So. Today was another day.
School went by very slowly, but there was a lot less focus on him. It kinda felt isolating. Everyone around you laughing about something, but you are alone with your thoughts of David internally crying, but not that extreme...
After school I went home and went on facebook to the group page. I read some comments, posted a comment, listened to a song, looked at pictures and cried a bit.
I feel kinda crazy right now.. I feel kinda sick, I feel kinda mixed up... I went for a bit of a walk. I really wanted to run or something... I walked to my second job to see if the other guy, who should have been there, could cover me for friday. He wasn't there, I walked back and was kinda locked outside my house with no key. lol...
My parents had found out that he had died.
The wake is tommorow. I am going to skip most of physics class to go to it. I'm 18. I can sign out on my own. I'm going to bus there. RT will also be going then, but I don't know how exactly. He told me to prioritize and chop off the least important priority.
I had to choose between a softball game, the wake or physics class. The wake is at 2-4 or 7-9 in barrhaven. so i'd have to leave class early to go or miss the softball game. My team needs me and i think the excersice would be good for me, mentally and physically. I really dislike my physics class... I don't even really need it. An dI really wanted to go to the wake. So I'm missing physics. I've decided.
I've been thinking about David and a few more memories have come back to me. I remember auditioning last year with him. He sang a whole new world from alladin. xP HC was also there with him, but I don't think she was auditioning. He was nervous about auditioning. He didn't make the cast that year.
On my walk, I realized. I really miss David. Even if I didn't know him that deeply, lately I have been seeing him daily. Seeing him and his smile.
The wake is tommorow, the funeral service is friday right after school (they changed the schedule so we could all go), and a special youth groupevent for everyone that knew him is being held at his church friday night. I'm trying to get out of working Friday.
Anyways, I'm still praying for him and his family and friends.
D.Fa
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12.5.10
11.5.10
Don't Get Past It, Get Through It.
So, ya.
The atmosphere at school was different, but still dpressing. There was no mass of people crying at his locker. There were no announcements. There was this kind of depressing feeling around, but people were laughing now. There were still some people crying, but I think everyone went to class.
One of the things I keep thinking is how people who were closer to him must feel. I barely knew him in comparison to his closer friends. I knew him by name and as an aquaintance for a few years, but I never had a class with him, I never went over to his house, I never randomly spent an afternoon with him. I went to Stratford with him, I was in the musical with him, I saw him in the halls, but I only knew the surface of him. He was more then just a smile, more then just a swing dancer, more then just a black belt, more then just another "David". I wish I had spent more time with him while I could, we all do, but we can't cry forever.
At the same time we can't just move on by forgetting him, by repressing the memories we do have. We can't get past this by pushing it away, by distracting ourselves from reality, we can't keep this all inside. We have to get through this time of sadness by looking back on the good times, letting out our tears and helping each other through it. We have to smile, like David did.
I didn't cry today. I almost did at lunch when GM was sharing a story she had written for the swing kids' giant card. I really hate that my long term memory sucks and that I don't remember details very well. David was awesome, but I have so few memories of him... I cried when I was praying about it.
Today was purple day, for David. Everyone wore purple. Just walking through the halls you could see who was affected by David's life. Even just seeing him everyday on the bus, so many people were affected by his life.
David was only 17. He died in a car accident on the way to watch Iron Man with a couple friends. David was so young. Life is so fragile.
I actually didn't eat until 6 pm today. I woke up with like 15 minutes until school and missed breakfast. I didn't eat yesterday at work. I didn't eat lunch. I didn't feel hungry most of the time.
I feel really bad for VB. She was his swing dance partner. They were good friends. Right now she's in Arizona with her family. Her sister is there too, and she also knew David, but it's not the same as being here with everyone supporting each other. She's not getting back for about a week or something...
We got nominated for a bunch of Cappies. Including best musical, and best song (Shy). He diffinately had a part in making the show awesome. He moved chairs, he did lifts, he did terrible ballet with me, he always smiled...
David will not be forgotten. He will be in all our hearts forever, but we will get through this sadness and smile.
D.Fa
The atmosphere at school was different, but still dpressing. There was no mass of people crying at his locker. There were no announcements. There was this kind of depressing feeling around, but people were laughing now. There were still some people crying, but I think everyone went to class.
One of the things I keep thinking is how people who were closer to him must feel. I barely knew him in comparison to his closer friends. I knew him by name and as an aquaintance for a few years, but I never had a class with him, I never went over to his house, I never randomly spent an afternoon with him. I went to Stratford with him, I was in the musical with him, I saw him in the halls, but I only knew the surface of him. He was more then just a smile, more then just a swing dancer, more then just a black belt, more then just another "David". I wish I had spent more time with him while I could, we all do, but we can't cry forever.
At the same time we can't just move on by forgetting him, by repressing the memories we do have. We can't get past this by pushing it away, by distracting ourselves from reality, we can't keep this all inside. We have to get through this time of sadness by looking back on the good times, letting out our tears and helping each other through it. We have to smile, like David did.
I didn't cry today. I almost did at lunch when GM was sharing a story she had written for the swing kids' giant card. I really hate that my long term memory sucks and that I don't remember details very well. David was awesome, but I have so few memories of him... I cried when I was praying about it.
Today was purple day, for David. Everyone wore purple. Just walking through the halls you could see who was affected by David's life. Even just seeing him everyday on the bus, so many people were affected by his life.
David was only 17. He died in a car accident on the way to watch Iron Man with a couple friends. David was so young. Life is so fragile.
I actually didn't eat until 6 pm today. I woke up with like 15 minutes until school and missed breakfast. I didn't eat yesterday at work. I didn't eat lunch. I didn't feel hungry most of the time.
I feel really bad for VB. She was his swing dance partner. They were good friends. Right now she's in Arizona with her family. Her sister is there too, and she also knew David, but it's not the same as being here with everyone supporting each other. She's not getting back for about a week or something...
We got nominated for a bunch of Cappies. Including best musical, and best song (Shy). He diffinately had a part in making the show awesome. He moved chairs, he did lifts, he did terrible ballet with me, he always smiled...
David will not be forgotten. He will be in all our hearts forever, but we will get through this sadness and smile.
D.Fa
10.5.10
A River of Tears
So. Ya...
As you know I was in Chicago until yesterday at about 11:35 am. Around 12:30 I read my emails. One of them was an invitation to a facebook group. The group was "R.I.P. David Stringer." I read this thinking it was some sort of horrible joke and then clicked on the link to the group. I just couldn't believe it even after reading the comments and the vague newspaper article. I just couldn't comprehend that anyone our age could be alive one day and dead the next...
I suppose I repressed it because I had to study for the two tests that I had to write today...
When I woke up I crammed for my first period test and got to school just before the bell. I greeted JA cheerfully and talked to AL as I normally would, but neither responded as they normally would... When I got to class (waiting outside the door as usual for Mr. GG) I saw AP. She had watery red eyes. Then it hit me. David must be...
When we got in the class Mr. GG explained that although he didn't know David he knew that our class would be greatly affected. He postponed the test until later this week and let us do whatever we wanted to do for the period, wether it was talking, studying or leaving the class.
I talked with AP for a bit and copied the note from Friday. AP had left by now. I left thinking I should use this time to renew my library books for my physics project and study for the test. I got my books and stuff and was heading to the library.
When I turned the corner into the A-wing I saw it, everyone was gathered around David's locker giving speeches and crying. There were flowers, a candle, his costume, pictures, signatures, a yo-yo, Final Fantasy cards, among other things... I stood there for a few minutes then realized I should put my books away. When I got back it was the same... people crying, hugging, and a general silence over the many people...
Period 2 started. I couldn't stop crying... tears just kept pouring out of my eyes... and when I cry I can't talk, and once I can talk I start crying as I talk... so I couldn't really respond to anyone very well...
Near the end of period two I had run out of tears... I still felt like I needed to cry, but I couldn't... There was now a justice league of america poster with signatures, an iron man mask, a nerf gun, the mistrel's stick, more flowers, and a signed package of cappies reviews.
I went to get my lunch and when I returned I didn't eat it... just an apple.
I went to physics. It was postponed until tommorow.
I went to calculus and we listened to kpop on veoh. mostly sad songs though. Mr. JP wanted to listen to some of his songs after listening to ours, but they weren't available on veoh... xP...
After class I went to pack my bag and renew my books. Everyone was crying again... I felt bad about going to classes when other people were crying at his locker...
I had to go to band and then work... I've been thinking almost about nothing other then him... i had work from 4-10 and couldn't think of anything but him... but i couldn't cry...
David was an awesome person. He was always smiling and was always surrounded by friends... TT.TT He was a swing dancer. He was in the musical. He was cast for the One Acts. We will miss him and all the great times we had with him. I wish I could have known him better.
He was apparently Christian, went to YF, and he was an awesome guy, so he should be in heaven now. I prayed for him a few times and will pray for him a few more times as well as for everyone who is mourning his death.
We will all get through this together and never forget the great times we had with him.
David Stringer R.I.P.
D.Fa
As you know I was in Chicago until yesterday at about 11:35 am. Around 12:30 I read my emails. One of them was an invitation to a facebook group. The group was "R.I.P. David Stringer." I read this thinking it was some sort of horrible joke and then clicked on the link to the group. I just couldn't believe it even after reading the comments and the vague newspaper article. I just couldn't comprehend that anyone our age could be alive one day and dead the next...
I suppose I repressed it because I had to study for the two tests that I had to write today...
When I woke up I crammed for my first period test and got to school just before the bell. I greeted JA cheerfully and talked to AL as I normally would, but neither responded as they normally would... When I got to class (waiting outside the door as usual for Mr. GG) I saw AP. She had watery red eyes. Then it hit me. David must be...
When we got in the class Mr. GG explained that although he didn't know David he knew that our class would be greatly affected. He postponed the test until later this week and let us do whatever we wanted to do for the period, wether it was talking, studying or leaving the class.
I talked with AP for a bit and copied the note from Friday. AP had left by now. I left thinking I should use this time to renew my library books for my physics project and study for the test. I got my books and stuff and was heading to the library.
When I turned the corner into the A-wing I saw it, everyone was gathered around David's locker giving speeches and crying. There were flowers, a candle, his costume, pictures, signatures, a yo-yo, Final Fantasy cards, among other things... I stood there for a few minutes then realized I should put my books away. When I got back it was the same... people crying, hugging, and a general silence over the many people...
Period 2 started. I couldn't stop crying... tears just kept pouring out of my eyes... and when I cry I can't talk, and once I can talk I start crying as I talk... so I couldn't really respond to anyone very well...
Near the end of period two I had run out of tears... I still felt like I needed to cry, but I couldn't... There was now a justice league of america poster with signatures, an iron man mask, a nerf gun, the mistrel's stick, more flowers, and a signed package of cappies reviews.
I went to get my lunch and when I returned I didn't eat it... just an apple.
I went to physics. It was postponed until tommorow.
I went to calculus and we listened to kpop on veoh. mostly sad songs though. Mr. JP wanted to listen to some of his songs after listening to ours, but they weren't available on veoh... xP...
After class I went to pack my bag and renew my books. Everyone was crying again... I felt bad about going to classes when other people were crying at his locker...
I had to go to band and then work... I've been thinking almost about nothing other then him... i had work from 4-10 and couldn't think of anything but him... but i couldn't cry...
David was an awesome person. He was always smiling and was always surrounded by friends... TT.TT He was a swing dancer. He was in the musical. He was cast for the One Acts. We will miss him and all the great times we had with him. I wish I could have known him better.
He was apparently Christian, went to YF, and he was an awesome guy, so he should be in heaven now. I prayed for him a few times and will pray for him a few more times as well as for everyone who is mourning his death.
We will all get through this together and never forget the great times we had with him.
David Stringer R.I.P.
D.Fa
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