Unplanned Plans. ie Expectations

So, ya...

Today highschool ended. Today was our last dixie gig. We played 8 songs on a stage downtown for the International Jazz Fest in Ottawa and, ya... that was the end of highschool for me. Mr. CR said a lot of true things today. We have been in that dixie band for 4 years. It was like, the second thing I joined in the first couple weeks of highschool. First was Jr. Jazz, but that ended two years ago...

Anyways, I have been in that band for four years, we have played so many gigs I can't count... school concerts, bethel gigs, senior residences, fundraisers, meet the teacher nights, Santa Clause Parades, 24hr Musicathons, Musical Chairs, etc. We've had a few changes, mostly this last year, with who was in the band (a different bass/tuba player every year and having to replace 3 graduates) but the frontline has been the same for four years (aside from the tenor player).

It's kinda sad in a way that it's actually done... I mean, for the past two years Mr. CR kept saying that it was done and then in September throwing it back together because we already had a couple gigs... >.> but I suppose you can't go to Queens and drag RM back... It's not quite as easy anymore...

I wish we had played a better last song... I definately murdered the solo and missed half the notes... but it was cool that we played Hello, Dolly! though. Nostalgia.... We could have lived without St. James Infirmary though. I hate that song... >.>

So... ya... after that I had to go to work... I tried booking it off, but they just pushed it back 2 hours instead of getting someone else... >.> When I got there I discovered that the schedule for the next two weeks was up. . . I'm working like 10 of the next 14 days................ Grrrr...........

JS had been inviting me to random things like every day all week, but I was always busy doing somehting... I had been telling him that I would be free in July to do random things at night like see Toy Story or play pool or hang out or play risk at mcdonalds at 11 pm or anything.... I might not even get to go to YA this week! Grrrrrrr... or YF!!! .......... Tommorow I am going to deal with this... hopefully I can change shifts with MR and work the day shifts on Fridays and Saturdays............... We need another person in produce... there's like the boss, the right-hand man, two guys who do very few day shifts, a keener who does dayshifts, but is allergic to corn, a completely useless guy who does one thing then disappears for an hour, and the other guy who does nothing more then needed, although he does this is good time and then wastes the extra time smoking or slacking, and then me, who is a perfectionistic yet lazy person. GRrrrrrr.

I don't even want money! I just want to hangout with my friends!!!

Grrrrrrrrr.....

But I can't really be angry at my boss... He hasn't done anything wrong.. I didn't book off YA nights... I didn't actually say I needed nights off to do random things with JS... So I can only be angry at me and my selfish desire to hangout with my friends.... I should be grateful to have a paying job and a pile of friends, that although I don't get to hang out that much, they havn't given up on me, yet...

Grrrrr.....

Anyways, I should go to sleep so I can wake up and deal with all these things.... I may want to go to Carleton and deal with my timetable too...

Grrrr.....

D.Fa...

"Hey AL, I hope you're having a blast because my life just exploded... As I have told you before, having a job is not synonamous with having a life. You are having a life, I am having slave labour....... without a girlfriend no less..."