Untitled

So. Today was another day.

School went by very slowly, but there was a lot less focus on him. It kinda felt isolating. Everyone around you laughing about something, but you are alone with your thoughts of David internally crying, but not that extreme...

After school I went home and went on facebook to the group page. I read some comments, posted a comment, listened to a song, looked at pictures and cried a bit.

I feel kinda crazy right now.. I feel kinda sick, I feel kinda mixed up... I went for a bit of a walk. I really wanted to run or something... I walked to my second job to see if the other guy, who should have been there, could cover me for friday. He wasn't there, I walked back and was kinda locked outside my house with no key. lol...

My parents had found out that he had died.

The wake is tommorow. I am going to skip most of physics class to go to it. I'm 18. I can sign out on my own. I'm going to bus there. RT will also be going then, but I don't know how exactly. He told me to prioritize and chop off the least important priority.

I had to choose between a softball game, the wake or physics class. The wake is at 2-4 or 7-9 in barrhaven. so i'd have to leave class early to go or miss the softball game. My team needs me and i think the excersice would be good for me, mentally and physically. I really dislike my physics class... I don't even really need it. An dI really wanted to go to the wake. So I'm missing physics. I've decided.

I've been thinking about David and a few more memories have come back to me. I remember auditioning last year with him. He sang a whole new world from alladin. xP HC was also there with him, but I don't think she was auditioning. He was nervous about auditioning. He didn't make the cast that year.

On my walk, I realized. I really miss David. Even if I didn't know him that deeply, lately I have been seeing him daily. Seeing him and his smile.

The wake is tommorow, the funeral service is friday right after school (they changed the schedule so we could all go), and a special youth groupevent for everyone that knew him is being held at his church friday night. I'm trying to get out of working Friday.

Anyways, I'm still praying for him and his family and friends.

D.Fa