Psalm 130

A song of ascents.

1 Out of the depths I cry to you, LORD;
2 Lord, hear my voice.
Let your ears be attentive
to my cry for mercy.

3 If you, LORD, kept a record of sins,
Lord, who could stand?
4 But with you there is forgiveness,
so that we can, with reverence, serve you.

5 I wait for the LORD, my whole being waits,
and in his word I put my hope.
6 I wait for the Lord
more than watchmen wait for the morning,
more than watchmen wait for the morning.

7 Israel, put your hope in the LORD,
for with the LORD is unfailing love
and with him is full redemption.
8 He himself will redeem Israel
from all their sins.

When you find cuts you didn't know you had.

You know. Some days are just not what you want them to be. I mean I woke up this morning knowing I had a couple hours of work left to do on my bio lab. Of course I didn't want to do it. So I procrastinated. Anime. Breakfast. Proverbs. You know. Procrastination. I finally started doing it and I was doing so well. My lab actually looks okay this time. But around 10 I got a text telling me that I had work from 7-11. Past tense as in this morning. I was starting to freak out, 'do I go to work for a few hours to make it up, or do I finish my bio lab'..? I mean I didn't really have a choice... I had to do my lab. My boss said she would forgive me because it was Valentine's day. So I rushed to finish my lab and possibly work an hour or something... I did not do that. I barely had time to get on a bus before it was due...

Meanwhile there was this hilarious scene occuring in my house. So, ET shows up and goes to wake up JK. HAPPY BIRTHDAY! and LET'S GO OUT FOR BREAKFAST! So he also goes to wake up JR and everything. While he is doing that KP arrives and goes to the kitchen to start making breakfast for JK. Then ET comes downstairs and it became way more hilarious. Especially because there was heart shaped bread. They were arguing about which one of them would get to give JK breakfast, except they were arguing 'no, you're his girlfriend, I don't wanna valentine's day' and like 'no, go ahead, I've got to study anyways' 'but you have heart shaped bread' 'you were here first' etc. So KP left.

My bio lab was dreadfully boring today.

You know how yesterday I was a waiter? Well, today I was a spinach harvester. I'm being serious. I was instructed to 'harvest' the spinach plants. I harvested like 130 sprout sized spinach plants. Then I got to be a paramecium farmer and count how many we had on slides. No joke. For like an hour I was scanning cover slips looking for paramecium. There were like 20 total that I found. >.>

Then I started reading through all the East Asia Project stuff they sent me.

DG wasn't really DG, but I'm really glad it wasn't. Me and RM went sharing. We ended up in Rooster's talking with 3, or rather 2 muslims and one so called atheist who seems to have looked into quite a bit of other religions. It was a pretty interesting discussion. One thing that was funny / odd was that the other day I had read how Muhamad couldn't have really been sent from God or something because whenever someone asked for a miracle he pointed to the Quaran because his miracles were in that. Well, today M(?) was saying how no other prophet had a book be his miracles, which makes it the undistorted word of God or something. I thought it was odd how the same point could be used to argue both for and against Islam. In the end we were kicked out of Roosters and told to buy our coffee there next time (They were closing and the other 3 guys had cups from Timmies. lol) So RM exchanged emails with one of them and they kept a real life kit.

Ya. It was really interesting. I kinda want to do more discussions with muslims, but I do want to learn a bit more apolegetic material for such a conversation because I had nothing to really say... lol...

Ya.

Today was up and down, but it was interesting overall.

I just found out that the new headphones I got with my bass have really good bass. lol My earbuds do not. Also, my laptop doesn't.

Ya.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

PS. I want a tsutarja.

PPS. I currently have nails, but for how long..?

The Word is Spelt "E-v-a-n-g-e-l-i-z-e"...

Hey, so. Today was a fail.

I skipped CHEM. I watched 'Inception'. I bought vegetables. I bought more vegetables. I went to DG. I ate a GIANT salad. I drank over a litre of chocolate milk. I did one chapter of MATH homework. I went by bike to buy 8 litres of milk. That doesn't include the fail.

So, today before DG I attempted to go sharing.

I wasted half an hour. Then I finally went up to one guy. He was asian. He was reading notes. He is in Engineering Physics and he is atheist. He says that he likes to have some faith in the work of scientists in the past.

I had no idea what I should say, so I kinda left without really saying very much... He seemed confused... xP...... That is what I will call 'Evangelerving'. lol...

So, in Sunday school we were reviewing the first 3 weeks of the 6 week course we are doing because we were 2 weeks ahead of the other classes... Anyways, we were talking about taking every opportunity given to you and we were talking about the Winter Conference message from Allen Self about using every tool you have and we couldn't really remember the third point of his talk. The first two were "Observe" and "Serve". So LT suggested that the third one should be more memorable and that this should be done by making it rhyme with the other two. He suggested the 'word' "Evangelerve". Our whole class was laughing hysterically. It doesn't really sound like a very pleasant word...


Ya... I hope to continue evangelising everyday. Tuesdays will be hard though............. 10-9.... ya. I'll have to wake up early.

Also, in DG we were discussing Luke 12 about how the Pharisees were hypocrites. The main point we got was that you can't be forgiven if you refuse to accept the only way that you can be forgiven. RM and MW were kinda co-leading and I definately see them in a new light now. I always thought MW was perfect.

In any case...... I will talk to you later.

D.Fa

Forgiveness.

Hey, so, ya...

I've meant to post this for a few days now. I mean, I didn't want to cell phone blog this post.

This is something I kinda need to deal with.

You see, forgiving someone can be very hard. Grudges form when you don't forgive someone. I kinda have a couple grudges and they are getting in the way of life. xP

You see, I have this grudge against KL who works in deli / bakery. I have blogged about him before. I don't know why exactly, but I hate his guts. He has never done anything against me directly before so I don't see why I should hate him. I have also never done anything for him. We rarely talk to each other and when we do it is very breif and work related.

Secondly, I kinda have a grude against JR, one of my housemates. The way he does things bugs me, his laugh bugs me, his constant singing bugs me, his face bugs me, his obsession with protein shakes and working out bugs me, all the unrinsed frying pans bug me, the unwashed blender bugs me, the bowls containing dried raspberry bug me. This all adds up to me disliking him to the point of avoidance, not talking to him and kinda ya... making things in our house troublesome.

Ya.... I know it's not all his fault. I know it's partially because I havn't told him that it bugs me. But, I definately need to forgive him and get over this.

There was this video that we saw during the NEST presentation during main session at Winter Conference. I was tearing up at the end. I even knew how it would end way before it did, but I was still almost crying..... xP



If people can forgive murder and rape and other things that are way worse than not washing a frying pan, why can't I forgive them..?

Oh Heavenly Father, Lord, how great you are. How amazing your love and forgiveness. You say that if we just confess our sins to You, that You will both forgive us and cleanse us of all our unrighteousness. Lord, I thank you so much for your death on the cross, how you paid the price for our sins and reconciled us to you, once and for all. Lord, I'm sorry for these grudges I have held against my housemate and my coworker. Lord, this is not how you have called us to act. You have called us to be loving and forgiving and to be a light to the world. I pray that you would clean my heart, destroy all unforgiving thoughts and help me to be a better person around them, showing your love through my actions. Lord, I thank you for all you have done for me and pray that I could at least try to do the same for others, or bring others to know how much you have done for them. In your name I pray, Amen.

With God we can do anything. With Him we can overcome evil. Romans 12:21 "Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good." I hope that I can overcome these situations with the ultimate good, God and His Holy Spirit within me.

Ttyl.

D.Fa

PS- there are like 2 other posts I want to do from my laptop... xP