for the practice and read and talked with CW for a while. Then when we were waiting for the door to magically unlock we tried to hit icicles off the roof using the ice from where the icicles were dripping and other icicles once some had fallen.
We started quite a bit later than expected, but we got to play a bunch of happy, fun and over the top songs and by that I mean hymns..? lol.
After that was the new years potluck. 明けましておめでとう! SC is a very interesting person and AL is more asian than I thought she was.
On that note, I like the songs that AL writes (by AL I mean AL's older brother, AL.) but the funny thing is that whenever I hear them I can only imagine AL singing them. xP And so I try to immitate the way he sings and then I laugh. xP The Righteousness of Christ is a pretty good song. I'm thinking of recording it. xP
On the topic of funny things: petting cymbals with purcussion brushes. lol.
Ya. Lunar New Year is a great time of year. xP.... Chinese potlucks are so good. Also, the way the snow was falling afterwards was the best. Big fluffy white snow flakes adn it wasn't all that cold either.
Even though we think fall is the best season to have permanently, I do enjoy large chunks of the other seasons. When snow is falling at night and it is warm that is cool. It is also amazing when right after a snowfall it is night and there is a full moon and no clouds and all the stars. The reflected moonlight off of all the snow is amazing. Winter is bad when the snow gets plowed into giant piles of brown grossness, the roads get salted and brown gross slush gets splased everywhere and when its like -30 or less and so cold.
But ya. YA is at my house this week. I also have a lot due this week. xP
Ttyl.
D.Fa
PS. Also, for some bizarre reason my computer finally decided to connect to the internet and as such I have just blogged.
I mean after the morning anyways. Sin is still in my life and I'm still not relying enough on the power of the Holy Spirit.
Aside from that I got to church a bit early for the practice and read and talked with CW for a while. Then when we were waiting for the door to magically unlock we tried to hit icicles off the roof using the ice from where the icicles were dripping and other icicles once some had fallen.
We started quite a bit later than expected, but we got to play a bunch of happy, fun and over the top songs and by that I mean hymns..? lol.
After that was the new years potluck. 明けましておめでとう! SC is a very interesting person and AL is more asian than I thought she was.
On that note, I like the songs that AL writes (by AL I mean AL's older brother, AL.) but the funny thing is that whenever I hear them I can only imagine AL singing them. xP And so I try to immitate the way he sings and then I laugh. xP The Righteousness of Christ is a pretty good song. I'm thinking of recording it. xP
On the topic of funny things: petting cymbals with purcussion brushes. lol.
Ya. Lunar New Year is a great time of year. xP.... Chinese potlucks are so good. Also, the way the snow was falling afterwards was the best. Big fluffy white snow flakes adn it wasn't all that cold either.
Even though we think fall is the best season to have permanently, I do enjoy large chunks of the other seasons. When snow is falling at night and it is warm that is cool. It is also amazing when right after a snowfall it is night and there is a full moon and no clouds and all the stars. The reflected moonlight off of all the snow is amazing. Winter is bad when the snow gets plowed into giant piles of brown grossness, the roads get salted and brown gross slush gets splased everywhere and when its like -30 or less and so cold.
But ya. YA is at my house this week. I also have a lot due this week. xP
Ttyl.
D.Fa
PS. Also, for some bizarre reason my computer finally decided to connect to the internet and as such I have just blogged.
21.1.11
What Will Your Story Be?
Hey, whatsup..?
I am currently in SP 100. It is 6:52. It is 'Weekly Meeting' time for Campus for Christ and we are currently all on our laptops. xP My friend HK just messaged JC "hey. aren't you supposed to be at WM?" lol... It's like, why are you on your laptop..? Well, you see, we are all brainstorming different ways that we can bring the gospel to our friends and just tell them about how great God is. The main focus this month is on writing our own personal testimonies about how God has impacted our lives and just about where we are coming from and just how we came to know God personally. I missed the weekly meeting last week where we started writing our testimonies and everything, and in Discipleship group this week we 'continued' working on them. I still don't really know what to say in it. The main thing about the testimony is that it has to have minimal 'Christian-ese' in it and has to just be easy to understand for people who don't know all these Christian terms that we just put in our sentences while we speak. xP
The other day I was texting VW again and she asked if she had ever shared her testimony with me. She summarized it into 'pastor's daughter. baby. but blessing.' When we finally meet in person it's gonna be interesting. We kinda facebook stalked each other slightly and have had a couple text conversations. The thing I got out of that conversation is that when we finally do meet I should have my testimony ready...
Well, today I went sharing with RM and MW. First we were in the food court and we approached a couple groups of people. The first group was a band and they were about to play somewhere and were just grabbing a quick bite, so they didn't have time to speak with us. After that we approached another group and they were all in a 'secular group' or at least I think that's what she said, so basically they said they didn't want to talk with us. RM had to leave and so it was just me and MW and the Holy Spirit.
We talked to two different guys. One in Loeb Lounge who was a non-practicing Catholic and one in Oasis who is a Methodist pastor's son. We had the most amazing conversation with him. He was originally from Ghana and lives in Toronto. We went through the 'Satisfied' booklet that talks about how to live the Spirit-filled life and just how we are satisfied when we put God in control of our lives and just trust in Him. It was really sweet going through that booklet again. It's always good to be reminded of all that stuff. We talked with him for a long time and we prayed for him. I think he actually encouraged me more than I encouraged him. One thing he was saying is about "Why do pro atheletes practice..? I mean they are so good, why do they need to practice..? The same reason we still need to read our Bibles and pray."
You can never be too good or 'too spiritual'. Christians don't get 'too good' until we get to heaven. We still struggle with sin and temptation and stuff while here on Earth and need to rely on God and the Holy Spirit and Jesus' forgiveness.
Anyways, in both of those conversations they asked about what denomination we were in or just what background we come from. I really need to work on my testimony.
Ya. So, we were brainstorming about how we can use the internet, twitter, facebook, blogs, emails, anything to reach our friends. This blog is my main way of reaching out to people, but clearly I'm mostly reaching people in my church... xP But I don't like the idea of plugging my blog, like "Hey I have this blog!" .... XP So, I was thinking I should blog, and post my testimony to facebook and maybe even upload worship songs to youtube or something.
So, I was just wasting time on hotmail, blogger, etc. and I went to facebook and at the top of the page it said "Introducing Your New Profile: Now with more ways to show and tell your story." Tell Your Story
With these overwhelming hints. I suppose that I should really work on my testimony. Especially because I am supposed to be sharing it in DG on Monday... xP
Ya. I will post my testimony here, don't worry. You are a part of it for sure. xP
Ttyl.
D.Fa
I am currently in SP 100. It is 6:52. It is 'Weekly Meeting' time for Campus for Christ and we are currently all on our laptops. xP My friend HK just messaged JC "hey. aren't you supposed to be at WM?" lol... It's like, why are you on your laptop..? Well, you see, we are all brainstorming different ways that we can bring the gospel to our friends and just tell them about how great God is. The main focus this month is on writing our own personal testimonies about how God has impacted our lives and just about where we are coming from and just how we came to know God personally. I missed the weekly meeting last week where we started writing our testimonies and everything, and in Discipleship group this week we 'continued' working on them. I still don't really know what to say in it. The main thing about the testimony is that it has to have minimal 'Christian-ese' in it and has to just be easy to understand for people who don't know all these Christian terms that we just put in our sentences while we speak. xP
The other day I was texting VW again and she asked if she had ever shared her testimony with me. She summarized it into 'pastor's daughter. baby. but blessing.' When we finally meet in person it's gonna be interesting. We kinda facebook stalked each other slightly and have had a couple text conversations. The thing I got out of that conversation is that when we finally do meet I should have my testimony ready...
Well, today I went sharing with RM and MW. First we were in the food court and we approached a couple groups of people. The first group was a band and they were about to play somewhere and were just grabbing a quick bite, so they didn't have time to speak with us. After that we approached another group and they were all in a 'secular group' or at least I think that's what she said, so basically they said they didn't want to talk with us. RM had to leave and so it was just me and MW and the Holy Spirit.
We talked to two different guys. One in Loeb Lounge who was a non-practicing Catholic and one in Oasis who is a Methodist pastor's son. We had the most amazing conversation with him. He was originally from Ghana and lives in Toronto. We went through the 'Satisfied' booklet that talks about how to live the Spirit-filled life and just how we are satisfied when we put God in control of our lives and just trust in Him. It was really sweet going through that booklet again. It's always good to be reminded of all that stuff. We talked with him for a long time and we prayed for him. I think he actually encouraged me more than I encouraged him. One thing he was saying is about "Why do pro atheletes practice..? I mean they are so good, why do they need to practice..? The same reason we still need to read our Bibles and pray."
You can never be too good or 'too spiritual'. Christians don't get 'too good' until we get to heaven. We still struggle with sin and temptation and stuff while here on Earth and need to rely on God and the Holy Spirit and Jesus' forgiveness.
Anyways, in both of those conversations they asked about what denomination we were in or just what background we come from. I really need to work on my testimony.
Ya. So, we were brainstorming about how we can use the internet, twitter, facebook, blogs, emails, anything to reach our friends. This blog is my main way of reaching out to people, but clearly I'm mostly reaching people in my church... xP But I don't like the idea of plugging my blog, like "Hey I have this blog!" .... XP So, I was thinking I should blog, and post my testimony to facebook and maybe even upload worship songs to youtube or something.
So, I was just wasting time on hotmail, blogger, etc. and I went to facebook and at the top of the page it said "Introducing Your New Profile: Now with more ways to show and tell your story." Tell Your Story
With these overwhelming hints. I suppose that I should really work on my testimony. Especially because I am supposed to be sharing it in DG on Monday... xP
Ya. I will post my testimony here, don't worry. You are a part of it for sure. xP
Ttyl.
D.Fa
9.1.11
I Think My Soul is... Singing..?
So, whatsup..? I'm pretty tired.
I have a few things I have been thinking about and a few things I have that I think are blog worthy.
So, ya. I honestly think that today's worship was Spirit led. You see, yesterday at the practice I apparently chose songs that have weird rhythm patterns or that the other two didn't actually know and so, we pretty much failed playing most of them on the first try. It was always like "ok.... I think we'll come back to that." after we had tried so hard to figure out what we could do to make it work. When we came back to them, without even talking about it they just worked. I felt like it was the Holy Spirit who had fixed it. This morning C(?) even said she felt God's presence after the first 4 songs.
Apparently, because I am not very good at playing guitar yet, my singing style has turned into long, pause-y, fermata'd, and 'spirit led' *waves arms in a distracting 'dancing' manner to imply 'spirit led'*. This was one reason for a bunch of the problems. The inside joke there came from when CW asked why we couldn't play 'Sing to the Lord' properly and AL replied 'It's Hillsong. It's Spirit led." in a semi-mocking tone with accompanying 'dance'.
Ya. So, I have invited BJ to church and I've invited her to YA. I really hope she comes. xP
So, ya. I was still singing 'Sing to the Lord' all day. After service I was singing it for like 3 hours non-stop. I was actually starting to annoy myself, but it just kept playing on repeat. I wasn't actually that annoyed. I was actually really happy. After an hour of thinking random things I finally diagnosed myself. My diagnosis..? My soul was singing. Honestly I would almost describe these last couple days as the best days of my life. and then I thought... why..? I haven't done anything special. and I thought about Holly Sheldon's message from Winter Conference about how you don't find rest in escaping from your troubles, but you find rest right in the middle of them. I had done a bunch of work this weekend and had done more Bible reading / praying / singing praises than I have in a while. Even at work I was really happy and just singing (although more internally or more quietly). Even at work.
Another thing I have been thinking about is my reasoning behind wanting to go on East Asia project this summer. Do I really want to go wholly because of the word 'Asia' in the description..? or am I going to do God's work..? This came up because yesterday my housemate JK was talking to me about his brother who is off at Bible school and he wants to quit cuz classes are hard. Apparently in the first year or two he went on trips all over the place, but they would be ziplining and doing a bunch of fun stuff. So he was questioning his motives. I said as a defense to me wanting to go to Asia that maybe God has made me with a desire to go to Asia for a reason. I didn't say this 100% seriously. It is a legitamite answer, but at the same time, I actually don't think I ever heard God tell me "Go on project". So I was thinking that I would go on project somewhere else to prove that I am in it, not just for Asia, but also for God's work, but then I started thinking that I would feel less comfortable in places like Northern Africa compared to East Asia... I mean, it would be a great oppourtunity, but I would really rather be in Asia... but is that just me trying to be in a comfortable position..? And thus I am in my negative cyclic thought processes that I frequently get into. I think I've decided that my second choice for project destination will be Northern Africa. This is in part to get over my racism. I don't support my racism, but I am willing to admit that it exists. So, ya I'm gonna pray about that stuff.
There is also another ridiculous quote that I hope to use tommorow and hopefully before AL blogs about it. xP It's so funny.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
PS. Hans. lol.
I have a few things I have been thinking about and a few things I have that I think are blog worthy.
So, ya. I honestly think that today's worship was Spirit led. You see, yesterday at the practice I apparently chose songs that have weird rhythm patterns or that the other two didn't actually know and so, we pretty much failed playing most of them on the first try. It was always like "ok.... I think we'll come back to that." after we had tried so hard to figure out what we could do to make it work. When we came back to them, without even talking about it they just worked. I felt like it was the Holy Spirit who had fixed it. This morning C(?) even said she felt God's presence after the first 4 songs.
Apparently, because I am not very good at playing guitar yet, my singing style has turned into long, pause-y, fermata'd, and 'spirit led' *waves arms in a distracting 'dancing' manner to imply 'spirit led'*. This was one reason for a bunch of the problems. The inside joke there came from when CW asked why we couldn't play 'Sing to the Lord' properly and AL replied 'It's Hillsong. It's Spirit led." in a semi-mocking tone with accompanying 'dance'.
Ya. So, I have invited BJ to church and I've invited her to YA. I really hope she comes. xP
So, ya. I was still singing 'Sing to the Lord' all day. After service I was singing it for like 3 hours non-stop. I was actually starting to annoy myself, but it just kept playing on repeat. I wasn't actually that annoyed. I was actually really happy. After an hour of thinking random things I finally diagnosed myself. My diagnosis..? My soul was singing. Honestly I would almost describe these last couple days as the best days of my life. and then I thought... why..? I haven't done anything special. and I thought about Holly Sheldon's message from Winter Conference about how you don't find rest in escaping from your troubles, but you find rest right in the middle of them. I had done a bunch of work this weekend and had done more Bible reading / praying / singing praises than I have in a while. Even at work I was really happy and just singing (although more internally or more quietly). Even at work.
Another thing I have been thinking about is my reasoning behind wanting to go on East Asia project this summer. Do I really want to go wholly because of the word 'Asia' in the description..? or am I going to do God's work..? This came up because yesterday my housemate JK was talking to me about his brother who is off at Bible school and he wants to quit cuz classes are hard. Apparently in the first year or two he went on trips all over the place, but they would be ziplining and doing a bunch of fun stuff. So he was questioning his motives. I said as a defense to me wanting to go to Asia that maybe God has made me with a desire to go to Asia for a reason. I didn't say this 100% seriously. It is a legitamite answer, but at the same time, I actually don't think I ever heard God tell me "Go on project". So I was thinking that I would go on project somewhere else to prove that I am in it, not just for Asia, but also for God's work, but then I started thinking that I would feel less comfortable in places like Northern Africa compared to East Asia... I mean, it would be a great oppourtunity, but I would really rather be in Asia... but is that just me trying to be in a comfortable position..? And thus I am in my negative cyclic thought processes that I frequently get into. I think I've decided that my second choice for project destination will be Northern Africa. This is in part to get over my racism. I don't support my racism, but I am willing to admit that it exists. So, ya I'm gonna pray about that stuff.
There is also another ridiculous quote that I hope to use tommorow and hopefully before AL blogs about it. xP It's so funny.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
PS. Hans. lol.
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