Ok, so a lot of the time I just tell you random things that happen in my life. I will also let you know more about what my professors are like in this post.
To begin with, me and SM went sharing on campus again. We started off in the food court (which is where I went sharing for the first time with SS!) We ended up meeting D(?) and having a really great conversation. His mom used to go to church, but after a fight with his dad, she went less often or something and just he has only been to church for like Easter and Christmas. He is a criminal law student and he is really passionate about justice. He wouldn't want to be condemning innocent people or defending those who are guilty.
We got to talking about our craving for justice and how God can satisfy our craving. Jesus took all of the injustice to bring us life and pay for our mistakes and we know that God will in the end bring each of us to judgement, but human law doesn't satisfy. He was really interested. We got to talking about the gospel, and it seemed a little odd to us that he hadn't really heard it before. He had to go write a last minute paper, but he asked for contact information, which is awesome.
We also got to talk with M(?), which was brought about partially because me and SM were talking about wearing cross necklaces, which he was. He has a Catholic background, but isn't practicing, and is even pretty much agnostic now. When we were talking to him, he was saying how he believed God is imperfect just like us, that perfection is found in imperfection. There is definitely beauty in the imperfect, we have been made in his image, but God's wrath was always righteous, not on a whim. God is perfect, if he wasn't, we wouldn't worship him.
Anyways, we got to talking about his cross necklace and it was apparently more for sentimental value given to him by a friend. He just always wears it. He actually forgot he was wearing it when I asked. lol. Then I got to tell him about my bracelet and how it also has meaning. How the gold string means that we were created in the image of God as perfect and holy, but as the dark string explains, we have all fallen away and become sinful people, separated from God and His love for us. But there is nothing we could/can do by our power to bridge the gap. But out of God's great love for us, he sent his only Son to die for our sins. The red string represents His blood that has been poured out for us. God sent His son to die on the cross for us. For you and me. So that our sins could be payed for. The sins which separated us have been forgiven and paid for. So in God's sight we are white as snow, which is what the clean string represents. Finally the green string represents our growing relationship with God. When we accept Jesus as our savior, our relationship as God's children is reestablished and eternal life begins.
Ya. We got to talk for a little while after that. We found out a bit about him and his past jobs and what he's into. It turns out we have some mutual friends and we're actually both in Raven's log and CUJA. lol. >.> Ya, so I'll be seeing him around I guess. xP
Ya, so.
My plant bio prof. He's pretty crazy. lol.
http://science.carleton.ca/news/11/one-faculty-members-commute-work-first-snowy-day-ottawa
Yep. That's my crazy Bio prof that canoes to work, wears a sweater, leg warmers and nothing on his feet while speaking, can't use clicker technology, doesn't have definitive answers for questions, has a large grey beard and often talks about plants that drugs are made from in class. He's pretty weird. We went to the greenhouses today after class on a field trip. lol
He's pretty weird. He talked for over a week about Maple Syrup. He asked us to bring knives to class so that we could cut a beet and see the multiple vascular cambia. He has described pollen in a very odd way when we were talking about 'plant sex'. He described pollen as 'detachable penises' >.> Sorry if that's too much to handle. It's a really weird class. xP
Ya.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
PS! No Way!!! Azerbaijan!!! We were praying about it earlier today!
30.11.11
28.11.11
What is Christmas about?
You know what is awesome?
Getting to talk to my friend that I haven't seen in months and on top of that being able to talk to her about Jesus.
She really likes Christmas, especially the movies and songs. "or maybe i should say i like songs about christmas,i just like that kind of feelings.so warm ,so peaceful".
We kept talking and I guess I figured Christmas is all about love. Specifically God's great and immeasurable love for us.
My friend had a conversation with AL before about how we were created, humans were created to be in a loving relationship with God. He loves us and has a plan for our lives, but we chose to go our own way and have become separated from Him. Not only have we become separated, but we have no way of returning by ourselves. Nothing we can do can right the wrongs we have made or earn our way back. God is perfect, but we weren't. But God loved us so much that He gave His one and only Son.
That is where Christmas comes in. "Christmas is the day we celebrate Jesus being born into the world, born into the world out of God's love for us, born into the world so that we could be saved and the separation between us and God bridged." I think it's also the reason that we give gifts to each other.
I asked her "why do you think we give gifts?" and she answered "giving ,because god gives us so much,and we should share the greates love?" (That made me so happy. lol)
God gave us the greatest gift of all.
He gave us His only Son and even sent Him to die defeating sin and death and rose to life again giving us hope and new life. She thanked me for explaining what Christmas was and thought that all this was "great".
The only thing is that actually (as we learned in church on Sunday) God commands a response. We need to do more than just know these things. Acts 17:30.
God commands a response.
Anyways.
I hope to have more time to talk with her and my other friends from East Asia. It's really encouraging to see the seeds planted continue growing and hearing about all the other stuff that is happening here, there and everywhere to the glory of God.
Ya.
Ttyl.
=D.Fa
Getting to talk to my friend that I haven't seen in months and on top of that being able to talk to her about Jesus.
She really likes Christmas, especially the movies and songs. "or maybe i should say i like songs about christmas,i just like that kind of feelings.so warm ,so peaceful".
We kept talking and I guess I figured Christmas is all about love. Specifically God's great and immeasurable love for us.
My friend had a conversation with AL before about how we were created, humans were created to be in a loving relationship with God. He loves us and has a plan for our lives, but we chose to go our own way and have become separated from Him. Not only have we become separated, but we have no way of returning by ourselves. Nothing we can do can right the wrongs we have made or earn our way back. God is perfect, but we weren't. But God loved us so much that He gave His one and only Son.
That is where Christmas comes in. "Christmas is the day we celebrate Jesus being born into the world, born into the world out of God's love for us, born into the world so that we could be saved and the separation between us and God bridged." I think it's also the reason that we give gifts to each other.
I asked her "why do you think we give gifts?" and she answered "giving ,because god gives us so much,and we should share the greates love?" (That made me so happy. lol)
God gave us the greatest gift of all.
He gave us His only Son and even sent Him to die defeating sin and death and rose to life again giving us hope and new life. She thanked me for explaining what Christmas was and thought that all this was "great".
The only thing is that actually (as we learned in church on Sunday) God commands a response. We need to do more than just know these things. Acts 17:30.
God commands a response.
Anyways.
I hope to have more time to talk with her and my other friends from East Asia. It's really encouraging to see the seeds planted continue growing and hearing about all the other stuff that is happening here, there and everywhere to the glory of God.
Ya.
Ttyl.
=D.Fa
25.11.11
Non-Wasted Time
I guess you could say this week was pretty cool. I haven't really had time to post due to two lab reports due this morning and everything, but ya. The week is over.
I got to go sharing with SM on Thursday. It was pretty sweet. I mean, we were going to go Wednesday, but he had some work, so Thursday 11:45. He had some work pop up again, so we rescheduled to 1.
SM. I can't wait to see how God uses SM in the future. His prayers are always so genuine and passionate. Ya. He had only gone sharing a couple times before and he didn't really count them. I asked him questions and briefed him on the how and what to expect. And so we went. I may have put a bit of pressure on him because when I go with someone else, I kinda make them choose who we are talking to. It's one of my biggest sharing weaknesses (as you can tell from my past posts) so I mentally trade the responsibility to my partner and prepare to start a conversation, which I'm also not the best at. Just not worrying for hours about who to approach makes the initial approach sooooo much easier.
Ya, we ended up speaking with two Catholic guys from Ottawa, but our conversation was cut short by class. From what we talked about it seemed like church was a family thing. We spoke about a bunch of things. We didn't quite get to the KGP, but we gave them a couple to look over. We definitely spoke about the gospel in conversation. It was good.
Then we approached another couple guys, but they had a lot of work to do. He said that he had been approached before, but that he was very interested, so if we see him again, he wants us to approach. lol.
Next was a guy with a class in a couple minutes.
And finally we talked to this Muslim asian guy. I didn't expect that. lol We were talking and apparently both SM and him were from the same town! Pretty cool. I asked what he knew about Jesus, but he said he didn't know much, so I asked SM and he basically shared the gospel. Not usually the approach, but when I asked if he would like to look at the KGP booklet with us he said he wasn't interested right now, but that he'd share it with his friends. So, basically, by the Spirit's leading SM shared the gospel because God knew the KGP was the wrong approach. PTL. lol
An hour spent for the Lord is not wasted.
I hope SM has learned a bit about sharing, that it doesn't matter who you approach or their initial response, and that SM has grown a bit. I seem to have spent a lot of time socializing this week. This isn't nearly as much of a waste of time as facebook/youtube in isolation though.
I got to know SP and K(?) way better as well as now that the first step in talking to JXW about spiritual things is out of the way, the other half of my life, the part that has Jesus in every bit of it can be talked about much more easily. xP
Ya. This morning I ran to school. Well, partly. Me and CW left at the same time and for a portion of the journey I was ahead of him even though he was on bike. xP
Ya. I still have three more things on my list of things to blog about.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
I got to go sharing with SM on Thursday. It was pretty sweet. I mean, we were going to go Wednesday, but he had some work, so Thursday 11:45. He had some work pop up again, so we rescheduled to 1.
SM. I can't wait to see how God uses SM in the future. His prayers are always so genuine and passionate. Ya. He had only gone sharing a couple times before and he didn't really count them. I asked him questions and briefed him on the how and what to expect. And so we went. I may have put a bit of pressure on him because when I go with someone else, I kinda make them choose who we are talking to. It's one of my biggest sharing weaknesses (as you can tell from my past posts) so I mentally trade the responsibility to my partner and prepare to start a conversation, which I'm also not the best at. Just not worrying for hours about who to approach makes the initial approach sooooo much easier.
Ya, we ended up speaking with two Catholic guys from Ottawa, but our conversation was cut short by class. From what we talked about it seemed like church was a family thing. We spoke about a bunch of things. We didn't quite get to the KGP, but we gave them a couple to look over. We definitely spoke about the gospel in conversation. It was good.
Then we approached another couple guys, but they had a lot of work to do. He said that he had been approached before, but that he was very interested, so if we see him again, he wants us to approach. lol.
Next was a guy with a class in a couple minutes.
And finally we talked to this Muslim asian guy. I didn't expect that. lol We were talking and apparently both SM and him were from the same town! Pretty cool. I asked what he knew about Jesus, but he said he didn't know much, so I asked SM and he basically shared the gospel. Not usually the approach, but when I asked if he would like to look at the KGP booklet with us he said he wasn't interested right now, but that he'd share it with his friends. So, basically, by the Spirit's leading SM shared the gospel because God knew the KGP was the wrong approach. PTL. lol
An hour spent for the Lord is not wasted.
I hope SM has learned a bit about sharing, that it doesn't matter who you approach or their initial response, and that SM has grown a bit. I seem to have spent a lot of time socializing this week. This isn't nearly as much of a waste of time as facebook/youtube in isolation though.
I got to know SP and K(?) way better as well as now that the first step in talking to JXW about spiritual things is out of the way, the other half of my life, the part that has Jesus in every bit of it can be talked about much more easily. xP
Ya. This morning I ran to school. Well, partly. Me and CW left at the same time and for a portion of the journey I was ahead of him even though he was on bike. xP
Ya. I still have three more things on my list of things to blog about.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
21.11.11
Seven hours of Sleep
Well, I'm done my final phys chem lab!! =D Now I just need to do the report... But it's only an interview, not even an informal report. xP
Ya. I guess I didn't really finish it until really recently. Like, I finished it at 2:29ish..? (Due at 2:35 in the lab) I got 7 hours of sleep though. xP And it's not worth very much, which is annoying, but means it doesn't matter as much. lol.
Ya. Yesterday I didn't get home from my audition until like 3:30. Actually 3:24 exactly. lol (that was retrieved from my Moleskine time data book (MTDB for short)) Then I had lunch and watched anime because I was really hungry. I really should have worked some more on my lab though. >.> I really didn't do much while I was at home.
Ya. The audition was pretty good. I got to sing 'In Christ Alone' and did a scene with two girls. The one was really good. As much as I want a role, I hope she gets one. The other girl seemed really shy and her acting wasn't the best, but while we were actually doing the scene she did way better then while we were practicing.
Acts class was good. It's really cool because it's with a bunch of people I don't spend much time with. DE, TR, NE, JS, and AZ. Ya. We talked about missionaries, what that even means, what it should mean, how OCBC supports missionaries and some other stuff.
Ok. Last hour of the day and I am working on my chem lab. CW decides to teach me how to clean the bathroom (for actual reasons, not randomly). I was supposed to clean the bathroom this week, but I was making excuses like 'but they just did the sealing on the bathtub yesterday', 'I don't know how', etc. lol. I actually did want to see CW's technique since he was the judge / he is the best at cleaning it. You've got to learn the standards from the one who sets them, eh? Lol. So, he taught me verbally and with arm motions and concluded it with an encouraging 'Go!' then went downstairs. I immediately turned the bathroom light off and went downstairs too. JS though this was very funny. I did too. lol
So, in the last hour I did a reflection on Ephesians 4 which is really cool and in the last 20 minutes did the bathroom.
Then I went downstairs to bed (before CW for once. xP) so he was displaced to the living room. I was really hyper for some reason, so I did some push-ups then went to bed.
I feel like every time I'm in the same room as a sleeping CW, he wakes up. Always. Which made me feel bad for the longest time, but now I don't care because it's unavoidable. >.>
I definitely do not remember him going to sleep. xP
Ttyl.
D.Fa
Ya. I guess I didn't really finish it until really recently. Like, I finished it at 2:29ish..? (Due at 2:35 in the lab) I got 7 hours of sleep though. xP And it's not worth very much, which is annoying, but means it doesn't matter as much. lol.
Ya. Yesterday I didn't get home from my audition until like 3:30. Actually 3:24 exactly. lol (that was retrieved from my Moleskine time data book (MTDB for short)) Then I had lunch and watched anime because I was really hungry. I really should have worked some more on my lab though. >.> I really didn't do much while I was at home.
Ya. The audition was pretty good. I got to sing 'In Christ Alone' and did a scene with two girls. The one was really good. As much as I want a role, I hope she gets one. The other girl seemed really shy and her acting wasn't the best, but while we were actually doing the scene she did way better then while we were practicing.
Acts class was good. It's really cool because it's with a bunch of people I don't spend much time with. DE, TR, NE, JS, and AZ. Ya. We talked about missionaries, what that even means, what it should mean, how OCBC supports missionaries and some other stuff.
Ok. Last hour of the day and I am working on my chem lab. CW decides to teach me how to clean the bathroom (for actual reasons, not randomly). I was supposed to clean the bathroom this week, but I was making excuses like 'but they just did the sealing on the bathtub yesterday', 'I don't know how', etc. lol. I actually did want to see CW's technique since he was the judge / he is the best at cleaning it. You've got to learn the standards from the one who sets them, eh? Lol. So, he taught me verbally and with arm motions and concluded it with an encouraging 'Go!' then went downstairs. I immediately turned the bathroom light off and went downstairs too. JS though this was very funny. I did too. lol
So, in the last hour I did a reflection on Ephesians 4 which is really cool and in the last 20 minutes did the bathroom.
Then I went downstairs to bed (before CW for once. xP) so he was displaced to the living room. I was really hyper for some reason, so I did some push-ups then went to bed.
I feel like every time I'm in the same room as a sleeping CW, he wakes up. Always. Which made me feel bad for the longest time, but now I don't care because it's unavoidable. >.>
I definitely do not remember him going to sleep. xP
Ttyl.
D.Fa
20.11.11
Baptisms!
Hey!
So, this morning I slept in.... Not on purpose... I was supposed to only sleep 7 hours. >.> Anyways... It was rainy... ruin my plans to bike. Anyways... lol. I wasn't going to go to OCBC today. Instead I went to 'myCHURCH'. myCHURCH does not mean the same thing as 'my church'. it is instead the name of a church, or group of people (which is what a church is, a group of believers). They usually have service in a theatre downtown I think, but ya, this morning they were in my Biochem classroom... >.<
Why did I go?
Because DS was getting baptized! !!! =D! So exciting! And her mom got to stay in Canada for it! Ya. This morning 8 individuals proclaimed their faith in Jesus as their savior. Their stories were varying, but they all found life in the death of Jesus and the love poured out for them.
DS said it wasn't a normal service. There wasn't a sermon really, just baptisms. xP. Well, there was what could be called a worship concert and offering before the baptisms. myCHURCH really loves smoke machines and audio-visual stuff apparently. There were 9 people on worship team. The pastor was really 'hip' with his "Tom's" and his plaid shirt and everything. lol...
It was different, but I was told it wasn't a normal service, so I'll let it slide. I hope there is more Bible in it usually then there was this time.
Overall, it was great seeing DS and the others being 'dunked' and like 10 people raised their hand saying that they wanted to accept Jesus into their lives today, so I guess that was good. They proclaimed the gospel throughout the time there.
I guess that was my fourth church that I've been to. Apparently I know a few people that go to it, including IP, a grade 11 student. This blew away my stigma towards myCHURCH as being the church with only university students (there were a number of adults too, just ya, I guess I thought everyone would be older rather than younger..?).
I'm also really excited for MC's baptism next week! (I can't go to it though.... =< )
Ya.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
PS. Belarus!
So, this morning I slept in.... Not on purpose... I was supposed to only sleep 7 hours. >.> Anyways... It was rainy... ruin my plans to bike. Anyways... lol. I wasn't going to go to OCBC today. Instead I went to 'myCHURCH'. myCHURCH does not mean the same thing as 'my church'. it is instead the name of a church, or group of people (which is what a church is, a group of believers). They usually have service in a theatre downtown I think, but ya, this morning they were in my Biochem classroom... >.<
Why did I go?
Because DS was getting baptized! !!! =D! So exciting! And her mom got to stay in Canada for it! Ya. This morning 8 individuals proclaimed their faith in Jesus as their savior. Their stories were varying, but they all found life in the death of Jesus and the love poured out for them.
DS said it wasn't a normal service. There wasn't a sermon really, just baptisms. xP. Well, there was what could be called a worship concert and offering before the baptisms. myCHURCH really loves smoke machines and audio-visual stuff apparently. There were 9 people on worship team. The pastor was really 'hip' with his "Tom's" and his plaid shirt and everything. lol...
It was different, but I was told it wasn't a normal service, so I'll let it slide. I hope there is more Bible in it usually then there was this time.
Overall, it was great seeing DS and the others being 'dunked' and like 10 people raised their hand saying that they wanted to accept Jesus into their lives today, so I guess that was good. They proclaimed the gospel throughout the time there.
I guess that was my fourth church that I've been to. Apparently I know a few people that go to it, including IP, a grade 11 student. This blew away my stigma towards myCHURCH as being the church with only university students (there were a number of adults too, just ya, I guess I thought everyone would be older rather than younger..?).
I'm also really excited for MC's baptism next week! (I can't go to it though.... =< )
Ya.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
PS. Belarus!
19.11.11
Time Management.
So, yesterday.
As usual I had a ton of things scheduled. I actually finished my organic chemistry prelab the night before, so I didn't have any really urgent school work to do. xP
I bussed to school. That was awkward. It was (at least according to a group on facebook) 'sing on the bus day'. I was so excited to get on the bus and just have everyone singing. Did not happen... and I didn't want to be the only person singing... and I hadn't really prepared anything... So I was like singing really quietly............... awkward.
Physical chemistry lecture. boring.
Then I was supposed to meet up with LT for our one on one discipling time. Class had ended a bit early and LT is often a bit late, so I figured that I had time to go heat up my leftovers for lunch. It was like stir-fried vegetables and clam chowder on rice. Mmm. Ya. He arrived and we continued to try and set goals for the year. I am bad at sitting down and setting goals. Like, I see the purpose of goals, but I am terrible at setting them non-spontaneously. I say non-spontaneously because I do set goals based off of experiences and what is happening and what I want to happen.
Like, ya, so, this week was supposed to be 'the swan dive' and so I made myself available to the best of my ability for the other first year guys and stuff. I offered multiple time slots everyday of the week and told them to message me if they were able to / wanted to go with me. I did not hear back from anyone. The only time I went sharing was when me and LT ran into DP and so we went. So, I set a goal. Instead of them coming to me, which they still can, I will actively pursue them and (here's the goal) go sharing with each of the other guys in C4C by the end of the year. If that means 20 or so guys, let's go. We've got like 13 weeks next semester and a week left or so. That's plenty of time. xP (especially with only 3 labs next semester. yuss.)
Ya. So, I guess (if you can't tell) I have a lot of issues with time management, but I guess I don't really associate them with so called 'spiritual growth' goals. I guess I have in my mind divided how I live and treat myself from my relationship with God..? That, that's not really good. He is Lord of all. My life should reflect that and ya, every aspect should be worship to him. So, I guess LT challenged me to do something about my time management.
The challenge: Write down what I spend my time on for a week (or two..?) while also getting 7 hours of sleep each day (or trying to).
So, you know. I really want to do this, I suppose. I mean, it's something I really need to work on and so I want to be committed to it. So, to make sure I am committed to it I bought a notebook, a pocket-sized notebook. But not even one of those dollar store ones that I can just throw away or whatever. I bought a set of two mini Moleskine notebooks. Now I am committed. I didn't buy them just because of all the hype behind moleskines, but also because they were the smallest notebooks I could find in the bookstore and that they were expensive... T.T I am not one to buy unnessecary things, especially expensive ones. It was 8$. I am committed. lol.
So, ya. Let's see how that goes. I'm trying, like, down to the minute, but not quite that intense. Just like whenever the focus switches. I'll do a bunch of analysis later. (I like data analysis =D)
Yup. Then I got to meet up with KC again. I'm really glad I get to spend time with him and that we get to spend time reading the Bible and ya, to spend time thinking about these things. We read John 2 and did a lesson on growth and the essentialness of prayer and reading the Bible and obedience in growth. So, this week we are going to read the Bible daily before bed and hold each other accountable. He had to go to work, but it was another great meeting. I can't wait until our lesson on prayer. xP. I really want to see him praying passionately.
Umm. Organic chem lab. We watched clear liquid go from one point to another really slowly by evaporating and condensing like a million times. >.> Kinda boring, but we know what our liquids were! =D (which is the point of the experiment. Separating two liquids and determining which they were by testing them.)
Then me and NF went to Story of the Soul (after a brief chat with MC who played on worship team with NF at Getaway two years ago!). SotS was good. We watched a couple movie clips, looked at a painting and heard CW's testimony of hope in a difficult time. and JXW came! =D (even though the O-train broke down... >.>) Ya. There were a bunch of people there (I haven't heard an official count yet though. I counted 45 at the end, but people may have already left at that point).
Ya. Then 11 of us went to bubbletea in China town and played Apples to Apples in My Sweet Tea. lol. So fun. AG is hilarious and I think a lot of us hadn't actually had dinner, just sugary baked goods at SotS and bubbletea. lol.
Ya. I need to change. I don't want to be the one that makes you cry, but rather the one you can cry on.
I talked with CW for like half an hour before going to sleep. xP. I really wanted to do that like everyday the way me and DP did in EA. It's one thing I think good roommates should do. xP
Ya.
Ttyl. I've got to do my Phys chem lab now since I have work at 2... >.>
=D.Fa
PS. DS's baptism tomorrow!!!!!!! So exciting!
As usual I had a ton of things scheduled. I actually finished my organic chemistry prelab the night before, so I didn't have any really urgent school work to do. xP
I bussed to school. That was awkward. It was (at least according to a group on facebook) 'sing on the bus day'. I was so excited to get on the bus and just have everyone singing. Did not happen... and I didn't want to be the only person singing... and I hadn't really prepared anything... So I was like singing really quietly............... awkward.
Physical chemistry lecture. boring.
Then I was supposed to meet up with LT for our one on one discipling time. Class had ended a bit early and LT is often a bit late, so I figured that I had time to go heat up my leftovers for lunch. It was like stir-fried vegetables and clam chowder on rice. Mmm. Ya. He arrived and we continued to try and set goals for the year. I am bad at sitting down and setting goals. Like, I see the purpose of goals, but I am terrible at setting them non-spontaneously. I say non-spontaneously because I do set goals based off of experiences and what is happening and what I want to happen.
Like, ya, so, this week was supposed to be 'the swan dive' and so I made myself available to the best of my ability for the other first year guys and stuff. I offered multiple time slots everyday of the week and told them to message me if they were able to / wanted to go with me. I did not hear back from anyone. The only time I went sharing was when me and LT ran into DP and so we went. So, I set a goal. Instead of them coming to me, which they still can, I will actively pursue them and (here's the goal) go sharing with each of the other guys in C4C by the end of the year. If that means 20 or so guys, let's go. We've got like 13 weeks next semester and a week left or so. That's plenty of time. xP (especially with only 3 labs next semester. yuss.)
Ya. So, I guess (if you can't tell) I have a lot of issues with time management, but I guess I don't really associate them with so called 'spiritual growth' goals. I guess I have in my mind divided how I live and treat myself from my relationship with God..? That, that's not really good. He is Lord of all. My life should reflect that and ya, every aspect should be worship to him. So, I guess LT challenged me to do something about my time management.The challenge: Write down what I spend my time on for a week (or two..?) while also getting 7 hours of sleep each day (or trying to).
So, you know. I really want to do this, I suppose. I mean, it's something I really need to work on and so I want to be committed to it. So, to make sure I am committed to it I bought a notebook, a pocket-sized notebook. But not even one of those dollar store ones that I can just throw away or whatever. I bought a set of two mini Moleskine notebooks. Now I am committed. I didn't buy them just because of all the hype behind moleskines, but also because they were the smallest notebooks I could find in the bookstore and that they were expensive... T.T I am not one to buy unnessecary things, especially expensive ones. It was 8$. I am committed. lol.
So, ya. Let's see how that goes. I'm trying, like, down to the minute, but not quite that intense. Just like whenever the focus switches. I'll do a bunch of analysis later. (I like data analysis =D)
Yup. Then I got to meet up with KC again. I'm really glad I get to spend time with him and that we get to spend time reading the Bible and ya, to spend time thinking about these things. We read John 2 and did a lesson on growth and the essentialness of prayer and reading the Bible and obedience in growth. So, this week we are going to read the Bible daily before bed and hold each other accountable. He had to go to work, but it was another great meeting. I can't wait until our lesson on prayer. xP. I really want to see him praying passionately.
Umm. Organic chem lab. We watched clear liquid go from one point to another really slowly by evaporating and condensing like a million times. >.> Kinda boring, but we know what our liquids were! =D (which is the point of the experiment. Separating two liquids and determining which they were by testing them.)
Then me and NF went to Story of the Soul (after a brief chat with MC who played on worship team with NF at Getaway two years ago!). SotS was good. We watched a couple movie clips, looked at a painting and heard CW's testimony of hope in a difficult time. and JXW came! =D (even though the O-train broke down... >.>) Ya. There were a bunch of people there (I haven't heard an official count yet though. I counted 45 at the end, but people may have already left at that point).
Ya. Then 11 of us went to bubbletea in China town and played Apples to Apples in My Sweet Tea. lol. So fun. AG is hilarious and I think a lot of us hadn't actually had dinner, just sugary baked goods at SotS and bubbletea. lol.
Ya. I need to change. I don't want to be the one that makes you cry, but rather the one you can cry on.
I talked with CW for like half an hour before going to sleep. xP. I really wanted to do that like everyday the way me and DP did in EA. It's one thing I think good roommates should do. xP
Ya.
Ttyl. I've got to do my Phys chem lab now since I have work at 2... >.>
=D.Fa
PS. DS's baptism tomorrow!!!!!!! So exciting!
17.11.11
Things Change.
Well, I guess things change.
Yesterday was cool. XP (My memory sucks, yo. I needed to really think about that.) Yesterday was really cool because I got to talk about stuff like the Bible and prayer meetings and more stuff about C4C and the iCrave Freedom campaign with a bunch of my friends. I got to see PK who I haven't seen in a long while. We got to talk about music and food and stuff. He was working on this assignment for food studies I think. He was supposed to write out his diet for three days. He decided his own diet wasn't good for the assignment so he was basically making it up. lol. He asked if I wanted to start a band with him. >.> Interesting idea, not enough time.
Ya. xP. Today was also good. I slept in way too long, but I got to school on time after printing my lab report at home and stuff. Ummmm. I had a meeting with AG my language exchange partner. Today's story was about a girl from China who came to Canada to study and the differences between the two.
Then me and LT had a meeting with MZ and her friend about the iCF campaign and how M22 could get involved and it sounds legit. They came up with this idea about doing bus shelter informational installations or something like that. You see M22 wanted to do a bus shelter installation already to beautify the bus shelters and stuff. When we were talking today the idea that a lot of women get caught up in human trafficking when they are in transit really caught her eyes I guess and so that idea was formed. I think it will be cool though because everyone needs to use the buses at some point and ya it could be really strong.
I got to go sharing with DP after handing in my lab report. We talked to a first year computer science student with a mixed background. He was a really quiet person, but the conversation was good.
Later I got to catch up with JW for the first time in a while. Always good. xP
I managed to get a bunch of work done on my prelab for tomorrow's orgo lab (which I realized like only a couple days ago that I had to do it. xP)
Prayer meetings on Thursday are always huge. xP
Right after I went to MHS instead of Stats (this is because I am unable to go either tomorrow or Saturday and I really wanted to go) to see their fall production 'The Wave'. It has been adapted from a novel into a play and it was really well done. The casting was excellent and staging was really well done. The only minor fault was a couple little A/V things, but apparently it's because their main A/V guy has fallen ill and so they have had someone else step up and there haven't been enough practices for them, but by Saturday it'll be awesome. xP
Umm.
Ya...
I just heard some news. I'm not allowed to share it though. xP
Just watch this instead. xP
xP
Ttyl.
=D.Fa
PS. I forgot to say, I think my connections to MHS are dying and that soon I will stop attending things, but for this year at least I will continue supporting them. Perhaps I will go to all of their Musicals, but I may not... >.> It's not the way it used to be. I'm not in high school anymore.
Yesterday was cool. XP (My memory sucks, yo. I needed to really think about that.) Yesterday was really cool because I got to talk about stuff like the Bible and prayer meetings and more stuff about C4C and the iCrave Freedom campaign with a bunch of my friends. I got to see PK who I haven't seen in a long while. We got to talk about music and food and stuff. He was working on this assignment for food studies I think. He was supposed to write out his diet for three days. He decided his own diet wasn't good for the assignment so he was basically making it up. lol. He asked if I wanted to start a band with him. >.> Interesting idea, not enough time.
Ya. xP. Today was also good. I slept in way too long, but I got to school on time after printing my lab report at home and stuff. Ummmm. I had a meeting with AG my language exchange partner. Today's story was about a girl from China who came to Canada to study and the differences between the two.
Then me and LT had a meeting with MZ and her friend about the iCF campaign and how M22 could get involved and it sounds legit. They came up with this idea about doing bus shelter informational installations or something like that. You see M22 wanted to do a bus shelter installation already to beautify the bus shelters and stuff. When we were talking today the idea that a lot of women get caught up in human trafficking when they are in transit really caught her eyes I guess and so that idea was formed. I think it will be cool though because everyone needs to use the buses at some point and ya it could be really strong.
I got to go sharing with DP after handing in my lab report. We talked to a first year computer science student with a mixed background. He was a really quiet person, but the conversation was good.
Later I got to catch up with JW for the first time in a while. Always good. xP
I managed to get a bunch of work done on my prelab for tomorrow's orgo lab (which I realized like only a couple days ago that I had to do it. xP)
Prayer meetings on Thursday are always huge. xP
Right after I went to MHS instead of Stats (this is because I am unable to go either tomorrow or Saturday and I really wanted to go) to see their fall production 'The Wave'. It has been adapted from a novel into a play and it was really well done. The casting was excellent and staging was really well done. The only minor fault was a couple little A/V things, but apparently it's because their main A/V guy has fallen ill and so they have had someone else step up and there haven't been enough practices for them, but by Saturday it'll be awesome. xP
Umm.
Ya...
I just heard some news. I'm not allowed to share it though. xP
Just watch this instead. xP
xP
Ttyl.
=D.Fa
PS. I forgot to say, I think my connections to MHS are dying and that soon I will stop attending things, but for this year at least I will continue supporting them. Perhaps I will go to all of their Musicals, but I may not... >.> It's not the way it used to be. I'm not in high school anymore.
15.11.11
Watch this:
"That's upsetting"
Ya. It is.
Slavery exists today. People all over the world are forced into it and even when freed sometimes they go back because they don't have anywhere to go, or anything to do. They need a real change in their lives.
It's about more than just physical slavery, but even emotional and spiritual slavery.
But definitely even just helping them escape their physical slavery is a start, but by eternal perspectives, if you didn't just change their lives permanently, was there much of a point..? Not to be a cynic, but if you could share the good news and have their lives completely changed, coming into the knowledge that God loves them no matter what has happened to them, that He died for them and still is calling them back to himself.
I got to talk to a guy today about this event and about how him and his club can get involved. LT was also there. lol. LT is really good at telling stories. >.> In any case it seemed like God was really there and that T(?) really was thinking about what we were saying. He's going to Turkey next semester though. lol... Whatever, it was really awesome talking with him. He said that he had been to church a couple times, his parents are Buddhist and that he couldn't believe everything we told him right then, but ya, we can still pray for him. xP I still have a possible three more meetings this week with leaders to talk about the event. Exciting. xP
This event is gonna be great. Raising awareness for human trafficking and the freedom God has offered us.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
"That's upsetting"
Ya. It is.
Slavery exists today. People all over the world are forced into it and even when freed sometimes they go back because they don't have anywhere to go, or anything to do. They need a real change in their lives.
It's about more than just physical slavery, but even emotional and spiritual slavery.
But definitely even just helping them escape their physical slavery is a start, but by eternal perspectives, if you didn't just change their lives permanently, was there much of a point..? Not to be a cynic, but if you could share the good news and have their lives completely changed, coming into the knowledge that God loves them no matter what has happened to them, that He died for them and still is calling them back to himself.
I got to talk to a guy today about this event and about how him and his club can get involved. LT was also there. lol. LT is really good at telling stories. >.> In any case it seemed like God was really there and that T(?) really was thinking about what we were saying. He's going to Turkey next semester though. lol... Whatever, it was really awesome talking with him. He said that he had been to church a couple times, his parents are Buddhist and that he couldn't believe everything we told him right then, but ya, we can still pray for him. xP I still have a possible three more meetings this week with leaders to talk about the event. Exciting. xP
This event is gonna be great. Raising awareness for human trafficking and the freedom God has offered us.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
I'm weak.
Yo, it's something that has really been on my mind for a while now. I am fed up with my pride and how I portray myself to others.
I put on this image of strength and confidence sometimes. I don't ask for help from others, I will struggle through it to the end, except sometimes I do ask for help from others, except it will often only be people that I think should know less than me, someone to just jump off of with my own thinking.
I don't like to admit it when I don't know something.
I don't like to be the one in the position of weakness.
I don't like to accept food when it is offered to me.
I don't like asking for things from others when I think that I can get it myself.
I wish that I were stronger, that everything that I do would be enough, that I was perfect, that I was great.
But the truth is I am weak. I am very weak.
Yesterday I was so tired that I fell asleep accidentally. I didn't time manage properly and didn't study enough on the weekend for my midterm yesterday morning, so instead of breakfast I crammed and biked to school. Instead of lunch, I crammed for my other midterm. I tried working hard on my biochem lab, but really I didn't want to and didn't end up doing much both because I was tired and hungry. I reluctantly accepted the meal that JXW's mother had made that she didn't want. Mmmmm goat/lamb. I didn't even thank her... I was thinking about how I could for so long that I guess I thought I did... Then I was at school just dead tired until like 8pm. I went home by bus since it was raining. Then I cooked dinner.
Before starting to work on my biochem lab I went downstairs to close my eyes for a minute. I woke up at 1:30... I went to the bathroom and I'm not entirely sure what happened, but the next minute I opened my eyes and I was in the bathtub... Assumably I fell over. I just don't remember anything between standing and the bathtub. My head didn't hit anything and my back doesn't really hurt and nothing moved that was in the bathtub or on the sides, so I don't know what happened... >.<
I went back to sleep and slept in...
So, today I ate breakfast and packed the leftovers from last night. I walked to school because I was late for something, but the other guy forgot too, so no problem...
I felt really bad about how I've been mistreating my body. Not eating, not sleeping, not even doing work efficiently... I can't keep this pace up on my own. Only three weeks left. I need to do my best and at the same time find a balance in life. Not just doing school work. Not just doing C4C things. Not just wasting time. I need to rely and trust in His plans and live up to them.
Gah. His love for us is so amazing and his strength is so great. I don't want to pretend to be someone else, but live in the reality of the matter. In my weakness God's greatness is made complete. He is the one who gives us strength and power to do more than we can imagine or comprehend. Living in this present-tense perspective is also not a good idea. He gives us the eternal life and ability to know him.
I want to be strong, but I don't want to pretend any longer that I'm not weak.
Ya.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
I put on this image of strength and confidence sometimes. I don't ask for help from others, I will struggle through it to the end, except sometimes I do ask for help from others, except it will often only be people that I think should know less than me, someone to just jump off of with my own thinking.
I don't like to admit it when I don't know something.
I don't like to be the one in the position of weakness.
I don't like to accept food when it is offered to me.
I don't like asking for things from others when I think that I can get it myself.
I wish that I were stronger, that everything that I do would be enough, that I was perfect, that I was great.
But the truth is I am weak. I am very weak.
Yesterday I was so tired that I fell asleep accidentally. I didn't time manage properly and didn't study enough on the weekend for my midterm yesterday morning, so instead of breakfast I crammed and biked to school. Instead of lunch, I crammed for my other midterm. I tried working hard on my biochem lab, but really I didn't want to and didn't end up doing much both because I was tired and hungry. I reluctantly accepted the meal that JXW's mother had made that she didn't want. Mmmmm goat/lamb. I didn't even thank her... I was thinking about how I could for so long that I guess I thought I did... Then I was at school just dead tired until like 8pm. I went home by bus since it was raining. Then I cooked dinner.
Before starting to work on my biochem lab I went downstairs to close my eyes for a minute. I woke up at 1:30... I went to the bathroom and I'm not entirely sure what happened, but the next minute I opened my eyes and I was in the bathtub... Assumably I fell over. I just don't remember anything between standing and the bathtub. My head didn't hit anything and my back doesn't really hurt and nothing moved that was in the bathtub or on the sides, so I don't know what happened... >.<
I went back to sleep and slept in...
So, today I ate breakfast and packed the leftovers from last night. I walked to school because I was late for something, but the other guy forgot too, so no problem...
I felt really bad about how I've been mistreating my body. Not eating, not sleeping, not even doing work efficiently... I can't keep this pace up on my own. Only three weeks left. I need to do my best and at the same time find a balance in life. Not just doing school work. Not just doing C4C things. Not just wasting time. I need to rely and trust in His plans and live up to them.
Gah. His love for us is so amazing and his strength is so great. I don't want to pretend to be someone else, but live in the reality of the matter. In my weakness God's greatness is made complete. He is the one who gives us strength and power to do more than we can imagine or comprehend. Living in this present-tense perspective is also not a good idea. He gives us the eternal life and ability to know him.
I want to be strong, but I don't want to pretend any longer that I'm not weak.
Ya.
Ttyl.
D.Fa
12.11.11
僕の家族
So, today I had driving lessons, started writing some blog posts, went to worship leader study and went to my parents' for my Dad's birthday dinner.
Cool day. I got to drive way more and on a bunch of different roads and with traffic too! I nearly ran a red light and a couple stop signs because I was too busy thinking how far above the speed limit was acceptable. lol...
I had a bagel and a carrot then bussed to church.
There may be an awesome Christmas concert at OCBC this December, which sounds sweet.
Ya, I really like being able to spend some time with my parents. I'm actually feeling a bit homesick this year. I can't wait until the Christmas break. I keep wanting to go back to that atmosphere of Christmas at my house. Like, my house during the year is one thing, but like, during Christmas it's cleaner and has this warm atmosphere all the time. I don't know. It's different and I miss it. xP......
I never really care about the presents I mean, my parents ask me to make a Christmas list and everything and submit it to them. In previous years it was like, last second go online and look at a list of video games that I'd never play because I just don't have time. This year I did something different. I kept a list on my phone the entire year and whenever I thought I wanted something or would really like something I wrote it down and it's a very untypical list compared to the other years.
There's actually two books on it. Legit yo.
So, ya. As much as I want the things on this list, I don't need them. I don't want them as much as I want to spend time with my family over the Christmas break. Seriously. There's nothing I want more than to see my family in eternity with us.
Ya. So I keep on praying and trusting in God for his timing and plans to come to fulfillment.
Ya. Ttyl.
D.Fa
PS. Philippines!
Cool day. I got to drive way more and on a bunch of different roads and with traffic too! I nearly ran a red light and a couple stop signs because I was too busy thinking how far above the speed limit was acceptable. lol...
I had a bagel and a carrot then bussed to church.
There may be an awesome Christmas concert at OCBC this December, which sounds sweet.
Ya, I really like being able to spend some time with my parents. I'm actually feeling a bit homesick this year. I can't wait until the Christmas break. I keep wanting to go back to that atmosphere of Christmas at my house. Like, my house during the year is one thing, but like, during Christmas it's cleaner and has this warm atmosphere all the time. I don't know. It's different and I miss it. xP......
I never really care about the presents I mean, my parents ask me to make a Christmas list and everything and submit it to them. In previous years it was like, last second go online and look at a list of video games that I'd never play because I just don't have time. This year I did something different. I kept a list on my phone the entire year and whenever I thought I wanted something or would really like something I wrote it down and it's a very untypical list compared to the other years.
There's actually two books on it. Legit yo.
So, ya. As much as I want the things on this list, I don't need them. I don't want them as much as I want to spend time with my family over the Christmas break. Seriously. There's nothing I want more than to see my family in eternity with us.
Ya. So I keep on praying and trusting in God for his timing and plans to come to fulfillment.
Ya. Ttyl.
D.Fa
PS. Philippines!
Psalm 130
A song of ascents.
1 Out of the depths I cry to you, LORD;
2 Lord, hear my voice.
Let your ears be attentive
to my cry for mercy.
3 If you, LORD, kept a record of sins,
Lord, who could stand?
4 But with you there is forgiveness,
so that we can, with reverence, serve you.
5 I wait for the LORD, my whole being waits,
and in his word I put my hope.
6 I wait for the Lord
more than watchmen wait for the morning,
more than watchmen wait for the morning.
7 Israel, put your hope in the LORD,
for with the LORD is unfailing love
and with him is full redemption.
8 He himself will redeem Israel
from all their sins.
1 Out of the depths I cry to you, LORD;
2 Lord, hear my voice.
Let your ears be attentive
to my cry for mercy.
3 If you, LORD, kept a record of sins,
Lord, who could stand?
4 But with you there is forgiveness,
so that we can, with reverence, serve you.
5 I wait for the LORD, my whole being waits,
and in his word I put my hope.
6 I wait for the Lord
more than watchmen wait for the morning,
more than watchmen wait for the morning.
7 Israel, put your hope in the LORD,
for with the LORD is unfailing love
and with him is full redemption.
8 He himself will redeem Israel
from all their sins.
Reflections on Job
Earlier in the morning I had read Job 7-9 and I thought there were some interesting things, but I had no time to think about it, so I read it over again as well as 10-14... lol.
I guess I always thought Job reacted differently. From what I've read so far he's in this huge debate with his friends about God and who he is. You see, satan kinda challenged God saying that Job only worships God because of all the blessings he has, so God tells satan that he's wrong and so God let's him take some stuff away from Job. His family, his house, his stuff, his health, etc. but not his life. I thought Job would always be like 'well, I have God, so I'm good', but I see him being human. He's having trouble dealing with it. He's thinking he would rather have never been born. He's pretty annoyed and he's being pretty dramatic too like 'If only my anguish could be weighed and all my misery placed on the scales! It would surely outweigh the sand of the seas!' But he also knows how great God is and how based on ourselves we can't approach him.
Job says all of the following in the book of Job in the Bible:
9:4-10 "His wisdom is profound, his power is vast... He moves mountains ... and over turns them ... He shakes the Earth from its place and makes its pillars tremble. He speaks to the sun and it does not shine; he seals off the light of the stars. He alone stretches out the heavens and treads on the waves of the sea. He is the Maker of the Bear and Orion, the Pleiades and the constellations of the south. He performs wonders that cannot be fathomed, miracles that cannot be counted."
12:13,16 "To God belong wisdom and power; counsel and understanding are his... To him belong strength and victory"
9:19 "If it is a matter of strength, he is mighty! And if it is a matter of justice, who will summon him?"
12:10 "In his hand is the life of every creature and the breath of all mankind."
10:8-12 "Your hands shaped me and made me... you molded me like clay... Did you not pour me out like milk and curdle me like cheese, clothe me with skin and flesh and knit me together with bones and sinews? You gave life and showed me kindness, and in your providence watched over my spirit."
7:17-20 "What is man that you make so much of him, that you give him so much attention, that you examine him every morning and test him every moment? Will you never look away from me, or let me alone for even an instant? If I have sinned, what have I done to you, O watcher of men?"
10:14-15 "If I sinned, you would be watching me and would not let my offense go unpunished. If I am guilty -- woe to me! Even if I am innocent, I cannot lift my head, for I am full of shame and aware of my affliction."
9:2 "can a man be righteous before God?"
9:32-35 "He is not a man like me that I might answer him, that we might confront each other in court. If only there were someone to arbitrate between us, to lay his hand upon us both, someone to remove God's rod from me, so that his terror would frighten me no more. Then I would speak up without fear of him, but as it now stands with me, I cannot.
14:15-17 "You will call and I will answer you; you will long for the creature your hands have made. Surely then you will count my steps but not keep track of my sin. My offense will be sealed up in a bag; you will cover over my sin."
I know I can relate to what he is saying. I struggled for a long time thinking that I needed to become more righteous before I could come before God and ask for forgiveness. I knew, to a degree, that the sin in my life was extensive. I knew that and thought that I needed to fight it. Fight it myself until the battle was nearly won then let Him destroy all that was left.
That was a losing battle with no chance of winning. I'd last a couple days longer and fail again. I'd last a week longer and fail again. I wasn't making any progress and instead it was just getting to me. I was feeling frustrated. I couldn't do it and it was so hard. I read once that 'you don't know how hard it is to be good until you really try' and it's true.
The thing is that we, in 2011, live in a different time than Job and his words say more than he thinks. I mean, what he has said has actually come to pass. He longs for an arbitrator that can help him approach God. Someone that can help him stand even in the knowledge of his past sins. Someone who can bridge the gap between sinful man and the perfect, holy, creator of the Universe, God.
And the difference is that we have that arbitrator. God's wrath has been diverted. Indeed, God does not let sin go unpunished, but instead had someone else pay for us. God sent his only begotten Son to us. God came and took on flesh. He came down to Earth and became fully man while remaining fully God. He had "days like those of a mortal [and] years like those of a man" (Job 10:5). He can fully relate with us and is God. And through his death on the cross the rod of God's wrath that was on us has been redirected. We can stand firm before God because of the hope we have in this life He has given us and the love He has shown for us. Through Jesus' resurrection we see God's victory over sin and death. God is calling out to us and giving us the choice to answer or turn away.
We still go through these struggles, battling intellectually the same way Job was, but we also have the next part of the story that hadn't been written at the time when Job was alive.
As Job's friend put it "if you devote your heart to him, and stretch out your hands to him, if you put away the sin in your hand and allow no evil to dwell in your tent, then you will lift up your face without shame; you will stand firm without fear. You will surely forget your trouble, recalling it only as waters gone by. Life will be brighter than noonday, and darkness will become like morning. You will be secure, because there is hope" (Job 11:13-18)
Jesus has taken my sin and covered me in his righteousness. By Him and Him alone can I stand firm before God knowing I have been forgiven. This hope, this undeserved grace, this love poured out upon us, it's all right there, the gift of God is being offered to each of us.
I guess I always thought Job reacted differently. From what I've read so far he's in this huge debate with his friends about God and who he is. You see, satan kinda challenged God saying that Job only worships God because of all the blessings he has, so God tells satan that he's wrong and so God let's him take some stuff away from Job. His family, his house, his stuff, his health, etc. but not his life. I thought Job would always be like 'well, I have God, so I'm good', but I see him being human. He's having trouble dealing with it. He's thinking he would rather have never been born. He's pretty annoyed and he's being pretty dramatic too like 'If only my anguish could be weighed and all my misery placed on the scales! It would surely outweigh the sand of the seas!' But he also knows how great God is and how based on ourselves we can't approach him.
Job says all of the following in the book of Job in the Bible:
9:4-10 "His wisdom is profound, his power is vast... He moves mountains ... and over turns them ... He shakes the Earth from its place and makes its pillars tremble. He speaks to the sun and it does not shine; he seals off the light of the stars. He alone stretches out the heavens and treads on the waves of the sea. He is the Maker of the Bear and Orion, the Pleiades and the constellations of the south. He performs wonders that cannot be fathomed, miracles that cannot be counted."
12:13,16 "To God belong wisdom and power; counsel and understanding are his... To him belong strength and victory"
9:19 "If it is a matter of strength, he is mighty! And if it is a matter of justice, who will summon him?"
12:10 "In his hand is the life of every creature and the breath of all mankind."
10:8-12 "Your hands shaped me and made me... you molded me like clay... Did you not pour me out like milk and curdle me like cheese, clothe me with skin and flesh and knit me together with bones and sinews? You gave life and showed me kindness, and in your providence watched over my spirit."
7:17-20 "What is man that you make so much of him, that you give him so much attention, that you examine him every morning and test him every moment? Will you never look away from me, or let me alone for even an instant? If I have sinned, what have I done to you, O watcher of men?"
10:14-15 "If I sinned, you would be watching me and would not let my offense go unpunished. If I am guilty -- woe to me! Even if I am innocent, I cannot lift my head, for I am full of shame and aware of my affliction."
9:2 "can a man be righteous before God?"
9:32-35 "He is not a man like me that I might answer him, that we might confront each other in court. If only there were someone to arbitrate between us, to lay his hand upon us both, someone to remove God's rod from me, so that his terror would frighten me no more. Then I would speak up without fear of him, but as it now stands with me, I cannot.
14:15-17 "You will call and I will answer you; you will long for the creature your hands have made. Surely then you will count my steps but not keep track of my sin. My offense will be sealed up in a bag; you will cover over my sin."
I know I can relate to what he is saying. I struggled for a long time thinking that I needed to become more righteous before I could come before God and ask for forgiveness. I knew, to a degree, that the sin in my life was extensive. I knew that and thought that I needed to fight it. Fight it myself until the battle was nearly won then let Him destroy all that was left.
That was a losing battle with no chance of winning. I'd last a couple days longer and fail again. I'd last a week longer and fail again. I wasn't making any progress and instead it was just getting to me. I was feeling frustrated. I couldn't do it and it was so hard. I read once that 'you don't know how hard it is to be good until you really try' and it's true.
The thing is that we, in 2011, live in a different time than Job and his words say more than he thinks. I mean, what he has said has actually come to pass. He longs for an arbitrator that can help him approach God. Someone that can help him stand even in the knowledge of his past sins. Someone who can bridge the gap between sinful man and the perfect, holy, creator of the Universe, God.
And the difference is that we have that arbitrator. God's wrath has been diverted. Indeed, God does not let sin go unpunished, but instead had someone else pay for us. God sent his only begotten Son to us. God came and took on flesh. He came down to Earth and became fully man while remaining fully God. He had "days like those of a mortal [and] years like those of a man" (Job 10:5). He can fully relate with us and is God. And through his death on the cross the rod of God's wrath that was on us has been redirected. We can stand firm before God because of the hope we have in this life He has given us and the love He has shown for us. Through Jesus' resurrection we see God's victory over sin and death. God is calling out to us and giving us the choice to answer or turn away.
We still go through these struggles, battling intellectually the same way Job was, but we also have the next part of the story that hadn't been written at the time when Job was alive.
As Job's friend put it "if you devote your heart to him, and stretch out your hands to him, if you put away the sin in your hand and allow no evil to dwell in your tent, then you will lift up your face without shame; you will stand firm without fear. You will surely forget your trouble, recalling it only as waters gone by. Life will be brighter than noonday, and darkness will become like morning. You will be secure, because there is hope" (Job 11:13-18)
Jesus has taken my sin and covered me in his righteousness. By Him and Him alone can I stand firm before God knowing I have been forgiven. This hope, this undeserved grace, this love poured out upon us, it's all right there, the gift of God is being offered to each of us.
A late lunch
Hey guys!
Yesterday was pretty jam-packed with stuff. Phys Chem lecture, Discipleship meeting with LT, Discipleing with KC, organic chem lab, weekly meeting, and 'You had me at Bacon 2'. That is what was planned for yesterday and it mostly played out as expected, well I don't know. I didn't really expect some things either. lol
Phys chem. whatever. (lol... it's almost done. =P)
Now for Discipleship with LT I was supposed to have arranged something, sharing with a club leader or one of my friends or something. I was also supposed to have finished thinking about my goals for growing spiritually this year and starting to plan for how that can be done. I kinda lost the sheets and I didn't have time to work on it... So instead we just had a time of quiet reflection on a passage in the Bible. I read some of what I was reading earlier and it was so cool. I will post it in a separate post because it's pretty long. lol. [Click here! lol.] After that we talked about how we can reach out to clubs on campus and meet them where they are at. LT had talked to a leader of a humans rights club and he was really interested. Anyways, I sent facebook messages to the 'leaders' of M22 to see if we could meet up next week and discuss a collaborative event in January (the one about human trafficking) and they are all interested in meeting up, they are even going to talk to others and see if they want to meet up too. So, ya. I need to pray for those meetings and God working in their lives and me and LT sharing the gospel with four groups of possible like 1-6 people.
Next was a meeting with KC. I was a bit late, but it was a great meeting. KC seems really happy every time we meet. We read John 1 first (I had intended that we read 1 John 1, but this is cool too. We ended up reading 1 John later anyways. lol.) Then we went through the old-school version of the Spirit-filled life booklet. There is a lot of reading in that booklet, which is awesome. We read like a part of like half the books in the new testament. Our meeting was really great, but also a bit long. lol I had to run off to my orgo lab. I really want to see God strongly change KC and see him praying aloud with a passion.
The lab was really boring. lol. we dissolved cholesterone in ethanol then cooled it and filtered it.... lol.
I finally had my lunch at like 4:30 and watched Naruto and Shakugan no Shana 3 (which I am not telling NC about. lol.)
Then it was weekly meeting and we went through how to share again, but with more depth. Like, the Knowing God Personally booklets are cool, but they also leave a lot of room for elaboration and interactivity, so that was cool.
Then we went to RM's house for the C4C guys' night 'You had me at Bacon 2'. There was a lot of meat. lol. The chilli was awesome and the nachos were the best. lol. LT shared with us about what it means to be a man and how Jesus was not a feminine man. Authenticity, Servanthood and Initiative.
Then I got a drive home to go to sleep for 6 hours. xP
Ttyl.
D.Fa
Yesterday was pretty jam-packed with stuff. Phys Chem lecture, Discipleship meeting with LT, Discipleing with KC, organic chem lab, weekly meeting, and 'You had me at Bacon 2'. That is what was planned for yesterday and it mostly played out as expected, well I don't know. I didn't really expect some things either. lol
Phys chem. whatever. (lol... it's almost done. =P)
Now for Discipleship with LT I was supposed to have arranged something, sharing with a club leader or one of my friends or something. I was also supposed to have finished thinking about my goals for growing spiritually this year and starting to plan for how that can be done. I kinda lost the sheets and I didn't have time to work on it... So instead we just had a time of quiet reflection on a passage in the Bible. I read some of what I was reading earlier and it was so cool. I will post it in a separate post because it's pretty long. lol. [Click here! lol.] After that we talked about how we can reach out to clubs on campus and meet them where they are at. LT had talked to a leader of a humans rights club and he was really interested. Anyways, I sent facebook messages to the 'leaders' of M22 to see if we could meet up next week and discuss a collaborative event in January (the one about human trafficking) and they are all interested in meeting up, they are even going to talk to others and see if they want to meet up too. So, ya. I need to pray for those meetings and God working in their lives and me and LT sharing the gospel with four groups of possible like 1-6 people.
Next was a meeting with KC. I was a bit late, but it was a great meeting. KC seems really happy every time we meet. We read John 1 first (I had intended that we read 1 John 1, but this is cool too. We ended up reading 1 John later anyways. lol.) Then we went through the old-school version of the Spirit-filled life booklet. There is a lot of reading in that booklet, which is awesome. We read like a part of like half the books in the new testament. Our meeting was really great, but also a bit long. lol I had to run off to my orgo lab. I really want to see God strongly change KC and see him praying aloud with a passion.
The lab was really boring. lol. we dissolved cholesterone in ethanol then cooled it and filtered it.... lol.
I finally had my lunch at like 4:30 and watched Naruto and Shakugan no Shana 3 (which I am not telling NC about. lol.)
Then it was weekly meeting and we went through how to share again, but with more depth. Like, the Knowing God Personally booklets are cool, but they also leave a lot of room for elaboration and interactivity, so that was cool.
Then we went to RM's house for the C4C guys' night 'You had me at Bacon 2'. There was a lot of meat. lol. The chilli was awesome and the nachos were the best. lol. LT shared with us about what it means to be a man and how Jesus was not a feminine man. Authenticity, Servanthood and Initiative.
Then I got a drive home to go to sleep for 6 hours. xP
Ttyl.
D.Fa
10.11.11
Starting Somewhere
Yo. So. Did I tell you about yesterday..? I don't remember. It is doubtful... Actually I think I did..? Or maybe that was just a text message. >.>
Ya. It was a text. lol...
Wednesday wasn't the best.
I guess I realized again how prideful I am. I ended up selfishly trusting in my knowledge of phys chem and on the equation sheet I hadn't even really spent time on... I feel confident in my not so great mark on that midterm. ya. I was feeling really crummy the rest of the day I think, except that I got to play badminton with SC and JJ eventually/breifly. xP Ya. SC says I'm way better in front when I'm mad at phys chem. >.> My whole body is sore from yesterday. xP
Umm. I didn't do much. I think I met JXW's Malaysian biochem lab partner. I couldn't quite guess which ethnicity he was... I had narrowed it down to Hong Kong or Korean, but I wasn't really confident in that guess. It was mainly his accent and face that pointed me to Hong Kong. I realized afterwards that basically every Malaysian I know has been in Canada for a very long time and goes to my church.
I ended up leading a prayer meeting. RM kinda trained me..? I have some papers to read over, but ya, we prayed for Cambodia. MM and his family are over there right now working with Mercy Medical Center and New Life Fellowship and they are seeing God do great things.
Ya. So yesterday night I did some work on my biochem lab, well actually I stayed up until 3am doing it. This was after going to my parent's and buying groceries and talking to JH. I'm praying for him. My housemates enjoy talking a lot. Often about things I don't talk about. Seriously DK..? >.<
Ya. I figured it was a way better idea to work on my lab before today rather than not. At the same time, I know that I cannot wake up early, so I decided that since CW wakes up at 8:15 I would stay awake working on it until 3 and a bit so that I get 5 hours, not more, and then get back to it before class at 10. The plan worked pretty well.
Ethers are fun to learn about. xP. Then I finished up my lab with JXW. AG wasn't feeling well today so our language exchange meeting was postponed. Today was our last biochem lab, which is sad because I haven't had much time to speak with TZ and that's like the only place I see him. The prayer meeting was awesome. So many people praying to see God work on campus and for the students to realize that God loves them and is calling them back to him. Stats was ok. I met this one guy and we talked on the bus ride home, which was cool.
JS convinced me to go to YA and I got to see RL! Yay! I miss him... text conversations leave something to be desired when you haven't seen someone for a long time.
Ummm. So ya. This morning I stumbled briefly on a bit of sin, but I was so set on sharing the gospel with JXW today that I was like 'screw you sin. you can't hold me down.' and I just asked God to forgive me and that was that. Through Jesus we have been freed from our slavery to sin. In him we have victory over sin and death. If that is what Spiritual breathing is, then I want to keep feeling this victory over sin.
Umm. Ya. Two events in the near future. The first being Story of the Soul: Hope, which I am super excited for. During the prayer meeting we decided that we want to see at least 60 people at the event and 5 people come to Christ through the event and follow-up. This isn't something we can decide, bad phrasing, but we are placing our trust in God to do great things. I also had this vision that I'd be like, inviting a lot of people. Between classes just talking up some people and inviting them, webCT messages, texts, in person, a lot of invites.
Secondly, the date has finally been decided on the sushi event that has been brewing for a week and a bit. Nov 26th we will be having sushi. I don't know how many people will be coming though, but you have to start somewhere.
Anyways, Ttyl!
D.Fa
Ya. It was a text. lol...
Wednesday wasn't the best.
I guess I realized again how prideful I am. I ended up selfishly trusting in my knowledge of phys chem and on the equation sheet I hadn't even really spent time on... I feel confident in my not so great mark on that midterm. ya. I was feeling really crummy the rest of the day I think, except that I got to play badminton with SC and JJ eventually/breifly. xP Ya. SC says I'm way better in front when I'm mad at phys chem. >.> My whole body is sore from yesterday. xP
Umm. I didn't do much. I think I met JXW's Malaysian biochem lab partner. I couldn't quite guess which ethnicity he was... I had narrowed it down to Hong Kong or Korean, but I wasn't really confident in that guess. It was mainly his accent and face that pointed me to Hong Kong. I realized afterwards that basically every Malaysian I know has been in Canada for a very long time and goes to my church.
I ended up leading a prayer meeting. RM kinda trained me..? I have some papers to read over, but ya, we prayed for Cambodia. MM and his family are over there right now working with Mercy Medical Center and New Life Fellowship and they are seeing God do great things.
Ya. So yesterday night I did some work on my biochem lab, well actually I stayed up until 3am doing it. This was after going to my parent's and buying groceries and talking to JH. I'm praying for him. My housemates enjoy talking a lot. Often about things I don't talk about. Seriously DK..? >.<
Ya. I figured it was a way better idea to work on my lab before today rather than not. At the same time, I know that I cannot wake up early, so I decided that since CW wakes up at 8:15 I would stay awake working on it until 3 and a bit so that I get 5 hours, not more, and then get back to it before class at 10. The plan worked pretty well.
Ethers are fun to learn about. xP. Then I finished up my lab with JXW. AG wasn't feeling well today so our language exchange meeting was postponed. Today was our last biochem lab, which is sad because I haven't had much time to speak with TZ and that's like the only place I see him. The prayer meeting was awesome. So many people praying to see God work on campus and for the students to realize that God loves them and is calling them back to him. Stats was ok. I met this one guy and we talked on the bus ride home, which was cool.
JS convinced me to go to YA and I got to see RL! Yay! I miss him... text conversations leave something to be desired when you haven't seen someone for a long time.
Ummm. So ya. This morning I stumbled briefly on a bit of sin, but I was so set on sharing the gospel with JXW today that I was like 'screw you sin. you can't hold me down.' and I just asked God to forgive me and that was that. Through Jesus we have been freed from our slavery to sin. In him we have victory over sin and death. If that is what Spiritual breathing is, then I want to keep feeling this victory over sin.
Umm. Ya. Two events in the near future. The first being Story of the Soul: Hope, which I am super excited for. During the prayer meeting we decided that we want to see at least 60 people at the event and 5 people come to Christ through the event and follow-up. This isn't something we can decide, bad phrasing, but we are placing our trust in God to do great things. I also had this vision that I'd be like, inviting a lot of people. Between classes just talking up some people and inviting them, webCT messages, texts, in person, a lot of invites.
Secondly, the date has finally been decided on the sushi event that has been brewing for a week and a bit. Nov 26th we will be having sushi. I don't know how many people will be coming though, but you have to start somewhere.
Anyways, Ttyl!
D.Fa
8.11.11
Organic, Physical and Bio-
So, it's nearly Wednesday... I guess the week disappeared. lol
Monday was all about my Phys chem lab. All morning working so hard to finish that on time. Then I had a lab, prayer meeting, a break and then we got ready to go to Dundas for a pizza outreach.
There were six of us going, so we met in Oasis and prayed. You see, as part of my DG we take turns organizing and implementing an outreach. This week MW planned to go onto DB's floor in res and have pizza, have open conversation, a game or two and build friendships from there. I personally had thought that MW is kinda, like, focusing only on DB as our main first year guy. Whenever he does this I think that he's like ignoring the other guys, SM, JS, MC, etc. I think I'm not fully loving of MW. It's really cool that he's taking the initiative and building into DB so much though.
Anyways, there were a lot of people. We knocked (politely) on people's doors and when told there was free pizza they positively and in an interested tone asked 'seriously?' There were a lot of girls. We only realized that we hadn't asked any C4C girls to come with us as of, like, 30 minutes before the outreach. xP...
It was cool. We had 5 pizzas. We played mafia and some people told some stories. LT basically told the prodigal son story, but it was actually the true story of this girl he knew, what was her name again..? Burnadette? Nope. Anne. Sure, that's easier to say! lol (He didn't know. Those were the names suggested). Yup.
I'm looking forward to 'Story of the Soul: Hope' next Friday night.
Anyways, I got home from the party and had to study for my midterm in organic chemistry this morning. TJN and I studied late into the night. It was actually the first time I had seen some of the material... I missed one lecture and it was a pretty important one. >.>
This morning CW's alarm went off at 7:16. It's just the radio, but he listens to the radio really loudly, so either I wake up or lie in bed with my hands full pressure over my ears to block the noise, which is no way to sleep.
Oh! I had a dream. NM was in my dream. I was at some Banjo and Kazooie convention of some sort (mainly playing levels that don't actually exist, but that I've played in dreams before) and NM and his girlfriend show up and of course we have a giant hug and he's smiling that ridiculous smile as always. That's as much as I remember, well there was also this part about a music note I couldn't find in one level, but that's unimportant. I miss NM... He was like the first guy I met in Vancouver before going to East Asia. He has this crazy haircut that's like really long on one side of his head and short on the other. He also has rainbow shorts that are shorter than his boxers. lol..... We ran together once during Orientation.
Anyways, ya. I went to school early. TJN had invited me to audit his stats class and study for orgo. Yep. I learned a lot in that hour and a half. I'm pretty sure I aced the test.
Then I managed to get a good deal of my Biochem lab done. Then I had a bio lab and got a plant! lol. We were cutting them up last week, but now we aren't so our lab coordinator was giving them away. I have this deep set idea that my lab coordinator was the teacher for my plant bio mini program in grade 8... I don't know. maybe. I really like plants. xP.
Then I got some work done on my discussion for the Biochem lab, prayer meeting, stats class, train and bus home, massive amount of rice and one piece, Fun with Dick and Jane (which brought back good memories with my brother), and now I continue to procrastinate instead of studying for my physical chemistry midterm tomorrow. >.<
Ttyl.
D.Fa
Monday was all about my Phys chem lab. All morning working so hard to finish that on time. Then I had a lab, prayer meeting, a break and then we got ready to go to Dundas for a pizza outreach.
There were six of us going, so we met in Oasis and prayed. You see, as part of my DG we take turns organizing and implementing an outreach. This week MW planned to go onto DB's floor in res and have pizza, have open conversation, a game or two and build friendships from there. I personally had thought that MW is kinda, like, focusing only on DB as our main first year guy. Whenever he does this I think that he's like ignoring the other guys, SM, JS, MC, etc. I think I'm not fully loving of MW. It's really cool that he's taking the initiative and building into DB so much though.
Anyways, there were a lot of people. We knocked (politely) on people's doors and when told there was free pizza they positively and in an interested tone asked 'seriously?' There were a lot of girls. We only realized that we hadn't asked any C4C girls to come with us as of, like, 30 minutes before the outreach. xP...
It was cool. We had 5 pizzas. We played mafia and some people told some stories. LT basically told the prodigal son story, but it was actually the true story of this girl he knew, what was her name again..? Burnadette? Nope. Anne. Sure, that's easier to say! lol (He didn't know. Those were the names suggested). Yup.
I'm looking forward to 'Story of the Soul: Hope' next Friday night.
Anyways, I got home from the party and had to study for my midterm in organic chemistry this morning. TJN and I studied late into the night. It was actually the first time I had seen some of the material... I missed one lecture and it was a pretty important one. >.>
This morning CW's alarm went off at 7:16. It's just the radio, but he listens to the radio really loudly, so either I wake up or lie in bed with my hands full pressure over my ears to block the noise, which is no way to sleep.
Oh! I had a dream. NM was in my dream. I was at some Banjo and Kazooie convention of some sort (mainly playing levels that don't actually exist, but that I've played in dreams before) and NM and his girlfriend show up and of course we have a giant hug and he's smiling that ridiculous smile as always. That's as much as I remember, well there was also this part about a music note I couldn't find in one level, but that's unimportant. I miss NM... He was like the first guy I met in Vancouver before going to East Asia. He has this crazy haircut that's like really long on one side of his head and short on the other. He also has rainbow shorts that are shorter than his boxers. lol..... We ran together once during Orientation.
Anyways, ya. I went to school early. TJN had invited me to audit his stats class and study for orgo. Yep. I learned a lot in that hour and a half. I'm pretty sure I aced the test.
Then I managed to get a good deal of my Biochem lab done. Then I had a bio lab and got a plant! lol. We were cutting them up last week, but now we aren't so our lab coordinator was giving them away. I have this deep set idea that my lab coordinator was the teacher for my plant bio mini program in grade 8... I don't know. maybe. I really like plants. xP.
Then I got some work done on my discussion for the Biochem lab, prayer meeting, stats class, train and bus home, massive amount of rice and one piece, Fun with Dick and Jane (which brought back good memories with my brother), and now I continue to procrastinate instead of studying for my physical chemistry midterm tomorrow. >.<
Ttyl.
D.Fa
6.11.11
October in a post. Also this evening.
I'm really really really really really really (add a few more 'really's) excited right now. lol
So, ya. This month hasn't been the best. I mean, with all the wasted time from procrastinating on top of the massive amounts of schoolwork I have had recently I haven't been able to go sharing on campus and talk with students about God or the gospel. I was getting really really frustrated at that. Ya. I mean with all the time God is giving me and all the opportunities just sitting there.
Ya. So, I've been really excited for my friend this week. She got accepted to go on STINT! I'm praying for her and praying for myself too. I really want to go on project again this year (as I'm sure you know by now... lol).
This month I've been able to meet up with KC a few times and do a couple short Bible lessons. Being able to spend time with him in God's word and even just having time to talk with him has been good. I think I value times spent with friends doing nothing in particular so much more now than I used to.
My one on one discipleship with LT has started too. I've really wanted discipleship for a while. We are going through a personal develop plan planning thing. I haven't had time to sit down and just ask God to help me with it though, so I'm not going anywhere with it right now...
Ya, this week has been pretty bad maybe..? I'm not too sure. lol (I feel like I just blogged this stuff earlier..?) Ya, but ya.... lol. Today was good. Have I ever mentioned that I sometimes serve as worship leader at my church (Ottawa Chinese Bible Church)? Well, I do sometimes and it's always pretty rough until the day of. Like, I'm not a very good leader in the sense that I don't authoritatively take lead unless there's no one else in the group that I feel is more suitable as leader. I also don't get around to finalizing the setlist until the night before practice and ya... But the day of everything seems to just click into place. xP
In Ottawa (Carleton and uOttawa) each year we have an event called 'The Epic Project Party' which is like an event to tell people in Campus for Christ about the available projects and opportunities to go to the world and go on a 1 or 6 week missions trip during reading week or the summer. Last year's was amazing (it sounded like) and again I had a midterm that prevented me from going. Apparently LT shared a really good metaphor. There's an orchard of apple trees, like 10000 acres. There is one owner of the orchard and the land. He hires 100 apple pickers and goes away because he's busy or something and asks them to pick the apples while he is gone. So there is the main building on the land and 94 of the workers stay within the 800 acres directly around the orchard and 6 workers went a bit further. All the trees were in season and producing good fruit, but the 94 workers worked and picked so many of the apples that they decided to start making better equipment and crates and ladders and procedures for picking the apples. They picked the trees clean. However, the other 6 workers had 9200 acres to work on. They worked non-stop and saw apples dropping all around them. They came back and saw all the new equipment and stuff, but the trees had been fully picked and the 94 weren't picking any more apples while there were thousands rotting just a bit further away. What would the owner say when he gets back? Did they do the job he left them?
In the same way, the harvest is plentiful, but the labourers are few in the missions field. Matthew 9:37-38
There are statistics thrown around about how much of our resources are sent to the unreached population of the world that I can't remember at this exact moment, but it's really high, like only 3% of missionaries go to unreached areas..? (Don't quote me on that.)
In any case, this evening I got to go see a Japanese movie called 'Always: Sunset on Third Street 2' a film from 2007. It was really good. In the end love was stronger than money. It was a tear-jerker. lol I didn't go alone to the movie. No. I went with six other people. The International Student Services Office organized us going to see it. The volunteer in charge was from China, there were two girls from Japan, a guy from Greece, a guy from Poland, a guy from Nigeria and me. It was really good. I got to meet them and talk to them and build friendships. I ended up talking a lot with one girl K(?) a bit about East Asia and a bunch about random stuff like Saturday morning anime when we were kids. xP I also got to talk a lot with the guy from Poland, M(?). He's taking Law so we were talking about cases and stuff. About justice and so I brought up the case from the Un.Cover magazine and about the injustices done to Jesus, so basically I shared the gospel. xP We then talked on the bus too about East Asia. So, I was really excited about how God brought me out this evening and used me and will continue using me if I offer myself to be used.
I really see how the nations are brought to us on campus. How there are so many international students from all over the world and even Carleton campus is a missions field in itself. My friend JXW. Her mom is from the commonwealth of Dominica. I've really felt like I should talk to her about God. I mean, we're good friends now and that shouldn't stop me either. Gah.
Ya. Monday we are having an outreach on campus in one of the dorms. A pizza party thing in the lounge on one of the floors.
So, ya. Pray for me and Carleton and International students and projects (East Asia and Desert Rain projects are a go!) and STINT and for my connection with God (I'm still not having good quiet times) and stuff in general. Let's see where God leads me and let's see how many oportunites God gives me to rely on His Spirit and just proclaim the good news to those who are desperately in need of a Saviour.
D.Fa
So, ya. This month hasn't been the best. I mean, with all the wasted time from procrastinating on top of the massive amounts of schoolwork I have had recently I haven't been able to go sharing on campus and talk with students about God or the gospel. I was getting really really frustrated at that. Ya. I mean with all the time God is giving me and all the opportunities just sitting there.
Ya. So, I've been really excited for my friend this week. She got accepted to go on STINT! I'm praying for her and praying for myself too. I really want to go on project again this year (as I'm sure you know by now... lol).
This month I've been able to meet up with KC a few times and do a couple short Bible lessons. Being able to spend time with him in God's word and even just having time to talk with him has been good. I think I value times spent with friends doing nothing in particular so much more now than I used to.
My one on one discipleship with LT has started too. I've really wanted discipleship for a while. We are going through a personal develop plan planning thing. I haven't had time to sit down and just ask God to help me with it though, so I'm not going anywhere with it right now...
Ya, this week has been pretty bad maybe..? I'm not too sure. lol (I feel like I just blogged this stuff earlier..?) Ya, but ya.... lol. Today was good. Have I ever mentioned that I sometimes serve as worship leader at my church (Ottawa Chinese Bible Church)? Well, I do sometimes and it's always pretty rough until the day of. Like, I'm not a very good leader in the sense that I don't authoritatively take lead unless there's no one else in the group that I feel is more suitable as leader. I also don't get around to finalizing the setlist until the night before practice and ya... But the day of everything seems to just click into place. xP
In Ottawa (Carleton and uOttawa) each year we have an event called 'The Epic Project Party' which is like an event to tell people in Campus for Christ about the available projects and opportunities to go to the world and go on a 1 or 6 week missions trip during reading week or the summer. Last year's was amazing (it sounded like) and again I had a midterm that prevented me from going. Apparently LT shared a really good metaphor. There's an orchard of apple trees, like 10000 acres. There is one owner of the orchard and the land. He hires 100 apple pickers and goes away because he's busy or something and asks them to pick the apples while he is gone. So there is the main building on the land and 94 of the workers stay within the 800 acres directly around the orchard and 6 workers went a bit further. All the trees were in season and producing good fruit, but the 94 workers worked and picked so many of the apples that they decided to start making better equipment and crates and ladders and procedures for picking the apples. They picked the trees clean. However, the other 6 workers had 9200 acres to work on. They worked non-stop and saw apples dropping all around them. They came back and saw all the new equipment and stuff, but the trees had been fully picked and the 94 weren't picking any more apples while there were thousands rotting just a bit further away. What would the owner say when he gets back? Did they do the job he left them?
In the same way, the harvest is plentiful, but the labourers are few in the missions field. Matthew 9:37-38
There are statistics thrown around about how much of our resources are sent to the unreached population of the world that I can't remember at this exact moment, but it's really high, like only 3% of missionaries go to unreached areas..? (Don't quote me on that.)
In any case, this evening I got to go see a Japanese movie called 'Always: Sunset on Third Street 2' a film from 2007. It was really good. In the end love was stronger than money. It was a tear-jerker. lol I didn't go alone to the movie. No. I went with six other people. The International Student Services Office organized us going to see it. The volunteer in charge was from China, there were two girls from Japan, a guy from Greece, a guy from Poland, a guy from Nigeria and me. It was really good. I got to meet them and talk to them and build friendships. I ended up talking a lot with one girl K(?) a bit about East Asia and a bunch about random stuff like Saturday morning anime when we were kids. xP I also got to talk a lot with the guy from Poland, M(?). He's taking Law so we were talking about cases and stuff. About justice and so I brought up the case from the Un.Cover magazine and about the injustices done to Jesus, so basically I shared the gospel. xP We then talked on the bus too about East Asia. So, I was really excited about how God brought me out this evening and used me and will continue using me if I offer myself to be used.
I really see how the nations are brought to us on campus. How there are so many international students from all over the world and even Carleton campus is a missions field in itself. My friend JXW. Her mom is from the commonwealth of Dominica. I've really felt like I should talk to her about God. I mean, we're good friends now and that shouldn't stop me either. Gah.
Ya. Monday we are having an outreach on campus in one of the dorms. A pizza party thing in the lounge on one of the floors.
So, ya. Pray for me and Carleton and International students and projects (East Asia and Desert Rain projects are a go!) and STINT and for my connection with God (I'm still not having good quiet times) and stuff in general. Let's see where God leads me and let's see how many oportunites God gives me to rely on His Spirit and just proclaim the good news to those who are desperately in need of a Saviour.
D.Fa
5.11.11
Since last time
I have had a pretty awesome time since I last told you guys anything. xP.
So, last night was the STAT Midterm. It went really well. I went in and had this peace. Like I helped a few other people with their questions and was talking to this random guy about minecraft instead of cramming. lol. Cramming sucks. But really, I was not prepared. Luckily we had an extensive formula sheet and the prof had gone over the sample midterm the day before. If it wasn't for that I may have done really really really badly. I don't know. xP.
Anyways, before that was my Organic Chemistry lab which was good. The experiment is basically non-stop for three hours, so much to do and you just have to do it. It took my mind off everything that was happening around me and ya. I really like chem labs. xP We finished at 5:45, 20 minutes late, but we weren't last. xP The smell of ether and acetic acid. xP
Also, this morning I had a real driving experience, no longer confined to parking lots or centerpointe. Not much faster though, but whatever, change of scenery, which was all very colourful. hehe. Umm, ya. !My highschool fantasy has been fulfilled! I got to drive my dad home from MHS! =D I got some food from my parent's after cleaning out their fridge and organizing it a bit. Then I got a drive home then a drive to church. At church I built a Christmas tree out of shoe boxes which required a few Jengas to make it look better.
Then we had a great worship practice (me, AL, SM and NC) and ya, we bussed home.
Now I'm heating up leftovers from my parents. I'm gonna watch some anime, do some phys chem work then go to school where I will meet some Japanese students or students interested in learning Japanese or any language exchange program students interested in watching a Japanese movie then we will bus to the NAC(..? or somewhere anyways) and watch the film 'It's Always Sunny on Third Street 2'..? I think that's what it's called. xP
Looks good.
Ttyl.
=D.Fa
PS. On a scale of one to ten, I'm somewhere between one and ten. =P
So, last night was the STAT Midterm. It went really well. I went in and had this peace. Like I helped a few other people with their questions and was talking to this random guy about minecraft instead of cramming. lol. Cramming sucks. But really, I was not prepared. Luckily we had an extensive formula sheet and the prof had gone over the sample midterm the day before. If it wasn't for that I may have done really really really badly. I don't know. xP.
Anyways, before that was my Organic Chemistry lab which was good. The experiment is basically non-stop for three hours, so much to do and you just have to do it. It took my mind off everything that was happening around me and ya. I really like chem labs. xP We finished at 5:45, 20 minutes late, but we weren't last. xP The smell of ether and acetic acid. xP
Also, this morning I had a real driving experience, no longer confined to parking lots or centerpointe. Not much faster though, but whatever, change of scenery, which was all very colourful. hehe. Umm, ya. !My highschool fantasy has been fulfilled! I got to drive my dad home from MHS! =D I got some food from my parent's after cleaning out their fridge and organizing it a bit. Then I got a drive home then a drive to church. At church I built a Christmas tree out of shoe boxes which required a few Jengas to make it look better.
Then we had a great worship practice (me, AL, SM and NC) and ya, we bussed home.
Now I'm heating up leftovers from my parents. I'm gonna watch some anime, do some phys chem work then go to school where I will meet some Japanese students or students interested in learning Japanese or any language exchange program students interested in watching a Japanese movie then we will bus to the NAC(..? or somewhere anyways) and watch the film 'It's Always Sunny on Third Street 2'..? I think that's what it's called. xP
Looks good.
Ttyl.
=D.Fa
PS. On a scale of one to ten, I'm somewhere between one and ten. =P
4.11.11
Grrrrrrr.
I'm honestly in a really terrible mood right now.
It's really lame.
I want to destroy something, punch something, explode something...
Why am I feeling this way?
>.< Grrrrrrrrr.
It's really lame.
I want to destroy something, punch something, explode something...
Why am I feeling this way?
>.< Grrrrrrrrr.
3.11.11
Blessed
Today was long. I'm not going to lie.
I go to bed in the dark and wake up in the dark because my roommate sleeps longer than me every single day.
I don't think I've had lunch since Sunday.
I'm probably doing satisfactorily in BIOC2200.
I'm tired pretty much all the time.
I'm taking an extra 20 minutes to bus to/from school.
My computer has been bombarded by trojans since I've switched to Firefox.
We were literally playing with poison in the lab today.
But beyond that I'm so blessed. I'm blessed in the heavenly realms with every spiritual blessing in Christ who died so I might live. But not just be alive, but to live life abundantly, to the full, with thanksgiving in every circumstance.
God, help me to remember how good you are and help me to prioritize and be efficient.
I go to bed in the dark and wake up in the dark because my roommate sleeps longer than me every single day.
I don't think I've had lunch since Sunday.
I'm probably doing satisfactorily in BIOC2200.
I'm tired pretty much all the time.
I'm taking an extra 20 minutes to bus to/from school.
My computer has been bombarded by trojans since I've switched to Firefox.
We were literally playing with poison in the lab today.
But beyond that I'm so blessed. I'm blessed in the heavenly realms with every spiritual blessing in Christ who died so I might live. But not just be alive, but to live life abundantly, to the full, with thanksgiving in every circumstance.
God, help me to remember how good you are and help me to prioritize and be efficient.
Profile 2: Awkward First Year
And so again I am behind in updating my profile on my blogger account. So, here is the version that says I'm in first year and very awkward:
I am Me. I often have awkward relationships with people and am bad with words; phrasing sentences, explaining things, getting my point across, etc. I am Christian. I go to church, I go to YA, I am involved in C4C at Carleton University, I pray and read the Bible daily. I am in my first year at Carleton in Biochem and am now living away from my parents off campus. I currently have a part time job in produce at Independent, but would like to expand my work experiences to other fields/areas/stores. I enjoy travelling and getting away from the weekly schedule (which is always full), but I work better when things are scheduled back to back so that I can't procrastinate without consequences. I am musical. When I set a goal I try diligently (I hate that word) to accomplish it. When I have no plan I end up wasting time doing nothing. I often use the phrase "Deal with it" and often try to deal with things on my own, which doesn't always work. I am independent, in general, but prefer being with friends. I am more asian than some asians, but am not visibly asian. I have a blog. I have a brother. I have 4 housemates. I don't have something interesting to end this "About Me" section with.
And so I begin to write the new one.
I am Me. I often have awkward relationships with people and am bad with words; phrasing sentences, explaining things, getting my point across, etc. I am Christian. I go to church, I go to YA, I am involved in C4C at Carleton University, I pray and read the Bible daily. I am in my first year at Carleton in Biochem and am now living away from my parents off campus. I currently have a part time job in produce at Independent, but would like to expand my work experiences to other fields/areas/stores. I enjoy travelling and getting away from the weekly schedule (which is always full), but I work better when things are scheduled back to back so that I can't procrastinate without consequences. I am musical. When I set a goal I try diligently (I hate that word) to accomplish it. When I have no plan I end up wasting time doing nothing. I often use the phrase "Deal with it" and often try to deal with things on my own, which doesn't always work. I am independent, in general, but prefer being with friends. I am more asian than some asians, but am not visibly asian. I have a blog. I have a brother. I have 4 housemates. I don't have something interesting to end this "About Me" section with.
And so I begin to write the new one.
1.11.11
Halloween and today
So, Monday was Halloween. Whatever. I'm too old to trick-or-treat, I'm too poor to buy and give out candy, I don't care for drinking, so wild parties are out, I didn't have time to create a humorous costume like RM did, so, normal day I guess. It's not even a good holiday. I mean, what is the moral behind it? Gluttony, partying, we could add demon worshipping to the list..? I don't mean to say it's all bad. But it can be very bad.
Point: Monday was Halloween. I had a lot of school on Monday I think. We finally got to do something in our phys chem lab. My other lab partners (because there's so much to do that the task is divided among three groups) wanted to just gossip during the time, like usual. >.>
Oh, in Biology we learned about dermal tissue. Whatever. It was just me and JXW that day because KL and KC weren't there. I hadn't really realized that we were such good friends. I really want to share the gospel with her. I asked God 'how?' last week and the answer was 'I haven't asked you yet, have I? What do you believe?' Point blank unless some build-up occurs naturally, but basically the JW approach. What can happen if I ask? I find out where she stands and can pray for her more specifically, we get into a spiritual conversation and God really speaks to her, or she can hear the gospel and receive the gift of eternal life. No down side.
DG was good. I was kinda on the hot seat and was asked what was the most amazing thing that happened on EAP. When I was falling behind, I took the day of rest reluctantly praying that God would be working even though I wouldn't be. And while we were playing with a frisbee, He connected me with Moped, who's English wasn't the best, so we didn't meet with him immediately, but when we did we shared the gospel and saw him come to accept Christ as his personal saviour. It wasn't me, God was working that day.
KD for dinner. xP
Today. So long ago. Umm. I slept in by accident. I also shaved last night. xP Movember has begun. EE was telling me about how much she loves Movember because she likes facial hair. But she urged me to grow out my beard too because she dislikes 'just moustaches'. It is not 'no shave November' it is 'moustache Movember'! I am contemplating dying it a really weird colour.
BIOL lab was good. We finished really early because we started the questions before we got there apparently. So I went to do my Stats assignment. Also really short.
I have to get a lunch together with some first year guys soon though. Partially because NC's mom asked me to go out for lunch with him and maybe bring a friend or two, and also because it is a good idea. I'm getting into a weird train of thought though. Like, I have to organize an event later on, an outreach event. So, I'm kinda in the mindset that everything we do should fit into the category of outreach events where there is someone inspiring others, some people experiencing the Spirit and doing outreach to help others discover Jesus. But then I'm also mainly thinking of inviting first year asian guys... so i don't even know what to do because ya... and to make it outreach you need to invite more people, so limiting the criteria (which God never does) isn't the best plan. Also, sushi doesn't really work too well with giant crowds which is what I'm picturing in my head.
Anyways, I'm super excited for JL who is applying for Short Term INTernational (STINT) missions trip with Power to Change (P2C)!
Ttyl.
D.Fa
PS. Why does the devil always strike when you are feeling the best..? He's lame.
Point: Monday was Halloween. I had a lot of school on Monday I think. We finally got to do something in our phys chem lab. My other lab partners (because there's so much to do that the task is divided among three groups) wanted to just gossip during the time, like usual. >.>
Oh, in Biology we learned about dermal tissue. Whatever. It was just me and JXW that day because KL and KC weren't there. I hadn't really realized that we were such good friends. I really want to share the gospel with her. I asked God 'how?' last week and the answer was 'I haven't asked you yet, have I? What do you believe?' Point blank unless some build-up occurs naturally, but basically the JW approach. What can happen if I ask? I find out where she stands and can pray for her more specifically, we get into a spiritual conversation and God really speaks to her, or she can hear the gospel and receive the gift of eternal life. No down side.
DG was good. I was kinda on the hot seat and was asked what was the most amazing thing that happened on EAP. When I was falling behind, I took the day of rest reluctantly praying that God would be working even though I wouldn't be. And while we were playing with a frisbee, He connected me with Moped, who's English wasn't the best, so we didn't meet with him immediately, but when we did we shared the gospel and saw him come to accept Christ as his personal saviour. It wasn't me, God was working that day.
KD for dinner. xP
Today. So long ago. Umm. I slept in by accident. I also shaved last night. xP Movember has begun. EE was telling me about how much she loves Movember because she likes facial hair. But she urged me to grow out my beard too because she dislikes 'just moustaches'. It is not 'no shave November' it is 'moustache Movember'! I am contemplating dying it a really weird colour.
BIOL lab was good. We finished really early because we started the questions before we got there apparently. So I went to do my Stats assignment. Also really short.
I have to get a lunch together with some first year guys soon though. Partially because NC's mom asked me to go out for lunch with him and maybe bring a friend or two, and also because it is a good idea. I'm getting into a weird train of thought though. Like, I have to organize an event later on, an outreach event. So, I'm kinda in the mindset that everything we do should fit into the category of outreach events where there is someone inspiring others, some people experiencing the Spirit and doing outreach to help others discover Jesus. But then I'm also mainly thinking of inviting first year asian guys... so i don't even know what to do because ya... and to make it outreach you need to invite more people, so limiting the criteria (which God never does) isn't the best plan. Also, sushi doesn't really work too well with giant crowds which is what I'm picturing in my head.
Anyways, I'm super excited for JL who is applying for Short Term INTernational (STINT) missions trip with Power to Change (P2C)!
Ttyl.
D.Fa
PS. Why does the devil always strike when you are feeling the best..? He's lame.
The weekend.
So, I guess I didn't really say, but ya. I got my lab report done on time and I was pretty happy with it.
Anyways, after staying up so late on Friday I slept in until 10, which was still only, like 6 hours, but I guess if you include 'The Shining' you get closer to 7 hours? lol.
I had to start working on my physical chemistry lab. I think I started on Friday during a break, so I had already done a bit, but I really wasn't making much progress. I think that I am the type that has a hard time starting something, but once the ball is rolling I'm gonna make it go as fast as possible. I was not going very fast. I got caught up on a couple little things. Luckily I have three lab partners to ask about these things. They aren't usually too much help, I usually end up solving my own problems, but only when I'm asking them for help. I think LF is really smart. He looks much like BD, but even sharper. The thing is, he tends to make significant mistakes and overlook them. I've helped him a few times in that type of situation.
Anyways, I had work 2-10. It's really cool now that I have a few friends at work that when I come back after not working for a couple weeks I can say hello to them and have a smile on my face. =D Umm. Ya... the bosses' praise is kinda embarassing though... >.< I don't deserve that praise. I'm just trying to be helpful. >.>
I had dinner at my parents'. I guess my mom got a bit upset when I suddenly told her I couldn't have my wisdom teeth taken out because I'll be at Winter Conference after Christmas again. >.< I guess she was just concerned that if I don't get them out, my teeth will all get messed up, I'll miss class when it becomes urgent, etc... I'll just do it over reading week. ok..?
By the way, my mom is doing pretty well, so thank you for praying.
Umm. Ya.
Sunday was really great. Worship was really great. I was really not in the mood. I really dislike it when I'm in that mood of apathy and thinking about what I am doing if my heart isn't there. But God really met me there and got me going again. I really need more quality time with Him. The worship, the sermon, God, were all there and it was good. I don't really like 'Better is One Day', especially the chorus, but it was good.
We went home after church (the couples went to Pastor DB's house..?) and I continued to work on my lab. ... bussing to church is pretty boring. But once I got there it was really good. We were reading a lot of Acts. It is definitely more than what I had originally thought of it. I mean. I thought it was a pile of names and places, but (especially after reading the Old Testament more) the speeches and amazing things happening in the book of Acts are so cool. I repent of my old thoughts of Acts.
I think I got home and finished my lab. sleeping time.
(more to come)
Anyways, after staying up so late on Friday I slept in until 10, which was still only, like 6 hours, but I guess if you include 'The Shining' you get closer to 7 hours? lol.
I had to start working on my physical chemistry lab. I think I started on Friday during a break, so I had already done a bit, but I really wasn't making much progress. I think that I am the type that has a hard time starting something, but once the ball is rolling I'm gonna make it go as fast as possible. I was not going very fast. I got caught up on a couple little things. Luckily I have three lab partners to ask about these things. They aren't usually too much help, I usually end up solving my own problems, but only when I'm asking them for help. I think LF is really smart. He looks much like BD, but even sharper. The thing is, he tends to make significant mistakes and overlook them. I've helped him a few times in that type of situation.
Anyways, I had work 2-10. It's really cool now that I have a few friends at work that when I come back after not working for a couple weeks I can say hello to them and have a smile on my face. =D Umm. Ya... the bosses' praise is kinda embarassing though... >.< I don't deserve that praise. I'm just trying to be helpful. >.>
I had dinner at my parents'. I guess my mom got a bit upset when I suddenly told her I couldn't have my wisdom teeth taken out because I'll be at Winter Conference after Christmas again. >.< I guess she was just concerned that if I don't get them out, my teeth will all get messed up, I'll miss class when it becomes urgent, etc... I'll just do it over reading week. ok..?
By the way, my mom is doing pretty well, so thank you for praying.
Umm. Ya.
Sunday was really great. Worship was really great. I was really not in the mood. I really dislike it when I'm in that mood of apathy and thinking about what I am doing if my heart isn't there. But God really met me there and got me going again. I really need more quality time with Him. The worship, the sermon, God, were all there and it was good. I don't really like 'Better is One Day', especially the chorus, but it was good.
We went home after church (the couples went to Pastor DB's house..?) and I continued to work on my lab. ... bussing to church is pretty boring. But once I got there it was really good. We were reading a lot of Acts. It is definitely more than what I had originally thought of it. I mean. I thought it was a pile of names and places, but (especially after reading the Old Testament more) the speeches and amazing things happening in the book of Acts are so cool. I repent of my old thoughts of Acts.
I think I got home and finished my lab. sleeping time.
(more to come)
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