Seriously He's got All the Authority

Hey guys. Day number four. It started really early. Lol. TY, AT and that other guy (sorry). Lol. We went for breakfast in Time Square at a Hong Kong Cafe at 7:30. Those guys are really cool. I wonder what my life would have been like if I had gone to UoT. But I'm sure God has a plan. I don't think I would have started stepping up this year if I was there. I was really super tired. I was kinda dozing off during main session. Seminars were good. I went to "Disciplemaking 101", "Men on Mission" and "Secrets of Effective Prayer". All pretty good. XP Next was quiet time. I finished reading the Old, Testament and had a long conversation with Y(?). No, actually seminars were after quiet time. Lol After seminars we had time with our campus. We discussed what we have beeb learning from God, played a fun game then went for Korean BBQ. We came back to the hotel for main session. Sooo funny. Lol. So good though. All about Moses' life. Also about his excuses to being used by God. Me and the other members of our EA team went for bubbletea. I'm really tired now. Lol. Oh, by the way, we had a couple prayer goals for our week here for WC. First praying for every country in the world and also for every one of the unreached people groups (nearly 7000!)! So thats pretty awesome. XP So, ya. Ttyl. D.Fa

Do not rely on your Feelings

Today has been up and down. It was the day of outreach. We went to a HongKong style cafe for lunch. Then came back for outreach. Internet was super slow as usual, so I was texting again. Not much happened. I got to start sharing with MJ, but she is atheistic, so that didn't get very far. AL got to share with BC again, which is great. And a lot of awesome things happened today, but I got this feeling of depression or uselessness. God really used the conversation I was having with RD aswell as the worship to change my attitude. "Oh, I'm running to your arms!" But I went down again after being challenged, knowing by myself I would fail. I was wandering and moping about. Rockband. Then I got to pray with DN. I am truly blessed by OCBC. Pray for Missisauga Vietnamese Alliance Church!!!! Ttyl D.Fa

Here we go again

So, I guess you can probably guess what this post is about if you read the last post. The second day of winter conference 2011! It was another great day of exciting main sessions, worship and fellowship with my brothers and sisters in Christ. (get out my 'dangler' to see what happened (a 'dangler' is our name tag / schedule booklet thingee)) But more than that we also had awesome seminars and a EAP reunion dinner and informational meetings for projects then more fun and games. Lol So, first we had a great session. The speaker was talking about Luke 4:1-13. So much stuff from the old testament led to the real meanings behind this short passage. He basically mentioned half of the Old Testament. So cool! Quiet time I ended up talking, to the guy who I am sharing a bed with, about a lot of stuff that he sees as being odd in Canada or the Catholic church, him being a Slovak. Then we had Chinese pork and rice in DP's room. (he had a rice cooker, lol) Then seminars..! We had four hour long seminars today, a selection of many practical topics to.choose from for each. I went to "when I don't feel like sharing", "que(e)rying faith", "coaching great stories" and "discerning God's will". They were all very good in different ways. Lol. Project reunion dinner was at this funny Chinese place 'Chili Secret'. MN is so funny and hilarious. Lol. It was great having a meal together with them. Session was tres bien et en Francais for a lot of it. The speaker was talking about 2 Tim 2:14-26 about living in a culture that is hostile to Christ. Sooooooo gooood. Then project info sessions. I kinda wanted to check out the Montreal project, but went to EA first and then God led me to the Short Film training thing. By that I mean my Moleskine dropped out of my pocket and the guy in charge of the Film session picked it up and text me. So, I went to get iy. As I was going MB was like trying to get me into her session, but then was very much encouraging me to go to the Film one since she gad seen some of the Raven's Log videos. Lol. Two thoughts came to me. 1. MB has seen those videos..? Lol. The second thought stayed a bit longer. 2. Hmmm maybe this makes sense. Maybe I should check this out. Also the thought of 'what if SC knew Jesus as his personal savior..?' That would be sooo awesome. So, like the Film project is actually a bit different in that its just a week of intense training. No evangelizing, yet. So, that could be cool. Just, it's during reading week, which is when I was planning to have my wisdom teeth looked at... Soooooooo complicated. EA, co-op, Film, wisdom teeth, sooooo complicated... >.< Then we had swing dancing. Good times. Lol Ttyl. D.Fa

The beginning of the ConeFurnace

Yo guys! First day of winter conference is done and it was awesome, lol. I got to see sooooo many of the people I met going to East Asia for the first time since. I went for pho with some UoT friends and got to make new friends too. Main session was really great too. It was about the great commission, as if it were a mission sandwiched between two awesome promises. Go and make disciples of all nations, but know this; all authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me And I am with you always. We sang this one song that was like "your grace is amazing, you are so strong and faithful to the end." We also sang 'mighty to save' in French! So good! Ya. There was some awesome Dodgball, I learned how to play Bang, and we just had a crazy snowball fight/built snowmen! Ahhhhh, so good. XP Ttyl D.Fa PS. I don't have the wifi yet, so this is being written on my smartphone. Ignore any typos.

Christmas Games

Hey guys!

Merry Christmas!

I would have blogged last night, but I was a bit busy working on my presents for my friend SC as well as wrapping the gifts for my family, not that they were huge or anything, but that there were a lot of really small stupid / funny things. lol.

I guess I realized that not working really does limit my ability to buy, so I needed to make or plan something outside the box (lol. you'll figure it out). I actually ended up spending only money that I had found while cleaning my parents' house, which was actually quite a bit. lol

So, the main thing that I did this year that was funny, was that the majority of my gufts for my family were all in the same boxes. lol. The same, like, 3x3x3inch cube. lol And I made it into a tree. lol. (impossible to have a tree made of boxes like that with only one layer for the trunk...)

Ya, so I stayed up until 2am Christmas eve and I didn't even have time to say much more than "Merry Christmas to my East Asian friends. >.>

Ya.

Today was good. Service was a bit long, but there were so many people and it's encouraging. xP. My mom came and NC sat with me. I love him. He's really funny.

It was actually really snowy this morning. A White Christmas! =D Yup!

We opened the presents and everything. It was good. xP. My family is funny. I actually like most of the clothes I got this year, actually pretty much all of it. (I really don't need more crew cut socks though... I have like 3 bundles with my storage stuff at my house and I got another bundle of grey, white and thermal socks... So many. lol) I don't intend on bragging about presents. I don't deserve all of this. I'm actually already thinking of how I can give the things I don't need to those who do.

It was really odd. lol. Usually it's just like a copy of our Christmas lists. This year, not at all. lol. Mainly since they didn't really exist as materialistically as usually. It's a weird frustrating kind of feeling. Normally I'd be hours into a new video game by now, but I only got two and I can't actually play either of them. One was for the 3DS, which I don't have (Oops, I asked for that game. lol) and the other needs Wii Motion Plus. xP

Then the worst part by far was dinner. (I don't mean the dinner. It was delicious. xP) It was me. I'm avoiding the conversation with my parents about this summer. I had the perfect opportunity to speak to them about it and I didn't take it, I started doing anything else I could......... I've already pushed it off until today, and now tomorrow is like my last chance. It's like I'm scared because I know that if they say they'd prefer me to work this summer, I will because I don't want to go against them. I want to honor my parents. But I really want to go to East Asia. I'm practically breaking out crying over this. Is this a restrained tantrum..? I know God can and will use me wherever I end up, but I want to go back to Asia with all my heart. But is that just the easy way out?

Stupid unrest spirit. I feel like it's the worst thing in the world if I end up working this summer... >.> Am I being over dramatic..? I want to yell.

"I want"

I want my plans, my desires, my thoughts and life to reflect those of God. My plans being the ones God has laid out before creation. My desires in line with God's. My thoughts things of heaven. My life one in full submission and voluntarily used to serve the one who came to serve us.

>.<

D.Fa

Sometimes

Sometimes I get too ambitious and end up killing the whole plan because I start making the product look amazing in my head, but not attainable by the limited resources (especially time) at hand.

I have a large imagination sometimes.

Sometimes I want to be pretty much any type of job imaginable. I would love being an architect. I would like being a doctor (if I didn't dislike blood so much). I would love being a dentist. I could be a janitor. I might be able to be a teacher. I would like being a designer, like graphics designer. Umm. Video game designer, craftsmen, electrician, pilot(..?), athlete, musician, singer/songwriter, actor, engineer, pharmacologist, botanist, international missionary.

Sometimes, I realize that even though I complain about things a lot sometimes I love those quirky things even more. I love quirky things. lol.

--

Anyways, today was interesting. Not really. Pretty boring. lol. Actually, no. Interesting. (I am remembering it now. lol) I woke up early and went to MHS. lol I actually slept in a bit and ran half way to school in the snow. What? Snow. Yeah. Finally. lol. White Christmas!

MM, BC, AL and RM came too. We visit some teachers and saw some people. Then we went to Harveys and talked about random stuff. lol. Then I went to watch the Christmas assembly. Not much variation in performaces, but some of them were really good. XP. JT is always really good.

Then I kinda just did more cleaning / Christmas decorating at home for the rest of the day.

Good times.

It's almost Christmas! I just got to say Merry Christmas to my East Asian friend Moped who received Christ this summer. I didn't get to talk much, but he said his family celebrates Christmas and have meals together.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

Letters Addressed to Me

I feel like this is the only time of the year that I really like cleaning.

It's the time of year when we clean our house so much because our grandparents would be coming.

A bit different these last couple years, but still the same general idea.

Umm, so ya, when I get bored I get a bit destructive and jump from one thing to the next. I tend to need something to do. I cleaned a lot today again. lol. I was actually not looking forward to cleaning, but this week I am 'being productive and not procrastinating' or at least in the hour after I wake up I am praying for that and that when I do get bored I'll look to God. The day started out a bit rough, but it turned out much better. xP I cleaned the toilet. *shudder*

Yeah. xP I really wanted to play pokemon. xP But I was like, I can do that while the sun isn't up. So I set my mind to cleaning at least one area today. I intended to do the entrance hall. It started with the cover for the air conditioner that never gets outside until it snows (lol >.>) Then I checked the mailbox.

!!! I can now sympathize with Animal Crossing characters that always begged for me to send them mail. It's like the best feeling in the world seeing the letter addressed to you from a friend. It's way better than email. Just saying. Probably two weeks ago you ask me if I care about the Post service. I really don't care. Today, very different story. Of course, I don't really see its effectiveness in keeping a current up to date knowledge of your friends when you have them on facebook or whatever. However, I also understand why my mom used to write update letters every Christmas for our relatives. Updates by mail, warranted. A 'how are you?', not as practical. >.<

So, ya. lol

Ttyl.

=D.Fa

Exam Traditions..?

So, I haven't blogged in a while again. lol.

This was because of my final exam for this semester and the subsequent period of relaxation. I don't even actually remember what I did. I think I mainly just watched television with my brother and I set up tmy tree inn my room although really there's no room for it. lol. (Even more like animal crossing. lol "anymore and the floor will give in!" lol)

Anyways, after cramming the second half of 'Cell Physiology and Biochemistry' into one day it was an okay exam I guess. Am I ever thankful that Mr. GG taught us so well back in grade 12..? Yeah! Duh. The exam was a lot about glycolysis and the Krebs cycle as well as some other stuff, but learning that stuff again was easier than the rest of the stuff I had to learn. xP

So, ya, one thing I have been doing since last year is that when it is exam time I wear my Carleton Science shirt to all of my exams without washing it until they are all done. lol. No superstition or anything though, I just get caught up in patterns / traditions. xP. Like, I think it was a coincidence the first time I did that, but then I was like, okay, let's keep doing this. So, every single exam I write at Carleton will be while wearing my weird baby blue Carleton shirt that has stretched significantly while in East Asia and has a hole at the back. lol >.>

Since grade 12 when  my English teacher told us that dark chocolate was good for your brain and that you should have some before your exam, I tried to get into a tradition of eating chocolate before the exams. That didn't work out. Too expensive. lol

Usually during exam breaks I end up watching an old series of anime to take up all the free time I've suddenly run into. Not this time. lol. I actually kinda figured out how to study during this exam break. I just read my whole textbook while making notes, then review the lecture slides like morning of, then read my notes. I did that for each of the exams I had this semester. But for BIOC the text was like 500 pages and the slides were like 2000 slides ... >.> He really did cover a lot of material in a very short amount of time. lol My brain crashed on Tuesday morning.

Ya, but really the better side of these exam traditions is that before every exam I pray. lol. I know that it wouldn't be by my knowledge that I somehow do well. I usually cram the last second. I don't deserve a good mark. I didn't really put that much effort in except at the last second.

Ya, so it's done and I get a fresh start for next semester. xP

As I had planned to, I put up my Christmas tree which I bought two years ago and as it goes, it seems that you guys, my blog stalkers, get to see pictures before my facebook friends. So, here is what my tree looked like when I plugged it in.

More later.

D.Fa

PS. Pakistan!

One Last Push

I seem to be getting into a 'self-preservation mode' concerning this last exam.


It's tomorrow afternoon and I honestly need so much studying, for that matter, learning actually because I missed a lot of the classes (I was physically there for at least part of all of them though).

Reading the textbook was probably a waste of time last night. I read 3 of the 15 chapters I needed to read, but it took forever. The 15 chapters are like 500 pages total. So much. Today I wasted the morning, but since coming to school to study with JXW I've looked over 6 of the 10 main lecture slides for the exam. Really, I'm learning right now. xP..............

Jeez. I really need to be more on top of things next semester / year.

So, yep. 18 hours and counting.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

PS. Having brothers in Christ to pray for / with / pray for you is really awesome. Thank you God.
PPS. FIGHTING!

I Guess I Left My Phone At Home

Hey guys!

I heard some suuuuupeeeer exciting news today, but again I don't think I'm allowed to tell you. -sigh-

But, ya. My day was really great. It was one of those days you wake up and just live, no need for technology (or homework. lol). So, ya. I slept in (the only good part of exam break) and ended up cleaning the living room a lot. Although in my break I got to see part of the Powerpuff Girls Christmas special "I can make three girls out of seasoning, but I can never get these lights to work" LOL! PPGs were one of the Cartoon Network shows I watched a lot when I was younger. I was watching today and I was like, wow their eyes are huge... they're like aliens! But ya, good times.

Anyways, cleaning and such to get the tree in the house. (lol. It's been sitting in the hole in our hedge pretending to be a hedge since last weekend) Ya, so that's that. Then I rushed off to church because I was 'late' for worship practice that I was leading. It went really quickly. I guess that's what happens when everyone on team is awesome and the music is all stuff everyone knows. >.>

We then played banana grams with a scrabble travel set and it was fun. xP. I love spending time with SM and AL. xP Then we had practice for the concert, ate pizza and then the concert. The Christmas Concert!

My parents and my brother came!!! (This is definitely the first time my brother has come to church!)

So, ya, as I said, I rushed to get to church, so I had to find socks and shoes and music and everything last second. I forgot to bring a folder for my music (thanks autie JB!), I ended up borrowing black socks from my brother (mine were all in the wash), and I also borrowed his dress shoes (they just so happened to be different sizes and as it happens, different shoes, like completely different (although very very similar)) (one size 9 and one sized 8 (ouch)) (the matching pair were in his locker at school apparently. He had ruched when he got them there).

The concert was really good. xP There were also reindeer shaped peanut butter cookies with chocolate dipped pretzels for antlers!

My mom says she might come to the Christmas service.

I guess I should pray for my family extra hard tonight, both in praise of what God is doing and prayer for the future.

Yup.

Ttyl.

=D.Fa

PS. I feel like it's really hard to approach your brother AL. He's becoming a semi-celebrity in my mind.

PPS. I meant to say something about how days with no technology is awesome. xP

As We Approach the Future

Well, that's the fourth one.

Just one more exam and then I'm free for the Christmas break. xP

Ah. ... Biochemistry. 120 Multiple Choice questions in three hours. If only it wasn't an 8:30 am class, I'd be way more prepared for this. Honestly, I slept in a lot these last couple months, making myself about 30 minutes late to basically all of my biochem classes. Also due to procrastination I usually was working on finishing a lab report instead of focussing in class, so I really know very little about what I've supposed to have learned. I know I need to read my textbook... >.> and luckily the lecture slides are online, so I'll look over those.

Only 89 hours until the exam. lol... It really does look like a lot of time. I think I'm getting a bit better at studying (ignoring the plants exam). I think I'm also seeing the benefit of reading the textbooks.

Gah. I need to have a conversation with my parents about what I'm doing this summer... I really want to go to Asia again. >.< But I don't want to do it against my parents.

Gah. I don't want to be sick. The Christmas concert is just 20 hours away. I found out today that we aren't having a Christmas eve service since Christmas is on Sunday, so I can spend Christmas eve with my family, which is great.

Sigh. So many things I'm not in control of and can't predict.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

PS. Baby sloths are way too cute.

Brothers

Hey, so, instead of studying I got right to work on something else that I was supposed to work on kinda and it was great. lol.

So, like, there's a lot of furniture in our living room where the Christmas tree is going to go,  so we needed to make room in another place for it. There's this room we call the 'playroom' in our house. It's like this really big room where the toys used to be and where we played video games and stuff. It's been through a lot of spatial changes but was always the playroom. It's kinda turning into a storage room now that my brother has moved out of it and also, there's kinda no electricity in it or something..? I don't know. lol. Not worth the effort to figure that one out. xP. There's also this kinda cycle of cleaning our house so that it can get messy again. So, today as it was, it was a little messy and very cluttered and hadn't been really used in a couple months, so kinda spider-y, except mainly just cobwebs, not spiders. But ya. I got my brother to come with me and start another one of our 'schemes'.

A 'scheme' is generally defined as an exciting adventure usually involving moving furniture which often our parents have no idea is going on until it is done. This is one thing that me and my brother have bonded over multiple times. Maybe it's partially idipendence, or stuborness, or maybe partially that they usually used to go against what our parents had decided (like the time we sneaked our bunk beds upstairs when our parents had said "no, there's no room"), I don't know, but it always had a feeling of doing something yourself and the feeling of accomplishment once it was done.

Tonight's scheme was reffered to as 'the stab'. Largely because the 'playroom' is always the room no one wants to clean because it's always the messiest / most work, so we were just taking a stab at it. Mainly we had to make room for the furniture from upstairs later on, but when I organize a room I have to clean it too. So, we got to work with a garbage bag, a large recycling bin, a 'buckette', a 'webinator' and managed to clean half of the room and the hallway to it. We only got about 2/3 a bag of garbage and didn't really remove much from the room, so mainly it was just tetris skills. Did I mention we did it all by flashlight? lol. So good. and after an hour or so I got KFA's ipod and we listened to Adele and then some other music too. lol.

Good times.

Oh, today I guess I locked myself in my room and listened to Adele for 3 hours while making a long list of all the reactions used in our orgo chem class. I had cheese and crackers with anime. I had dinner and watched television with my brother. Then at 6:30 we went to watch him and the other band kids at MHS for their "winter wonderband" concert. Nostalgia. I'm still over-protective of the Cello pans. >.>

Ya. It's nearly Christmas!

Ttyl.

D.Fa

PS. I'm really glad to see that me and my brother have bonded over things in the past and present.
PPS. I don't expect you to understand the words I made up during our mission.
PPPS. "Cleaning is a 6$ an hour job" and I found a toonie stuck under the foot of a buffet. I really had to work for it though, it was squished into the carpet. lol. I only made 8$ for that 3 hour cleaning though. >.< Whatever. xP All the more change for my piggy bank. >.> (that is a menacing glare at my piggy bank)

Second Opinions

So, I guess I haven't said anything about a certain singer I briefly mentioned a while ago. I've slowly been hearing a bit more of her songs and in fact when I went to have sushi with my brother and mother for some reason only her songs were playing (not the normal any and everything random and inconsistent playlist. lol).

She has a really pretty voice and her songs are usually very real (ie very few synthetic sounds). Also, often the words she sings are powerful and not so many that they overwhelm you. I don't know. lol.

Yesterday I discovered this song. You can even get that she is sarcastic when singing so beautifully just by the way she articulates her words. She even skats a bit. lol. Even the video is so simple, but very powerful.



Ya, so Adele is a bit more than 'not bad' or 'pretty good'.

D.Fa

Incomprehensibly

I'm seriously never going to understand this.

How can God love me so much?

How can He love me so much, with all my faults, with all my sins, with everything  I've done, everything I still do, everything I will end up doing..?

How can He love so much that He would, that He would die for me..?

It just, it just is, it's just not something that I think I could do. It's just not something I can see other people doing. It's beyond humanity.

I can hold a grudge against someone for the stupid little thing that I'm too scared to bring to his face, so I just get slowly more bitter over time, but He, God, loves so much that He'd die for us even when we choose sin, choose lust, choose greed, choose ourselves over Him, not just once, but thousands of times.

How can I deserve this love? I can't. Then why do I receive this love? Because He loves so much that He'd do everything to pay your debt for you. Even though I owe more than my life for my iniquities, HE has payed for them on the cross. He has taken my sin and nailed it to the cross.

Through Jesus' death our sins were paid for and by His resurrection we were given the new life.

If we confess our sins, even the ones we are still committing, and turn back to Him, whole-heartedly repenting, agreeing with Him about our error, having a change of attitude and subsequently action, God is willing to forgive us.

I'm never going to understand how His grace works. How He has apportioned each of us a measure of grace, more than enough, yet exactly enough for the whole world and everyone in it.

I guess the only thing I can do is wake up tomorrow knowing that God still loves me and try by the power of the Holy Spirit given to me to live better tomorrow to glorify His name, rather than gratifying the desires of the flesh.

Oh God, why do we have to go through trials... Why do we fall when we try in our own strength... Why do I voluntarily go against you again and again..?

Thank you so much for your grace. Thank you so much for your love. Thank you so much for the cross.

Thank you for your forgiveness, may I not take advantage of it.

I'm not gonna understand all of this fully until the end, but I guess that's where faith comes in.

When Your Life is Crammed Out of Your Schedule

I guess by now you have realized that I have been cramming for the past day and a half, or at least, I really should have been doing so. lol.

So, Sunday, pretty normal, maybe..? Since I'm at my parents' house now, I can get a drive to church last second. xP No real Sunday school class this week, so I chilled with 'the young'uns' with PE and his Sunday school group. Then service, Pastor AN was preaching about the three attitudes of people when Jesus was born, Anxiety (Herod), Apathy (the religious people) and Adoration (the wise men).

Then I went home and watched anime then we got our Christmas Tree! It's kinda small, but I think since I've gotten taller, I've been thinking it's smaller when it actually isn't. This has been happening for like a few years now. (On Sunday I got to help some customers put their tree that they bought from my work into their car. The trees were all like 6'5" or something, but they were all so short and light. In my opinion anyways. lol..?) Then I chilled at home for a bit until it was time to go again.

Bethel's "Singing Christmas Tree" performance was full. It was closing night. It was really good as always. I got to see RW and MY and AL. Hot Chocolate with Candy Canes.

Then I went home and did my chore, got some stuff and walked home instead of waiting half an hour for the bus. lol

Monday. I kinda slept in and went to school later than originally planned, didn't really study too much. I was actually mainly eavesdropping a very interesting conversation a couple Korean people were having about what they prayed for when they were younger and people who say they are Christians, but you can tell they aren't and I wasn't really paying enough attention to get much out of it, but I was paying enough attention that my studying was suffering. Why were they sitting there anyways..? Why were we (me and JXW) sitting there? In the middle of the Athletics building on the floor..? The whole campus is right there... lol... Ya, I guess I learned a bit..? lol.

I went home, had dinner, did some studying, played guitar / tried making a video of myself playing / sining O Little Town of Bethlehem, but for various reasons the video wasn't posted.

Umm. Today I slept in again accidentally... I had an exam at 2pm. Could ahve gone either way... >.< Very much cramming was done this morning. No lunch. Sushi with my mom and brother for dinner. You should always attempt to get your money's worth when going to 'all you can enjoy' sushi. Ya. and I've kinda been wasting tonight relaxing a bit. lol...

Uggg... So much delicious food... Too much. lol...

Ttyl.

D.Fa

Average Post Scripts

Well, yesterday not much happened.

I had driving lessons as usual after frantic last second packing of enough stuff to last for a week (which turns out to be far more than the amount I packed for Asia. >.>) Then I guess I just kinda chilled at home for a few hours. I watched a food network Christmas special, ate doughnuts, cleaned my room (I can't live in a room until I have thoroughly cleaned it) and got ready for work.

Then I had work (go figure) last time for the year though (unless Salad Bar needs me). That means I can spend more time with my family I guess.

Three exams to go. Fighting!

D.Fa

PS. (Sometimes I feel I say more in parentheses than in regular paragraph text)
PPS. I really like my room right now. It feels like Animal Crossing to me. lol
PPPS. My coat has a Doraemon pocket now. In it currently are a scarf, glove, scissors, some twine, a hat, a wrapper for a painting drop sheet and insulation I guess (since it's actually just a hole in my pocket that goes to the inside of my coat).
PPPPS. Candy Cane Ice Cream and Egg Nog, check and check.

No More Math

Yo. How can I say this..?

I think I did really well on my final exam this morning. lol...

It was really long, but Stats is actually very logical (probably more than Phys chem, because that gets into the range of theoretical which doe snot always make sense. lol), so ya, I think it went well.

Ya, today was a lot of relaxation after the last three days of cramming math into my brain. lol.

I walked and talked with a bunch of people after the exam for a bit, picked up my Biol assignment and got my term lab mark, then bussed to my parents' house / work to check if I am working tomorrow (which I am unfortunately... no caroling I guess...) and I don't know, I wanted to go home. lol.

I ended up cleaning. Like, a lot. I really enjoy seeing something really clean after having earlier been dirty. I also just really like clean houses. lol.

My mom bought this ridiculous animated and lit reindeer thing for the front lawn, which right now looks hilarious because there is only one of them and there's no snow... lol. It just moves it's head back and forth. The antlers and ears are just held in place by gravity, so likely they will fall out at some point... lol.

Ya. I guess I'm moving home tomorrow. I'm really tired. lol.

Ttyl

D.Fa

PS. Playing guitar after a long break gets painful fast. lol.

Should I Study..?

Always busy even during the exam period. >.<

Well, ya.yesterday was good I guess. During the exam break, I kinda take it one exam at a time, so basically I've been focused on studying for this Physical Chemistry Exam for this morning. It's not a good plan, but I don't really read my textbook until the exam week. Luckily Phys Chem chapters are only like 20 pages each, so it wasn't that bad.

Of course though, exams don't stop the rest of my life, they just really put a hold on things... lol. So, last Friday when KC was unavailable I was really busy too. We rescheduled and met up yesterday. John 4. I don't have all of the answers, but just having a conversation about the things we aren't clear about. Then we had a lesson about Prayer. I've been waiting for this one for a long time. lol. I really want KC to have a strong relationship with God. That means both reading the Bible and praying, talking with God, which is something I've seen him shy away from a number of times. Well, praying out loud is different, I agree, but ya. I want to see him so passionate that you can hear it in his voice when he prays out loud. Ya. I'm still super glad that I get to spend time with KC. I hope he comes to the Christmas concert (btw there's a Christmas concert at OCBC on Dec 17th at 7pm) and comes out to a fellowship or DG or something next semester.

I also had practice for the concert last night after hanging out with JXW and SP at school studying. I'm really excited for it. xP

Ya. I'm really bad at studying though. lol. I spent a lot of time trying to figure out my first vlog and it's still pretty bad. lol.




Ya, so, that's me I guess. lol. I was cramming even this morning, but then the first question (it even said so itself) was a CHEM1000 first year chemistry calculation. Very comforting.

So, ya. STATS is tomorrow and I need to go start studying. lol

Busy busy.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

Escalator Thingees that are on a Slant!

Yesterday was the last of classes for the 'Fall Semester' at Carleton University.

The last day on a Monday..? Weird. Ya. And yet, I still had three full length classes yesterday. >.>

Anyways, I went to classes, I handed in my final assignment, and then I basically did nothing until 5:30. Prayer meeting was good. We went and saw GS who is living in a tent in front of the UC building in solidarity with those living in Attawapiskat which has now been declared a state of emergency or something. He is doing this to raise 1000$ for the community. The 1800 people of the community are living in tents or trailers or houses far below the standards, without access to a school in the community, and water that is below drinking standards (I think). It's really cool that he has such a passion for the First Nation Peoples.

LT invited me, MW and RM over to his house for dinner. It was cool. We went to a Loblaws and bought salad, pizza, frozen juice and wings.  They had a slanted escalator thing!!!!!! Just like in East Asia!!! I took pictures. lol... I've never seen one in Canada, so it's pretty exciting. lol

Ya. We also watched Kung Fu Panda 2. I kinda wanted to play Dominion instead, but it was a good movie. In general, I don't care for Jack Black's brand of comedy. >.>

Ya. and now I am wasting time instead of studying.... Time to cram.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

PS. I may actually talk to you later, or rather, I made a couple videos for a vlog, but youtube is having a maintenance thingee, so I need to wait a bit. I'll tell you all about it later. xP

Mulled Apple Soda and Most of a package of 'Oreo's

So, from where I left off:

Saturday started early as usual with a driving lesson from my dad. Then I had to go to worship team practice. It was a guys only, full team. Very rare. I haven't been on team in a while and when I was I was leading, so it was good being able to step back and just worship.

After the practice, me, AL's brother and SM had a practice for our performance of 'We Three Kings'. You see there's going to be a Christmas concert on the 17th and we are one of the acts. lol.

I realized how much I love singing Christmas hymns. lol. Also, how much the songs really mean. I think I am planning to do a large number of youtube videos of Christmas songs... lol.

I went home, super late, it was like 3 when I got home or something. I ate lunch and tried to figure out what was happening that night. You see, I had thought that I'd be working 2-10 like usual because last week I had booked off work to go have sushi with the first years, which basically guarantees my working the following week. I had like three different parties I was invited to, but since I was at OCBC the night before and because I've not been able to go to a large number of the other parties SC has organized, he was priority number one. However, when asked what was happening, it sounded like 'you, me and SO are meeting downtown to spend a lot of money' (my paraphrase.) So, instead I just told him about the YA Christmas party (potluck and secret santa gift exchange) and how he and SO could come.

Like twenty minutes passed. Then he finally said ok. lol. It was a really awesome party. All of the food was delicious. All of the exchanged presents were hilarious and very creative. There was a photo-shopped memory postcard calendar, a hand-made snow triangular prism jar, a gentleman's top hat and monocle, a live action adaptation of a chapter of manga, cookies, poems, cake, a drawing of a dinosaur. Many awesome gifts. Very jealous I was of basically everyone. We talked and continued eating desserts for a long time. Mini cheesecakes. Mmmm.

That was over 6 hours of fun times. and both SC and SO had fun too I think.

Sunday, sleep in and get a drive from TM. Thanks! Ummm. Sunday school, service, lunch and a prayer walk. Really cool. The other evangelical church in Westboro came and had lunch with us and then we went out to pray for the community. DvdP was there too!!! She's like a mini celebrity to me. lol. I've heard her talk about getting involved in events in my community for over a year (from a Radio station).

We came back from the prayer walk and were talking about what we prayed for and stuff and  I was asked to scribe using my cell phone... lol.


I stayed at church until Acts Course. I was working on my last Phys Chem assignment. It was a lot more work than I had thought it would be. >.> I didn't get much done in the three hours of so between the prayer walk and class, but I got a lot of figuring stuff out in my head done in that time.


Acts was good. We mainly talked about where we are personally, small groups and as a church and how we can change or think about how to continue from here based on the Pauline cycle.


Got a drive home, made dinner, cleaned the floors, finished my assignment, watched One Piece. Went to sleep at 2am.

And now it is 4pm Monday. I have no more classes this semester and my first exam is only a couple days away. What to do..? Hmmmm.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

A Kinda Mini-Vacation

Hey guys!

I haven't blogged in a while. lol...

Last week the first half was really intense. Then Wednesday afternoon hit and there was this shift into having nothing to do. (or at least it felt that way). The only thing  I had left to do before exams was a 'little assignment' due today. So, I just assumed I'd do that on like Sunday or something.

I don't remember everything that happened, lol, but it was good. Wednesday I definitely went to the OCBC end of the month prayer meeting. It was good. We were in the possible new building and praying about it and about the spiritual warfare we'd be in, should we move there. We prayed for Westboro. God is victorious over sin and death. There is nothing that can stop Him, so why should we be afraid. If we are called to be a light to the community and stay in Westboro, then it's our duty to get out there and fight for change in the community, fighting with the armor given us by God and the spiritual weapons given us to demolish strongholds of darkness and despair.

Thursday I think I had one class and then I stayed at school. Yep! I had been putting off reading the Bible and felt really bad about it, so I sat down and read the rest of Job. lol. It was an interesting ending. The younger guy rebukes his friends and then Job, then God shows up to rebuke him and some stuff happens... lol. A while later after a prayer meeting (we have a new sister by the way! =D) and some socializing, I ended up in the room we usually have C4C weekly meetings in. My friend AH is in a documentary class and Thursday was the screening of their class' documentaries. There were three and they were all very interesting and about creativity.

The next morning I felt like I had nothing to do. I read the whole of 'Song of Songs' that morning over breakfast. I think it's a little strange the way they describe each other.

That day I had one-on-one discipling with LT and later KC, but KC got a call from work to fill in, so that's cool. I always feel my time with LT is cut short anyways. Although really, I think we talked way more with people walking by than we did with each other. lol.

Then I looked through all my blog posts for the last semester. That took longer than I thought it might. It was good seeing what has happened.

Then I went to see the Master of Architecture Grad Show. It was interesting. Very interesting... A little weird though. lol.

Then I took the Otrain and a bus to church for a talk about the state of guys these days and their lack of motivation and specifically the role of video games in this issue. I made a decision to go to that instead of the C4C Christmas banquet. It was really interesting seeing how the fathers were really interested and care for their sons.

Thursday and Friday were really a time of reflection and a bit of a relaxation period. I think I really needed it, but ya. It was good, but now I need to get back to work. lol. Gotta study. >.>

(more about the weekend in a different post)

Reviewing the Semester

So, RM needs stats for sharing and stuff. For the whole semester. >.> Why is he telling me this now. I have like 2 hours to do this.... If I didn't have a blog I'd have no idea what happened. lol.

Thoughts:

• Whoa. In frosh week when I was in Haven Bookstore I was reading a design textbook and now I'm involved in M22 and learning about design and stuff. I have like a million new architecture / ID friends. It's so weird. lol
• Truth: If I don't see someone for a long time, I don't talk to them for a long time. However, after acquiring their phone number and nothing else, we are still good. lol
• God answers prayers. I see God working in KC's life every time I meet up with him. It's so encouraging. Also, I've been seeing JS and MC grow so much. JS's prayers are so awesome. lol.
• Don't base things on your first impressions. Don't.
• I need to become more direct sometimes. >.> Instead ofasking CW to stop playing video games so I can go to sleep I blame him for being an arts student. I'm sorry.
• I still need to get back into good Quiet Time habits. Just taking time to listen and reflect and ask and be reminded by God where we are in relation to Him and the grace he has apportioned us.
• It's funny how God works. So many things I wouldn't have imagined have happened.
• God desires a relationship with us, not because he needs us, but because he loves us. Eternal life starts now, not after death.
• Yo. Some of my posts are pretty strong. Who is writing this blog..? Me..? No way. (not to be ego filled, but humbled that God would use me to encourage others)
• I miss JW and my East Asian friends as well as basically everyone... lol

Marriage..? o.0

Well, I think this is far from now. Or at least I think it is, but seeing everyone getting married, like 4th year or just after graduating, I guess anything could happen.

I guess I was asked what I would want in a wife, what I am looking for. I wrote the following, but truthfully, I would normally not answer the question. lol.

I want there to be real love. I want to see her seeking the Lord and being led and filled with the Spirit. I want to see her passionate. I want us to be able to work together to build each other up and support each other and love the Lord together. I want to reflect the trinity in our union. I want her to be happy. I want to be able to be open and talk with her for hours. I don't want a relationship based on lies.

I suppose I don't ever really know what I want, what I should want, what I desire, what I hope for.

I don't feel ready. I don't feel confident. I don't feel like I'm good enough.

I don't know. I think my definition, my 'list' has changed over the past few years.

It's so much more about her heart and who she is in the Lord, where her passions lie and how we can work together. I don't think I've ever really been too focused on the externality of a person, however, it probably does have an effect on how I interact with a person.

Ah... It's so complicated. >.<

I don't know my own heart.

Another thing is that the man is supposed to take the lead, which I am far from doing regularly. >.> I need to grow in this area. [Obviously, following God's leading.] Honestly, I'll never be perfect. She will have to accept me for my faults and I will have to accept her for hers, but together we will grow to reflect more and more of God's glory.

I honestly can't wait to have kids. >.>

Ok. That's probably enough personal information. xP

Ttyl.

D.Fa