These Moments

When did I get this emotional?

I feel like I depend so much upon my feelings these days and so little upon fact and logic and rationality and truth.

How did I get to this place?
Why did I ever open up the door to emotion ad feelings?
What can I do to get through or over this?

I am not enjoying this conflict. Where every second of my day I feel like I want something I know I shouldn't.

When did I get this emotional?

The truth that I know is true is Jesus came, loved those who were broken, and died in their place.

When did I stop trusting in that? How did I get to this place where I am relying upon my own actions and plans for every goal and ambition?

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My friends are so great though. I'm so glad I can ask them for prayer and help.

http://youtu.be/Ah0uydqMYhE
http://akingdomcollective.tumblr.com/post/102271934729/erasing-shame
"You want a stronger relationship with God and a deeper connection with your fellow man. Place nothing wicked before your eyes."
"Just ask Him to give you rest, and admit that you've been going to broken cisterns that hold no water, when He is the spring of eternal water // 'He who drinks from the water I give him will never be thirsty' // You're doing better than you think, but you need Him more than you know. What you think will satisfy your temporary lusts, this will not solve the problem."
"Maybe this is only what your flesh wants, because it doesn't know how else to express what your soul longs for."

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Psalm 116: 5-9
Gracious is the Lord, and righteous;
    our God is merciful.
The Lord preserves the simple;
    when I was brought low, he saved me.
Return, O my soul, to your rest;
    for the Lord has dealt bountifully with you.

For you have delivered my soul from death,
    my eyes from tears,
    my feet from stumbling;
I will walk before the Lord
    in the land of the living.

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May God continue to show me His goodness. I know He has saved me and done great things. He has saved me. May He direct my steps and help me to walk in the land of the living and redeemed. May the lies be washed away as truth overflows.

D.Fa