Marriage..? o.0

Well, I think this is far from now. Or at least I think it is, but seeing everyone getting married, like 4th year or just after graduating, I guess anything could happen.

I guess I was asked what I would want in a wife, what I am looking for. I wrote the following, but truthfully, I would normally not answer the question. lol.

I want there to be real love. I want to see her seeking the Lord and being led and filled with the Spirit. I want to see her passionate. I want us to be able to work together to build each other up and support each other and love the Lord together. I want to reflect the trinity in our union. I want her to be happy. I want to be able to be open and talk with her for hours. I don't want a relationship based on lies.

I suppose I don't ever really know what I want, what I should want, what I desire, what I hope for.

I don't feel ready. I don't feel confident. I don't feel like I'm good enough.

I don't know. I think my definition, my 'list' has changed over the past few years.

It's so much more about her heart and who she is in the Lord, where her passions lie and how we can work together. I don't think I've ever really been too focused on the externality of a person, however, it probably does have an effect on how I interact with a person.

Ah... It's so complicated. >.<

I don't know my own heart.

Another thing is that the man is supposed to take the lead, which I am far from doing regularly. >.> I need to grow in this area. [Obviously, following God's leading.] Honestly, I'll never be perfect. She will have to accept me for my faults and I will have to accept her for hers, but together we will grow to reflect more and more of God's glory.

I honestly can't wait to have kids. >.>

Ok. That's probably enough personal information. xP

Ttyl.

D.Fa