It Is Irksome.

I'm kinda upset right now.

I got my essay back today.

You know there's a problem when the course that 3rd years are taking to raise their average is significantly bringing down my average. This is like last year when Steel was bringing down my mark. Like what the heck.

But in any case. If I actually think about it, I'm pretty sure (because of the whole letter grade thing) that my average is not really affected and that my entrance scholarship is by no means in question of being renewed, so in actuality I have nothing to complain about and I will have no problem if I actually fail FILM, but it is irksome.

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This morning I awoke at 5:30. This was to go to the prayer meeting thing in Russell at 7. It was pretty cool. One guy challenged us though. He challenged us to fast once a week and just humble ourselves before the Lord by voluntarily weakening ourselves. He also chalenged us to wake up half an hour earlier and just spend 30 minutes with God in quiet time just getting filled up and pumped so that we have something to bring to the meeting.

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Then I had Bio.

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After that I went to Oasis, had some lunch and went sharing with AG. We talked to two people. One guy had the idea that creligion is a beautiful thing, but the people had hurt him which is why he was turned off from going to church. He was a really cool guy and he's in AH's program and year, so they'll get to talk some more. The other guy was hindu-raised and grew up in Malaysia where there is freedom of religion. He has many different friends and has been exposed to some extent with various religions. A lot of what he believed is in line with what I believe, but some of it is just so... empty..? I mean not knowing if you have a relationship with God until you die..? only to find out that you weren't and so you get reincarnated to try again..?

I then found out that VW was too sick to meet up and get her planner today. We had a brief text conversation and now I am praying for her situation. It's kinda difficult, but God must have a plan for her.

I want a heart for doing what is good, a heart for doing what I should, a heart that loves people for who they are and not appearances, a heart for the lost, a heart that is never hypocritical, that just loves the Lord with all of it.

Here's a song:



Ttyl.

D.Fa