Sojourner

Yesterday I got this thought: I don't belong anywhere.

I'm the kind of person who can't stop moving. Never a second of down time. The last three years I have lived in so many different houses / slept in so many different places, but when it comes down to it, I desperately want somewhere I can call home.

As I get ready to go to sleep, wake up, and take on my last day of work in Saskatoon, I miss Ottawa, am excited for Mississauga, sad for Saskatoon, desperately desiring to go to East Asia, begrudgingly planning to go to Africa instead, and so lost.

I am going to miss Saskatoon, but I didn't get to know this place well enough. I only just now understand most of the main areas I have been to, as I prepare to leave. I had to say goodbye to NG for second 'last time'. TT.TTT

I am going to continue missing Ottawa since 70% of the people I expected to see are gone because it is a long weekend and I will only be back for 25 hours. >.> And YA seems to have changed so dramatically, and I won't even get to be part of it for the next month (nearly).

I have seen pictures of my room in Mississauga. I can't wait, but even then, it's only for a couple weeks and I leave.

East Asia has my heart, but God wants me in Africa for some reason.



Everything is so confusing. And everything is changing so fast. There are huge conversations around the corner.

I was reading a lot of Psalms today. David writing of how he desires to live in the dwelling place of God. May I continue to see your goodness, and desire to live in your dwelling places, oh Lord. May I continue to realize how I don't belong here, but with you. May I lean on you and experience you more fully each day.