Thinking It Through: Introduction (0 of 15)

Hey there. :P

It's been a bit. It'll be 3 months with SH soon, which honestly blows my mind. I've had a month off work in September (slightly sick for 2 weeks, vacation for 2 weeks), we celebrated SH's birthday and a couple of the people in his friend group, I'm feeling more comfortable about how crazy work is and might be changing teams soon(?), but I'm also here and haven't deeply thought through how my relationship does or doesn't work which I kinda expected I'd have at least started by now. Obviously random thoughts and verses have been ruminating, but I have not been actively or directly addressing concerns. I was starting to feel guilty about it, like I'm kinda holding SH in limbo not knowing if I'm fully committed to our relationship because I did tell him I'd need to think it through. And he's cried a bit, but he's happy I'm being honest and wants me to think it through. But more recently he said I need to start. So, that's what I'm gonna do.

Conveniently(?), one of my friends wrote out a 7 page letter with 15 important things that needed to be said concerning my relationship / pursuit of relationship with another guy. He wrote this back on September 6th. When I got it in the mail I skimmed the headings, but otherwise I have not read the letter. So, it's definitely a place to start.

I have talked to many people generally about the relationship / the Biblical side of it and where I was at. But like those were all pretty brief or shallow? In any case, I feel like I still currently am thinking what I was before, but feel better about who I am, but haven't really thought it through fully. I have thought about talking to someone more affirmative and basically arguing against them cause I kinda feel like I don't really have any arguments strongly in favour of my relationship. Like, I have weak or subjective ones, but like, everything I'd been taught and studied before is still in my head providing some like logical answers against some of the questions I'm asking? idk if that makes sense. 

I'm gonna read over the next paragraph before writing my thoughts so I have more time to ponder and think and pray perhaps.

Next Time on Thinking It Through: The Law and the Gospel speak directly to you.

Ttyl. :P

D.Fa