Things Happen

So,

I have been asking my housemates to take my potatoes away. I then decided I should make a large pile of french fries because a pile of mashed potatoes would be stupid, but JW then said I should make mashed potatoes.

Randomly, I decided I would use tonight and make mashed potatoes for everyone in my house. There is no one here (except RL, but he doesn't count.) so, there are now 3 bowls with foil covering mashed potatoes...... I was also going to finally cook the pie my dad bought for them all, but they aren't here, so I may not do that tonight.

JR returned not long ago and has not said a word about the potaoes and has been cooking a bunch of other random things. I still don't like him. >.> It's annoying. but we just don't talk to each other. ever. >.>

Anyways, yesterday I was looking at a Chinese song and looking at the lyrics in both traditional and simplified and I saw this: 爱 you know what this is? It's the simplified character for love. This, 愛 , is the traditional character for love. notice the 心 (heart) in the middle? In traditional, there is a heart in love. In simplified there is no heart and at the bottom there is actually a 友　(friend). AL joked about this remark that the simplified is more like 'I don't love you that way, more like a friend' lol. Personally, I think that dropping the heart from love is a simplified fail. I may have even said simplified is stupid, making me a 'traditional snob'. I'll have you know that I think traditional is very much more complicated than it has to be, but sometimes the traditional makes way more sense.

Anyways, ya, I've been messaging some people about supporting me and I've seen some more support come in even these last couple days.

Ya, ttyl.

D.Fa

PS. I wrote heart and friend in japanese. lol. Also I couldn't figure out how to type love in traditional, so I had google translate it for me.

The Letter B.

So, I just wasted like an hour and a half and I will now explain using B words:

Broom
Blue Bin
Bored
Borrowed
Bb gun
Bb
Beer cans (root)
Bull's eye
Bounce
Behave
Broom
Better
Blog

Anyways, I have a limited vocabulary. Deal with it. Also, I wasn't supposed to touch those bb guns, so don't tell JK. Also, RL is scared of anything that might hurt him. Also, I feel like guns are way cooler now, but I will still continue to refuse to play Halo.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

If You Were Stuck in a Tree With 5 Lobsters, What Would You Do..?

It's so nice being done with all my assignments. lol.

In an hour, for an hour is Earth hour, ie turn the lights off for an hour to save the environment or whatever. I remember two years ago it was a Saturday and we had YF during Earth hour and we just prayed on the stage in the old building. We prayed for boldness. I remember that. I remember CC was there and her friend. Those were the first people I remember being there. I could name off the rest of the YF, but, nah... lol.

Tonight I'm going to sing worship songs with guitar and read the Bible and just have an hour with God. I'm gonna print out some lyrics sheets using RL's computer and ya. I've got to hurry up, but ya. I'm excited.

Many people I know don't like all these 'trendy' 'raising awareness' things like not buying gas on a day to make them lower the prices. Also some people don't like environmental fads and I agreeable admit conservation biology is very biased. Save the seals, they're cute. Kill all the crazy joint-legged bug-face monsters that eat bunnies. I digress. I will use my hour for God.

Also, Quelf is an amazingly fun game. If you get the chance to, play it, and if you want to play it, you should suggest it. By the way, I don't think Chickens can catch rabbies, mosquitos don't kill you, plasmodium vivax does, sharks don't actually kill very many people and I'm sure most of the taxis in New York aren't moving fast enough to kill anyone. That just leaves poisonous snakes which are indeed quite bad for you.

Ya. *shifty eyes*

Ttyl.

D.Fa

PS I just ate a bag of french fries. McDonald's dipping sauces are okay.

Take It All!!!

So, I was sitting in class and 'The Stand' gets stuck in my head, thank God. I had this terrible song stuck in my head all morning. Anyways, I went to the library to send some more support letters (via facebook) and went on youtube to listen to The Stand. Through some links I ended up on this song!

This song is amazing! Even though its half in Spanish I think that makes it way cooler! lol. I had to blog about this as soon as I heard it!

English Lyrics:

Searching the world
The lost will be found
In freedom we live
As one we cry out
You carried the cross
You died and rose again
My God
I’ll only ever give my all

You sent Your Son
From heaven to earth
You delivered us all
It’s eternally heard
I searched for truth
And all I found was You
My God
I’ll only ever give my all

Jesus we’re living for Your Name
We’ll never be ashamed of You
Whoa o oh
Our praise and all we are today
Take take take it all
Take take take it all

I'm Running to the One
Who heals the blind
I'm Following the shining light
Cause In Your hands is
The power to save the world
In my life

I found a video with the lyrics!!! (it's the same video, just with reliable lyrics. lol)

This song is so good!



Toma Tomalo!!!

Ttyl.

D.Fa

Have You Ever VIIII..?

Have you ever made a pot of Jello..? Well, I have and I'm pretty sure it is more common then my next sentence. Have you ever had a pot of jello for breakfast? I did. lol... Nothing else. Just Jello....... lol... I bought it on sale a month or two ago and there is almost nothing (except a 10lb bag of potatoes) to eat... SO, I decided to make it. It wouldn't chill fast enough, so I couldn't eat it last night.

I have been having a very limited range of meals recently. PB and Chocolate toast for breakfast, leftovers for lunch, KD or spagetti or rice for dinner. That's literally about it. Of course, its not just plain KD, or plain rice or plain spagetti, but its still a very short list of things to eat. Also, there is no more bread, so I'm gonna have to buy some soon... And on an odd, yet related note: I use my rice cooker as a slow cooker. KP pointed this out the other day. It's kinda true. I put in rice, then any vegetables I want and just cook it. Add soy sauce / chilli garlic sauce and its good to go.

Anyways, I have an essay to continue and finish by 2:20.......

Ttyl.

D.Fa

God is Awesome.

Enough said, but really, I'd like to tell you about some things that have happened recently.

So, as you may know, I will be, God willing, going to East Asia this summer on a mission's project. So, I've had to prepare to, well there's no way to sugar coat this, ask people for money. Of course, that's not all I'm asking for, I mean, if I was only asking for money then I would be in it for the wrong reasons and it wouldn't be because of God. I mean we need to ask God for His provision and blessing and that the whole thing will go well, but I digress.

It is very biblical having a group of others supporting you in your ministry. All the Levite's back in the old testament relied on God's provision, Jesus sent out the disciples with nothing, Paul relied on gifts from others, etc. So, we had a Bible study the other day about that. As we were having it a pastor (well, not for a few years, but he's been called to seminary) walked over and asked if we were having a Bible study and asked if he could join us. At the time it was like, ok, random guy, that's cool. He actually barely even recognized one of the three of us, so really, he was basically a stranger to us, all of us, but ya. He really encouraged us. He was saying how it was so bold to be having a Bible study in the Unicentre and how on first impression we're really relying on God and he prayed for us and everything. I'm really glad he showed up randomly. lol.

So, ya. Today I gave my friend from Film class a support letter and she was so excited for me and said she would definitely pray for us and help me financially. I barely get to talk to her 10 minutes each week, and that is only the weeks that she comes to class and stays for the movie, but ya. It's pretty amazing how the random friendships I've made can be so encouraging and amazing. She's been talking for a while about coming to a C4C Weekly Meeting, but we haven't had too many deeper conversations, but even through texting after she got picked up we had a good conversation.

Also, I saw a bunch of kids respond to an alter call on Saturday night and give their lives to Christ. And I've made a bunch of friends and seen how important prayer is.

God is Amazing and I can't wait to see how much more He will do this summer. I hope you guys can pray for me too.

Thanks!

D.Fa

PS. My highschool friends are awesome too and so is Indonesia!

Back to 'Reality'..?

Hey, so as I'm sure you know, this weekend was Getaway!

It was, in two words, very good. In more than two words it sounds like I memorized a pamphlet (apparently).

I got to spend a lot of time hanging out with high school aged people and got to play a lot of worship music. I got to hear about how we can hear God's voice better and I got to see how great all the kids were. I mean grade 10 students were leading small group devotionals and were really discussing and not just sitting there. I don't think there was even a split second where something was bad. Sure the camp was a little muddy and sure it was a little cold, but it wasn't raining, it wasn't snowing, and we all could just focus on God and worshiping / listening to Him.

Late night worship was absolutely the best thing ever, even if it was kinda poorly planned. It was Spirit led and all the kids sang Not Be Shaken without even having slides up. Best thing ever Singing God's praises with all your heart at night in a big sweaty room with a large crowd. Worship songs are always so much better in person when you can feel the Spirit moving rather than in recordings.

I really dislike how I have procrastinated all this school work so that I pretty much have to do it nonstop until Friday, but then I will have more time, right? No. not really. I just need to prioritize better. God should always be at the top of my list of priorities. If I turned all my procrastinating time into God time I'd be in a much better position.

This weekend I have really felt that I should be more actively involved in ministry. I'm always just sitting back and following whoever is leading or just not putting enough work in. I'm not a high schooler anymore.

Also, I have felt that it would be amazing if SZ was more like R(?). R(?) reminds me of SZ except for the fact that I've never seen SZ talk about or carry around a Bible (not that I've heard R(?) say anything about the Bible). So, I have felt that I should pray for SZ, that he would come to know God/Jesus/the Holy Spirit in his life.

Ya, those are the two main things that I felt this weekend. Pastor Rob also was very encouraging and now I've memorized another verse. Psalm 118:17 "I will not die, but live, and will proclaim what the Lord has done."

Through Jesus' death on the cross, God has taken away our sins, which lead us to death, and has given us His righteousness and the chance to know God personally, which is eternal life. I will not fall to sin, but with God's help live a life that is pleasing to Him that glorifies His name.

That's all for now I guess.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

PS. I need to have a conversation about discernment.

Getaway!

And thus, after a very very long game of tetris we are now on our way to Getaway! I will not be blog/tweeting much cuz I forgot my charger.

The Getaway!

So, tonight is the start of a weekend-long exciting high school retreat to camp Galilee in Arnprior and I get to go too! I'm pretty excited and I'm sure I've told you about this, but I'm feeling pretty excited as I wait here at school. When I get home I kinda have to pack though. xPPP...

In any case, I hope that God's presence would really be with us this weekend and that He really speaks to the high schoolers about who he is and that they can learn to listen more to what He is saying to them. Our theme is knowing His voice and it is something that we can all improve. God wants to speak to us and is calling out to us, but if we don't even try to listen then, He'll try harder, but we can still ignore Him if we want to. God doesn't force us to listen to Him, He gives us a choice. Some of us make this choice without even thinking about it, or sometimes the choice was made for you by your parents or those around you, but you can always change your mind.

Ya. I hope I can help out this weekend with more than just worship and be able to help the pastors and speakers or group leaders or something so that they have less stress or something. xP I'm not really in any sort of leading role this weekend, but I kinda like being the guy who does all the other stuff so that people can focus on what they have to do.

So, ya.

This weekend should be great!

Ttyl.

D.Fa

PS. Hungary and Australia get shout-outs!
PPS. I have cool friends!

手紙！

So.

Letters are so expensive. No wonder everyone loves e-mail. E-mail = fast, free, instant connection. No wasted paper / trees, no mass produced chemical polution from making them. You can just pull up the internet and with a couple clicks have a letter sent and delivered immediately. No postage. No awkward / creepy finding out people's home address, just an anonymous email address that is accesible from everywhere, anytime.

Email >> Snail Mail

Also, with email you don't have to buy 1000 envelopes when you only need about 200... >.>

Ttyl.

D.Fa


PS. Belarus!!!

-Untitled-

To be in a place where the only reason you can see around you is because of the light of the moon.
Where the only thing to see is the stars shining brightly overhead.
To be away from the false light and technology and just lie in a field looking up at the intricate vastness that is space and see all the detailed and beautiful work of the stars in the sky.
To just not worry about day to day and just find contentment in the greatness of the universe which is so much larger and so much more complicated than what we consider busy and complicated lives.
To just be without any conditions.
To just be in awe.
To just watch the stars spin around in the sky.
To see everything that I can't see because of our short sightedness.
To see in an eternal perspective.
To see the unchanging.
To see time pass by.

But not alone.

The Clouds Over Malaysia Are Really Cute.

That is my reaction to seeing the clouds over Malaysia on Google Maps while looking for Qatar (w00t!!) and subsequently Singapore (which I have always traditionally assumed was in the Mediterranean near Italy).

Anyways, that is why I am blogging, right now, in the library, Qatar has seen my blog!

I really meant to blog yesterday. I ran out of time though.

You see, yesterday in church, Pastor DB spoke about Lent, about the varying history and how we can apply it. Lent has traditionally been a 40 day long time period where you give something up and replace it with something that will draw you closer to God. It is not simply meant as a punishment, it is not simply a time to switch vices, it can't be something that you force on someone.

So, when I was praying about it I came up with three options:

1)Give up breakfast. This was based literally off of Matthew 4:4 "Jesus answered "It is written 'Man shall not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.'""
I eat a lot of bread. This is because of my mother who is particularlly particular about whether her sandwich bread is 'stale' or not leading to the purchase of many additional loaves of bread which I take because otherwise no one will eat them. Especially for breakfast recently I have been eating, like, 5 slices of bread with something on it (Peanut Butter, Jam, Bananas, etc.). So literally, replace the bread with reading the Bible or something.

2)Nevermind. It's not important.

3)Anime which I then felt should be all television including Friends. This is because at breakfast and other various times when I am 'bored' or otherwise decide for no reason that my studies are less important than procrastination that this is what I should do. I would be able to eat breakfast and connect with God!

Reasons against the posssibilities:

1) I am hardly eating lunch ever as it is, so giving up breakfast is either switching over to eating lunches (as if I hadn't given anything up) or starving myself by not eating anything, but dinner when I am already, probably, malnourished. Also, Saturday night I was talking to my support coach JW and he suggested I spend more time at school so I could get things done and he said that he used to go to Baker's and buy a cheap breakfast and 'have breakfast with God.' Then Sunday Pastor DB was recounting how food is a social thing and how in college because he knew nobody he would 'eat lunch with God'. I felt God was telling me to a) eat meals and b) eat them with Him. Nothing such as "you should starve", but rather the opposite..

2)forget it.

3)I have actually got to a point where anime isn't controlling my life. I only watch it during meals or when there is nothing else to do. TV however is almost always a waste of time.

I was thinking about this stuff all day and decided to ask AL about it. I told her about options 1 and 3. She asked if I had thought about option 2. I replied that I had and decided against it.

I suppose I should let you know what it is now. Option 2 is pokemon. At the thought I said "no. I just bought pokemon white on Friday. If I give it up now I will be unable to play it for what will turn into 3 months (because of EAP) and then no one will still be playing. I am going to give it up in a few weeks once I beat it."

AL asked if I had talked to God / the Holy Spirit about it.

I realized I was deliberately ignoring Him for my own selfish desires.

You know what that is? That is the general definition of sin.

I was sinning and I even kind of knew about it. I mean, when I had been playing on Friday night I had been like 'I'll play until 9 then I'll read Lev 9-10 (which I was supposed to read on the bus that morning, but ran into NB and a 16 year old gangster hiphop thug at the bus stop and ya...)' and I pushed it off for hours. On the bus I'd read the Bible as fast as possible to spend more time playing. I was playing at the C4C meeting. I was playing before / after sunday school. I was playing instead of eating the soup my dad had made. It was taking over my life and I was letting it because I wanted to play so badly, but at the same time I was feeling pretty bad about it and although I had played for 9 hours I was not in the least satisfied. yet.

I thought playing would make it better. I mean, the plot will progress, I'll catch more pokemon (especially Galvantula! I want it so badly!!!) and I will catch them all and have a sense of accomplishment.

I chose to ignore God that morning. He spoke through AL because speaking to me directly wasn't working. I was still not listening. For close to 4 hours at work I was thinking about pokemon and how I was selfishly, sinfully, stupidly, stubornly ignoring God and not making the decision to give up pokemon for lent.

The worst part of this is that I knew Lent is supposed to draw you closer to God. How can you draw closer to God while being in conscience disobedience to what He is telling me? You can't grow in your relationship with God if you are willfully living a life of sin at the same time. Sin is why we can't normally have a relationship with God. Sin is why God had to send Jesus to die on a cross (he also rose from the dead). Jesus is how we can have a relationship while having sin in the past tense. God's grace and love for us overcomes everything.

and yet, I wasn't saying yes or no even while knowing yes was the right answer.

I finally gave up. You can't beat God. So pokemon white is now, and will be for the next 40-100 days, be sitting on the shelf in my room beside my DS which I may or may not touch for an equal amount of time.

Ya.

I'll ttyl. xP

D.Fa

PS... Sorry about the essay of a post... xP

今！

Yo!

So much stuff has to be done ASAP.

I am currently:
-cramming for CHEM midterm tonight.
-dying to get pokemon already! (TWH has already beat the elite four... Arts kids. >.>)
-less stressed about project prep
-blogging because India has seen my blog! w00t India!!!

Ya, I don't actually have anything to talk about. =D

Ttyl.

D.Fa

Mobile Parties are Cool

Hey! So. I need to learn how to be concise.

1. I hate shots.
2. It is not easy to get travel immunizations.
3. My imunization record is pretty sketch.
4. I need to learn to play footsy better..?
5. I don't tell you I love you as much as I should.
6. I don't love You as much as I should.
7. I need to cut down on words like kinda, maybe, sometimes, or other stupid modifiers.
8. I would like to be able to be in more than one place at once.
9. Microsoft Office hates me.
10. I understand LRC curcuits much better now.
11. Skipping math is always an idea that is not bad.
12. I learned some kanji today! or at least what they look like...
13. Breakfast at 8pm is odd.
14. I need to get a proper meal routine.
15. I'm leaving this house at the end of April..?
16. Someone keeps eating my food. This week a banana and half a litre of punch have disappeared. Also, RL ate the leftover spagetti I was planning to eat today and the leftover spagetti sauce I was planning to eat tomorrow... >.>
17. Jesus is the perfect spotless lamb that acts as the permanent sin offering for our sins.
18. I'm ahead of the game even if I think I only have 3 days left to do stuff..?
19. When did our lives become so complicated?
20. Snow + Rain = a very terrible combination. Sidewalks are the lowest place, ,', that is where the rain goes, ,', there is no where to walk.

Ya, Ttyl.

D.Fa

I Wish I Could Always Stay Here.

So. I want this to be quick so I can cram for my Bio midterm. I may be getting into a longish post however. xPP >.>

So, I stumbled upon (no not actually.) this song when I was trying to get a set list for worship one week and I really liked it, but I didn't think it should be in the set list. So I wrote down in a blog post draft titled "Note to Self" that I should blog about this eventually.

Can I Stay Here Forever by Starfield. The lyrics are as follows:

Through forgotten convictions
Misplaced affections
I'm losing the sound of Your voice
I've been chasing after emptiness
Trying to tidy up this mess
I swear I've been down this road before
I want to get back to where it all began
When I would long for only You

Like a child I'll take You at Your word
As these mountains of doubt, they fade away
I'm longing to trust and love You more
So for me this is beautiful
A brand new thought, and a brand new world
Can I stay here forever here with You?

I've lost sight of what first drew me
To the love that pursued me
The joy that inspired my song
The friendship that was all I knew
The arms that I would fall into
Seem miles and years from where I am today
I gotta get back to where it all began
When I would wait for only You

Can I stay here forever
Here with you?
Surrounded by Your mercy
Clothed in Your truth
Always, I'll stay
Always here with You

Can I be here forever
Here with You?
Can I know what it's like
To deeply love You?
Always, Lord, let me stay
Always, here with You



Also, we are playing this song for worship during Getaway and I really like singing it. Rediscover You by Starfield. Lyrics:

I need to just admit
my faith is paper thin
I'm feeling so burned out
On religion

I say an empty prayer
I sing a tired song
I need to just admit that the passion's gone

And I want to get it back

You told me
Look for You and I will find
So I'm here
Like I'm searching for the first time
Revive me, Jesus
Make this cold heart start to move
Help me rediscover You

I want to learn to pray
The way that David prayed
I want my soul to burn when I hear Your name
I want to feel like new
I want to hunger for you
Bring me back to life like only You can do
Cause I don't want to stay the same

You told me
Look for You and I will find
So I'm here
Like I'm searching for the first time
Revive me, Jesus
Make this cold heart start to move
Help me rediscover You

Lord, I want to be Yours today
I want to know the passion of the saints
And how they were changed

You told me
Look for You and I will find
So I'm here
Like I'm searching for the first time
Revive me, Jesus
Make this cold heart start to move

I want to burn for You
Bring me back to life, Jesus
Help me rediscover You



Both songs express how they were passionate for Jesus and just living for God. In the first song, they ended up being drawn away by other things and started losing touch with God. In the second song, it became so much about the traditions, practices and keeping up their appearance while no longer actually connecting with God.

1. How did they ever come to know God?

"I've lost sight of what first drew me, to the love that pursued me." God loves you. God loves every person He has created. He has made each of us with a unique purpose and He loves each of us and wants us to be in a loving relationship with Him.

2. Why did they ever leave this relationship if they had come into relationship with Him?

Everyone has fallen short of the glory of God. The original reason and most of the reasons since then is that we get so focused on ourselves and satisfying our own desires by our own means that we lose sight of the fact that God provides for us and instead go our own way. The thing is, God created us with free will. This is amazing. He could have forced us to follow Him, but if we so desire, he will let us do as we wish. However, disobeying Him and seeking to fulfill our desires separates us from Him. "I've been chasing after emptiness / Trying to tidy up this mess" Things like lusting over women, or seeking to be popular to try and substitute for the hole where God was in our hearts doesn't work. We were built to have Him in our lives.

3. Can we get back to a relationship with God on our own?

The answer is no. Nothing we can do can reconnect us. There are a few main ways that people try to get back to God by becoming 'more holy' in various ways, such as doing good works, religion or philosophies. As it says in the second song he confesses about how empty religion is "I'm feeling so burned out on religion, I say an empty prayer, I sing a tired song" but it's not the same, it's not a real relationship with God.

4. So how do we get back into a relationship with God?

In the songs they sing of getting back to where they were or rediscovering Him, so it must be possible. The answer is in God's love for us. While we were still going our own way separated by our own decision, God took it on Himself to come to us and even then He was rejected. God gave His only son on the cross so that we can have a relationship with Him. The effect of going our own way, the payment for that is death. Only through Jesus' death have our past actions been erased so that we can enter a relationship with God again if we so desire.

5. Jesus died, so I'm good now, right?

Well, yes and no. Yes, He did die, but you can't just know this and then BAM! without doing anything your life is fine. Jesus also came back to life and that has to be reflected in what we do as well. We were dead in our sins, but alive in Jesus. We can't continue living separated from God, that's what got us where we were. You have to put your trust in the fact that He did this for you and ask Him to be a part of your life. This isn't a one time thing. Every Christian ends up going back to the way they were at some point. It's a challenge sometimes, why else would there be so many songs about it? But the thing is, when you turn away again, you turn right back and continue to trust God for what He does in your life.

6. So, how do I ask Jesus to come into my life, and what does that mean?

The way we talk to God is in prayer. But just praying without your heart in it means nothing. The words don't matter as long as you truly mean them. The amazing thing is that God always listens to us when we pray to Him. The following is a sample prayer that you can pray, but you can say whatever you think you need to.

Part two of the question: What it means is that Jesus will be in your life and with you always. You will be filled with the Holy Spirit and will be able to live an empowered life to live the way God intended.

Sample Prayer:
Lord Jesus, I want to know you personally. I'm sorry for going my own way and trying to find my own path. Thank you for dying on the cross for my sins. I open the door to my life and ask you to be my Saviour and Lord. Thank you for forgiving me of my sins and giving me eternal life. Take control of my life. Make me the kind of person you want me to be. Amen.

7. Now what?

Now you are filled with the Holy Spirit and are in a relationship with Jesus. All your past sins have been forgiven and you have just started a long journey. "As these mountains of doubt, they fade away, I'm longing to trust and love You more". There will be times when you doubt, but if you truly seek, you will find God's truth and love for you wipe away the doubts. There's always room to grow closer to God, it's not an instant process. I still have a long way to go. The best way to start growing in your relationship is by exploring God's word, the Bible, and see what He has done for you. I advise starting in the book of John. You should also pray regularly. No relationship grows if only one person is doing the talking. You should also get to know some other people who trust in God by joining a Bible study or going to a church.

Also, if you have just accepted Christ into your life, please message me. =D I'm super excited about this. Leave a comment, or you can email me: dylan.dfa@gmail.com

Ya. xP I hope you come to know God more closely and I will try to help answer any questions or help you in any way I can.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

PS. There is a lot more I could tell you about God and Jesus and the Holy Spirit.

PPS. Starfield is pretty cool.

I have been saved.

So, ya.

Today was a major stress and I would be dead right now if it were not for a few people.

If you would like to skip that giant beast of a paragraph, feel free to, but it has a lot of the details of how I am still alive and more specifics, I think... xP

I woke up this morning at 6am knowing full well that I had barely scratched the surface of a 12 page bio lab. I went to bed at 12 knowing that my computer hates me and would not allow microsoft office to work. So, on the off chance that my housemates had left one of their laptops on the main floor I woke up early (This is in direct contradiction to one of my 'resolutions' I posed back in January to not borrow without asking that I still have not been doing... I have borrowed tweezers, tooth paste, laptops, guitars, ice cream, a bedroom, CD player, printer, laundry basket, frozen vegetables, margarine, towel, a matress, a blanket, herbs, a laptop charging cable thing, an xbox, a device for shaving, ummm I don't know what else... but I digress. This is in paratheses.) in an attempt to borrow one of their laptops. Since this did not happen, I quickly tried to do some of the Intro for my lab on a draft for a blog post (which I don't think will be posted..? o.0) because it could be transferred between computers. In any case I run off to school on the bus. I get to the computer lab in Steacie building and holed myself up there until everything was done. At 10:30 my support coach for East Asia PRoject was going to call me and talk for like half an hour. He was too busy, Thank God. I had been budgeting my time, kinda, and I knew that at 1 I'd be kicked out for a class that uses the lab. It was like 1:20 and still I was there. Thank God. lol. I was not done yet and relocating wouldn't have sped up the process. So, I thought I'd need like 5 minutes maybe to get to class (starting at 1:30) and so when 1:30 passed I was like dang, I'm gonna need to finish ASAP. Going as fast as possible I managed to finish to a satisfactory level and went to print it. Guess what? PRINTER JAM! WHAT!??! I spent 4$ on a printer jam! with only 1$ left on my campus card, ie not enough to actually pay for the new copy I'd have to buy at another printer somewhere.......... On top of which it was now 1:40 and I think that 'if you are more than 15 minutes late to a lab you cannot enter' and must do a make-up or fail or something. So with all this stress (because I had no idea how to unjam the printer which is locked in a plexiglas cage with a padlock) I suddenly thought of the Integrated Science Centre room or whatever it is that DK had shown me only once before. You just (as an integrated science student which I am not) bring paper to the room and you can print (double sided is an option) for FREE! So I ran off there (and just so happened to leave my laptop charging cable there, as I have just found out at 9pm.) and freaked out because I was so late.... I then had to ask to borrow paper from people I don't know. This girl gave me some. I rushed to print everything. I got to about the 5th last page and no one in the room had any more paper. I had to ask again and they told me to ask one of the profs or whatever they are that have rooms in that hall. The woman the next door over gave me a huge pile of paper. So, I managed to print it all. Thank God. I then sprint to the bio lab. I got there just as the lab coordinator was finishing describing how to do the lab that I had not prepared for at all. My lab partner has been, no offense, utterly useless in helping me with the labs. I mean she just doesn't get things very quickly. I'm sure if I got to know her better we would be in a better situation. In anycase, this week we were in groups of four, thank God, and they seemed to know what they were doing. Not really, but it gave me time to figure out what we were doing. lol. This lab had no actual experimentation, so it was a really quick lab. Thank God. I had earlier planned to work on my resume with CW in Rooster's after my lab, so I ran off to there. I needed this resume ASAP for a summer job that I was already a week behind in applying for and now that I had sent an email and He had responded I really had to send a resume. CW is like the best older brother ever. Thank God that he is in my life. lol.. He has been really useful for a lot of things. Not only because he is in English and that is my worst subject, but also in encouraging me in my walk with God and just everything. So, we (he) worked on that for like an hour and a half. I then ate breakfast (5:30pm a few granola bars). CW left to go home and study. Then I realized I had like 15 minutes until my bio lab was due (electronic submission in addition to the hard copy, I know really..?) so I ran off to the computer lab again and did that. Thank God CW left... lol we could have been there another hour. Anyways, I had been planning on helping SC with his Japanese film that night. I was gonna skip Discipleship group and just help him. He ended up being too sick. That is too bad, but in a way, I got to go to DG and hear the end of the prodigal son parable and I learned some neat things. more about prodigal son later maybe, summary, younger brother takes inheiritance from his father who isn't dead yet and wastes it all. He comes back ready to beg to be a slave because they live well enough. His dad comes running to him when he comes home and prepares the fatted calf for a celebration. The older brother who had been working hard for years is kinda confused, jealous, angry among other things that he never had a young goat to celebrate with his friends. Their dad comforts him by saying that everything he has is his son's and that it is good to celebrate because the younger brother was dead but is now alive again, he was lost but now is found. Thank God that I got to go to DG and just hang out with MW, DJ, CV, RM and DL. I havn't actually been to DG/C4C in like a couple weeks and can't go on Friday either, so I thought it might be kinda like I'm dropping out or something. In any case they really encouraged me. God too. I mean I had never thought about it that way. I'm just no good at individual Bible study, I mostly just read. So, ya. I went off to my parents for dinner. Free leftovers, thank God. Then JW finally called and I talked for a while and used the computer my brother had been using for his Anthro project until I high-jacked it. There is a lot of stuff I need to do ASAP for project. I mean if I don't do anything, then I definately can't go right..? Anyways, I am now at home borrowing JK's charging cable for my laptop. It's a good thing they are interchangeable, thank God. Also, after thought: Thank God I didn't have work this morning. >.>

So, summary: I made a lot of plans for today. Things I thought would be good. Prioritizing because it was on my schedule of things to do, and guess what. Most if not all of those plans fell through, but for the best. God's plan for my life is far better than mine. Thank God that he is on our side. If we were His enemies it would be like trying to swim up a waterfall. It's not gonna happen. But because He loves us and is patient with us He overlooks our selfishness and helps us to do what He wants us to do. He gently calls us back. He will never force you to do something against your will. If anything had been different today I would be in a Much worse position than I am. I know that there is a lot to do this week, but with God's help I will be able to pull through and get to where I am supposed to be, where God wants me to be.

God has saved me from my sins and has helped me continue moving forward.

(I already have 50 names on this piece of paper. Just because the average age is around 18 is kinda sketchy though.... lol.)

D.Fa

The Past / Present / Future

So, right now I still haven't done much of the stuff I need to do immediately, but I did do one thing. I applied to be a facil next year. Then I found out there was an interview. lol...

It turns out that the interview is the same day as Getaway ends. My interview is at 5 and we get back 'around 4'... sketchy. Also, I'm now thinking, what if I haven't had a shower all weekend..? >.>

Ya, I went 'sharing' with CW today. I use quotations because it didn't really end up being too spirtual, more just talking, but that's cool. lol. I found out that KG goes to church. I should talk to him more in the future about the gospel and the spirit filled life and tell him about C4C and stuff. lol.

Also, today I went to my parents, had dinner, and went to watch my brother and a number of other people his age play Jazz in Kanata. I miss playing trombone. and yet it is still under my bed... They did pretty well.

Ya.

Ttyl. xP A day full of worship tomorrow! Awesome!

D.Fa

PS. Portugal!

Random Stuff

So, I still have a lot of things to do. And they are all at the top of a 'I should do this immediately' list. In other word they should all be done by now, but are not... Applying to be a facil for orientation next year, writing up my resume for summer job applications, doing my bio lab, etc.

And, so I have played google chrome bounceball, watched pokemon, watched friends, just wasted a lot of time in general.

I don't really like Dragon Ball all that much. Also, filming a movie that doesn't have a script yet in the dark in winter is very sketchy. I don't know why, but it's just so much easier for me to act like the bad guy.

I put my Paramore CDs on my cell phone. xP I'm jazzed about this. lol

SC thinks that there is no way that I can get my school work done with my schedule being the way it is. I would have to agree. I should be mega super failing everything, but somehow I'm doing well, I guess.

Anyways, I really don't have anything to talk about.

lol... My internet died when I was about to post this (I meant to post it four days ago... xP), so, ya... lol

D.Fa

Reading Week?

You see, this last week I set out to do a lot of work that I was behind on. I had formed a large list of things I should do in my head before it started, but didn't really do all of it...

Did I read?

I guess I read a bit. A couple chapters of Bio, a few chapters of math, not much else. lol

Did I finish my labs that were due this week?

No.

Did I do the prelabs for this week?

Mostly.

Did I look over my Japanese textbook?

No.

Did I hang out with all my old High School firends?

Maybe some of them, not all of them though... (I didn't give VB a spinning hug though... >.>)

Did I write my resume..?

No.

Did I write my support letter for East Asia Project?

Not really.

Did I waste a lot of time?

Yes. So much time... I even cleaned RL's room instead of doing my own work. lol And now for the over exagerated before and after shots.

Before:



After:



Also, just for fun, I color coded his closet! xP



That was the main part of my week, living in RL's room (except for sleeping of course). His room was cleaner than mine... >.> BUT JK's was way worse than mine, so I was ok with my room. lol

Ttyl.

D.Fa

A Week Later

So, I guess I survived a week without a laptop of my own and without constant internet access. I suppose this means that I do have my laptop back. That is correct.

Also, it seems that I have made another decision and my housemates have all been making plans around it and it seems settled. In any case I really shouldn't finalize decisions on my blog.

Also, I am in the process of writing my support letter for East Asia Project. I don't really have anyone to send it to though... The only people I've thought of sending it to my neighbours and coworkers.

Ya. So, while I have been unable to or rather just not willing to spend my very few and far between minutes with internet on blogger I have had to take a couple notes for later blogging.

1. Just because there is no 'porn' doesn't mean there is no sin. Especially when you are trying your hardest to do good works for God, the devil will be trying just as hard to stop you and get you down. In our weakness, God's greatness is made perfect. I mean we try so hard to be better than we are, but we fall flat on our faces over and over again, but God, Jesus, even though He was in our place, He never fell to temptation.

2. I really like it when I'm reading the Old Testament and I read a passage that has been turned into a song I know. xP
Isaiah 35:3-4 Strengthen the feeble hands, steady the knees that give way; say to those with fearful hearts, "Be strong do not fear; your God will come, He will come with vengeance; with divine retribution He will come to save you."
Psalm 27:4 One thing I ask of the Lord, this is what I seek: that I m ay dwell in the house of the Lord all of the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to seek Him in His temple.

I mean often when reading the OT I just don't relate very well with it. The last like 10 chapters of Exodus were all the exact measurements for how to build the tabernacle and that clothes Aaron would wear.

Anyways, I'm back I guess. Oh. lol. I will post about my reading week tommorow or something.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

PS. What Can I Do by Suengri of Big Bang is just stuck in my head nonstop. So good. lol.

PPS. Georgia!!!