I Think My Soul is... Singing..?

So, whatsup..? I'm pretty tired.

I have a few things I have been thinking about and a few things I have that I think are blog worthy.

So, ya. I honestly think that today's worship was Spirit led. You see, yesterday at the practice I apparently chose songs that have weird rhythm patterns or that the other two didn't actually know and so, we pretty much failed playing most of them on the first try. It was always like "ok.... I think we'll come back to that." after we had tried so hard to figure out what we could do to make it work. When we came back to them, without even talking about it they just worked. I felt like it was the Holy Spirit who had fixed it. This morning C(?) even said she felt God's presence after the first 4 songs.

Apparently, because I am not very good at playing guitar yet, my singing style has turned into long, pause-y, fermata'd, and 'spirit led' *waves arms in a distracting 'dancing' manner to imply 'spirit led'*. This was one reason for a bunch of the problems. The inside joke there came from when CW asked why we couldn't play 'Sing to the Lord' properly and AL replied 'It's Hillsong. It's Spirit led." in a semi-mocking tone with accompanying 'dance'.

Ya. So, I have invited BJ to church and I've invited her to YA. I really hope she comes. xP

So, ya. I was still singing 'Sing to the Lord' all day. After service I was singing it for like 3 hours non-stop. I was actually starting to annoy myself, but it just kept playing on repeat. I wasn't actually that annoyed. I was actually really happy. After an hour of thinking random things I finally diagnosed myself. My diagnosis..? My soul was singing. Honestly I would almost describe these last couple days as the best days of my life. and then I thought... why..? I haven't done anything special. and I thought about Holly Sheldon's message from Winter Conference about how you don't find rest in escaping from your troubles, but you find rest right in the middle of them. I had done a bunch of work this weekend and had done more Bible reading / praying / singing praises than I have in a while. Even at work I was really happy and just singing (although more internally or more quietly). Even at work.

Another thing I have been thinking about is my reasoning behind wanting to go on East Asia project this summer. Do I really want to go wholly because of the word 'Asia' in the description..? or am I going to do God's work..? This came up because yesterday my housemate JK was talking to me about his brother who is off at Bible school and he wants to quit cuz classes are hard. Apparently in the first year or two he went on trips all over the place, but they would be ziplining and doing a bunch of fun stuff. So he was questioning his motives. I said as a defense to me wanting to go to Asia that maybe God has made me with a desire to go to Asia for a reason. I didn't say this 100% seriously. It is a legitamite answer, but at the same time, I actually don't think I ever heard God tell me "Go on project". So I was thinking that I would go on project somewhere else to prove that I am in it, not just for Asia, but also for God's work, but then I started thinking that I would feel less comfortable in places like Northern Africa compared to East Asia... I mean, it would be a great oppourtunity, but I would really rather be in Asia... but is that just me trying to be in a comfortable position..? And thus I am in my negative cyclic thought processes that I frequently get into. I think I've decided that my second choice for project destination will be Northern Africa. This is in part to get over my racism. I don't support my racism, but I am willing to admit that it exists. So, ya I'm gonna pray about that stuff.

There is also another ridiculous quote that I hope to use tommorow and hopefully before AL blogs about it. xP It's so funny.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

PS. Hans. lol.