Change of Opinion

So.

If you didn't know I don't really support Gmail. This is mostly because I already had hotmail and have msn and think it would be a waste of time to change everything over to gmail and thus I have been avoiding it.

There are many 'good reasons' why I should just switch over to gmail. such as the whole idea of email threads or google chat (because everyone that has google chat does not have msn so they want me to get it).

The fact is that I already have a gmail account. In fact I actually use it when people ask for an email adress because its just easier. I mean its WAY shorter. xP It is also more proffesional... But it's just not what I am already doing......

Sometimes people don't like change. Sometimes just so that they don't have to change they will avoid new things, even ignoring it or just not listening to logical explainations. They just stick to what they are already doing.

Sometimes you just need to try it out. You just need to give it a chance.

Today gmail saved my life. I am starting to think about switching, but I don't want to... Today an hour before my Bio lab I had to print all of my bio lab report so I could hand it in. I hadn't emailed it to myself yet, so I was desperately trying to get onto hotmail on my laptop in te computer lab, but it has pretty bad wireless there. Hot mail would not load......... I even tried Firefox, which I also do not support because it would be a change. Nothing.

I then thought... What about gmail..?! So I tried it.

Guess what...? It worked... >.> This was after 40 minutes of trying to get onto hotmail... It worked on the second try. It worked.

Point being.... I may switch. I still think I need a bit more reason, but whatever. xP

Unrelated:
-My Application for Project is finally done!!!! Finally!!! I've been getting emails and even phone calls from Guelph about 'are you still considering? It's the last day. You should hurry up. etc."
-Apparently 'idividualistic' and other derivatives of individual are very hard to say. Both RM and RL had quite a hard time. Maybe its just people named R..?
-KC went to DG! and he prayed on Sunday. I havn't heard him pray very much. I'm gonna try and take him to a pray meeting one of these days.
-My lame bio lab is finished.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

True Story I

True Story:

I managed to get a ride most of the way home from church. This meant I had time to eat lunch.

When I was almost home I had a wonderful conversation for about five minutes with a neighbour. He is rather small and has a lot of grey hair. He was in the tree when I first saw him. There's kinda a language barrier and I'm not too good at his language, so I could have been saying anything, but I rather enjoyed it.

By the way. He was a squirrel.

lol. I wish I had a pet squirrel. Especially this one.




But that is beside the point.

In any case. That was very random, but fun.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

A List of Stuff.

So, the things on this list are all connected for some reason:
-Halo
-Final Fantasy
-Gundam
-Tim Horton's
-Crocs
-Coffee
-Brand Name Clothing
-Dr. Dre Beats
-Blackberry's
-Twitter
-Athletic Socks
-Baby corn
-Sonic
-Twilight
-Apple Juice
-Eggs
-Pills
-Boots
-Hockey
-etc.
There's probably a lot of other things I could add to the list, but I'm just so tired/bored.... XP

Ya. This list is a list of things I just do not support.

Ya...... Kinda no real reason, but I'm just against them.

xP... Ttyl.

D.Fa

Randomness.

Hey!

I don't have much to say so this post will be randomness.

But, first I will say that C4C has good ideas for outreach, but sometimes you can't make everyone happy with how long some things go. Also, you should not put tea lights on a table that will be used for a discussion. Ya.

Today I saw what I believe is one of if not the most ridiculous things ever built. There was a parking meter. It was in a tunnel. It had a solar panel. Ya. Smart, right..? No. So I am rage blogging about that, except not really. If you have any connection to someone who can and will move it, please tell them. It is near little Italy.

Also, VS showed us the best video ever. I joke, but it is very funny. Don't pay attention to the stuff after the song.



So good. xP

Also, although I said I would not upload this to my blog, here it is. xP MW can no longer take RM seriously.



Ya, that was my DG leader RM. He has a tough outer appearance, but on the inside he is a Barbie Girl. I think we all are at least partially. xP Just kidding.

Ttyl.


D.Fa

PS. Philippines! W00t!

Picture Post I!

Ok, I really should be working on my Bio lab report and studying and stuff, but I've been having a pretty cool conversation with MM on facebook. So, partially because of what we were talking about and the shortness of the time I should be spending blogging I will mostly just post a few* pictures. xP

The theme is: Creation and how amazing it is with a focus on the 'Natural World'. xP















Psalm 19:1-4 "The heavens declare the glory of God, and the sky above proclaims his handiwork. Day to day pours out speech, and night to night reveals knowledge. There is no speech, nor are there words, whose voice is not heard. Their voice goes out through all the earth, and their words to the end of the world."

I may end up having this type of post be recurring, but with different themes. xP Like 'chairs' or 'architecture' or something. xP

Ttyl.

D.Fa

*A few turned into like 14... >.>

It's Not Paranoia!

I just saw the singing bus go by again! This time it was a 111! I thought it would have been 'fixed' by now, but I guess not... I am not just making this up! There must be someone who has also seen / heard the singing bus! Grrrr...

D.Fa

Re-Reading

Lol... I thought that re-reading some of my old blog posts would give me more hints about what I should have in my testimony and I found this in the first post:

"Let me just say that I have very little time and will only update this when I have free-time or when I am procrastinating..."

I have deffinately been posting on a nearly daily basis, often more than once in a day on special occaisions, and I deffinately do Not have free time that is actually free, so I guess that means that I am procrastinating more than before. xP

Uggg... So many of the first posts are me explaining things.... It's kinda boring... xP And they are soooooooo long. >.>

I have stopped reading old posts. They are all too long. xP I will from now on avoid super long posts... xP

I kinda want to go sharing right now and at the same time I have this fear in my gut... xP I havn't gone sharing since Friday....... I kinda need more sleep and I kinda need to finish some assignments and stuff.............

I end up quitting so many of the goals I set. This annoys me.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

PS. I really like medians. Not the math medians. The ones in the middle of roads. They make j-walking so much easier. XP...

PPS. J(?) is really cute.

Stats!!! xP

Have you ever thought 5000 is a big number..? Well, it kinda is. I mean it's like a whole years wages from a part time job if at minimum wage you work about 10 hours a week. It's also my yearly rent. It's also about how much it costs to go to Asia for 6 weeks. Also (randomly) if you spent one hour doing homework everyday during a 26 week school year, it would take 27.5 years or 55, 13 week semesters to get to 5000 hours. However, it would only take 20.5 months of playing 8 hours of video games in a day to reach 5000 hours.

I was thinking yesterday, 'how much is too much..? How long should you play video games before it's too much..? how about, when you are gaming more than you are inhaling..?' That is an enourmous amount of time! like 12 hours in a day (on average, excluding possible holding your breath to make the amount of time inhaling lower)!! 12 hours isn't actually all that much. I mean on Tuesdays I am at school for at least 10 hours. Last semester it was 13 hours. xP

Anyways, there are a number of other things I wanted to calculate / discuss.

So, as far as the origin of life is concerned, if abiotic genesis is where things came from and on the off chance that atoms began combining and formed amino acids, guess what..? There are 80 different types and two different forms of each. So of the 160 possible amino acids that may be formed only 20 of them are actually used in proteins. The next problem is that a protien can be made of hundred or thousands of amino acids in very specific sequences. The probability of these things all happening is very unlikely to begin with, not to mention how many different proteins and how many you'd need to make anything.

The next thing I have been thinking about for a while is a question about the rate of work, or rather how many people we can share with in a year. Going with conservative numbers of about 50 people sharing once a day each every weekday in a 26 week school year, you get about 6500 people. If you increase the numbers to 2 people in a day 13000 people will have heard in a year. This is of course not taking into account people who say 'no thanks' or people who are too busy, and of course when the number goes up you will most likely get overlap, also I'm not including any increase in number of C4C'ers or when people go sharing together. Now I will tell you that there are about 26000 students at Carleton. It would take over two years at that rate to reach everyone (with all variables restricted. xP) Clearly this means we should try harder.

Ya. There are some numbers. Whether they are stats or not has nothing to do with my Bio lab report.

xP. Ttyl.

D.Fa

PS. KMnO4 is a really Really REALLY purple liquid. xP

'Bob L'Eponge'

So, everytime I listen to music by Paramore I think of something I read in the Bible / heard someone say about something in the Bible or just something spiritually related. Of course I can only do that after I've started listening to the lyrics. xP

it may be partially because I'm just in the 'God mindset' when I listen to Paramore ever since my housemates were asking 'is Paramore Christian..?' You know when you get into a mindset that makes it easier for you in your current situation..? Like how when you are watching 'Bob L'Eponge' you are in a French mindset and have to readjust to English afterwards..?

In any case, I have been internalizing the lyrics to 'Playing God' and they really speak to me.



I don't think I can really explain too well, so that is all for that train of thought. xP

Ya. The TV JK threw out before Christmas is beside the dumpster again... xP

This post is basically irrelevant. xP.

I am not done my testimony, if fact I have not attempted to really start it... I just don't know where I would begin.

I'm going to post a few of my blog posts on facebook now. xP

Ttyl.

D.Fa

Scariest Bus Ride Ever.

So, I was going to post earlier from my phone something along the lines of the following:

Subject:

I just had the scariest bus ride ever. For the past 30 minutes I'd been freaking myself out thinking I had lost my cell phone on a bus on the way to church... I thought I had checked my cell phone right before getting on the 86 but didn't have it when I got to church... I was thinking what I would have to do to get it back. I'd have to go all the way downtown to some random lost and found building where they would be holding my phone captive. I would then have to prove that it is mine by telling them the exact seat and route number and time that I was on the bus containing my phone and I'd have to recite contacts and / or by describe how the photos are all slanted or the fact that there is a micro SD with 2GB of memory. Then I thought... dang.. my photos... my SD card.... my contact list!!! RH! I just got his number yesterday and I hadn't talked to him in half a year....... and all the other people's numbers I'd have to creep again... And all the people I can talk to at anytime because of it... and all the sharing I can do with it... I can't believe I rely sooooo much on my phone.

I then realized I had left a glove on the 95 going to fallowfield... whatever I'll get it when I get my phone.............

When I got home I looked in all the usual places. It was on my bed under the shirt I wore last night... >.> annoying. but so lucky. xP I realize I hadn't actually had my phone earlier that morning I just knew what time I left the house and added a few minutes to determine about what time it was.

Ya. That's about all I would have texted... actually about twice as much because of the lame 1000 character limit. xP In any case I have my phone now.

Ya. I had church, then work at 2. I don't know why exactly but Pastor DB gave me his Japanese New King James New Testament. So cool! And now I have 5 bibles (meaning 5 books which are either bibles or new testaments, not including the 2 real life kit ones) in my bag! And actually, I have 4 translations (meaning ESV, NIV, NKJ and whatever the Gideon's one is ... not languages) of the new testament in my bag! xP This makes me happy. I was reading (more like attempting to) a bit of it and Jesus Christ = イエス　キリスト　＝ iesu kirisuto. A bunch of other names that are clearly not Japanese are also slightly different.

So, ya. I'm gonna attempt to do some homework now. xP I have work tommorow morning... >.>

Ttyl.

D.Fa

PS. did I mention that CW got me two Paramore CDs for my birthday..?!? What?!? He didn't need to do that.

No Probl..... I Mean... Thank You..?

So guys, whatsup..?

You know what..? I got like 5.5 hours of sleep! >.>

I went to work from 7-2, had a worship leader study 3-5 and then... Well, I'll get there once I'm done talking about that much.

So, I woke up and all that stuff and got to work at 7:15. I was kinda worried I'd be on the counter... I hate the counter. Luckily I was on tables, so being 15 minutes late was no major problem, the load didn't get there until like 10 anyways..? It seems that BJ had facebook stalked me and was spreading rumours that it was my birthday. Then when SB was overhearing this he said that if MM found out she'd probably announce it through the whole store. MM then entered the room and I left as quickly as possible.

Ya. BJ made me a cupcake. Isn't that sweet..? xP... I actually took a break today. I bought some reduced bruschetta and bread. Just before K(?) went back to work she commented that I looked like Jesus just sittung there breaking bread (it was a bit stale... xP) and B(?) was like 'I guess that's a compliment..?" In a very unsure tone... I really didn't have anything to say... XP

Ya. I left and immediately bussed out to westboro for the study. We were talking about skills and stuff. As usual I got there early and was stuck outside for 20 minutes. xP When AW finally got there she didn't recognize me because of my scarf. xP She made cupcakes too. xP.

All our talents are a gift from God and should be used to glorify Him, but we shouldn't be so focused on playing perfectly that we forget we are playing for Him.

So, ya. After the study I went with my parents for . . . sushi! YAY!! so good. We went to the new 168 Sushi Japan Buffet like a block from where I live. The place is big and so nice, there's water and lights and purple and it's so cool. There's the standard sushi ordering system and a menu with some pictures (I used this to explain the difference between a roll and a hand roll to my parents). The waiters and waitresses were all asian (mostly Chinese I think) and they were all really nice, but a few had a large accent that my parents could not decipher... They came and explained how to order to us.... xP I'm not that white am I..? Also, my parents are not good at using chopsticks... Have I said yet that my brother fell asleep which is why he wasn't there..? xP. Ya. Lame. Anyways, ya. The sushi was really good. The restaurant got really busy by around 6:30ish so it is very good that we got there when we did. I would highly recommend the restaurant to any sushi enthusiast or otherwise.

Ya. After that we went home and I just talked with my parents for a bit while watching the habs games and eating chocolate cake. xP...

I got another few loaves of bread and some spaghetti. xP Ya. I hadn't been home since 7. I also hadn't checked my email..... I had a lot of messages! I responded to all of them! I actually can see this as a chance to get back in touch with a bunch of people I have not talked to in a while. xP Facebook. It is overrated and yet it is a very cool thing sometimes. My opinion has changed.

Ya. Ttyl.

D.Fa

What Will Your Story Be?

Hey, whatsup..?

I am currently in SP 100. It is 6:52. It is 'Weekly Meeting' time for Campus for Christ and we are currently all on our laptops. xP My friend HK just messaged JC "hey. aren't you supposed to be at WM?" lol... It's like, why are you on your laptop..? Well, you see, we are all brainstorming different ways that we can bring the gospel to our friends and just tell them about how great God is. The main focus this month is on writing our own personal testimonies about how God has impacted our lives and just about where we are coming from and just how we came to know God personally. I missed the weekly meeting last week where we started writing our testimonies and everything, and in Discipleship group this week we 'continued' working on them. I still don't really know what to say in it. The main thing about the testimony is that it has to have minimal 'Christian-ese' in it and has to just be easy to understand for people who don't know all these Christian terms that we just put in our sentences while we speak. xP

The other day I was texting VW again and she asked if she had ever shared her testimony with me. She summarized it into 'pastor's daughter. baby. but blessing.' When we finally meet in person it's gonna be interesting. We kinda facebook stalked each other slightly and have had a couple text conversations. The thing I got out of that conversation is that when we finally do meet I should have my testimony ready...

Well, today I went sharing with RM and MW. First we were in the food court and we approached a couple groups of people. The first group was a band and they were about to play somewhere and were just grabbing a quick bite, so they didn't have time to speak with us. After that we approached another group and they were all in a 'secular group' or at least I think that's what she said, so basically they said they didn't want to talk with us. RM had to leave and so it was just me and MW and the Holy Spirit.

We talked to two different guys. One in Loeb Lounge who was a non-practicing Catholic and one in Oasis who is a Methodist pastor's son. We had the most amazing conversation with him. He was originally from Ghana and lives in Toronto. We went through the 'Satisfied' booklet that talks about how to live the Spirit-filled life and just how we are satisfied when we put God in control of our lives and just trust in Him. It was really sweet going through that booklet again. It's always good to be reminded of all that stuff. We talked with him for a long time and we prayed for him. I think he actually encouraged me more than I encouraged him. One thing he was saying is about "Why do pro atheletes practice..? I mean they are so good, why do they need to practice..? The same reason we still need to read our Bibles and pray."

You can never be too good or 'too spiritual'. Christians don't get 'too good' until we get to heaven. We still struggle with sin and temptation and stuff while here on Earth and need to rely on God and the Holy Spirit and Jesus' forgiveness.

Anyways, in both of those conversations they asked about what denomination we were in or just what background we come from. I really need to work on my testimony.

Ya. So, we were brainstorming about how we can use the internet, twitter, facebook, blogs, emails, anything to reach our friends. This blog is my main way of reaching out to people, but clearly I'm mostly reaching people in my church... xP But I don't like the idea of plugging my blog, like "Hey I have this blog!" .... XP So, I was thinking I should blog, and post my testimony to facebook and maybe even upload worship songs to youtube or something.

So, I was just wasting time on hotmail, blogger, etc. and I went to facebook and at the top of the page it said "Introducing Your New Profile: Now with more ways to show and tell your story." Tell Your Story

With these overwhelming hints. I suppose that I should really work on my testimony. Especially because I am supposed to be sharing it in DG on Monday... xP

Ya. I will post my testimony here, don't worry. You are a part of it for sure. xP

Ttyl.

D.Fa

Acquaintances --> Friends

So. Today I had class basically 10:30-5:30. The guy beside me played a megaman emmulation in MATH, PHYS was boring, and we got out of our PHYS lab early, like 4:15. I then thought to go sharing, but ended up having a long conversation with IL who I met on the first week of school in September in my PHYS class, but I kinda never talked to her until this semester. She's really cool. She's Chinese, but her parents lived in Cambodia and then they left on a boat during a war or something. She went to All-Saints and is in Chemistry. We talked until like 5:30. I was trying to end up in a spiritual conversation, but never really got there. In anycase, its not really very nice in my opinion to just ... I don't know what I'm saying. In any case I will have more conversations with her and we'll see where relational evangelism gets me and those around me. After she left I ended up trying to start talking to some people but got distracted by some other people I knew. I caught up with YA who is not really in my classes this semester..? After that I approached two people and discovered that 'Earth Science' is mainly determining the hardness of rocks... xP I bussed with RL to TM's, I mean PETAG, for YA and then we had YA.

Ya... I was gonna do stuff when I got home, but YA seems to go really late this semester. xP

I seem to be making friends out of my acquaintances from last semester. I've been talking more with KG and ALY and just ya, talking to people I see around. I still havn't physically been in CHEM class since last last Friday however.... xP

Ttyl I guess.

D.Fa

Semi-Fail

So, I kinda semi-failed today.

As I set out to do, I went sharing. I talked to one person within the first 20 minutes. She was a non-practicing Catholic who knew the gospel. I really didn't say anything super substantial and I only thought of a few better things to say once I had left... But it was cool. There are a lot of people on campus who are more than willing to have a conversation. And yet, I haven't talked to them...

After talking to her, I did not talk with anyone else. Literally. She was the first person I approached. This gives me a 100% sharing score for the day, but when you look at where that number comes from it is a 1/1 not a 20/20... I ended up walking around for a while. Then I went to Oasis to try and get someone to go with me and ended up in a prayer meeting. Then I walked around again. I had dinner. I walked around some more...

I realized I have almost only approached white students. I do kinda feel scared of approaching someone who is Muslim... I then figured I should ask VS if I could go sharing with her. She has spent at least a couple summers on project in North Africa talking with students about Jesus and the gospel, so I'm sure she'd be fine with it.

Ya. Around 5ish I gave up. I put a stop to my walking and just sat in front of CW's locker and read "The Case For Faith" until 6:00. I then went to Oasis and continued my reading, but closer to my next class. You see, I am currently reading 5 books. One reason for this number of books is that I kinda don't have much of a desire to continue some of them. For example 'The Case For Faith' kinda got me a bit bored... In the first chapter on Suffering I kinda lost interest. Lee Strobel has this style of writing that sometimes annoys me a bit. He often uses large words and sophisticated phrasing. This is because he is a journalist... [Not necessarily true, but I dislike how he often strongly attacks the discussion on the side that makes you depressed if you haven't learned much in that area before he explains that it actually is better then that, but if you don't have time to read it, you end up kinda depressed. lol]

In any case, I finished that first chapter and got to the second. It was about how miracles contradict science. It was quite interesting. I had kinda heard some of it before. The next chapter really got my attention. It was about evolution, or at least that's what the title of the chapter said. The chapter was actually a lot about the origin of life. It kept my attention very well because I knew what they were talking about. Every time it said that it was so unreasonable to believe a scientific theory I got this huge grin on my face. I really liked the sentence "I think people who believe that life emerged naturalistically need to have a great deal more faith than people who reasonably infer that there's an Intelligent Designer."

In any case, the book I am currently hoping to finish is 'The Case For Faith'. I want to finish it and 3 other books so I can continue reading 'The Case for a Creator' by Lee Strobel. xP I hope there isn't a lot of overlap between what I just read and what I will be reading.

So, ya... I will not stop sharing. I am definitely learning some things from even my short sporadic encounters with sharing. I just feel like after I've walked through the same room 6 times that everyone is looking at me like I'm crazy........ xP

Ttyl.

D.Fa

PS. I had a word with J(?) finally! ... It was only one word though... xP I have known of her for quite some time and I have recognized her since around the start of the year maybe, but I had until today never said a word to her. I have a lot of this type of relationship where I have creeped enough information that I know who someone is and yet I have never talked to them...

PPS. Showers that have been recently cleaned are very slippery when wet and soapy.

5 or 150..?

Hey, whatsup..?

I seem to be making friends everyday. xP Today I talked with MJ(TG's friend. TG was my BIOL Lab partner last semester and I only really started hanging out with her last week. xP) for a while before BIOL. Also, since DK is in existance this semester, we've been hanging out more. We have BIOL and CHEM together so we hang out in those classes as well as DG and other stuff. We went to the Integrated Sciences room and apparently there is free printing there (not free paper, but free ink... for integrated science students) so he printed off like lecture slides and his bio lab manual. The computer he was using however did not like firefox and would not work until he used internet explorer. xP Wasted like 15 minutes because of that.

In any case... My day has barely begun. I just watched 90 minutes of CHEM lectures / tutorials. I am now only 2 hours behind... >.> well... I can't really go to class until I catch up. So I watched Friday's class during todays. I still have FILM at 7.

I have a lot of time. Time to go evangelising, well, sharing. Sharing =/= evangelising. Sharing is much more personal. Much more friendly and less focused on shoving the gospel down someone's throat. People are not just numbers to be moved from the 'non-christian' column to the 'Christian' column and then ignored. People are shared with because they don't know about God and His love for them and how He has paid the price so that you can come into a relationship with Him even with your shortcomings and past failures. God loves you, but just telling that to everyone in 5 seconds or less each and then never seeing you again would not mean anything. You don't just ask Jesus into your life then go back to the way you were living. It is a constant day by day process of relying on God and growing in your relationship.

I set this inane goal of talking to 10 people. I then thought... 10 is so little. that is not even a good goal. then I thought... what if I end up in like 5 conversations that last like an hour each. That would be waaaaay better than talking to 150 people in 5 hours. So, whatever happens it will be for Him.

I have this thought that I will just walk up to EVERYONE smiling and happy go lucky completely hiding what I am feeling during the intro then we can actually talk. Who cares if I look insane for a few moments. xP

Ya.

There's nothing to lose.

Ikou!

D.Fa

Another Shot at 'Evangelerving'...

So.

I am kinda in a crummy mood again. When you spend 3 hours walking around, looking at people, talking to people you do know only as a distraction and you even have them all praying for you and then you say hi to one guy who is willing to talk if his group members don't show up and then one of them does, when you are trying so hard to find excuses for why you aren't sharing that you even spend 5$ on vitamin enhanced fruit juice... You feel kinda crummy...

I have to put an end to this.
I've got to just do it.
I've got to get over this stupid inability to meet people in unawkward ways.
I've got to live the rest of my life more intentionally.

Scratch that.

I've just got to rely on Him more and more and just forget about what I have to do.

Tommorow will be better. I have 5 hours between class. With God's help I want to talk to at least 10 people. In 5 hours this should not be a very difficult goal.

Ya...

I hate when I do this.

D.Fa

Mood Swings

Ok.

I feel pretty crummy right now.

I didn't really talk to my bio lab partner.
I didn't end up sharing today for various reasons*.
I wasted so much time.
I didn't write much of a testimony.
I don't really know my friends.
I have deffinately been relying on my own strength all day...
I havn't really prayed today.

...

I just don't feel good.

As a side note Paramore is my band of the day... xP







Ya.

I need to remember all the stuff that God has revealed to me. That He is good. That He loves me. That He saved me. That if I was on my own I would fail, like I do, but with Him we can do anything.

I wish I had an amazing testimony, but I don't really remember things very long. xP I don't remember who I was. I only remember who I am, in Christ, and who I will be when I am transformed even more into the image of Christ.

Also, Starfield is pretty good. xP



xPP...... Getaway!

D.Fa

*'reasons' which should be able to be overcome.

"You Can't Spell OCBC without CBC!" Ha!

So.

I feel like I don't have anything to tell you. Well, actually I feel like there is one thing I MUST tell you that I actually feel I may have already told you about..?

The reason I feel this way is because I am so excited about the thing I want to tell you. I also have come to the conclusion that telling people about the things you are excited about is a way of making it even more exciting. The thing is, I end up telling either people in real life or 'you'. After I tell 'you' I don't feel such a dire feeling to tell someone.

I actually have two things I want to tell you. The second is that I finally get to go to 'Getaway'! Getaway is an annual retreat for the Youth in the OCYM Churches. OCYM, pronounced the same way I would pronounce 'o-kim', is the Ottawa Chinese Youth Ministerium..? and includes OCAC, OCBC, CCCO and EACO. The o's are all 'ottawa', the a's are all 'alliance', there is one c in each which is 'church', the b is for Bible, and the other c's are 'Chinese'.

Anyways, Getaway is annual and during March break. I think a bus of youth go to a camp somewhere and that it is a pile of fun. I really wanted to go last year, but it was postponed until some time in April and we had a musical rehearsal so I could not (even though our stage manager went... >.> She is a slimy green monster because she ditched us. jk.... I miss her... T.T). So, ya. This will be my first time and actually, I am questioning whether I am really supposed to be there considering I have graduated from High School.... but ya... xP whatever. So I will be involved in the worship at getaway meaning I will have 5 practices, a massive pile of emails and I will be busy during March Break, especially because I will still have class.... xP

I have thought of a few more things to tell you. This is how my apparently short posts (in my head) turn into a multi-page essay.

I love JK's guitar. Yesterday he and KP were practicing for Junior Worship so I had to use ET's guitar......... I very much dislike it in comparison. That is why it has been behind the couch for the last semester. I actually hugged JK's guitar when I saw it today. xP

Also, I would be very willing to trade bass guitar's with the church. I love the church's bass. However, I would bring the church's bass to church whenever I play bass at church so I don't exactly see how it works because I really only play bass at church... xP

I am a week behind in CHEM, half a week behind in BIOL and just bored in PHYS and MATH... xP FILM really doen't matter to me. xP

I have apparently reffered to AL's blog and had it sound as if you knew what I was talking about. Well... you should. AL writes a darn good blog. It is often very humourous, while being short and too the point. Although often neglected for real life issues such as plays or trips, the few posts are all of a high caliber. I don't really know what to say.... so...
Go Here---> AL's Blog!

Anyways, the main thing I am dying to tell you is that MB talked to me at a random bus stop about helping out with worship at C4C weekly meetings. I am super excited about helping out. Then there is the whole 'I get to lead worship at C4C meetings' thing that kinda makes me cringe... xP I'd rather play supportive roles, but MB apparently leads worship 3 times in a week sometimes and because of overlapping of the population ven diagram for these three events, she has to prepare three set lists. xP.... So it would be so awesome to let her take a break. And then it hits me, what if I have to lead twice in one week..?!? xP

I have just submit my Project Application. East Asia as my first choice and Desert Rain (North Africa) as my second choice. I don't really want to go to North Africa, but I feel like if I did end up going somewhere other than East Asia, that North Africa is where I would learn the most / grow the most from the experience.

Ya. I will cut off the post now and eat a salad while watching One Piece, then I shall do my bio prelab, play guitar for a maximum of 30 minutes once it gets home, hopefully do my chem post-lab and maybe do a CHEM lecture. xPPP. Let's see where that goes. Also, I should finish my daily Bible readings for today. I did 4/5 chapters for today yesterday when the pastors ditched my 'sleeping' to go eat breakfast... xP

So, ya. just Proverbs 3 left.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

YF FTW! / Loving Family

So, ya.

EFCC Conference here in Scarbourough has been cool. I honestly was probably not paying enough attention to the first two talks, but when I saw stats I was like completely paying attention. XP Maybe I should be a statistitian..? XP Maybe. XP

So, ya. After the stats talk and brief discussion we went out for Chinese food. I had Peking duck for the first time. It was good.

We then went for YF at the church we were staying at, HCEFC..? Hallelujah. XP I havn't actually been to YF in almost a year. We were in different groups. My group was doing a book study and it was cool. It was about prayer and everyone was at least talking most of the time. One girl not as much, but they were almost always laughing.

Hallelujah just gives off this great feeling. Everyone is just shiny for lack of a better word. One thing that is just so cool about the church (the people not the building), no matter where you go you have a large loving family.

Ya. Today, if only for YF, was amazing.

D.Fa

Opened My Eyes. Just In Time.

Hey.

Have I mentioned that I am in Toronto today and tommorow..? Well. I am.

Me, AL, AN, and DB woke up early and drove all the way.

One thing that has been an encouragement to me so far happened this morning. You see, I don't really know too much about what this weekend is about or what we will be doing, I didn't even know when or how we were getting here until last night. So, I was kinda wondering if I really should be here. When I woke up I looked at my clock. It said 7:02. I had 23 minutes to get ready. Including packing, shower, breakfast etc. I managed to get ready.

I was fully ready on time. Did I mention that there was no alarm..? God woke me up with enough time. He woke me up with the maximal amount of sleep so I could go fully prepared.

So, ya that was encouraging. I could have slept another hour by accident and missed the whole thing. I could have, but I randomly woke up just in time.

Ya.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

Relational Evangelism

So, whatsup..?

I just went sharing with RM. He seems to be 100% toward relational evangelism and sharing with people you already know. He is in business and just happens to know 90 percent of the asians we see... XP That is slightly exagerated, but it gets the idea across.

In any case, today we went out sharing the real life kits and ended up giving out 3. We had a few small talks with some people who weren't really interested and gave them to people who were interested, but too busy.

So, although we never really got into a spiritual conversation, we went around and talked to a number of people.

I really do want to make more friends than I currently have. This is just how I am. When I first came to Carleton.... No... Actually, I still do... I look around expecting to see people I know. I really like having a lot of friends.

I can definately have a conversation with JC or V(?) if I wanted to. I had class with them while I was blogging earlier, so she was interested.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

You Are The Only Exception~

So, just because I was procrastinating and stuff I finally got around to searching for the song that JB and EM sang at the Christmas assembly at MHS. They were so good. I think they were actually better than the original. xP I miss EM.... xPPP

So, ya. Here is the original "The Only Exception" by Paramore.




You know. This is a common thing in our society; 'love' that isn't real, 'love' that fades away, 'love' that is so based on appearances that it doesn't last, 'love' that isn't worth all the heartbreak and trouble, 'love' that is so superficial, 'love' that ends up making you lose trust in anyone, 'love'.

There is only one real love, one exception to what we see in the world. A love that is unchanging, unconditional, eternal, infinite, personal, unfailing, worth more than anything, the only important thing, the thing we all crave, the thing we all search for, the thing we all need, and the sad thing is that it is freely offered, but everyone looks over it or rejects it before actually seeing how great it is. True Love.

1 John 4:7-19 Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God; and everyone who loves is born of God and knows God. The one who does not love does not know God, for God is love. By this the love of God was manifested in us, that God has sent His only begotten Son into the world so that we might live through Him. In this is love, not that we loved God, but that He loved us and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins. Beloved, if God so loved us, we ought to love one another. No one has beheld God at any time; if we love on another, God abides in us, and His love is perfected in us. By this we know that we abide in Him and He in us, because He has given us of His Spirit. And we have beheld and bear witness that the Father has sent the Son to be the saviour of the world. Whoever confesses that Jesus is the Son of God, God abides in him, and he in God. And we have come to know and have believed the love which God has for us. God is love, and the one who abides in love abides in God, and God abides in him. By this, love is perfected with us, that we may have confidence in the day of judgement; because as He is, so also are we in the world. We love because He first loved us.

The 'love' we search for without God, isn't really love. For without God, who is love, we don't really have love. We only have a fake 'love' which many believe is love until it falls apart at which time they give up on love.

God's love is so great for us that He would even die on a cross for us. He would come down from heaven and walk with us. A love so unimaginably large that we can't even get our heads half way around it.

Love.

God.

It Is Irksome.

I'm kinda upset right now.

I got my essay back today.

You know there's a problem when the course that 3rd years are taking to raise their average is significantly bringing down my average. This is like last year when Steel was bringing down my mark. Like what the heck.

But in any case. If I actually think about it, I'm pretty sure (because of the whole letter grade thing) that my average is not really affected and that my entrance scholarship is by no means in question of being renewed, so in actuality I have nothing to complain about and I will have no problem if I actually fail FILM, but it is irksome.

...

This morning I awoke at 5:30. This was to go to the prayer meeting thing in Russell at 7. It was pretty cool. One guy challenged us though. He challenged us to fast once a week and just humble ourselves before the Lord by voluntarily weakening ourselves. He also chalenged us to wake up half an hour earlier and just spend 30 minutes with God in quiet time just getting filled up and pumped so that we have something to bring to the meeting.

...

Then I had Bio.

...

After that I went to Oasis, had some lunch and went sharing with AG. We talked to two people. One guy had the idea that creligion is a beautiful thing, but the people had hurt him which is why he was turned off from going to church. He was a really cool guy and he's in AH's program and year, so they'll get to talk some more. The other guy was hindu-raised and grew up in Malaysia where there is freedom of religion. He has many different friends and has been exposed to some extent with various religions. A lot of what he believed is in line with what I believe, but some of it is just so... empty..? I mean not knowing if you have a relationship with God until you die..? only to find out that you weren't and so you get reincarnated to try again..?

I then found out that VW was too sick to meet up and get her planner today. We had a brief text conversation and now I am praying for her situation. It's kinda difficult, but God must have a plan for her.

I want a heart for doing what is good, a heart for doing what I should, a heart that loves people for who they are and not appearances, a heart for the lost, a heart that is never hypocritical, that just loves the Lord with all of it.

Here's a song:



Ttyl.

D.Fa

Devotional Planner

Hey! Whatsup?

You know, I think that there is a feeling for when you are learning and today I learned a few things. I shall have to recap most of my day however to make my point.

So, at the beginning of my day I slept in a bit... I did not have enough time to get to school and go sharing (as far as I thought anyways) so I decided I should just go off to Loeb and work on my CHEM prelab which was due at 4:30. I also watched the demo video for the lab and finally knew what the lab manual meant.

Ya, so I went to Loeb and was going to go downstairs when I saw this 2010 devotional Day Planner. I sat down and went to see who it belonged to. I emailed her. She may not even need it, but it looks cool to me. It probably had some sentimental value..? In any case I took it so that it wouldn't be lost or anything.

First was a MATH tutorial. Since we have only had one lecture at this point, all we did was go over row echelon form and reduced row echelon forms... It's pretty easy. I did however learn that you don't need to have discrete numbers in a matrix, you can also have fractions.

After this we went to MATH class and did pretty much the same thing. She kinda yelled at us because we were on our laptops not paying attention and she told us how important it really is. It's like not learning the alphabet. How can you expect to read and write without the alphabet..?

After that was another fun filled PHYS lecture with Dr. Donkers. (That's his name.) He is quite boring and will often stop talking mid sentence to look at us blankly for a few seconds...... I learned F=qE.

After that was my CHEM lab. Today we were making Salicylic acid, a precursor of aspirin (acetyl salicylic acid). It was a boring lab... First we got our new lab partners. Mine looks okay. Then we found out that there weren't enough round-bottom flasks, so we had to split into groups of 3. In general, the lab was like boiling, filtering and disolving a solution like 3 times.... Ya. It ended early anyways, so that was cool.

I hadn't gone sharing yet (as I had planned to that morning, this morning... xP so long ago...), so me and DK who has the CHEM lab at the same time went. We talked to one girl starting at like 5:45. She seemed to have a relativistic view of things, but agreed in heaven and God. It was a good conversation and it only took maybe 10 minutes. By the way, she had earbuds in when we went over to her. xP All three of us had class at 6, so it was cool. I gave her a Knowing God Personally booklet which summarizes what we were talking about and I wrote my email on the back in case she had any questions. I don't think DK has really gone sharing on campus too much, but he was doing well for just talking off the top of his head.

That was not evangelerving. That was a real spiritual conversation.

So, ya. I learned that it doesn't take an hour to have a good conversation.

Ya. I then had FILM class and I got to talk to JW for a few minutes before class. I havn't seen her in a couple months. This was partially because I've been sitting with P(?) since the C4C res pizza outreach night and because she has been watching the movies before class so she can leave earlier. Today we watched "Wild Strawberries" I thought it was really good. Our prof was saying that there are some cases in which the only medium that a film could take place in with the same effect is Film and in the movie there were times where a book could not have done it, a buch of pictures could not have done it, theatre could not have done it, but a video was perfect.

It ended early, I got home at 9:15ish after seeing MB at the bus stop, I cooked the ground beef so that it won't rot when I'm gone Friday and Saturday, and then my phone started ringing. I was in the middle of making a salad when it started ringing. I picked it up. It was VW, the owner of the devotional planner. She seemed very relieved to know that I had it. She seemed mildly surprised that I was also Christian. She thought it was random. So, tommorow around 1 I will be going back to where I found it and returning it.

You know... I always try to plan things out. The more I plan the worse things end up. God's plan is better than our plans. If I hadn't slept in I wouldn't have gone sharing with DK, I wouldn't have found the planner, I wouldn't have known what to do in the lab...

Ya. xP

Ttyl.

D.Fa

PS. The jokes on the Steacie Building chalkboards are the best. xP LOL. Sn-apple! xPPP Heisenburg's wife can't find her keys. Explaination..? "You probably know too much about their momentum." LOL. Ferrous Wheel! xP They are just so good. xP

The Word is Spelt "E-v-a-n-g-e-l-i-z-e"...

Hey, so. Today was a fail.

I skipped CHEM. I watched 'Inception'. I bought vegetables. I bought more vegetables. I went to DG. I ate a GIANT salad. I drank over a litre of chocolate milk. I did one chapter of MATH homework. I went by bike to buy 8 litres of milk. That doesn't include the fail.

So, today before DG I attempted to go sharing.

I wasted half an hour. Then I finally went up to one guy. He was asian. He was reading notes. He is in Engineering Physics and he is atheist. He says that he likes to have some faith in the work of scientists in the past.

I had no idea what I should say, so I kinda left without really saying very much... He seemed confused... xP...... That is what I will call 'Evangelerving'. lol...

So, in Sunday school we were reviewing the first 3 weeks of the 6 week course we are doing because we were 2 weeks ahead of the other classes... Anyways, we were talking about taking every opportunity given to you and we were talking about the Winter Conference message from Allen Self about using every tool you have and we couldn't really remember the third point of his talk. The first two were "Observe" and "Serve". So LT suggested that the third one should be more memorable and that this should be done by making it rhyme with the other two. He suggested the 'word' "Evangelerve". Our whole class was laughing hysterically. It doesn't really sound like a very pleasant word...


Ya... I hope to continue evangelising everyday. Tuesdays will be hard though............. 10-9.... ya. I'll have to wake up early.

Also, in DG we were discussing Luke 12 about how the Pharisees were hypocrites. The main point we got was that you can't be forgiven if you refuse to accept the only way that you can be forgiven. RM and MW were kinda co-leading and I definately see them in a new light now. I always thought MW was perfect.

In any case...... I will talk to you later.

D.Fa

I Think My Soul is... Singing..?

So, whatsup..? I'm pretty tired.

I have a few things I have been thinking about and a few things I have that I think are blog worthy.

So, ya. I honestly think that today's worship was Spirit led. You see, yesterday at the practice I apparently chose songs that have weird rhythm patterns or that the other two didn't actually know and so, we pretty much failed playing most of them on the first try. It was always like "ok.... I think we'll come back to that." after we had tried so hard to figure out what we could do to make it work. When we came back to them, without even talking about it they just worked. I felt like it was the Holy Spirit who had fixed it. This morning C(?) even said she felt God's presence after the first 4 songs.

Apparently, because I am not very good at playing guitar yet, my singing style has turned into long, pause-y, fermata'd, and 'spirit led' *waves arms in a distracting 'dancing' manner to imply 'spirit led'*. This was one reason for a bunch of the problems. The inside joke there came from when CW asked why we couldn't play 'Sing to the Lord' properly and AL replied 'It's Hillsong. It's Spirit led." in a semi-mocking tone with accompanying 'dance'.

Ya. So, I have invited BJ to church and I've invited her to YA. I really hope she comes. xP

So, ya. I was still singing 'Sing to the Lord' all day. After service I was singing it for like 3 hours non-stop. I was actually starting to annoy myself, but it just kept playing on repeat. I wasn't actually that annoyed. I was actually really happy. After an hour of thinking random things I finally diagnosed myself. My diagnosis..? My soul was singing. Honestly I would almost describe these last couple days as the best days of my life. and then I thought... why..? I haven't done anything special. and I thought about Holly Sheldon's message from Winter Conference about how you don't find rest in escaping from your troubles, but you find rest right in the middle of them. I had done a bunch of work this weekend and had done more Bible reading / praying / singing praises than I have in a while. Even at work I was really happy and just singing (although more internally or more quietly). Even at work.

Another thing I have been thinking about is my reasoning behind wanting to go on East Asia project this summer. Do I really want to go wholly because of the word 'Asia' in the description..? or am I going to do God's work..? This came up because yesterday my housemate JK was talking to me about his brother who is off at Bible school and he wants to quit cuz classes are hard. Apparently in the first year or two he went on trips all over the place, but they would be ziplining and doing a bunch of fun stuff. So he was questioning his motives. I said as a defense to me wanting to go to Asia that maybe God has made me with a desire to go to Asia for a reason. I didn't say this 100% seriously. It is a legitamite answer, but at the same time, I actually don't think I ever heard God tell me "Go on project". So I was thinking that I would go on project somewhere else to prove that I am in it, not just for Asia, but also for God's work, but then I started thinking that I would feel less comfortable in places like Northern Africa compared to East Asia... I mean, it would be a great oppourtunity, but I would really rather be in Asia... but is that just me trying to be in a comfortable position..? And thus I am in my negative cyclic thought processes that I frequently get into. I think I've decided that my second choice for project destination will be Northern Africa. This is in part to get over my racism. I don't support my racism, but I am willing to admit that it exists. So, ya I'm gonna pray about that stuff.

There is also another ridiculous quote that I hope to use tommorow and hopefully before AL blogs about it. xP It's so funny.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

PS. Hans. lol.

The Peace of God

Hey.

So you know how I was away at Winter Conference last week..? Well, ya. I was. xP

You know how it was so amazing?? Well, ya. It was. xP

My point is shrouded somewhere within these last two sentences. My point was that Winter Conference was soooo great. 24/7 no worries. I got to sleep. I got to eat asian food. I got to sing. I got to hang out with my friends. I got to play volleyball. I got to dance. I got to go to an amazing new years eve party. It was just so cool, not to mention how God affected me during that week. There was absolutely no stress that whole week.

I have recently come back to the reality of school and work. I don't mean to complain about all this stuff, but ya... It just hit me like a pile of bricks. I had to suddenly buy books, buy school supplies, figure out having two part-time jobs, having 30 hours of school a week, having YA, DG, C4C, church, worship practices. I also had to lead worship this week, I have to buy food, I had to start doing pre-labs, preclass quizzes, assignments.... I was applying to go on project. I just had a lot flying around on my schedule... I was starting to really stress about it.

I was planning on going to this EFCC conference this Friday and Saturday. When I went to check my schedule for next week I discovered that I had two shifts. Saturday and Sunday 6:30-2....... There was literally no one left to take my shift...... Now I was starting to really stress................. I really hate talking to my boss...

That night I went to YA. Actually... I ran from work to home to YA. I was really stressing........

When CW showed up to YA he asked how I was and I told him. This is an advantage to actually answering questions. CW told me to pray about it. I realized I actually hadn't.

That night at various times my schedule was prayed for two or three times.

The next morning, after finding KC in Loeb Cafe (xP), I called my boss. Honestly, my boss is a God send. He always fixes my schedule if I ever ask him. He is willing to change the whole week's schedule so that everyone gets the time off that they want. So I called and he said he'd deal with it.

With that off of my schedule I could focus on all the other junk.

I ended up spending a lot of time just playing guitar and singing.

Before I realized it it was Saturday. What I didn't realize was that I hadn't been stressed since Thursday night at the beginning of YA. After praying about it I was no longer stressed, my schedule got worked out and I got a lot of work done.

Ya. Everything works out if you pray about it. xP

I need to pray about going to Asia. I talked to my parents breifly and they need more information than I already have... xP I discovered in that conversation that I knew very little about what I actually will be doing. xP

Ttyl.

D.Fa

PS. The Phillipines!! w00t!

Songs That Get Stuck In Your Head

Hey, so.

Yesterday I had this song stuck in my head all day. It may have started out as my fault because I kinda had to memorize how to sing it because I'm leading worship this weekend and it is a 'new' song. It's not really new, but it's new to the congregation. Ie, it was not on the website. I think I heard it at WC. AL will definitely not have a problem with it, but ya. I'm leading so I have to sing melody and if I forget it... xP

So, ya. It was stuck in my head all day yesterday and today....

I'm singing it as the call to worship. Sing to the Lord by Hillsong:



Also, while I was looking around the OCBC Worship team website for possible song choices I found this song and did not recognize it, so I youtubed it and although it doesn't really fit with this weekend's theme, it is a cool song. xP Holy is Our God by Starfield:



Also, I just followed a link to this. It is so good. I think we heard it at Summit..? I may be wrong. In any case we definitely sang it in Weekly Meeting once..? Reign in Us by Starfield:



And this popped into my head earlier. Here With Me by MercyMe:



xP..... Life is better when I think about good things. xP We are told to give our whole lives to the Lord. To submit even our thoughts over to him. When I am thinking about good things, life is easier. xP When I am singing songs in my head I am happy. xP I may end up not paying very much attention to what is happening around me though. xP Philippians 4:8 "Finally brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable--if anything is praiseworthy or excellent--think about such things." What is praiseworthy besides the Lord and what he does in our lives..? What he does in the lives of others! and what he has already done! and what he will do! and what we can expect in the future!

xP I am in a good mood right now. XP

This morning I woke up at 9. I read a few chapters of the Bible. I ate pumpernickel with grape jam. I watch naruto filler..... xP I am reading my physics textbook... xP It's been snowing for hours, white fluffy white cold pure snow.

I'll tell you later about how stressed I was on Thursday. xP and about how God gives peace and can do whatever you ask of Him.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

New Year's Resolutions

Hey, So, I have recently been thinking about new year's resolutions.

New Year's resolutions generally end up being self-imposed restrictions that will 'make you a better person' or some goal which you hope to achieve but end up forgetting or some other trivial matter, maybe a joke..? I don't know, but the point is: New Year's Resolutions often fail and epically at that.

I had blogged 3 resolutions. They all related to me having better relationships with the people around me. I have now failed basically all of them. The third one is a semi-fail. It isn't as consistent as I had wanted it to be, but it's back on schedule now..?

In any case the point I was going to make is a point that was made in a seminar during winter conference. "Colossians 2:20-23 Since you died with Christ to the basic principles of this world, why, as though you still belonged to it, do you submit to its rules: "Do not handle! Do not taste! Do not touch!"? These are all destined to perish with use, because they are based on human commands and teachings. Such regulations indeed have an appearance of wisdom, with their self-imposed worship, their false humility and their harsh treatment of the body, but they lack any value in restraining sensual indulgence." These rules that we have made for ourselves are bound to fall apart. Especially because often we will try by our own strength to live up to them. They often have nothing to do with what God wants for us, but just what we want for ourselves (read: selfish). God has a plan for us. Whether we follow it or not is our choice. It is the main choice between following God and going your own way. Basically that is the big problem; sin is doing things your own way, choosing to disobey God and go your own way.

So, ya. Resolutions are good, however, when they are in line with God's plan and you are praying about them and desiring to fulfill them. Although they must not be idols. So, ya. The main good I see in this is a motivation, a goal, something that you can in a much shorter term view fulfill and accomplish. Why should real goals only be made at the beginning of things..? At the beginning of the year, at the beginning of a semester, at the beginning of a new job, etc. You should make real goals throughout your life. xP

I have not made many goals, but when I have a goal I will pursue it to the end.

On Wednesday I failed at going sharing. I procrastinated by msning, starting my project application, trying to do some other things... In any case I finally went at 5:15 to go sharing. First, I ran into DS and MB and we had a very odd conversation. xP When they left, I went around the school looking for the standard 'random evangelism targets.' Those bored looking, lonely people sitting with nothing to do. I failed to find anyone to such a degree as that. You see, I didn't have that terrible feeling of fear that paralyzes and cripples me from approaching anyone, but I now had such high standards that I couldn't even approach anyone because they did not fulfill my new 'litmus test' for sharing.

You see... The way I saw it was that if anyone was:
-reading a book
-listening to their ipod or w/e with earbuds
-looking at their laptop
-sitting with other people
-not white or asian

I would pass them by much more easily. Ya. I know. That is a terrible list of 'excuses' that are so shallow and meaningless that they really should not be a problem. If they are reading, it is probably not that important (I mean I'm never in the library, so it mustn't really matter.). If they have earbuds in, it's probably some mundane music on an ipod. If they are on their laptop, it could be facebook, blogs, it could be a number of unproductive things. If they are sitting with other people, that means that if I share with them it is like sharing twice, but only actually once. The last one is a terrible excuse, but slightly true... I apologize that it is on that list, but I feel like I can relate more with those people, but it is no excuse. Everyone needs to know Jesus. The only way to know if they are too busy to have a conversation is if I ask them.

I have honestly walked around for two hours only having approached 2 people because 1. I felt so scared and 2. because they weren't free enough to talk to me, in my mind. On top of the fact that I wasted 2 hours the people would be too busy to talk, so I actually wouldn't have accomplished anything in those two hours. Now, of those two main excuses number 1 has been broken by Winter Conference and number 2 is just all me, I didn't actually know if they were busy or not.

So. The point of me telling you all this is that I am looking to go sharing practically daily rather than weekly and these are some barriers that I have put up that should not even exist. ,', I shall tear them down. That was a 'therefore' sign by the way. With the help of God, I will tear them down.

So. From now on I shall approach those people that I 'feel' are too busy to share with.

Monday: I shall approach those who are reading a book. Clearly what they are reading is less important than if they were reading the Bible.

Tuesday: I shall approach those with earbuds / headphones. Mark 4:9 "He who has ears to hear, let him hear" Instead of listening to music that probably doesn't have a good message, they should hear the truth.

Wednesday: I shall approach people in a group of two. What good is it to spread the message to only one person..? You will never fulfill the great commission that way. All need to learn the truth that there is a loving God. Paul preached to thousands and thousands came to Christ. You can't get thousands to come to Christ if you only preach to one person at a time.

Thursday: I will approach people on their lap tops / notebooks. Laptops and Notebooks can be used not only as a study tool, but also as a tool for procrastinating and leisure and wasting time. Entropy says that there are far more ways to waste time than to be productive. By this logic it is likely that people on a laptop are wasting their time. Possibly playing flash games or facebook or whatever. Only your relationship with God matters in the end.

Friday: I will approach all types of people. Matthew 28:19 "... go and make disciples of all nations..." We have been told to go and bring the gospel to all ends of the earth, to all people.

In all cases I must rely on the Spirit though. It will never be my words that convince someone that God exists, but it will be God himself working in their hearts that will bring them back to Him and His loving arms.

Ya... xP Super long post. Deal with it. xP

D.Fa

Forgiveness.

Hey, so, ya...

I've meant to post this for a few days now. I mean, I didn't want to cell phone blog this post.

This is something I kinda need to deal with.

You see, forgiving someone can be very hard. Grudges form when you don't forgive someone. I kinda have a couple grudges and they are getting in the way of life. xP

You see, I have this grudge against KL who works in deli / bakery. I have blogged about him before. I don't know why exactly, but I hate his guts. He has never done anything against me directly before so I don't see why I should hate him. I have also never done anything for him. We rarely talk to each other and when we do it is very breif and work related.

Secondly, I kinda have a grude against JR, one of my housemates. The way he does things bugs me, his laugh bugs me, his constant singing bugs me, his face bugs me, his obsession with protein shakes and working out bugs me, all the unrinsed frying pans bug me, the unwashed blender bugs me, the bowls containing dried raspberry bug me. This all adds up to me disliking him to the point of avoidance, not talking to him and kinda ya... making things in our house troublesome.

Ya.... I know it's not all his fault. I know it's partially because I havn't told him that it bugs me. But, I definately need to forgive him and get over this.

There was this video that we saw during the NEST presentation during main session at Winter Conference. I was tearing up at the end. I even knew how it would end way before it did, but I was still almost crying..... xP



If people can forgive murder and rape and other things that are way worse than not washing a frying pan, why can't I forgive them..?

Oh Heavenly Father, Lord, how great you are. How amazing your love and forgiveness. You say that if we just confess our sins to You, that You will both forgive us and cleanse us of all our unrighteousness. Lord, I thank you so much for your death on the cross, how you paid the price for our sins and reconciled us to you, once and for all. Lord, I'm sorry for these grudges I have held against my housemate and my coworker. Lord, this is not how you have called us to act. You have called us to be loving and forgiving and to be a light to the world. I pray that you would clean my heart, destroy all unforgiving thoughts and help me to be a better person around them, showing your love through my actions. Lord, I thank you for all you have done for me and pray that I could at least try to do the same for others, or bring others to know how much you have done for them. In your name I pray, Amen.

With God we can do anything. With Him we can overcome evil. Romans 12:21 "Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good." I hope that I can overcome these situations with the ultimate good, God and His Holy Spirit within me.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

PS- there are like 2 other posts I want to do from my laptop... xP

"Real Life Kite"

So, I was looking at some of my recent blog stats. A few stats have been deemed worthy by me to be blogged about.

The first of such stats is a pattern I have been seeing in my stats. It has been seen that my blog viewers tend to sleep. This is my assumption by the fact that between midnight and 6 am or so there are always considerably less views than during other times of day with a peak viewing time around 10pm.

The second stat I observed is that someone found my blog by searching for "real life kite". This clearly was because of the 'real life kit' that I have talked about leaving in a best western. I searched in google for 'real life kite' and found that I was the seventh link. First was a link for .//hack for the character 'Kite'. The second was a wikipedia page for 'Kit Hoover'. The 3rd and 5th were a blog post about how someone's cat was behaving as a 'real-life kit kat clock'. (I am either really amused or scared of those clocks, fyi.) The 6th was an answers.com answer to "examples of a real life kite" kite refering to the math term, but I still think it is a dumb question. xP I felt like I wanted to be #1 on the search, so I am now making this post. xP

Anyways, the third stat I noticed was that someone looked at my blog useing a google translated version of the page, but I don't know what language it was translated to...

Finally, I really like how varying the countries that have viewed my blog this last week are. The top 10 are: Canada, US, Slovenia, Germany, France, UK, Denmark, Mongolia, Netherlands and Russia.

Ya. I intend to go sharing soon.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

Dislike.

I really don't like having to choose between two things I want to do....

Should I hang out with RL who made dinner (even if it was a little simpler than normal) and whom I havn't really seen in a while and whom I really should hang out more with...?

Or should I hang out with CW whom I see way more, but still never really hang out too much with..?

.... I really think I should go home and sleep and get better and all that stuff too......

Grrr..... If only I could be in two places at once...

D.Fa

Dead Tired Part 2

... tired and hungry and I was also sick........... I also was going to have class until 9.... Uhgggg.....

I am going to be dead by the end of the day........ I'm so tired that when I went to Haven bookstore for my algebra text I was so stressed to get back for class. When I got to class the prof was already teaching some thermodynamic junk. It was a bit odd, but I could believe this was my class. It got more questionable with all these weird unexplained complicated examples that everyone (none of who I recognized) understood, but it was so basic.... So maybe..?

No. It was some second year engineering math class... I learned nothing and sat there for half an hour.... XP

Ya... Lame... Whatever. XP... Then I almost fell asleep in class a few times... Our new physics prof is way more legit, but soooo boring. XP

I'm now in Oasis because I saw CW before going all the way to Loeb Cafe. XP......

Whatever. XP I had pb&j. I'll be fine for now and spaghetti later. XP

Ttyl.

D.Fa

PS. Mongolia! w00t!

Dead Tired Part 1

Ok.... So...

Crazy things happen sometimes when scheduling is tight.... You see, I had yet to move back to the boy house and I had class 11:30-9 today and my dad goes to sleep around 8ish. I needed to move home eventually.

There was only one solution: I had to move in the morning.

So... I woke up at 5:30 and packed the car. My mom drove me to my house and I unloaded everything quickly because my brother had band at 7 and gets a drive from my dad when he goes to work. By 6:25 I had everything back in the boy house as well as all the stuff I got for Christmas. I had just put everything in the pingpong room so that I wouldn't have to go upstairs in my shoes or take them off / put them on repeatedly.

At 6:30 I began putting things in their places and making them usable to me instead of in boxes and bags or in a pile. This involved cleaning my cupboard, cleaning the kitchen, organizing video games and movies, starting the laundry, updating my food expenses, etc. I was getting really ...

Thirty-Three Dollars...

Hey!

I am currently on an old 95 heading towards Baseline from Rideau. I am most likely not moving back home tonight..... This is kinda annoying because I have to eventually. I also want to...... But I just had sushi and bubble tea with my friend VC.... So I don't really have time to move.....

You're thinking "what..? That sounds like a date!" No! Not a date... More like a 'lets grab a cup of coffee and catch up' kinda deal... Except instead of coffee, it was bubble tea.... And there was kinda a 25$ meal before it.... XP.... But it wasn't a date. She has a boyfriend. I assure you.

Anyways, ya. I have spent way too much today.... I spent 25 on sushi, 5 on bbt and 3 this morning or carrot cake from second cup while I was hanging out with MM and MB.

33$....... That's the about the average weekly expenditure for the last semester (on food).........

Whatever. I never get to see VC. I havn't really seen her since first semester of grade 12.

Ya...

My Sweet Tea free bbt. XP

Ttyl.

D.Fa

Vermin

So, today I was a 'vermin'. That is our grade 12 English teacher's affectionate phrase for 'graduates who show up to disrupt class'.

Today I got to MHS at 8 and for the first two periods I was hanging out on spare with NB and a couple of her friends in period one and later I was hanging out with MB and MM.

Have I told you how fun broken telephone pictionary is..? I was thinking about it all day.

Anyways, while hanging out in the newly painted caf AL, AP, AT, and ML arrived.

We went around the school seeing teachers and disturbing class plans. In the AP Bio class we did a very long Q & A session which took nearly the whole class.

When we finally went to AP English class we were shooed away because of Hamlet.

Either way it was a fun time seeing teachers and high school friends.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

Brainstorming Fail

So, whats up yo..?

Today was pretty awesome.; I went to church, got to see a whole whack of YA, ate leftovers, and then I hung out with friends all day! You know, when you go off to University and your friends all don't go to yours because 'Ewww. Carleton!' you kinda don't see them much. =/

Ya we started at Timmies with a brainstorming session. Well, actually it started a few days before with a brainstorming chain email which got us nowhere, but that we are all poor and want to hang out. Ya, so we went to Timmies for the fact that we would then at least be hanging out. Kinda back fired into just me, AL and RM at Timmies, but YC and TWH would join us eventually. We loitered in a number of places and caught up. We went to Zellers and played with the 'octave-pus' or so I just witfully named it. It was an octopus plush with a different squeezable tentacles that played a different note in a scale. We kinda broke the top note... xP We then went from house to house taking things we thought would be a good idea for when we got to RM's house. By house to house I mean from my house to my house meaning my parents house to the boy house and we got wiimotes, wii games, dutch blitz, the sing-a-ma-jigs, monopoly, a few movies, etc. We bussed.

At RM's we played Super Smash Brothers, Mariokart, broken telephone pictionary (which will soon be scanned onto AL's blog)(best game ever.), ate spagetti, hammered a defenseless gingerbread house into pieces, played with the sing-a-ma-jigs even discovering new modes!, and just chilled in general. I don't mean to be offensive, but that was the creepiest grace that has ever been said before a meal..... It was like a chant...

Anyways, I need to read a few chapters of Isaiah (I will do this tommrow..?).......

Ttyl.

D.Fa

Creepy Evangelism

So, ya.

My phone ran out of battery power so I had to stop talking to my friends and I was kinda forced to talk to the guy beside me.

We were going to get back to Ottawa around 4:30ish.... I didn't even tell him my name until 3:30 and it looked really awkward when I finally did... xP He was like 'Whoa. Where is this coming from.!?' or something. xP He apparently had his masters in Chemistry from Ottawa University and works in research. His parents are non-practicing Catholics and he had never really thought about God. This sounds like someone who both needs God and doesn't really have too much opposition, I think, but it was so darn awkward......... I was so close to going through the booklet with him, but I couldn't figure out how exactly... In the end I creepily put one in his coat pocket..... xPPPPPP Ya. I know that's terrible.............

I have learned a few things from this though:
-Introduce yourself as soon as you can to reduce amazing awkwardness.
-Never let a time restriction get in the way (When we got back I thought "aww. I definitely would have had enough time....")
-Sharing with friends / people currently in school is sooo much easier because we have things in common.

Also, I was sitting there going through intense agony thinking 'what do I say..?' 'Hi. My name is Dylan. What's your name..?''oh.... he's asleep...' 'He's awake. Do it.' 'what do I say..?''Just do it.''You prayed that someone would come to Christ today. This is the last person you can share with.' I was looking back and forth. He probably thought I was crazy.... I pray that P(?) would come to Christ. That he would find that booklet and not be creeped out, but rather, read it and either be curious for more answers or right there pray to accept Christ. It's in His hands now. I won't even know...

Ya......... lame. xP

Answering questions is hard work.... xP

Being a witness at home is not what I am used to. lol. "Face Psalm" My brother is funny.

Ttyl...

D.Fa

PS. I don't care... This song is good. xP

On The Greyhound

Hey.

So, I got on the second bus going to Ottawa because there were a lot of people.

I got on the bus, prayed that I would be able to share with someone on the bus. Then no one sat beside me...

I was kinda irked that the easiest person the share with (the person stuck sitting beside you for 5 hours) did not exist... So, I got out my handy dandy cell phone and sent a "Happy New Year" message to all my non-Christian contacts with the intent of having a spiritual conversation.

When we got to Scarbourough there were a few more people boarding the bus. Now there is an asian guy sitting beside me, but I have a constantly buzzing cell phone........ And he's kinda sleeping now. XP.... When we stop (which I think we should be doing at some point on a 5 hour trip) I will go talk to some people and after I will talk to him.

Also, there are a couple girls from WC on the bus a couple seats behind me. XP... They are talking a little loudly about random things.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

EA Project

Hey.

In C4C in the summer or reading week you can go on 'Projects'. These are short term missions trips all over the world.

I am interested in going this summer. I know that I should stay at home and work so that I can afford rent during the year. I know support raising is going to be scary and sometimes look hopeless. I know that I will be flying to the other side of the world if I go. I also know that God has called us to go and that there are billions of people in east Asia who aren't saved. I really want to go to Asia and I really hope that going on project will be an amazing time of growth and stretching my faith. I mean being in a place where you can't just hide in a little Christian bubble. A place where the need for the gospel is even greater. A place where there is a need to rely on God for everything.

I want to go to that place that I may learn how truly blessed I am as well as to teach others about the free gift they have the opportunity to receive.

Ttyl.

D.Fa