Yo,
it's Christmas eve. That's cool. It's also super weird for a lot of reasons. Aside from the fact that it was like 16 degrees today and sunny, there;s a number of other things. Normally at this time I'd be wrapping presents. Or 'presents'. bwahaha. But today my brother's boyfriend was coming over so I had to be all ready for today. So I actually get to go sleep in a minute. =D
Something normal though, every Christmas eve for a long time now me and my brother would get to open a present. It was always clothes to be worn the next day when our grandparents came over. Today I got a really nice sweater. And my dad explained that it was 'conditional' upon my complete destruction of my other sweater. You know, the black and grey one. My sweater! Why does everyone hate it!? It still works fine!! =O
Nothing else to say really. I baked a lot these last couple days. Oh! I discovered Clean Bandit the other day during MishMashFM and I proceeded to listen to all of their music on Spotify and now I'm a little addicted. They are so cool! Combining electronic and classical music. The main group is a string quartet. So cool. They have a song literally about classical music vs electronic music called "Mozart's House". This one is my current repeating favourite song: Stronger
So cool yo. Looking forward to Urbana in a few days.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
PS. O . O is Jesus is 'new Adam' why is the church never called 'new Eve'..? Is that biblical? ..?
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24.12.15
23.12.15
Supply and Demand
Yo,
today was crazy. I've been sleeping in a bit, knitting a lot, and resting a bit because I don't know when or how, but it seems I bruised by left heel bone or something like that. But it's getting pretty close to Christmas know and so I had to go out and buy a bunch of stuff for my mom as gifts for my dad. I thought this might take an hour or so, but the buses didn't come at the beginning so I had to walk like 20 minutes to get to Walmart, then I did catch the bus, but then discovered I needed to go downtown to get something. Overall I was out for maybe 4 and a half hours or so? And it was raining. Which is still strange.
This whole season is a bit strange to me. One of the youtubers that I subscribe to was speaking in his latest video about a thought he is pondering lately. Having been diagnosed with cancer and going through surgery he's been thinking a lot and this time he spoke about what defines you. For him a lot of it comes down to what you produce, what you make, and how you interact with others. This whole season on the other hand seems to be defining yourself based on what you desire or what you can buy for others; a cycle of supply and demand.
For me this gets confusing because I don't ever really know what I want.
Every year my dad asks for a Christmas list and I've been getting worse and worse at letting him know anything that I actually want. I usually end up giving everything away to others who'd need it more. Or I end up doing nothing with it. I am not good at receiving gifts. But even outside of what I would physically want, I don't even really know what I want in life y'know? Like dream job or aspirations or where I'd be in 10 years. I'm not very good with those questions either.
And then even when I think I want something, why do I want it? Is it me that really wants it? Do I want it because of an exterior pressure? Do I want it because it would make others happy? Do I want it just because I've been told I want it? Do I want it because I've fooled myself into thinking I want it? What do I want?
I'm unsure.
When it comes to more deep questions, I still don't really know and in this season of my life especially I seem to be really torn and conflicted between the spirit and the flesh, and I won't go into details, but it's extremely annoying. The two are not compatible and I must choose one or the other to really experience either. But to choose one is to leave the other. I know what I should choose. But I don't believe it fully.
May God truly show me how much more meaningful and complete a life it is to follow His Spirit in everything, how His steadfast love is better than anything life could offer; may He give me true desire and ambition for my joy and His glory; may His Spirit guide and empower me.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
PS. But yesterday I got to talk with Andrew Huang during the brief period that MishMashFM was a thing. He should come to Ottawa. haha
today was crazy. I've been sleeping in a bit, knitting a lot, and resting a bit because I don't know when or how, but it seems I bruised by left heel bone or something like that. But it's getting pretty close to Christmas know and so I had to go out and buy a bunch of stuff for my mom as gifts for my dad. I thought this might take an hour or so, but the buses didn't come at the beginning so I had to walk like 20 minutes to get to Walmart, then I did catch the bus, but then discovered I needed to go downtown to get something. Overall I was out for maybe 4 and a half hours or so? And it was raining. Which is still strange.
This whole season is a bit strange to me. One of the youtubers that I subscribe to was speaking in his latest video about a thought he is pondering lately. Having been diagnosed with cancer and going through surgery he's been thinking a lot and this time he spoke about what defines you. For him a lot of it comes down to what you produce, what you make, and how you interact with others. This whole season on the other hand seems to be defining yourself based on what you desire or what you can buy for others; a cycle of supply and demand.
For me this gets confusing because I don't ever really know what I want.
Every year my dad asks for a Christmas list and I've been getting worse and worse at letting him know anything that I actually want. I usually end up giving everything away to others who'd need it more. Or I end up doing nothing with it. I am not good at receiving gifts. But even outside of what I would physically want, I don't even really know what I want in life y'know? Like dream job or aspirations or where I'd be in 10 years. I'm not very good with those questions either.
And then even when I think I want something, why do I want it? Is it me that really wants it? Do I want it because of an exterior pressure? Do I want it because it would make others happy? Do I want it just because I've been told I want it? Do I want it because I've fooled myself into thinking I want it? What do I want?
I'm unsure.
When it comes to more deep questions, I still don't really know and in this season of my life especially I seem to be really torn and conflicted between the spirit and the flesh, and I won't go into details, but it's extremely annoying. The two are not compatible and I must choose one or the other to really experience either. But to choose one is to leave the other. I know what I should choose. But I don't believe it fully.
May God truly show me how much more meaningful and complete a life it is to follow His Spirit in everything, how His steadfast love is better than anything life could offer; may He give me true desire and ambition for my joy and His glory; may His Spirit guide and empower me.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
PS. But yesterday I got to talk with Andrew Huang during the brief period that MishMashFM was a thing. He should come to Ottawa. haha
28.11.11
What is Christmas about?
You know what is awesome?
Getting to talk to my friend that I haven't seen in months and on top of that being able to talk to her about Jesus.
She really likes Christmas, especially the movies and songs. "or maybe i should say i like songs about christmas,i just like that kind of feelings.so warm ,so peaceful".
We kept talking and I guess I figured Christmas is all about love. Specifically God's great and immeasurable love for us.
My friend had a conversation with AL before about how we were created, humans were created to be in a loving relationship with God. He loves us and has a plan for our lives, but we chose to go our own way and have become separated from Him. Not only have we become separated, but we have no way of returning by ourselves. Nothing we can do can right the wrongs we have made or earn our way back. God is perfect, but we weren't. But God loved us so much that He gave His one and only Son.
That is where Christmas comes in. "Christmas is the day we celebrate Jesus being born into the world, born into the world out of God's love for us, born into the world so that we could be saved and the separation between us and God bridged." I think it's also the reason that we give gifts to each other.
I asked her "why do you think we give gifts?" and she answered "giving ,because god gives us so much,and we should share the greates love?" (That made me so happy. lol)
God gave us the greatest gift of all.
He gave us His only Son and even sent Him to die defeating sin and death and rose to life again giving us hope and new life. She thanked me for explaining what Christmas was and thought that all this was "great".
The only thing is that actually (as we learned in church on Sunday) God commands a response. We need to do more than just know these things. Acts 17:30.
God commands a response.
Anyways.
I hope to have more time to talk with her and my other friends from East Asia. It's really encouraging to see the seeds planted continue growing and hearing about all the other stuff that is happening here, there and everywhere to the glory of God.
Ya.
Ttyl.
=D.Fa
Getting to talk to my friend that I haven't seen in months and on top of that being able to talk to her about Jesus.
She really likes Christmas, especially the movies and songs. "or maybe i should say i like songs about christmas,i just like that kind of feelings.so warm ,so peaceful".
We kept talking and I guess I figured Christmas is all about love. Specifically God's great and immeasurable love for us.
My friend had a conversation with AL before about how we were created, humans were created to be in a loving relationship with God. He loves us and has a plan for our lives, but we chose to go our own way and have become separated from Him. Not only have we become separated, but we have no way of returning by ourselves. Nothing we can do can right the wrongs we have made or earn our way back. God is perfect, but we weren't. But God loved us so much that He gave His one and only Son.
That is where Christmas comes in. "Christmas is the day we celebrate Jesus being born into the world, born into the world out of God's love for us, born into the world so that we could be saved and the separation between us and God bridged." I think it's also the reason that we give gifts to each other.
I asked her "why do you think we give gifts?" and she answered "giving ,because god gives us so much,and we should share the greates love?" (That made me so happy. lol)
God gave us the greatest gift of all.
He gave us His only Son and even sent Him to die defeating sin and death and rose to life again giving us hope and new life. She thanked me for explaining what Christmas was and thought that all this was "great".
The only thing is that actually (as we learned in church on Sunday) God commands a response. We need to do more than just know these things. Acts 17:30.
God commands a response.
Anyways.
I hope to have more time to talk with her and my other friends from East Asia. It's really encouraging to see the seeds planted continue growing and hearing about all the other stuff that is happening here, there and everywhere to the glory of God.
Ya.
Ttyl.
=D.Fa
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