Broken Cisterns

There is not enough time in a day.

That is what I would like to say, but I know that there is in fact enough time in a day for all that needs to be done, it just doesn't get done based on how we prioritize and spend the time that we have been given. As it says in Eph 5:15-17 (ESV) "Look carefully then how you walk, not as unwise but as wise, making the best use of the time, because the days are evil. Therefore do not be foolish, but understand what the will of the Lord is." Make use of your time, because the temptation is there to use that time for evil. Instead, full of the Spirit, pursue God's will first and everything; this is the best use of time. #howiseeit

I say this largely because there is so much I would like to blog about, and I so rarely find the time to do so.

So, idk. I think I have too many things that I want to do, some of which I know are not worth doing, but I pursue anyways. I started reading Ecclesiastes (more on why later. > . <''') and yeah, the picture that is presented is that "The eye never has enough of seeing, nor the ear its fill of hearing. (1:8b)" and "Whoever loves money never has enough; whoever loves wealth is never satisfied with his income. (5:10)". Two examples of our misdirected desires seeking for satisfaction in the world and never having enough. And this is largely how I feel about the temptations that I have which say "you haven't tried this, how can you know it is bad for you?" and so I compromise by indulging in a related, but not exactly the same sin, which leaves me empty and unsatisfied and with a further desire for the thing I know is bad, but haven't tried.

The Bible says these things we desire, are desired because we are broken and want to be filled; more directly it says we are now enslaved to these passions and desires. The image given is that we are thirsty for true water, and instead of looking for a fountain of living water, we complain and start digging our own muddy cisterns, not daring to leave them (Jer2:13 "My people have committed two sins: They have forsaken me, the spring of living water, and have dug their own cisterns, broken cisterns that cannot hold water").

To quote lyrics from Still Want You by Andrew Huang:
Chorus:
Even though you try to make it hurt me, 
Even though you want to pick up and desert me, 
I still want you baby; I still want you baby.
Even though the sky we built was starless, 
Even though you leave me in the coldest darkness, 
I still want you baby; I still want you baby.

The verses speak of the love as hate, a poison, alcohol in the dark, causing him to be lost, and in danger, something that is killing him slowly, and the bridge goes as far as to beg for a kiss, for love, for a hit, to be cut again.

Left in the coldest darkness with nothing, a starless sky in the middle of winter, with no warmth or affection or emotion, but so deluded to desire more of it; that pursuing it further is the only answer left.

The biggest problem here, though I often don't say so, is not that we are left empty, but that for our rebellion and forsaking God, the spring of living water, we actually have chosen death and destruction, we have chosen hell. To disobey a king is treason, punishable by death. Christ offers so much more than anything this world can offer and leaves us with life eternal, a thirst satisfied, endless delight at His side.