Recently

So, I guess I'm still not blogging. lol.

So, I have still been doing things last second. It is very productive the last two hours before somethin g is due. There's just this pressure pushing you. lol. But really I need to stop this. There is no way that I can keep this up. Like, I'm gonna run out of energy and burn out sooner than later...

I also seriously need to get on with my support raising. lol. That's what I will do the second I stop writing this post.

So, on a lighter note: Things that I have recently seen written on the super-lab chalkboards. Well, actually, we'll start on a darker note. lol. The first couple aren't happy. lol...

-To the advertisement for I Crave Freedom written on the board "but it doesn't exist man"
-To the advertisement for Story of the Soul where we would be looking at art and media "lol. this is the chem building"
-And a while ago there was something like Jesus is the Boss on the board. There were some comments about science vs 'religion', but every time the boards get erased Jesus remains and the comments don't.
-The most recent chem joke. lol "Do you know any sodium hypobroite jokes? NaBrO."
-"danielle and taryn are the best science students EVER!"
-"I looked around and made sure no one was looking and... and I WENT IN THE GIRLS BATHROOM!"

Well, they get better. lol.

It seems there is a big conflict of interest when it comes down to science and a greater being that created it all. Scientists (to be general) often these days are just trying to prove that there is some way that everything happened that doesn't involve God. And one problem with Science is that people often end up assuming things are fact when they aren't. You can theorize things and can test and retest things to see if they occur most of the time, statistically significantly. However, you cannot prove anything. You can only support or reject hypotheses. Science cannot prove history either. There is no way to repeat something that happened, so you can't 'prove it' scientifically.

Anyways. Those boards are always funny, but I wish there was more than just science puns, and amino acids, and reaction mechanisms.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

PS. I bought six donuts today to share with my friends in Microbio. We are on a rotation and it was my turn. lol

The end of another week

Yo guys.

Long week. xP. Monday felt like a whole week on it's own... >.>

You see. I procrastinate far too often and apparently I used the I Crave Freedom campaign and Chinese New Year as reasons to legitimately not do homework. That's not cool yo.

So I ended up sleeping and eating a lot less those days. I needed to start and finish a formal analytical chemistry lab for Monday and a short lab report for organic for Tuesday. >.< Ya. I also had three tests this week. >.<

On top of that was all the project stuff in the back of my mind. I've got to get on that. I finished filling out my application today and I've got one reference completed. 

Anyways. I'm tired. lol.

Contact lenses are weird.

I should post more frequently again.

Ttyl

D.Fa

PS. Israel and Columbia!!

新年好!!!!!!!!

大家好！ 新年快乐！ 你们好吗？

大作天我们吃了。多人。 多吃饭。 多亚。 。。。 我的中文是不好。 lol...

Ya, so, two days ago we celebrated Chinese New Year at church. There were a lottttttt of people. But there was also a lot of food and a lot of joy..? lol. By that I mean, it was a really great night. There were a bunch of performances and a lot of new friends. Chinese New Year is a big thing at my church. I don't know how we will do it next year at a smaller building. lol. We were, like, over crowded as usual.

So, ya. Saturday was busy for me. I had driving lessons (my first time on snow / ice) and that was fun nearly sliding into a parked car. xP After I had practice at church for the song me and AL were singing that night. Followed just after by a discussion on music with the other worship leaders. On the way to church I remembered that I was supposed to read that chapter, but hadn't. When I saw it I realized I had, but I don't remember when exactly. lol. It was good. Then I stayed at church, finished lunch and read blog posts and then started applying for project. It's really long. lol... Then it was time for the potluck to begin.. We set up tables and chairs and extra chairs, but in the end we needed even more chairs. lol.

Ya. It was good. XP. So, we recorded the song we were going to sing in the morning.

新年快乐

I hope you enjoy it! Whether you know it's Chinese New Year or not. lol.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

I Crave Freedom

Yesterday was the first day of the I crave freedom campaign here at Carleton university.

Apparently students will just take flyers if you holds them out. Lol. I just saw that first hand.

I had a lot of class in the morning, but after 12:30 I was helping out at the main station in the atrium.

So, ya, again, to reclarify, the I Crave Freedom campaign is a week long campaign that seeks to raise awareness for the injustice that is Human Trafficking. People in North America especially don't hear very much about it and don't realize how it is not just across an Ocean, but here too, and that each person is actually supporting slavery by their lifestyle that we just take for granted.

Ya. Yesterday was sweet. Lol. Me and JB got to talk to this Muslim man who was seeking, he has been reading the Bible and everything. XP. We had a good conversation about like corruption and organizations that mistreat people for larger profit margins. He actually brought up religion and we agreed that religion will not change this, it will not even change people. Religion isn't what will set us free, it ends up being rules that we impose upon ourselves to become 'better'. Love is part of what is going to change people's hearts, love for one another, for oneself, for God.

Anyways, last night was the coffeehouse kickoff event for the week and it was cool. Minir technical difficulties at the start, but things worked out. Slam poetry is awesome yo. Lol.

Today was cool too. XP...

Ttyl

D.Fa

a Peace that trancends all understanding

Hey.

I have had a really intense day. I have been at war with God all day because of a third option that has come into view. East Asia, co-op or ... North Africa. Honestly, I have been feeling a calling to go on 'Desert Rain' Project since I started applying for East Asia last year. However, I really was uncomfortable with that. Actually I am still very uncomfortable with that idea. I want to go to Asia. I want to make friends with Asians and see them come to understand the gospel of their salvation and come into a personal relationship with Jesus. It's on my heart to do that. I want to go back so badly. Yet, I've been feeling that it's the easy way out. Like, support raising, God has come through. Going to Asia for six weeks, no problem. Being on a small team (family) for six weeks, no problem. Sharing the gospel to my new friends in Asia, not a problem when I'm living the Spirit filled life.

Now, doing those things, but here, with scientists. Scary. Very scary. I'm not very good with apologetics. I don't seek out relationships with non-asian people very much. (I know I am a bit racist. It's a problem.) It seems so much harder to me.

Then, yesterday in weekly meeting, we watched the video for the Desert Rain Project. I've seen this, like, 5 times..? Every time I get this feeling. Like, I was nearly in tears this time. There are so many people who don't know Jesus and are trying to live good enough lives to get to paradise, but they can never know. There is no hope, only obedience or punishment. Jesus came to set us  free. To give us what we don't deserve, unconditional and unending love of the one who created us and a way for us to come to know Him and begin the everlasting life.

I felt it was impossible for me, but I gave God the option of making me go there instead of Asia by putting it as my second choice. I ended up in Asia (and it was great seeing lives transformed and faces overwhelmed with hope and joy).

I also read a book about Muslim Background believers in a muslim country and it was really powerful. They suffer so much persecution for the faith, yet we as westerners often stereotype muslim people and end up not loving them the way God does. We experience nearly no persecution, although passive aggresively a culture that is hostile to Christianity.

I really don't want to go. I whined this to God all day. Even making tantrum motions a number of times (arms and legs flailing as a groan in agony). I don't want to go. It is out of my comfort zone.

Duh it is. Asia was out of my comfort zone (a little bit).

Psalm 13 "How long, O Lord? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me? How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and everyday have sorrow in my heart? How long will my enemy triumph over me? Look on me and answer, O Lord my God. Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death; my enemy will say, "I have overcome him," and my foes will rejoice when I fall. But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. I will sing to the Lord, for he has been good to me."

I read that today.

I have been trying to figure this out and I have been asking God to show me His will. I want to go where He wants me to be, whether or not that is where I want to be. Then He showed me that I should go to North Africa. ... No thanks. And then I could not have peace. I entered a wrestling match with God. The exact same feeling as back when I refused to think of giving up Pokemon for lent. Not an option in my mind.

I actually wrote it on my faith barrier back at summit too, "Be faithful wherever you go, EA, DR, work, school, everywhere." And I was thinking earlier that it's almost not even a step of faith going to Asia (in my mind anyways) and "everything that does not come from faith is sin." (Rom 14:23b)

I want to do God's will. I want to follow the path laid out for me. But, I do not want to go to Africa, I want to go to Asia... And so the wrestling match went on and on...

Actually, this morning I had a conversation with KS and we talked about Short Film Project a bit. It is a national project, so I would be getting some training on how to share the gospel with people in a Canadian context as well as all the training on video making and planning and stuff, which is sweet. I kinda really wanted to go on a national project and didn't realize SFP was one. lol. I'm pretty much set on going to Guelph for the SFP. Time to write a support letter and contact my church. lol. >.<

Ya, so. lol. I had worship practice, another couple practices then work. I had two songs stuck in my head. "Jesus, all for Jesus. All I am and have and ever hope to be" and that kept repeating as well as "Jesus, Lamb of God, worthy is Your name."

After much sorrow and agony I came to a loop hole. lol. I could apply to DR with EA as my second choice and pray so hard that I end up in Asia. lol... I actually felt peace over this. It would be role reversal from last year, where this open door, closed door policy is that if God wants me in EA he will open the door.

The thing is that I couldn't get myself to just go on DR. I didn't think I would be able. Fact: I am not able to go to Northern Africa and do God's work on my own. Only by His strength, power and Holy Spirit will I be able to do it anywhere. So, ya. He is in control and can use me wherever I go, but I want to go where he wants me.

Actually, if I end up going to Africa I think I will need some more injections and vaccinations. I cancelled my student health plan. It will cost me more. >.> God will come through.




Short story: I was going to be late for work, then CW drives up (honking at me) and gives me a drive to work. On the way he was telling me about how hard it was to start. It kept whining "Br r r ... Br r r ... I don't want to go" but then it finally went "BRRRRrrrr fine I'll go." reluctantly.

I am that frozen car. God wants me to go. I feel this calling. I want to do what God wants me to do.

So, it's up to God. Hehe. Well, actually the next part ruins it. My parents are much more scared of me going to Northern Africa than they are of East Asia. lol. So even though now I am all on board for going to North Africa and growing sooo much because I will be so far out of my comfort zone, I don't wanna go against my parent's best intentions... lol. I'm giving them a week to think about it. We will talk again. (Pray for them. lol. Also pray for my mom's vision. It's getting worse again...)

So. I have until the 30th to apply for summer projects.

I feel like I will only apply if I am applying for DR first, but I'm not sure. I don't want to apply for both co-op and Project then get a job offer and have to cancel project (because I can only reject one job offer)

Anyways AL spoiled the surprise earlier. I got a letter from myself from when I was in the capital of East Asia and I am looking forward to reading it. Maybe it will help me decide. Maybe it will say "Go on DRP". Doubtful. I wanted to go to Asia again. lol. But ya.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

PS. I have peace right now. It's kinda weird. lol.

Tough Decisions

So, like, I had a meeting with my co-op advier earlier today and it was really interesting.

She's a really awesome person. She has like a Masters in English and is the adviser for like a bunch of different faculties. When we were talking about East Asia she was excited. lol. I was actually like walking in to the meeting thinking I would like share the gospel with her and everything. lol. She was like 'if you feel you want to go to Asia, we can easily deffer the work term' and everything. like, I have a lot of flexibility. I thought I had none.

The rest of the day was really cool too. I keep running into people I haven't talked to for a while.

I got to dissect fruit fly maggots today. So much fun. Our lab coordinator is hilarious. He was really old and the equipment in the lab were all super old school. He actually did a legit slideshow with the old slide projector and everything. He was also saying that if our parents took Biology at Carleton that we were using the same microscopes. Lol. He kept tangenting and rambling and forgetting what his point was. lol.

I had this like design experiment thing this evening that was fun and interesting. Free refreshments. Hehe.

I also got to spend a lot of quality time with LT, which I don't often get to do, just after the lab and before the design experiment thing. I also lost a game of chess. >.< I didn't know about the undo button until it was too late.

So, ya. I have to come to a decision soon about what I am doing. I've actually been having an email conversation with KS (the guy in charge of the Short Film Project (SFP)) and we've been talking a bit.

Guh. Decisions.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

All Set Up by God

So, ya, as I was saying earlier, I was in charge of prayer meeting today. Actually, as it turns out, I wasn't actually. By that I mean that me and RM had just decided I was because last semester one of us was in charge of Wednesday prayer meetings, but actually that thought hadn't crossed the minds of the people in charge this semester, so AH was actually placed in charge of today's prayer meeting.

As it turns out, I didn't really start preparing until like 3:30 and even then I didn't really prepare very well. I mean, I mainly just sat down and did my Bible readings that I should have done already. Like, for my reading plan. I'm a couple days behind, well, there are only 25 days in the plan for each month, so it doesn't matter quite as much, but I hadn't done the readings for day 9 yet, so I did those ones.

Psalm 9 was really awesome. It was all about God's righteousness, His just nature, how he doesn't forget the afflicted, that their hope is everlasting, that  we can rejoice in His salvation, etc. So, a good psalm to pray through. Psalm 10 wasn't as fitting.

I also read the end of Acts 5 for day 9 and it was about Peter and his proclaiming the message of Jesus and the good news. He was thrown in jail, but an angel let him out, so he went back to preaching. He was brought before the Jewish council, but then one guy was all like 'if these guys are just doing it on their own, they'll be  defeated, but if it's from God, how can you fight it?' Which was an awesome thing to pray about for P2C's upcoming campaign, that it would be God using us, not just our own initiative.

We then also prayed for some unreached people groups and then JB told us about this guy he met on a bus from Algonquin who asked if we could pray for them. Apparently P2C might be at Algonquin this semester, which would be sweet. xP

Oh, by the way, AH didn't actually have time to prepare anything, so like, everything worked out awesomely. XP If I had done these readings yesterday, what would I have prepared? I didn't actually really prepare either, it was just like this is what I was reading earlier and it really fit. xP

So, praise God for how He worked everything out. There were eight of us at the prayer meeting today, which is great. It's the like, third prayer meeting of the year.

Ya, Ttyl.

D.Fa

I'm definately sick. lol.

So, ya. I'm pretty sick.

Yesterday I thought I had a very important meeting at 10 am with my co-op adviser. I was all rushing and everything to get there in time, the buses were late, it was wet and gross, I was wearing my hat. On the way I was all preparing to give a speech about how I know how to be professional and would list off the ways I was being unprofessional in this meeting, being a minute late rather than 15 early, how I was wearing a hat and hoodie instead of like a dress shirt with neatly combed hair, etc. Lucky me. I was there on the wrong day. lol. So, I apologized for being there on the wrong day, but I guess it's for the best.

Then I had classes 11:30-1. That's not actually that much, lol... Then I had a lab check in at 2:30. It was just a check in though, so we were gone after like 15 minutes. I got to find out who my lab partner was. RF is my lab partner this semester since NF is an engineer and only needed to take the first half of organic chemistry. We were divided into benches based on our last names and mine was one of the names dividing the groups! >.<

Then I think I wasted time. Actually I wasted a lot of time yesterday. By wasted  I mean I just chilled with some of my friends and actually did some scheduling work. My entire semester is on my calendar on my phone now.

I had class at 6 and since it was the first one of the semester she let us out very early, like 7pm. She seems to have just come from grad school. She's a bit... nevermind. lol.

Then I tried going home and  I ended up on Merivale road. What..? I ran to get on the bus that was coming at Confederation and got on the 118... lol.... So I walked from Baseline to Meadowlands. >.< It took me over an hour to get home again.

Then I cooked dinner. I love gai lan. Sooo tasty. JS gave me his and I actually bought a bag on Sunday from Kowloon Market in China town. xP So I have lots. And CW bought me garlic. A lot of garlic for 59 cents. Also, CW made cookies with the grain he used to make his beer. The grain is really boring. I added some to my oatmeal and it was gross. lol... It's better as a chocolate chip cookie though, but the other batch of grain was tastier on its own than this batch.

Ya, so today I had a bunch of classes until 1 and have 'wasted' more time. I actually got to see TG and found out why I haven't seen her this year. She switched into English / Film.

A resolution I have this year is that when I see someone I know by name I will say hello. I don't want to waste the opportunities God is giving me to build relationships with the people I know and/or share the gospel with them.

Ok, gotta prepare for a prayer meeting.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

PS!!! I'm really super excited for my friends who are going to go on a Short Term INTernational missions trip (STINT) to East Asia in the near future! Both JL and TL!!!!

China Town: I don't currently live here.

So, today was the fourth day of school this semester.

It was my first three hour lecture.
It was my first lab of the semester.
I had four 'official meeting's, which is what I need to do to actually know someone is be all awkward and be like, 'I don't think we've actually met officially. *puts out hand* I'm D.Fa, nice to meet you.' and then continue with our officially established friendship, since it couldn't go anywhere until we officially met. lol... One girl, RL, was wearing a cross. I want to ask her about that.
My lab partner for Analytical Chemistry is from Malaysia.
SM is like, my best friend now. lol. It's really hard not accidentally treating him like he is younger than me. He's more mature than me in a lot of ways.
As much as I want to be honest, I also kinda don't sometimes.
I had lunch in the like 10 minutes between my three-hour analytical lecture and my inorgo tutorial and it was really a bit awkward because this Chinese girl was doing the same thing and we were both sitting at the same table, but we didn't talk.  lol........ >.< There was no time. I had to eat it in like 4 minutes. >.<
I was really tired after the M22 meeting thingee (we talked about this new thing we are going to be doing, which is like TEDTalks, if you know what that is, but we're starting from like a topic that really interests us and then drawing connections between something random or something. Over the next 6-8 weeks we will develop a 10-15 minute presentation that will be awesome. lol) so when running across the road, under the bridge etc to get to the 111 on time, I accidentally got on the 4 and ended up in China Town before I realized I wasn't going in the right direction. >_<...

The other day I was kinda semi-obsessed with the song "We Found Love" by Rihanna. It's catchy, but I guess the song doesn't really have all that much musicality to it. The majority of the song is the chorus (ie the one line repeated four times) and the narrated intro by that British lady. What I take from the song and the video is that we crave love and we try everything to find it in the world. We fall really low and it doesn't satisfy. Once it's over, we would have it back just for that feeling that we are loved. But really after all of that when you are feeling the worst, when you've tried nearly everything and don't even love yourself anymore there is one who always loved you. There is one who will always love you as a precious and dearly beloved child. Even in that hopeless place there is love and it is waiting faithfully for you to come and experience that love. God loved us, the world and everyone in it made in his image, so much that even while we were going our own ways trying to search independently for things to satisfy our souls that He was there and sent his only Son to be the sacrifice required to bridge the gap we ourselves had voluntarily and willfully created.

Well, ya.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

PS. Cote d'Ivoire! w00t!

Learning How To Bench

Yo, so today. Pretty random.

So, me, RL and EP were gonna go to the Carleton gym together at 9:30. I go to animal bio at 8:30 and leave at like 9:15. When I get to the athletics building (opposite side of campus) I read a text that said it was rescheduled to 1pm. Ok.

Class until 1pm. Then the gym. RL. Respect yo.

Then I was planning to bus home and have a shower because I was really sweaty after the 15 minutes of biking. When my heart rate goes up, I sweat a lot and my body temperature goes up. Until I cool down I do not stop sweating. So, like I was waiting 10 minutes for the bus in a t-shirt while everyone else was wearing layers upon layers. There's like some 111s that go from school to Billings, but that's not useful... So waiting and waiting. I got cold, so I went to my locker to get my coat and I ended up staying. Lol.

I wasted quite a bit of time on youtube and stuff...

The first weekly meeting of P2C Carleton was tonight. I texted soooooo many people and there were so few. Lol. Third day of school, ya right. Lol. It was good though, brainstormed some iCF stuff. Got that rolling a bit. Only 10 days left!

Ya. We went to Billings McDs and ate stuff and played Contact. Fun times. I may be doing homework all day tomorrow. Lol

Ttyl

D.Fa

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Technology Ruins Romance

Yo, so today was fun. Lol.

I woke up at like 7:30 and didn't have class until 11:30. I had breakfast and read the Bible and went to the store to buy groceries and check my work schedule and stuff. Then I came back and helped CW make beer for a bit.

I got to school and SP is in my Organic Chem class! Yay!

Actually, I realize that I know a lot of the people in my classes, but haven't really shared the gospel with them. I jave like 3 months before co-op makes them a different year than me...

Ya. After class I helped hang teaser posters and write stuff on chalkboards for the I crave Freedom campaign.

TM had a surprise Birthday party and we also had YA (which I can go to this semester!).

Ya. Tomorrow should be cool too.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

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Bleeding on the inside and out

Hey guys. Tough day... Lol

First day of class in a month. Two real classes and one extra for knowledge, although I will likely stop auditing it since it's at 8:30am both Wednesday and Friday.

Ya. Our genetics prof looks like a funny guy though.

Books are expensive... Also not having access to a laptop all the time things harder... 170$ for repairs, so it looks like im getting a new one soon.

I'm writing this on a blogger app that I downloaded. XP I think I downloaded like four since yesterday afternoon. My battery only lasted until like two pm before it told me to plug our in...

Ya... Not much to say today I guess. Lol. I was instant messaging my friend from East Asia on the buys this nothing. XP I think I will refer to him as Adam. I miss Adam. I miss Joey too... I got to talk with Joey a couple days ago briefly. It was like 2am for him and he was studying for a final exam that afternoon.

Ah, I wanna go to Asia... I sent an email and an application for co-op work study term pattern change. So hopefully I'll get to meet up with my co-op advisor and talk about it.

I just want it decided at this point. Lol. God will use any and all of the decisions for His purposes.

Yep. XP. Ttyl

D.Fa

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I'm old...

Hey guys. So, it looks like at the very minimum that I will be without a computer for a couple days. So, this is being written from my android's internet. Lol The other day a friend said to me that if you are connected to wifi that it doesn't count as data, but just nothing. Lol. I hope so because O just watched a video on my phone. Lol. I am getting better at typing on my phone. The only thing is at you don't get the satisfaction of feeling sthe buttonspressed as you are typing. (and apparentlyvit is essentially impossible for me to add or remove words from the center of my text since it is soooooo hard to get to the right place...) Ya, so today I slept in a bit. Then I made breakfast for me and my brother. Scrambled eggs with many vegetables, what I learned in Quebec. Still can't crack an egg properly evwry time though. Lol. Then I read / typed up some notes taken during the seminars at WinterConferwnce. AL made a google doc for us to share what we learned with everyone else.. Ya. Then I started cleaning my room and packing up all my clothes. That's the majority of the day right there. Lol. Then my dad came home to take my laptop away for inspection. They coukdn't give us an estimateu without taking it for a day. Lol. Then we had dinner and then the conversation I had beeb procrastinating having... The converaation about thw future... Si, the main conclusions are that I think I shouldn't skip co-op since botg my parents got jobs for after school from their co-op jobs. Also, my parenys will support me whateve I choose to do, which is awesome. Also, I need my wisdom teeth dealt with, I am fine with missing weekly meeting for that. Ummm. I need to see if I can change my co-op term schedule. If I can change it to fall, winter, fall, winter, I will likely go on project twice more before 'third uyear'. However, if I can't switch it I will go on Short Film Project this reading week and STINT will be a much larger possibility in the future. Gotta get on that thoigh, cause applocations for Short Film Project arre due on the 15th. > <... Ttyl. D.Fa PS. Austria and UAE! w00t! PPS... Sooo many typos and trying to fix them just makes more....

Where to go from here?

Ok, so.

Yesterday and today were very different days from the norm. Yesterday I had a number of things that I expected to do that I did not and a bunch of things I did not expect happen. Today however, I mainly just did a couple things and now it's pretty much over...

Yesterday morning around 4am I decided I'd finalize my plans for the day. I asked a couple people what they were doing, if they were going to church, where that was, etc. And it came down to one of my roommates. I would go with them to church at 8:30 and do whatever they were doing until 2:30 when I had to be in Scarborough for another church service at Charis EFree. Then I'd be on the bus at 7 and home by midnight. done.

Well, turns out they didn't have room in their car, so I had to find someone else. Most of by good friends had already left however, so I had to find someone else. In the end I went with DS, AS, RS and IC after helping with some tear down of the main ballroom (so much bigger when empty) and squeezing into a car. I ended up having lunch at their house and meeting AS's parents. So funny. She's sooo Scottish and he's really Chinese. lol. Giant Rice cooker.

After watching some HGTV and having lunch I got a drive to Charis. The service was very much primarily in Mandarin, but the worship slides had English (mainly for the kids I guess) and I just prayed most of the time (that I wasn't semi-asleep...). I was really tired, so I kinda couldn't focus during the main message (fully in Mandarin, no slides) except that it was about 2 Cor 5:17-19. Those who are in Christ are made a new creation. The old is gone the new has come. His grace and forgiveness is over those who place their faith in Him. This is through the cross, His death and resurrection. Both paying for our sins and giving us hope. But also He has given us His message of reconciliation. It wasn't just for me that He died, but for everyone. Would you keep the best thing ever given to you just for yourself? Or would you share it?

That's part of the motivation behind us doing Vacation Bible School (VBS)  in Charis back in the summer; sharing the message of reconciliation with the children. That they may hear about God's love for them, their own sins that separate them and God, but also the fact that Jesus had died for them already so that they can recieve Him if they desire and be given the eternal life offered.

This is where the best part of yesterday comes in.

M(?) and A(?). They had just been to Charis for the first time ever the day before VBS started and decided to stay and help out that week. They heard the gospel. They helped out. They grew so much in that week. They prayed voluntarily. They became friends with the other youth and children. They got their own Bibles. They were able to articulate the gospel.

Coming back to Charis, the first thing I see is M(?) playing piano in the service. They are serving in the church. I also got to see how many children there were. After the service ended, we were invited upstairs for a 'special prayer time' with A(?), M(?), LX and K(?) as well as Pastor S(?) and Auntie J(?). The four of them wanted to pray to receive Christ as their Savior! It's such a great testimony of what God is doing at Charis. Seeing lives changed and saved. Seeing the youth grow passionately and helping serve in the church. I just pray that they'd grow up walking with God and fully being used to reach out to others.

All the kids asked excitedly if we were having VBS this year too. God knows. lol.

Yeah. We had to leave shortly after that, but it's true, there is a giant party in heaven right now over those four turning back to God.

We got on the bus at 7 and shortly after a man approached us asking if we wanted to make a stop or just get home as soon as possible. ASAP please. lol. Me and AL had a really good conversation. I think we were both super tired, but the conversation is still so vivid in my mind. I cried a lot... lol. I cried a lot yesterday. (I also cried around 4am because we were leaving WC and all the new friends and stuff. Even after telling myself over and over that we all get to go to heaven. WC was a glimpse of Heaven on Earth you could say. Constantly worshiping God, singing songs of praise, being surrounded by our brothers and sisters in Christ and being in such a loving community.

Ya, that conversation was really good. If only I could always have a good few good hours to think about things aloud with a good friend and God. I was praying about things and I guess the reached conclusion was that I judge things way too quickly and definitely with little input from reliable sources. In other words, I was the one supporting or going against the options and it was final even though it shouldn't be. Ah... I wanna go to Asia, even if it's only 6 weeks. I don't know if I want to go into a Science career, but I don't really want to change degrees. I don't want to knock down Science yet though, I would like to try it out a bit first. However, I don't really want to do Co-op during the summer because then I couldn't go to Asia. However, I would be fine taking an extra year for co-op (ie, two years). While at the same time, going to Asia for a longer period is becoming another option on the distant horizon. Also, Power to Change (P2C) (the former C4C) is not the only way of serving God in missions or even locally. So complicated.

So, ya. Today I slept until 1. Woke up and basically started cleaning my laptop of unused files and packaging it into folders and stuff, then copying it to USB or SD cards so that we could have FutureShop or someone look at the fan / it to see if they could fix it or whatever. 250$ for a fan. Not happening. They gave us another place's number which I get to call tomorrow. If that is also very expensive then it looks like I get a new laptop. >.<

Ya. That's it basically.

Talk to you later.

D.Fa

PS. A couple months ago I was given a Bible reading plan. The whole Bible in a year, four sections at a time and I had decided to start that come January, so that's one thing I'm doing this year. Actually my friend AZ also started the same one. lol.

NYE2011

That was awesome. Honestly, great party, even though it was mostly just dancing. Lol. Fuzzy + no shoes = something that belongs in a jungle. Duhh Today was good. Not too busy, but good. Main session was gender split and the guys talk was on 2 Tim 2. Today was primarily free time, so, I got to spend time with NM and RZ. We had dumplings. Then my EA family was going to have a skype date, so everyone came. XP including MN and NW! They are both so cute. Lol. NW is walking and MN plays hockey. Lol. We spent hours playing with MN trying to teach him to walk or put the shaped blocks in the holes. Lol. No luck. Lol Main session was mainly prayer and a mashup of choruses. The party was awesome. AF just needs encouragement to dance. Lol. I'm having that feeling of sadness in saying goodbye to everyone tomorrow even though I know we have eternity together. Praying and worshiping into the new year. Best thing ever again. Lol Ttyl. D.Fa