So,
I've probably been playing too many games lately, be it on my phone, or computer, or 3DS, or otherwise, or watching too many videos, or doing too much work (;P?) and so my eyes are getting pretty tired of screens pretty quickly. I never read books, but I don't want to wash the dishes, so why not?
So I picked up a book I started reading a year or so ago. It's all about discipleship and various things that you'll probably end up talking about as you mentor someone. This one chapter focused on various foundational things that we need to have faith in as we grow to trust God more. One section that stood out to me was about having faith in our reward.
The author tells a story about a trip to the Great Wall of China. While there he saw a worker slowly and passively picking up trash and workers at the various concession stands energetically and actively pursuing customers. Clearly there is a difference here. The one will always be paid the same, the other will make more profit if they sell more at a higher value. From this the author draws analogy to how we often see our eternity unchanging regardless of what we do after we've been saved, noting that "the doctrine of eternal security ... was never meant to negate the teaching of rewards". That we are called to exercise faith in future rewards, that our faithfulness and obedience will be rewarded.
Now this is definitely something I haven't studied much. But it is also definitely undeniable that there are many verses speaking about future rewards. Whether it be laying up treasures in heaven (Matthew 6:19-21); persevering trials and receiving a crown on life (James 1:12); overcoming and receiving various blessings (Revelation 2-3); or parables of being faithful with little and being trusted with more (Matthew 24:46-47; 25:14-30). And I'm sure there's much more.
But I think I do end up thinking that what I do now won't really make a difference. As much as I think it's wrong to focus too much on potential future rewards, it is definitely something I should probably learn more about. Still though, having the eyes to see the blessings for us and others both now and in the future as we live out lives of obedience, surrender, and faith; I think that is something I need more of while realizing that the biggest reward of all is available now and forever: to delight and be truly satisfied in knowing God and the grace He has given through Jesus and the intimacy of knowing He is with us always.
May my eyes be fixed firmly on Him and may I delight in Him more and more whether through joys or trials.
D.Fa
12.2.17
8.2.17
Higher Ways
Yo,
so today was a lazy day like many others recently. My lab meeting was cancelled, so I was planning to wake up early and go do a bunch of experiments. Instead I ended up sleeping in pretty late and only doing a bit of writing work at home while also cutting my hair and cleaning up some stuff and playing some games. Wednesdays have become my P2C days since I'm usually there for lab meeting anyways. So I went to school for prayer meeting at 5:30. (Ended up catching a Chansey in Pokemon GO even though I thought I never would.)
But the really awesome thing happened at prayer meeting. We were praying through Psalm 31 where David is calling to God to be his refuge and talks about how God cares for the humble, but not so much for the proud. The prayer leader asked us to think about times God had humbled us. I thought of a few things, but the one that stood out to me was a time almost 6 years ago when I was in East Asia.
It was a normal day about 3/4 of the way through our time there on a missions trip. We were at the stage of having deeper conversations with friends and really sharing the gospel with our friends and inviting them to consider what it meant in their lives. I don't remember exactly, but I'm pretty sure at least once on this particular day our friends had not ended up meeting with us even though they had said they would. This time in particular it was like 2 hours later and they still hadn't messaged us or anything. So I was feeling really frustrated at how all of my planning had failed. But the only thing that came to mind was a hymn. I think it was Be Thou my Vision, or maybe Come thou Fount. Either way it was surprising to me. Why would I be singing in a time like this?
Later that afternoon we met up with the rest of the Canadians and we found out that this one guy had shared the gospel and like 3 of them came to know Jesus as their saviour! The chestnut gang or something was their name? I was feeling really unhappy. Why should all of his friends accept Jesus and I can't even meet up with my friends. And I really struggled through what it meant to have the joy of salvation. In the end I learned of how God's plans are really higher than mine and that when my plans fail His are always at work, but it wasn't until today that I kinda figured out why a song had come to me. When sinners repent and turn to Jesus all heaven rejoices! The angels in heaven were singing and that overflowed into me? I think that's pretty crazy that kinda out of nowhere I'd have a song of praise while at the same moment men and women were turning to Jesus. Crazy.
It's crazy to think that things like that when we have no idea why things are happening God will eventually help us see what He was doing and why He did it that way. I still don't know why I didn't get to meet up with my friends, but humbling praise while He works is kinda awesome anyways. If only I thought this way more often.
God is great and His ways are higher. May His praises always be on our lips.
D.Fa
so today was a lazy day like many others recently. My lab meeting was cancelled, so I was planning to wake up early and go do a bunch of experiments. Instead I ended up sleeping in pretty late and only doing a bit of writing work at home while also cutting my hair and cleaning up some stuff and playing some games. Wednesdays have become my P2C days since I'm usually there for lab meeting anyways. So I went to school for prayer meeting at 5:30. (Ended up catching a Chansey in Pokemon GO even though I thought I never would.)
But the really awesome thing happened at prayer meeting. We were praying through Psalm 31 where David is calling to God to be his refuge and talks about how God cares for the humble, but not so much for the proud. The prayer leader asked us to think about times God had humbled us. I thought of a few things, but the one that stood out to me was a time almost 6 years ago when I was in East Asia.
It was a normal day about 3/4 of the way through our time there on a missions trip. We were at the stage of having deeper conversations with friends and really sharing the gospel with our friends and inviting them to consider what it meant in their lives. I don't remember exactly, but I'm pretty sure at least once on this particular day our friends had not ended up meeting with us even though they had said they would. This time in particular it was like 2 hours later and they still hadn't messaged us or anything. So I was feeling really frustrated at how all of my planning had failed. But the only thing that came to mind was a hymn. I think it was Be Thou my Vision, or maybe Come thou Fount. Either way it was surprising to me. Why would I be singing in a time like this?
Later that afternoon we met up with the rest of the Canadians and we found out that this one guy had shared the gospel and like 3 of them came to know Jesus as their saviour! The chestnut gang or something was their name? I was feeling really unhappy. Why should all of his friends accept Jesus and I can't even meet up with my friends. And I really struggled through what it meant to have the joy of salvation. In the end I learned of how God's plans are really higher than mine and that when my plans fail His are always at work, but it wasn't until today that I kinda figured out why a song had come to me. When sinners repent and turn to Jesus all heaven rejoices! The angels in heaven were singing and that overflowed into me? I think that's pretty crazy that kinda out of nowhere I'd have a song of praise while at the same moment men and women were turning to Jesus. Crazy.
It's crazy to think that things like that when we have no idea why things are happening God will eventually help us see what He was doing and why He did it that way. I still don't know why I didn't get to meet up with my friends, but humbling praise while He works is kinda awesome anyways. If only I thought this way more often.
God is great and His ways are higher. May His praises always be on our lips.
D.Fa
23.1.17
1 John 1:9 - Guilt and Shame
Yo,
something that I've been thinking a bunch about lately, as mentioned previously, is the concept of shame and it's really shedding a lot of light on things that I had just not even noticed before. One of the places that I think this has made a huge difference is in regards to the Bible where the concept of guilt and shame are often mentioned.
Previously I hadn't really understood them and thought they were essentially the same thing. They are definitely similar, but shame is so much deeper. Guilt is a feeling that you did something wrong and leads to reconciliation, trying harder to not do it again, and similar positive results. Shame is a feeling that you are bad and leads to isolation, despair, hopelessness, apathy, and the like. Shame makes you see yourself as less and not being worth trying.
And so, as I learned about shame, whether consciously or not, I couldn't really get a hold of it because it didn't seem Biblical. Where did the Bible ever talk about shame or overcoming shame?
And I think this really stemmed from an ignorance. I wasn't seeing it because I didn't know it was there. And now, I see it in places I'd never even imagined it being. Places so simple and yet so profound.
A verse that I'd heard over and over again and told others over and over again has now become so much more. 1 John 1:9 says "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness." And I had always read that as simply forgiveness and grace for the things we had done, God's justice, His mercy, His grace and love; the legal requirement paid on the cross as Jesus died on our behalf. Us clothed in His perfection, covering our sin, covering our badness. The cleansing just being of the sin, that it was behind us. The idea that we may struggle with feeling as though, as a result of our sin or not, that we were bad, that we were unrighteous, that there was nothing that could cure that; that idea hadn't crossed my mind. But God is greater than our guilt and the requirement of death for sinners (paid through the cross to bring us life), and He is greater than our shame and feelings of worthlessness (as we trsut in Him He makes us new, He cleanses us from alllllllllllllllllll unrighteousness!)!
He is faithful and just. We are forgiven and made new in Him. Amen.
I am forgiven. I am made new.
D.Fa
something that I've been thinking a bunch about lately, as mentioned previously, is the concept of shame and it's really shedding a lot of light on things that I had just not even noticed before. One of the places that I think this has made a huge difference is in regards to the Bible where the concept of guilt and shame are often mentioned.
Previously I hadn't really understood them and thought they were essentially the same thing. They are definitely similar, but shame is so much deeper. Guilt is a feeling that you did something wrong and leads to reconciliation, trying harder to not do it again, and similar positive results. Shame is a feeling that you are bad and leads to isolation, despair, hopelessness, apathy, and the like. Shame makes you see yourself as less and not being worth trying.
And so, as I learned about shame, whether consciously or not, I couldn't really get a hold of it because it didn't seem Biblical. Where did the Bible ever talk about shame or overcoming shame?
And I think this really stemmed from an ignorance. I wasn't seeing it because I didn't know it was there. And now, I see it in places I'd never even imagined it being. Places so simple and yet so profound.
A verse that I'd heard over and over again and told others over and over again has now become so much more. 1 John 1:9 says "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness." And I had always read that as simply forgiveness and grace for the things we had done, God's justice, His mercy, His grace and love; the legal requirement paid on the cross as Jesus died on our behalf. Us clothed in His perfection, covering our sin, covering our badness. The cleansing just being of the sin, that it was behind us. The idea that we may struggle with feeling as though, as a result of our sin or not, that we were bad, that we were unrighteous, that there was nothing that could cure that; that idea hadn't crossed my mind. But God is greater than our guilt and the requirement of death for sinners (paid through the cross to bring us life), and He is greater than our shame and feelings of worthlessness (as we trsut in Him He makes us new, He cleanses us from alllllllllllllllllll unrighteousness!)!
He is faithful and just. We are forgiven and made new in Him. Amen.
I am forgiven. I am made new.
D.Fa
2.1.17
Guilty Worship
Yo,
A while back I asked myself a question which I thought was really troubling and caused guilt even though the source was what seemed to cause so much pure joy in my life. So I was very conflicted.
"Why does it seem that I value the word of man over the Word of God? Why, when I am feeling down, or even often in general, do I turn more often to Hillsong than to the Bible?"
And this came out of a place where some of the moments that I felt best about life and my present situations would be in listening to one song over and over again. Whether it was at work, or at home, or on a bus. It seemed that I was most full of joy when deeply reflecting on the word's of my favourite contemporary Christian artists. Why not in reflection of God's word? Why not in prayer? Why was this it?
This week at a Christian conference I had a realization of the reason that this is, and how it is a good thing and not bad. Which, let me tell you, makes me feel so much better about those situations and about myself.
The conference was held by Power to Change - Students and it was the 5th I had attended. There were so many great sessions and workshops that spoke truth into a variety of situations from God's judgement to time management and everything in between.
What was very different than in many other years was that there was an emphasis on overcoming shame. I will end up talking about this later in relation to my life, but for now, I will give a brief overview. Guilt and shame are different. Guilt makes you want to do better because you see that you did something that wasn't good. Shame makes you want to do less because you feel you are bad. the speaker went over briefly how to combat shame in recognizing it, regulating it, revealing it, and reality checking it. Largely seeing that it's there, in the moment stopping and reminding yourself of the truth of who you are in Christ, and bringing others along to help you and others.
Again, I will get more into this, but I have come to acknowledge that I do struggle with a lot of shame in my life. When I read the Bible the truth there is encouraging, but I often read it so quickly that it doesn't have time to sink in. Songs written by Christian artists take that truth, whether a lot of it in hymns, or smaller chunks in other songs, and really go into that. They put it to music. They sing it in the chorus again and again. And my own listening to it again and again; singing it; ending up memorizing it; singing out gladly to the God who has done this in worship; reminding myself continually of who I am because of Jesus; this allows the truth to sink in so much more deeply than it can when I don't give the Bible the time it deserves, when I don't put aside the time to just speak with God and enjoy Him. even while multitasking I can reflect on the truth of the gospel and let it sink in.
My favourite songs are often slower tempo and acoustic. And they reflect on the truth that Jesus died so that I could live, that no matter what I am His and He is mine, that in resurrection Jesus reigns supreme, that He is faithful to bring to completion all the things that He has started, that sin and death are destroyed and I don't need to worry about them; things like that. Listening, literally hundreds of times to a single song like this really allows the truth to wash over me and renew the hope I have in the gospel and the mighty God who has done it.
I'm not saying that I shouldn't try to really worship God better through my times in the Bible or prayer. I definitely need to work on those. However, I am so relieved that listening to or singing Christian songs and feeling great because of it isn't a bad thing due to idolatry or anything, but that it is a way I can renew my mind and worship God.
=]
May He be praised and may I become more like Him each day in obedience and surrender to the One who is truly good and loving. May my hope be renewed each day as I learn more deeply of the great love that overcomes my shame and the wrath that was rightly mine through the cross.
Amen
A while back I asked myself a question which I thought was really troubling and caused guilt even though the source was what seemed to cause so much pure joy in my life. So I was very conflicted.
"Why does it seem that I value the word of man over the Word of God? Why, when I am feeling down, or even often in general, do I turn more often to Hillsong than to the Bible?"
And this came out of a place where some of the moments that I felt best about life and my present situations would be in listening to one song over and over again. Whether it was at work, or at home, or on a bus. It seemed that I was most full of joy when deeply reflecting on the word's of my favourite contemporary Christian artists. Why not in reflection of God's word? Why not in prayer? Why was this it?
This week at a Christian conference I had a realization of the reason that this is, and how it is a good thing and not bad. Which, let me tell you, makes me feel so much better about those situations and about myself.
The conference was held by Power to Change - Students and it was the 5th I had attended. There were so many great sessions and workshops that spoke truth into a variety of situations from God's judgement to time management and everything in between.
What was very different than in many other years was that there was an emphasis on overcoming shame. I will end up talking about this later in relation to my life, but for now, I will give a brief overview. Guilt and shame are different. Guilt makes you want to do better because you see that you did something that wasn't good. Shame makes you want to do less because you feel you are bad. the speaker went over briefly how to combat shame in recognizing it, regulating it, revealing it, and reality checking it. Largely seeing that it's there, in the moment stopping and reminding yourself of the truth of who you are in Christ, and bringing others along to help you and others.
Again, I will get more into this, but I have come to acknowledge that I do struggle with a lot of shame in my life. When I read the Bible the truth there is encouraging, but I often read it so quickly that it doesn't have time to sink in. Songs written by Christian artists take that truth, whether a lot of it in hymns, or smaller chunks in other songs, and really go into that. They put it to music. They sing it in the chorus again and again. And my own listening to it again and again; singing it; ending up memorizing it; singing out gladly to the God who has done this in worship; reminding myself continually of who I am because of Jesus; this allows the truth to sink in so much more deeply than it can when I don't give the Bible the time it deserves, when I don't put aside the time to just speak with God and enjoy Him. even while multitasking I can reflect on the truth of the gospel and let it sink in.
My favourite songs are often slower tempo and acoustic. And they reflect on the truth that Jesus died so that I could live, that no matter what I am His and He is mine, that in resurrection Jesus reigns supreme, that He is faithful to bring to completion all the things that He has started, that sin and death are destroyed and I don't need to worry about them; things like that. Listening, literally hundreds of times to a single song like this really allows the truth to wash over me and renew the hope I have in the gospel and the mighty God who has done it.
I'm not saying that I shouldn't try to really worship God better through my times in the Bible or prayer. I definitely need to work on those. However, I am so relieved that listening to or singing Christian songs and feeling great because of it isn't a bad thing due to idolatry or anything, but that it is a way I can renew my mind and worship God.
=]
May He be praised and may I become more like Him each day in obedience and surrender to the One who is truly good and loving. May my hope be renewed each day as I learn more deeply of the great love that overcomes my shame and the wrath that was rightly mine through the cross.
Amen
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