And I Guess I'm Saying Goodbye.

Temporarily at least.

I'll be away from internet access for a few weeks, so that's that I guess.

I don't really have much else to say. xP.

Church was good, we talked about blessing the community around us. We went  for Pho. I met up with JS. I finished some financial stuff. It was a boring last half day. lol

Ya.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

3/4 Russia?

Hey guys!

I've been noticing lately that one in four of the views (from my blog stats page) is coming from North America and the other 3/4 are from Russia! (generalization). Well, I wanna give a shout out to whoever it is in Russia that is reading my posts. I hope you are enjoying them and that they are doing something more than taking all your time. Haha.

Anyways, today. Finally, for the first time in ages I woke up early. Why you ask? Because the sun made me! At my parents' house my room has 3 walls and a window. At my house I was in this year I was in the basement and my roommate never woke up until 8:15. And recently with exams that time would be later since he wasn't even there. So, I'd wake up at 10 and in my room it'd be pitch black. Why wake up? It's dark and my blankets are warm! Now? Sun! So much sun! It's awesome! It makes me wanna wake up! Never again will I be confined to the basement! I need sunlight to wake up. lol. Call me old fashioned, but I really like natural lighting.

So, I woke up at 8:30 (early for the fact I do not have school or anything). I spent time in the word and figured I needed to go to the bank for a money order, so I checked the hours of my bank.

Surprise! Time for a drive! Ok! All over as usual. FarmBoy, Canadian Tire, Metro, the Bank. xP Then I had lunch, watched anime, sent some emails then got a drive to China Town. We (RW, AL and I) chilled in Kowloon, ate cake and drank juice from a can also containing jellied ingredients.

Now I am home. More TV... So lazy. lol.

I helped do my mom's taxes. I have been doing it since grade 10 actually, but this is the last time. Genealogy is basically free online now and for various other reasons my mother is done with her business.

Anyways, lol, sleeping last night wasn't the best. It wasn't the worst though. lol. Once I fell asleep I didn't wake up until it was sunny and then I really couldn't sleep. Haha. I'm changing the arrangements tonight. xP

Ttyl.

D.Fa

Moving Takes Longer Than I Planned

Hey!

I guess I missed a day. Yesterday was interesting, I guess. I slept in and then did a lot of nothing all day.

Wait, have I even told you about the day before..? (Checks blog posts) Nope!

Well, the day before was a lot of cleaning and deciding what to do with the stuff in our house. The final decision was an epic event called '911 Evacuate!' (since our address was 911 and we needed to evacuate everything in the house). This consisted of a dinner of anything left in the house (KD, Fries, Sausages, Soup, Spagetti), and a Flee market (take our stuff and flee!). It was good. I tried making art for the well lit wall (due to CW's fluorescent lights that wouldn't fit in his trailer) and it was soooo goood. (I spent way too long making art out of clothespins... It was like a raging river. Made out of clothespins. Fluidity out of a rigid medium.) Alas, it fell apart one too many times for me to care and so it wasn't very artistic. ... I only got pictures of a prototypical stage of the art since it didn't take good pictures at the angles that it was coolest. lol.... T.T

Anyways, the next day I didn't do much. I packed a bit, but not much. I then rushed to finish and have my dad help move at 4:45. I needed to be downtown to hangout with friends by 5:30. I thought I could move it all in that time. Not even close. I got one load done by 5:15. Silly me. In my rush I locked myself out of my house. lol... I got downtown a bit late. We went to the museum of nature and then China town for Chinese food (no way! *shock!*).

I got home late and didn't do much again. lol...

Today I woke up really late and only really because I expected to be moving soon. Didn't start moving until after noon. Oh well. Haha.

So, I'm home. That means I am exposed to wayyyy too much television. Too much home cooking. Too much dessert. But I'm not complaining. lol... I'm kinda squished right now. I have more stuff than I did two years ago and also there's a piano and couch in my room now, so, ya. Expected. Haha. Gonna sleep sitting tonight since there's no room for my mattress to lie flat. xP

Ttyl.

D.Fa

'Tumbling' and Stumbling

So. The first day after my last exam (I'm done second year!!!). I ended up outside in the rain waiting for a bus multiple times. lol

My housemates are nearly all gone. I really don't like being alone in a house.

I did some more packing. Tomorrow we are having a garage-free in our house as well as an all-you-can-eat for the food items remaining in our house. lol. I made some special art for the wall and intend to do some creative organizing of the items for 'free'.

And so, for no real reason, I am up until 3 am. My brain is turning to mush. lol. Gotta sleep. And yet I ended up stalking my friend's tumblr for an hour... Sometimes tumblr'ers post too many times in one sitting. These sittings aren't necessarily all that frequent, but they take so much time and I assume they are using even more time to choose the good ones to repost. Haha.

One of my friends who has a tumblr, who doesn't reblog everything, posted a really cool post about love: balex.ca. Ya. I think it's pretty true. Marriage was made to bring together the two to make them into one. But obviously as imperfect people when you shove two people with problems into close quarters things will get worse. But the opposite can also be true. We can try being better, but really we end up doing the same things over again. When we rely on Him and His Spirit in us to change us, real changes are seen. In a marriage filled with love, real love, love that is sacrificial, love that is like the love God has for us, one where they would give up everything yet at the same time know you aren't perfect but also are there to help point you lovingly in the right direction and work through it together with you, it can work. xP

Anyways, I'm gonna go sleep for a few hours. Haha.

Night.

D.Fa

Battle Bruises

Yo.

Not much actually happened today, but it was a good break. xP.

First was worship leader's study which ended up at A+ML's house since we didn't have a key yet. lol It was good. We talked a bit about choosing songs and a lot about joint services. Haha. Then we had a lot of fun. xP

Then I got a drive to Pastor DB's. We were planning to hang out with RW, but we had too much fun at A+ML's house. lol. Anyways, it was a party for BF. It was chill time at Pastor DB's while BF was busy. I played with Legos a lot. lol. At 8:30 we left to go to TagZone!

TagZone is so cool. xP. I've wanted to go since grade 7 when my best friend went for a birthday party or something. Basically, it's like paintball in a laser tag maze, but no paint. xP. Same guns though. So, shooting rubber balls at each oter in a dark / black light lit maze for two hours. It was 13 of us and like 10 buff french guys. lol. We weren't doing so well going directly against them. lol. It was a really fun time. I'm covered in bruises though, eh? xP Battle scars.

Anyways, gotta go to bed. Church soon. Ttyl.

D.Fa

"... Then it's Sport!"

Hey guys!

4 down 1 to go and I am free from second year. And obviously this is the time to be wasting my life on youtube. >.< Honestly  I have wasted a lot of time there today.




Sometimes on youtube there are videos of other people playing videogames. This is not an appealing concept to me. My brother on the other hand will watch them. Primarily these videos that my brother watches (or at least the ones I have seen him watch) are of funny British people playing games from the N64 system, games we played when we were younger. This is appealing to a degree. Funny British people? Yes. Games I am very fond of, but can't play? Yes. My favourite medium for wasting time? Yep...

The thing about that is that I am very much about not spoiling the fun in the games I play or anime I watch or movies I want to see. In other words, I don't want to have any spoilers take the fun away. The fun of not knowing the next plot twist. The fun of trying to work out what I need to do to move the story forward. The fun of being surprised at a new event. So I generally avoid walkthroughs, play throughs, the manga of the series I'm watching or like replaying things.

However. That is not what happened today. Not exactly. No. A bit different.

I ended up on youtube watching a video of a guy doing a 'speed run' of 'Ocarina of Time' that abuses game glitches. So he actually skipped like a third of the game or more, and for the sake of speed ran backwards / jumped sideways the whole game. So for 2 hours and 40 minutes, he didn't actually play much. The majority was him running backwards and cut scenes which were not skipped or sped up. The thing that bugs me though is like, he skipped like the water temple and fire temple and so much of ganon's castle and so much stuff. He glitched into the Spirirt temple at 15 minutes gameplay, got bombchus and beat the dodongos in like 2 minutes. He only paid for like three things, the deku sheild, a game of bombchu bowling and fishing. He used a fish to hold down a switch!!!!! >=O Crazy!

Anyways, I felt like I wasted a lot of time and the second I was done I was walking like triple speed. lolll

So, my friend was playing a beta version of Diablo III today. Additionally I read a blog post about him playing Fire Emblem for the fifth time... (and so I'm blogging. Ha.)

I can't replay a game until I forget largely about it.

I can't rewatch Korean dramas. I tried once. I knew what was gonna happen because all the plot twists are so sudden that they really aren't forgotten.

I don't like redoing things.

But there's one thing that although it is the same, it is so much more every time. God's love and forgiveness everytime I mess up. Sure it's the same, He never changes, but it's new each time as much as I feel terrible for whatever I've done, I know more and more how great His love really is and I can try again, asking Him to help me, knowing He wants to and that when we ask, we receive.

So, ya. xP

Ttyl.

D.Fa

"It's all fun and games until someone loses an eye ..."

History is Bound to Repeat Itself

Yo.

I feel like this is a common thing that I have heard over and over again. In History class, talking to my History major friends, even in Yu-Gi-Oh the anime (..? I think..?).

Anyways, I'm really feeling it right now. lol. As you may not have noticed (why would you?), I sometimes put labels on my blog posts. Often I do not. For statistical purposes I would like to. Hehe. So, I end up rereading them to put on the labels. xP. Right now I am rereading posts from one year ago. It's so similar! Moving, only two weeks left, playing music on repeat, watching a lot of anime, not really studying enough... lol. Eerily similar.

It's funny though to see the differences. At that point I knew where I was moving to / living next year. I had already fully packed my room.

Anyways, I can't wait for this year to be done. xP

I'm not gonna be here for a bit during the first half of the summer, so this is my two weeks notice (but I may stop 12 days from now. lol, so a little less than two weeks actually). lol. I'll be back a couple weeks into June. I may or may not have much to tell you guys. xP

Ttyl!

=D.Fa

PS. Today was fun chilling in the Studio after my Genetics tutorial.

PPS. That is a picture of what I drew in the Tutorial. My shoe and an eggplant that looks like a thing from Neopets (that MJ says is called a 'Negg') because TJN thought my shoe was an eggplant. -_-,

3/5

Hey!

Exam 3, done! And with that I'm all done my Chem exams for second year! This just leaves two Biology exams.

It kinda feels like a Saturday. I'm taking a break since I just finished an exam. I chilled in the studio for a bit. I went to the gym with RL. I biked home and did chores and stuff like laundry and the dishes and folding laundry and cleaning up my notes for this semester and going through piles of papers. Stuff that gets put off. Haha. I cooked dinner and rice for once in a while.

DK and JS have started packing and CW has already moved a large portion of his stuff. The time in this house is coming to an end. Only a couple weeks left!

Ttyl.

D.Fa

P450 and Cytochrome c oxidase

I don't like work. lol.

That is superficial. I like work I guess. It's just always at a bad time. =D And I've been there so long and there are other things I'd rather be doing, but overall I'm really blessed to have work and be able to see my coworkers and do a good job.

Anyways, two exams done, three to go. The hardest two are out of the way I think.

I was just looking at my stats and I have done what I set out to do. Sometimes I set fun goals. I wanted to get Canada, the US, Russia, China, Australia, and Brazil to see my blog in the same week. And it has happened! In the top ten (for this week) are also Argentina, Germany, France and Thailand. So that's the top 6 largest countries, the 8th, 49, 51 and 63rd. So I went to wikipedia and added up their land mass and divided by the world total. That's 44.7% of the world's land mass from those 10 countries!! =O

Unimportant. Hehe.

Ya. So. I'm a sinner, y'know? But out of God's great love, that even while we were sinners, He sent His only begotton Son to die on a cross for us. This paid our punishment and He also gave us His righteousness. All who believe in His name have the right to become children of God adopted by His blood. It's not by anything that we can do, but out of what He has already done that we can come to know God. Although the wages of sin is death, the free gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ. It's a gift and you just need to ask for it. Each day His love and grace is made new to me. I am really thankful. xP

Ttyl.


D.Fa

Where I am now.

The first exam was pretty good. The second one starts just over 10 hours from now.

And yet I found an hour to just hang out in studio again. xP... I am really playing around with this idea I have right now. (As if it came from KN and that I'd hear it twice in a day. >.>) It seems that to be a Masters of Architecture student you don't need to have been in a Bachelors of Architecture. I don't know what you'd do in a Masters of Arch or what you could do with it... and the thing is that I just want to have time in studio drawing. lol... So my plans right now are to get setup. Get a drawing board. Get a sketch pad. Get drawing tools. Get started drawing anything and everything. Learn how to draw straight lines. (lol) and absorb anything I can from my friends.

I'm really thrilled about these plans, but it's like I can't really switch programs. Or like I don't really want to // I want to sooooo badly, but don't think it'd be wise // I still really don't know what's gonna happen after school is done // I'm getting into a better position with Biochem, like I'm talking to a professor about a summer lab volunteering position and I don't know if it's selfish to just bail Biochem // do I just want to get into Arch to draw / make asian friends? // what if God wants me to be in Science? // I should be trying to make better friends with the people in my classes anyways. >.> // I don't wanna start wasting what God has given me // what would I do with Arch???

I just wanna get into a studio and draw for hours. lol.

Back to studying. lol. >.<

Ttyl.

D.Fa

Studying / Video Games

Hey!

Today was really boring. lol.........

Summed up it was sitting in a room for literally like 9 hours sending emails, reading lecture slides and listening to Legend of Zelda music on repeat.

>.<

Exams are lame. xP. Gotta beat them though.

I feel really bad for SM and AY and the rest of the Architecture students who have been working day and night to finish their projects due on Thursday, the majority of which have had 2 hours of sleep or so (as far as I 've heard). >.>

I kinda miss all the hours I spent playing video games, but I know that that won't make me happy. It doesn't accomplish anything in real life. Playing a game briefly with a friend or two for fun is fine, but spending literally all weekend on a one person game that no one will ever care you played, whatever, why do that? I still have fond memories. It was a good game. Me and my brother played it together sometimes. Figuring out things together, good times.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

PS. Bolivia and Argentina!!

10,000 Reasons

Yo guys, I want to thank you. xP.

I feel like this blog has really been good to me and hopefully has been good to you as well.

Yesterday when I started writing this post I had just surpassed 10,000 views. That's a lot. (and google reader views aren't included apparently)

I suppose now is the time to explain what the name of the blog means.

It is named  'Incomplete Composition'. This has nothing to do with the chemical process of incomplete combustion, nor does it have anything to do with unfinished symphonies. I'm not currently writing a poem, or painting a masterpiece. I am not writing a novel or even writing a song. I'm not even the author of this 'composition'.


It started as a way to remember the things that are happening in my life, things that I can look back upon and remember everything I was going through physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually. Largely because my memory stinks sometimes. (I literally asked my friend if she was in Ottawa for Easter weekend at least 5 times. lol)

For a couple weeks, maybe a month, this blog was the 'incomplete composition' and it was still being written each day, but then I realized there was something bigger that was changing each day.

This blog is about me, but I'm not the author, I'm just a scribe. God is the one directing each and everything that is happening to make me into the person He wants me to be. Each day the Spirit is changing me. The events I go through, the relationships that are built, the 'hardships', the times I just watch the stars, the times God shows Himself to faithful, when His word is truth in a tangible way, everything that He is using to change me.

I hope to be writing out the ways that I see Him working as well as where I am.

I hope to be truthful and sincere about everything I am writing down.

I hope that this blog would be a testament to how great He is and how much I need Him in my life.

I'm not perfect, but God's love and forgiveness in my life prompts me to love and forgive others. He has plans for our lives and He uses the stories in our lives. He is changing me and it's crazy to even look back on a couple years and see the difference.

I haven't been looking back all that much currently, but even typing it out each day helps me to reflect on what He has been doing. xP

So, ya. I'm a work in progress, but each day trying to rely on Him and trying to follow His call and guidance, I hope to reflect more of His glory each day that others may see Him as well.

Ttyl guys!

D.Fa


10,000 Reasons by Matt Redman





PS. Gabon!

Rest Time

Hey, so it's been a few days.

Things have been highly irregular.

With my lab exam Thursday morning I have finished class for second year, this leaves 15 hours of examination ahead before the freedom associated with the summer.

But I have taken this exam break a little too far perhaps. I can't get anything done. lol. And everyone around me seems to have work to do and seems to be attempting to do it.

Yesterday was Good Friday. The day we remember Jesus dying on the cross for us. Our worship service was really good. Very bilingual. Lots of scripture readings. Then I went home and watched anime and did basically nothing all day. >.> I can't rest properly when I know I should be doing something. I'm actually horrible at taking a well defined break. It's either work or procrastination.

Today was similar, however also quite different. It was planned (to a degree). We (me and 15 other people! (That's a lot!!!)) went for sushi. We went to Sushi Kan (which was really good. Excellent service! Jay is the best waiter ever! lol) and sat at two tables that were right beside each other. All my large plans of grandeur fell through the cracks. lol. My friend EK is being baptised tomorrow! But she was at the other table. lol. I was hoping to talk about Easter and how God has changed her life. But it was good. xP. We went on an adventure afterwards and helped morally support NY as he applied for jobs.

Apparently MY knows AG and SK? lol. And he's gonna come to church tomorrow! =D I pray that God would really be revealing great things to him, changing his heart, and impacting him with His love and forgiveness. May he see that it isn't based on your works, but faith that God forgives and justifies. May he see what a church can be, a community of believers that love one another. I pray that we would become that even more, that no one would feel unloved by their brothers and sisters in Christ.

After I got home from the adventure I kinda 'took a break'. lol. I was feeling really tired. I read a couple articles about stuff. lol. About sex and relationships, about putting ministry ahead of family, and about real church community. Then I proceeded to do not much. I was really craving time in the Word, so I read some Psalms, a chapter of Mark and a few chapters of Romans. Really good. xP. I miss it when I get 'busy'. There's really no reason why I couldn't have read it today or yesterday.

So, ya, xP. God does great things and I never wanna stop telling them, but I can't do it on my own. I need rest now and then and more importantly I need to rely on Him as my strength and refuge.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

PS. Latvia!

Who am I?

Today was cool.

I got to meet up with my friend JW (lol. I'll tell you a funny story about that in person). We haven't had time to talk in a while, like since last spring. No, we have talked a bit since then, but it was mainly texting and a couple shorter random meetings. lol.

Other than that I really didn't do too much. lol.

Well, I got to chill with AY for a bit. Hehe. I've wanted to be his friend and get his cell phone number for a long time. xP Success! Bonus: He said he was interested in going to OCBC for Easter / maybe Good Friday! xP


Anyways, since I don't have much to say, you should watch this three minute video. It says a lot more than I can in text. I made it. It's about how I craved identity, searched for it and have found it.



Ttyl.

D.Fa

PS. Chile!

A Weird Sort of Feeling

Yo. Today was cool. I guess.

Whoa. It's still Monday. o.0




It was really long. I had two dreams last night. Both were variations of dreams I had had before.

The first was like Christmas at my parents', primarily my mom decorating a randomly placed upside down mini Christmas tree. Really odd premise, but it was a dream I have had before. The variations came in that LT was there and at one point the doorbell rang and there were a bunch of really scary wolves outside and I wasn't closing the door I was kinda trying to scare them off, but it wasn't working. I woke up at that point I think. My heart was racing. They were really scary and they were gonna attack me. Why didn't I close the door?! I took a deep breath, told myself it was a dream and went back to sleep (and closed the door). lol. The dream continued peacefully for a bit.

The second dream was like a parkour through a much more massive and inconveniently designed Carleton campus to get to the bus or train or whatever that was leaving to go to the beach..? Weird? Yep. lol. This time I was just focussed on getting to the end. I think there were some other goals the last time I had the dream. Additionally at one point I realized that I had forgotten to put on my shoes (the slip on ones that I had in Asia) so I had to run back to my bike to get them..? lol.

I ended up sleeping in a bit. lol. My alarm clock hasn't been plugged in since Friday. I thought it was too much work to plug it back in (I have to move my dresser and bookcase to do so) and I rationalized that I'd be moving soon. lol. (Maybe in a week or two?)

Anyways, sleeping in Analytical, Angry Birds in Inorgo. Then I got to work writing letters again. Also catching up on blogs and some emailing. I'm trying to find a volunteer lab position. It's harder than I thought. lol

Then I had DG. We got there on time and 15 minutes later I realized LT had told me that me or RM were in charge this week. Ooops. lol. So, I was in charge. lol. Today was about engaging our friends with the gospel after posting our 'myStory's and then also about how our story isn't finished, that we continue to live for Him.

Anyways, the best thing ever. lol. My friend AJ posted her myStory today. It really shows how God can use our stories of how He has worked in our lives and changed our lives to do great things. She is from Taiwan, but now she goes to school in Toronto. God has transformed her from being the girl searching for love in relationships and partying to finding love in God who loves eternally. Although she is so far away my friend EK saw it today in Ottawa and was crying by how similar her story is, but she just has to say that 'Our God is good. I would say nothing more than that.'

So, ya. DG was awesome. I feel ready to lead. lol. (With no preparation? lol.)

Ya. It's April already. >.<

Ttyl.

D.Fa

PS. South Korea!!